A wall is a continious vertical structure, often built to enclosure things.
People often live between four walls.
These walls are there to comfort and protect
against animals, or other people.
People who are welcome, can get in trough a door.
Because of these walls, we feel safe.
Because no one can get to anything inside
To anything that is important to you.
Which is good.
I once felt so vulnerable, I thought I needed my own four walls.
I started building walls around my heart - and, especially - my mind.
My thought were kind of dark those days, and I didn’t want anyone to know.
These walls made me feel safe.
They protected my thought and feelings, so no one could touch those.
It was good.
Houses are made to live in. So was mine.
I started living in my own mind
- but, my mind was dark, remember?
I felt safe there, so I thought it was good.
While building my walls, I forgot one, very important thing.
The door.
I locked myself in - and also, locked everyone out.
Usually, we are in control of who we let inside.
Usually, we are in control of where we go.
I was not.
I could not, because I could not find the door.
If we stay inside for too long, it’ll drive us crazy. It drove me crazy.
Which was not good.
It took me a long time, because I had to break down my walls in order to get out.
Because of that, I had to release all of my thoughts and had to expose my heart.
And yes, some people made misusage of that.
Fortunately, it did not stop me. I had to get out.
Right now, I have a door.
It makes it possible for me to visit other places.
It makes it possible for me, to let people in. People who I trust.
I still have got some walls, because it is still important to protect yourself.
To not let everyone get inside.
But, I have a door. And I let people in.
The door also makes it possible for dark thoughts to leave.
I don’t want them anymore.
I kick them out.
I’m in control again - and thats really, really good
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