꒰ HAYDEN ꒱

♡ hayden 17 he/him trans ♡

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🦇 . . . ꒰ hayden \ he/him \ 17 ꒱

⁺　. trans masc 🫀 bisexual ⋆｡˚ ⋆

🖤 depression, anxiety, adhd · .

goth/alt 彡 single ꩜ dms open ︵

‎ ˚˖ ‧ ﹕ hypersexual ◟ chronically ill ˎˊ˗

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trans ramble 🏳️‍⚧️

i’m ftm and i’ve had experience with being cis passing and not passing. when i was 16 i was very masc and had a lot of dysphoria around being in any way feminine. then due to circumstances i went through i began hating myself intensely and couldn’t stand who i was. due to this i grew my hair out and started dressing more feminine because before every time i looked in the mirror i saw someone who i hated. despite hating myself and my actions, not my trans identity, what happened during that time has drastically how i present.

i turn 18 in 3 weeks and it’s very confusing, one part of me likes presenting fem due to not being so scared to be out in public and the positive attention i receive. but at the same time i miss how well i passed and i have tried cutting my hair short and presenting like that and the memories creep it.

this has become a bit of a vent but i’m not trying for it to be i’ve never heard someone with a similar experience.

ps sorry if my grammar is shit it’s 2am

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hello !! i really like your theme, purple is a very pretty color and your theme is very simple but in a good way! i just wanted to stop by to say that, teehee

scuttles away

awwwh thank you so much i’m glad you like my design, i didn’t put much effort into it so that’s why it’s pretty simple. i hope your having a good day :)

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side job ? .ೃ࿐

i ordered some hama/perler beads earlier today which i used to be obsessed with when i was younger. i’ve got a plan to make certain designs with them and sell them on etsy to make a little money. it will probably gain no attention though and flop but at least it will give me a new hobby and something to do other than bedrotting, although won’t be great for my A level revision. some people already sell hama bead designs on etsy so at least i won’t be the only person… i need to figure out what designs i’m gonna make.

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my antipsychotics are kicking in and i’m getting sleepy, i wish i could cuddle with someone and fall asleep… i feel really lonely although i’m not and 90% percent of the time i push people away because of my own emotions. i miss my relationship with my ex boyfriend when he wasn’t abusing me. i miss a lot of people and it makes me sad. i wish i could just be someone’s pet who they don’t treat badly.

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. ° .• i love bunnies so much <3

i wish i could be a bunny, life would probably be a lot easier. i have a black jelly cat bunny plushie and a hoodie i bought from minga london which has bunny ears on them. i’ve been looking on etsy about buying bunny ears and a tail. although if i’m serious about buying them it’s pretty expensive so i’m gonna have to start saving up for them. :(

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ཻུ♡ ͎. ｡˚ ° Longer intro post !!

i’m hayden i’m a trans boy and my pronouns are he/him. i’m bisexual although my sexuality fluctuates and i’m more into men than women. i’m 17 and i’m turning 18 soon which i’m a bit nervous about. i’m from the uk.

i’ve struggled with my mental health a lot since i was younger. i was abused heavily as a child and have been diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder, generalised anxiety disorder and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder. i have suspected borderline personality disorder but can’t be diagnosed with it due to my age. i also struggle with restricted eating but i don’t want to talk to professionals about it so i am not diagnosed with anorexia

as a result of this i’ve struggled with relationships a lot. i have an off and on relationship with my ex boyfriend who was emotionally and sexually abusive. i have attachment issues and hypersexuality due to abandonment in my past.

i have coeliac disease, pots, chronic fatigue and asthma. i’m very used to hospitals by now and have stayed in hospital for periods of time due to physical and mental health issues. i’m on antidepressants, antipsychotics and beta blockers.

i’ve been dressing quite alternative / goth for multiple years now and love the community + the music. i listen to goth + emo + electronic music. i’m currently obsessed with ethel cain (southern gothic my love)

i am very artistic and love writing, reading, drawing, music and acting although i can be pretty introverted sometimes. i love my hero academia, deadly class, skins, heated rivalry, spider man, heartstopper, call me by your name, the goldfinch, euphoria, twilight, american horror story, the virgin suicides and others

i love bunnies they are my favourite animal, i love bunny kemonominis and i want to save up the money and dress like one in the future <3

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hi !!👀👀👀

hiii <33