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20 • shows and books and stuff

[gabbadabbad00]

hihi

my storygraph

cr: lecture notes

cw: the pitt, dtf sl

#[ reminders ] - real inspirational stuff here

#[ books ] - litch anything ab any book? trying to make this tag not super spoilery but beware

trying to do sort of reading journals tagged [ rj: book title> ]??? i wanna come back to my thoughts other than what i've annotated on the page

i HATE being spoiled so i'll try to tag them appropriately - not everything but anything too specific

[luck-system-shenanigans]

i feel like im a weird age where i got just a blurry glimpse at the world Before. it used to be cold in the mornings and websites had fun games and the search results showed you what you searched for. covid wasn't a thing. can anybody fucking hear me. did i dream it all????

[valtsv]

i really do think that "let me in" is the most potently horrifying phrase ever conceived of. just let me in. that's all you have to do. just invite me inside. show me kindness. trust me. all you have to do is say yes. all you have to do is open the door. the rest is up to me. but you can trust me. have faith. you wouldn't leave me out here. you wouldn't turn away. not you. you aren't cruel. you're a good person. i can see that. i need your help. that's why i'm asking this of you. just let me in. let me in. let me in let me in letmeinletmeinletmein LET ME IN

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

immortality as theft (you have to steal life from something else) immortality as parasitism (there is something else inside You that is keeping you alive and you become less of yourself more and more the longer it stays in you) immortality as violence (everything is trying to kill you because everything is supposed to die and the universe will always try to find a way to right the wrong that is You) you understand

[ninewheels]

#at least once a month I think about that one post about laminating a paper towel#and how that makes it immortal but also forever prevents it from fulfilling its true purpose#yes you will live. but at the cost of everything that makes you You

(courtesy of noknowshame)

[torchwood-99]

"I love you but you're doing wrong in a way I cannot condone" and "I hate you but you're being wronged in a way I cannot stomach" are top tier and I need more of them.

[kraniumet]

meet cute: it's raining and I see your battered bleeding body lying in the mud and I kick it slightly to see if you're dead

[sabertoothwalrus]

I hate the videoification of everything. If I have to hear one more video of someone speaking closely into their shitty mic and I have to have all their yucky wet mouth noises and plosives and nose whistles and throat clearings and sniffles I am going to dig a vertical hole the exact dimensions of my body and I’m going to slither in head first

[chilewithcarnage]

'the masculine urge to/ the feminine urge to'

[2colde]

they are poisoning us today with a thursday poison little do they know we’ve been through a few thursday poisonings so it won’t kill us just yet

[alexinmotion]

SO MUCH PINK I EVEN GOT ON PINK DRAWLS

[gabbadabbad00]

( PINK DRAWLSSS!! )

[loveridden1999]

top 3 hobbies for young adults:

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

3. agonizing over the present

[achillesinhighheels]

sorry i never replied. everyday is blending together and i'm losing sense of time

[gabbadabbad00]

there are two wolves inside me

[gabbadabbad00]

ok so what do u call it when u just wanna leave yes i am avoidant but its beyond that like i try to live like a person planning to stay and i just want to leave what is that i haven't been diagnosed with anything but its like in middle school when u realize u have to keep doing all this for the rest of ur life but im not sad about it just annoyed at or indifferent towards so much and im not crazy this is not my fault none of this should be the way it is i'm not going to do anything and i wanna see the next album my new fav artist releases i wanna read all my books i wanna watch all the shows i wanna eat all the sweet treats but im in a constant state of like none of this is worth it and i never look back glad i did anything i just feel like ok thats nice onto the next

[aslongasitsblack]

ilya responds to ig q&a questions that say ‘whats it like to be a fucking f*ggot?’ with a picture of shane in a backwards cap and a white tshirt casually lifting the hem to wipe his mouth with one hand so his abs are exposed while he’s holding ilyas hand with the other, with the text ‘VERY AWESOME 😍👍’

[wifegideonnav]

“bits to use in everyday conversations”

[sashayed]

has anyone figured out how to turn off the thing where you love your pet so much it slides inexorably into grief-borrowing

[boomstab-papa]

[your-cosmic-creature]

“For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”