emotionally unavailable • fuck jkr

You know that I love you And I have a feeling that you love me back We're sat in my bedroom And I hear your heart like a train on the tracks Your eyes are like Heaven, your voice is like rain 11:11s, they all hear your name I'm too shy to tell you the words on my mind I hope you can see if you read through these lines

[misgenderisms-deactivated202010]

Let trans men be as feminine or as masculine as they want

[likealittleraccoonthing]

also let trans women be as masculine or feminine as they want

[lo1bits]

also let enbies be as masculine or feminine as they want

[laciffo-natas]

also let people look however the fuck they want

[wowza8]

Different.

Growing up, Marlene wondered if the other girls knew something she didn’t. Something she just wasn’t doing right. Something she desperately wanted to know.

At first she chalked it up to spending most of her childhood with James and Peter. They would squirm when they talked about the witches on chocolate frog cards or that one girl working at the village library who gave them sweets if they were quiet.

Marlene would squirm right along with them. It made sense to didn’t it? Those were just squirmy things.

Apparently not at Hogwarts. For all the things about her friends she found positively wonderful there was one she could not understand—why Mary and Alice would giggle and nudge each other when guys approached them in the common room.

Why all of a sudden Lily would flush slightly when James spoke to her. Why Emmeline had a poster of a shirtless Quidditch player in her dorm and why everyone wanted to see it.

It wasn’t like Marlene was stupid. She knew her friends found these boys fit, Marlene could see it too, she had eyes. Then why wasn’t she all squirmy too?

Once she explained as much, Lily gave her a weirdly knowing look, she said it was okay to be different. But, Marlene wasn’t different… right?

By the time fourth year rolled around Marlene had all but accepted the contrary. The moment she found herself pressed up behind the Broom Sheds with Hufflepuff chaser Charity Burbage, she decided ‘different’ really wasn’t so bad.

Now came the ordeal of explaining this to her friends.

She figured the most reasonable way was to rip off the band-aid in one go, so on her birthday, just drunk enough to have the nerve, she announced brashly to no one in particular, “I don’t fancy blokes, any of them… Quite partial to tits though”.

For a moment there was silence. And every doubt she ever had came rushing back into her blood like an opened floodgate before:

“Hear hear!”,

“And a unicorn shits in the woods”,

“Oh, finally!”,

They all laughed and punched her shoulders and rolled their eyes, and Marlene was confused.

“What, you mean to tell me you all knew?”, she spluttered as everyone resumed chatting and drinking like nothing was amiss.

“Me and Wormy’ve known you since we were literal babies, mate”, James chuckled, “Course’ we know you’re into birds—remember that muggle girl from the shops? You used to turn beet red if she even looked at you!”.

Immediately a round of hoots rung out, “Ooooh who’s that, Marls?”, Mary slung an arm around her and waggled her brows.

Then, as if it was free game, everyone began teasing her about, ‘Lucy from Charms’ or ‘that Ravenclaw prefect last year’ or ‘Dorcas Meadowes?!’

She whacked Sirius with a roll of parchment for that one. But she found she couldn’t be too bothered by it at the moment. Because for the first time she could remember, she didn’t feel all too different at all.

[anything-for-my-moons]

james is one of the kindest yet one of the cruelest people you will ever meet

[unqflunq4]

August Fic Wrap Up <3

Mastermind by pieceofchocolate [rated M], 360k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar. politicians au, angst, smut, fluff, MCD tag, so good i sobbed.

When You Were Mine by sequinhaze [rated M], 235k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, peter/sybil, trans!peter, muggle au, past jegulus/endgame jegulus, flashbacks, walburga is the worst, angst, fluff, slow burn, lily evans bashing (not condoned but worked here)

Letters to Lily by inthemiddleofit [rated M], 136k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, rosekiller, marylily, university au, fluff & angst, black brothers angst, mutual pining, reg & lily friendship.

Sugar High by ivycore, [rated E] 161k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, marylily, dorlene, philanthropist james/sex worker regulus, smut, fluff, angst.

Meet Me On Telegraph Avenue by ani_wahstan [rated E], 34k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, muggle au, angst, fluff & smut, james is a fuckboy until he's in love, US James & Remus, UK Sirius & Regulus.

Love at First Lobby by LLSWrites [rated T] 83k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, marylily, dorlene & rosekiller, streamer au, bigger focus on the black brothers relationship, moonwater friendship, lily & regulus friendship, angst & fluff.

All My Theory Complete by courfee [rated M] 166k, canon divergence au, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, slow burn, fluff, angst with a happy ending.

100% my type on parchment by lmaohereiam [rated M], 92k, love island au, multishipping, endgame jegulus, rosekiller, wolfstar, marylily, dorlene & alice/frank, rosier twins.

LOVESICK LULLABY by torturedpoetsdpt [rated E] 48k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar & rosekiller, university au, fluff, past jily, texting fic.

Pretty Boy by reggiesstar [rated T] 100k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar, marylily, dorlene & peter/sybil, sports uni au, enemies to lovers, angst, fluff with a happy ending

What If I Told You I Feel Like I Know You by knowitsforthebetter [rated M] 96k, Jegulus, bg wolfstar & marylily, no voldy au, reg is the potions professor, harry in first year, past jegulus - endgame jegulus, angst with a happy ending, black brothers angst.

Comfortably Numb by littlelous [rated M] 113k, main ships: jegulus, wolfstar & dorlene, mainly just fluff, so happy, canon divergence, getting together in hogwarts au, happy ending, everyone has a pov.

[cryingoverdeadgaywizzards]

My favorite Jegulus fics in no particular order because I have many opinions and feel the need to voice them all‼️

(Keep in mind that these are not summaries so if you don’t know the plots to any of these, this post probably won’t be of much help. This is just me rambling about my experiencing reading them and how much I loved them)

1. Art heist, baby!

Fun fact this was actually my first marauders era fic ever. This will always be favorite Jegulus because their dynamic is exactly what love is to me. Everything about them is just so beautiful. I also love this fic because everything about it is just so iconic. The red and green shutters, the pink sticky note, the orange muffins, every single painting they mention. It’s all so distinctly part of the fandom. Art heist baby just has this unmatchable energy and the characters all felt like such a family (i especially loved Barty, Evan, and Regulus because of this) They all found each other for this short but beautiful part of their lives which they got to spend together accomplishing this incredible task and I just think that’s so wonderful. I love art heist baby so much.

2. Grow old together just to pass the time

I read this in one sitting and it literally changed my life. Also the author (meremythos) is my tumblr pal so if you’re seeing this, I loved your fic so muchhh! This Jegulus is the most accurate characterization of them to how I imagine them that I’ve ever read. They hold each other up and their lives are just so intertwined that you can barely tell who is who in the tangle. Like, they have their own support systems but they need each other. They just need each other. This fic is what comes to mind when I hear the term soulmates. James and regulus were made for each other in it. The whole things is so well written and moved me so much emotionally. And somehow, through all of this beautiful and poetic writing, mixed with it’s heartbreaking angst, it manages to be absolutely HILARIOUS. Nothing but good things to say about this fic. Wish I could read it for the first time again.

3. The Long Game

This fic changed how I look at Jegulus forever. Imagining them as these very real people and what they would’ve been doing if they had gotten the opportunity to just be normal teenagers SHATTERED ME. And the whole thing is just so charming and funny. The dynamics between all of the characters are hilarious and I genuinely loved all of them. They felt so real. It is THE muggle highschool au. Everything about it was just so engaging and I absolutely loved every moment of it. I felt so immersed in this fic and it made Jegulus feel so REAL.

4. Borrow my name

Read it in one go and I have never cried over a fic so much in my life. Which is especially impressive because the fic is relatively short compared to other works in the marauders fandom (*cough cough* all the young dudes, crimson rivers, tcoptp, choices, etc) The way it explained Regulus’ view of love is so interesting and also really realistic. Also this is gonna sound silly but the way he thinks of it reminds me of that song they play in Shrek that goes “then I saw her face! Now I’m a believer” (I forget what it’s called) James being so happy go lucky all the time whilst simultaneously being in the trenches and wanting the lord to take him was very true to how I imagine him also. Their relationship just felt so raw and real. They’re so messy in this. This fic smashed my heart into a million pieces and I would do it all over again for that ending. Truly can’t put into words how much this fic impacted me emotionally.

5. I adored you madly, extravagantly, absurdly

This fic literally stopped me from reading other fics for a week because it felt like I was cheating on it. I was literally too emotionally attached to move on. Regulus and James are SO in love in this fic it’s genuinely insane. My favorite part of this fic though would probably be the rosekiller and Wolfstar. The background relationships both have their own arcs and they’re SO well written that I sometimes forgot it was mainly a Jegulus fic. I was fully invested in what was happening with every single character in this story. Also special shout out to Sirius in this fic. He’s so perfectly selfish but also so loving towards the people he cares about. The way he treats Remus shows how absolutely WHIPPED he is, but also how cruel he can be towards people who hold power over him. Also, the author put so much research into the fic (it takes place in the Victorian era) and you can so clearly tell by the writing. Everything is just handled so well and the author is so educated on everything, while still telling an entertaining fictional story. Regulus is trans in this fic and the author puts SO MUCH research into how that could’ve been possible in that time period that I was in genuine awe of them. The passion that went into writing it was so clear and I love it so dearly.

[maladaptivewriting]

the worst thing about the jegulus fandom is that there are only like five fics people will recommend so if you’re looking for something new to read, you’re really going to struggle

[uhhlifeig]

my time has come *cracks fingers*

fluff:

longfics: Falls, fighting the inevitable, Snakes and Lions, How Far Are You Willing To Go?, Back To The Old House, Frozen Pines, do what you want, just don't go dark on me, Soil Falling Over My Head, Jealousy, jealousy, Turned Tides, whatever our souls are made of

angst: Night in the Corridor, And running to nowhere, pity that tomorrow all life will be a day shorter, Orchids and Sunflowers, anyway, don't be a stranger, sometimes forever isn't always (beware for dark themes and mcd)

muggle au (longfics and also not): Mistigris, Red Carpet, An Author's Plea, in the end, it's the beginning, Teach Them How To Dream, Meet on Telegraph Avenue, absent mindedly making me want you, Ask away, in the fires of our youth (oh, brother of mine)

hurt/comfort: Lead Me Into the Light, second chances, It was rare, I was there, I remember it, sometimes it’s easier to be invisible, En Avant, High Infidelity

oneshots (in general, so could be fluff or angst or hurt/comfort or an au): nothing more than a star, If We Have Each Other, In The Stars, as the world caves in, words upon my skin, As If Through Water

[redstonedust]

i need crossword puzzles to stop giving me sports clues. dont ask me about football stars and nba championships and baseball team names. im the kind of nerd who chooses to do crossword puzzles why would you expect this of me. cruel and unusual.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Also people being obsessed with Greek mythology as kids wasn’t invented by Percy Jackson. My dad read the Iliad and the odyssey in high school because one of his friends was super obsessed with Ancient Greek lit and he was like “well I can’t let him be smarter and more well read than I am I’ve gotta catch up”

[wereokarentwemoony]

Kaz “touch me and you die” Brekker really transcends the game

[rabbits-of-negative-euphoria]

if they're gonna remake The Princess Bride, it should open with a kid sick in bed scrolling on his phone. his grandpa arrives with a gift--it's a DVD player with a disc already inside. grandpa hooks it up to the TV and presses play. and we all just watch the original 1987 film again.

[wowza8]

Different.

Growing up, Marlene wondered if the other girls knew something she didn’t. Something she just wasn’t doing right. Something she desperately wanted to know.

At first she chalked it up to spending most of her childhood with James and Peter. They would squirm when they talked about the witches on chocolate frog cards or that one girl working at the village library who gave them sweets if they were quiet.

Marlene would squirm right along with them. It made sense to didn’t it? Those were just squirmy things.

Apparently not at Hogwarts. For all the things about her friends she found positively wonderful there was one she could not understand—why Mary and Alice would giggle and nudge each other when guys approached them in the common room.

Why all of a sudden Lily would flush slightly when James spoke to her. Why Emmeline had a poster of a shirtless Quidditch player in her dorm and why everyone wanted to see it.

It wasn’t like Marlene was stupid. She knew her friends found these boys fit, Marlene could see it too, she had eyes. Then why wasn’t she all squirmy too?

Once she explained as much, Lily gave her a weirdly knowing look, she said it was okay to be different. But, Marlene wasn’t different… right?

By the time fourth year rolled around Marlene had all but accepted the contrary. The moment she found herself pressed up behind the Broom Sheds with Hufflepuff chaser Charity Burbage, she decided ‘different’ really wasn’t so bad.

Now came the ordeal of explaining this to her friends.

She figured the most reasonable way was to rip off the band-aid in one go, so on her birthday, just drunk enough to have the nerve, she announced brashly to no one in particular, “I don’t fancy blokes, any of them… Quite partial to tits though”.

For a moment there was silence. And every doubt she ever had came rushing back into her blood like an opened floodgate before:

“Hear hear!”,

“And a unicorn shits in the woods”,

“Oh, finally!”,

They all laughed and punched her shoulders and rolled their eyes, and Marlene was confused.

“What, you mean to tell me you all knew?”, she spluttered as everyone resumed chatting and drinking like nothing was amiss.

“Me and Wormy’ve known you since we were literal babies, mate”, James chuckled, “Course’ we know you’re into birds—remember that muggle girl from the shops? You used to turn beet red if she even looked at you!”.

Immediately a round of hoots rung out, “Ooooh who’s that, Marls?”, Mary slung an arm around her and waggled her brows.

Then, as if it was free game, everyone began teasing her about, ‘Lucy from Charms’ or ‘that Ravenclaw prefect last year’ or ‘Dorcas Meadowes?!’

She whacked Sirius with a roll of parchment for that one. But she found she couldn’t be too bothered by it at the moment. Because for the first time she could remember, she didn’t feel all too different at all.

[sodann]

Sappy wolfstar my beloveds

[what-even-is-thiss]

So I don’t play the sims super often so I didn’t know that evil sims can do an “evil workout” which seems to just be a normal workout except sometimes they pause to laugh maniacally.

[redstonedust]

i like when a piece of media says that an all-powerful character "sees humans as insects" because that really could mean a lot of things. maybe they view us as insignifigant and will squish us under their boot. maybe theyre actually studying and cataloguing us for their thesis paper. maybe theyre campaigning for human protection because we're an important part of their ecosystem. maybe they see a human and go "ew ew ewwwwww someone get the cup and get that FREAK out of my house." .

[dovesirius]

sirius black could have the attention of an entire room and he'd still be looking to see if remus laughed

[mydearestmoonyy]

sirius’s ear piercings are always getting infected because he refuses to follow the instructions about not sleeping on them. he’d rather deal with an infected ear than give up sleeping on remus’s chest

[what-even-is-thiss]

“Your pets only love you because you feed them”

Yeah well that’s also how your relationship with your parents starts out but more stuff happens after that doesn’t it