this is the train to faggot central

it/its, system/repost junk sideblog for weirdopositive

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

hallo this is @weirdopositive on a sideblog

we use seren as a blanket term, we dont use a system name, everyone is ok with it/its

this account is 18+ only we are an adult who posts about adult things including but not limited to employment, sex drugs AND rock and roll, trauma vents, and other boring grown-up topics, like the weather. this account will not have the same light tone as weirdopositive and it is likely more parts will use this one

we are suspected plural and use the terms associated because it makes our life easier. as a result of no diagnosis, we are comfier with saying plural. other than that we have fnd, ptsd, severe depression, autism, dyspraxia. we struggle with substance use. these topics will come up so be warned !

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

still can't believe i saw zero percent live debut And Also This Shit with my own eyes. gerard way i love you five-ever

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

being someone who gets the worst on weed and is fine with everything else sucks. at the function like Do i want a puff? Ohhh no sorry this is what i do to chill. (Rips fat line of ket) U can have some if u want

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

guess whose "best friend" is selling its mcr ticket over a falling out that wasnt even its fault (it bought a bass off them and they refused to hand it over) 👍👍 after waiting a year to go 👍👍👍👍 Ok ok ok ok ok

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

my manager keeps cutting my hours seemingly not realising 18 ≠ student and i'm a grown adult with rent to pay who can't rely on their parents financially. atp i need to set up a gofundme or some shit (although id hate it) because i have £12 to last me til friday and £4 of that has to go on a bus ticket to my shift tomorrow. i have £8 to feed myself with for 5 days.

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

thinking about how i learned i was (mildly!) blue-yellow colourblind at 18, after years of being an artist and someone who has repeatedly dyed their hair colours on that spectrum, because i couldn't tell what colour my lover's tattoo was ?!

she said it was blue. it's a very faded green to me. she then proceeded to point out various things in the room that just came up as ... a missingno of a colour for me.

when i wouldn't believe her she made me take a colourblindness test. sure enough. blue-yellow colourblind.

you'll never guess what my favourite colour is btw

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

a little lazy doodling about childhood trauma and drug usage

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

in case anybody's wondering how it's all going, i had a dream last night that i had a full-time job with good pay and a stable living situation, and then i realised it was a dream whilst i was sleeping because there's no goddamn way, and promptly woke up.

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

the idea of people being transptsd/transharmed really bothers me . like i'm anti rq but i'm ESPECIALLY anti that . i'm going grey at 18 and my nervous system stopped working because of my trauma which is making it borderline impossible for me to hold a job . but i'm really glad larping flashbacks from getting beat or raped or neglected or bullied gives you guys "transid euphoria" (sarcasm)

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

i miss my lover . i have over 700 photos of her that i hope to one day compile into a big big photo album . she is my muse and my darling and she requires i present her with a crown if i propose to her . i love her more than life itself

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

had a seizure in public today, completely by myself and on a day i trusted myself to not use my wheelchair. two very nice ladies booked me an uber, called my lover because my phone was dead, and actually listened when they were told not to call an ambulance because functional seizures can't be helped. they also got me some ice cold water because it was 37 degrees out. made me a very happy boy !

[fontainians]

(Saw Voice) Hello, endogenic plural. You don’t know me, but I know you. I want to play a game. Infront of you is a computer. You have 5 minutes to type a detailed definition of what the word “endophobia” actually means. If your definition involves “sysmeds”, anti endos, or the version of the useful term that you stole, I will personally come into your head and remove every single endogenic headmate of yours and whatever neurological process helps you in making more, making you a singlet.

[gaycousinarchmybackula]

how it feels to be a plural who doesnt use pluralkit/tupper, system tracking apps, has no internal communication, no in-sys relationships, no fictives, no headspace, no gatekeeper, no well defined roles, and is well aware the parts that are aware of each other do not like each other whatsoever based solely off actions