[ content: crazy!reader, fluff (?), rage baiting sukuna, #makehispocketshurt, for my cutie pie @indiewritesxoxo think of this as a love letter ]
Most people never understood your relationship with Sukuna.
For the most part, you were a friendly, upbeat personâtalking to strangers in line at the grocery store, talking up the baristas making your coffee orders, sharing recipes with call center agents when the call got too long.
Then thereâs the big grumpy man thatâs always standing right behind you, and he never fails to look miserable when doing so. Strangers will try to speak to him and heâll either grunt in response or just pretend to not hear them at all. Same goes for baristas. The last time he spoke with customer service through the phone, the agent started the call off by saying they hoped he was having a good day so farâSukuna got annoyed and grumbled, âno you fucking donât,â in hopes that theyâd stop with the pleasantries.
Overall, heâs just kind of a dick. They look at you and immediately think of some horrific scenario like Sukuna yelling at you for not having dinner done by the time he got home.
That brings them to the question: how do you two even get along?
And your answer to that is: you kinda don't.
But that's okay! You knew what you were signing up for and you don't regret it one bit. You love him, and you love making him angry. It's so easy, too. Who needs therapy when you can just stress him out? Exactly.
So you sent the text.
[You]: are you fucking serious right now? i had to find out from HER?
[My Husband đ„°]: what are you talking about?
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
[My Husband đ„°]: babe pick up the phone
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
[My Husband đ„°]: what the fuck are you even talking about? find out WHAT???
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
[My Husband đ„°]: BABE
[My Husband đ„°]: PICK UP THE FUCKING PHONE
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
Missed call from My Husband đ„°
The only reason why the phone calls stopped was because you blocked him, but he wouldâve kept calling until his phone died. Itâs happened before.
Soon you get a Zelle notification.
R. Sukuna has sent you $200.00.
Memo: unblock me.
You sent R. Sukuna $20.00.
Memo: you can keep your fucking money
R. Sukuna has sent you $20.00.
Memo: you canât just tell me to keep my money but then pocket more than half of it. and what the fuck am i gonna do with 20 dollars??
You sent R. Sukuna $2.00.
Memo: and now you have 2, see what happens when you donât appreciate what you have?
R. Sukuna has sent you $2.00.
Memo: what the fuck does that even mean?? can you just unblock me already?
You sent R. Sukuna $0.50.
Memo: no
R. Sukuna has sent you $100.00.
Memo: JESUS FUCKJNGCHRIST UNBLOCK ME
You sent R. Sukuna $0.01.
Memo: NO
You sent R. Sukuna $0.01.
Memo: weâre out of sugar and creamer btw donât forget to grab some on your way home
It's simple really, you hate how much of a man slut Sukuna is and he hates how much of a spoiled stuck up rich girl you are. Well that is until you're paired up for a project and he realizes his " hate" for you is really just his underlining feelings and he'll do anything to make you his. Even if it means taking you from Hiromi.
Author note: This is a written fic and a smau. I wanted to make this for my black girls specifically because lately when i read jjk smaus that include pictures it's never inclusive and thats very annoying. I shouldn't have to dig through tumblr for a smau to include different skin colors so I made one! I'll add warnings when needed as well.
Pairings: Rich Lawyer Hiromi x Rich Nerdy sorority y/n x "bully" Frat Sukuna
Including: Shoko, Yuki, Utahime, Gojo, Geto, Toji, and Choso
It's simple really, you hate how much of a man slut Sukuna is and he hates how much of a spoiled stuck up rich girl you are. Well that is until you're paired up for a project and he realizes his " hate" for you is really just his underlining feelings and he'll do anything to make you his. Even if it means taking you from Hiromi.
It's simple really, you hate how much of a man slut Sukuna is and he hates how much of a spoiled stuck up rich girl you are. Well that is until you're paired up for a project and he realizes his " hate" for you is really just his underlining feelings and he'll do anything to make you his. Even if it means taking you from Hiromi.
Modern sukuna! picking you up from the club after hanging out with your friends for the night.
The moment you texted him you were ready he got in the car and practically flew over to you. He could be heard coming from blocks away because of how loud his car is. It's like four in the morning and he refused to let you take an Uber home because he sat up and waited for you so he might as well come and pick you up. The moment he sees you he gets out of the car to help you in and he can absolutely smell the liquor on you. It's strong and it's fruity so he knows you had way too much to drink.
"Kunaaa! Baby I miss you sooo much."
"Mhm missed you too baby." His voice was raspy from the lack of sleep but he was more than happy to be the one to make sure you got home safe. With your shoes no where to be seen he knew it could only mean one thing. You acted a damn fool in that club. With a deep sigh he threw you over his shoulder and started walking back over to the car, listening to you giggle like a maniac.
"You had fun baby?"
"Mhm! So much fun Kuna. Next time you should come too."
â in space, no one can hear you scream. they can't hear you wake up alone in a hunk of space junk against your will. they can't hear your ship get engulfed by a much larger and very alien one.
and they certainly can't hear you fall in love with the four-armed grumpy alien you meet while you're trapped within your own ship. â
âŸâ cw ; mdni, 18+ only. strangers to lovers. slow burn. hurt/comfort. angst. fluff. smut. depictions of [likely inaccurate] science experiments. medical discussions. needles. illness. reader and sukuna can't exist in the same atmosphere. they're both huge nerds. bug discussions. mild violence. pet names [human, ange, baby]. trueform!sukuna. piv. inter-species sex. fingering. oral [f! receiving]. monsterfucking. sukuna has 2 dicks. size difference. biting. manhandling. licking. spitting/drool.
inspired heavily by project hail mary/iron lung/alien earth. mild modulo spoilers. sukuna is simurian. changed simurian lore.
âŸâ wc ; 37.9k.
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Your lashes flutter, eyes opening to sterile, controlled lighting. Lifting an arm feels like a hurdle to overcome when your muscles behave far more like limp pasta than something meant to support a full biological system. After your arm protests the very concept of movement, you flex your fingers, adjusting to the harsh whites of your surroundings.
âMovement detected.â
Blinking hard, you slowly take in your surroundings, expecting a hospital bay, only to be met with smooth white surfaces that tell a different story. Space.
It hits you like a truck and by sheer force of will, you lift an arm to your head, expecting some sort of blunt force trauma. That you must be seeing things. Rubbing your temples makes you aware of several tubes all connected to a tight white suit clinging to your skin. As you begin tugging on the tubes, many release with a hiss while others simply come loose without fanfare.
âCrew aboard: one member. Arrival imminent.â
You have to be dreaming. Hallucinating. Something.
Managing to weakly push to your feet, you stumble through the halls of the ship on a weak gait. Itâs a small vessel, with a science bay through a sealing door just outside the medical bay where you awoke, four bunks and a washroom in what you assume is sleeping quarters, and the bridge itself. Itâs small, but clearly designed for more than one crew member. Your heart drops at the thought, because thatâs when it truly comes flooding back.
Your work. The project. The disease. The creature.
Several pieces of the same puzzle, but each one troubling in its own right.
Still groggy from the induced coma, you force yourself to take a seat in the hall, grateful for what you can only assume is artificial gravity. You might have been sick if you had awoken in zero gravity.
Taking a breath as you sit in the center of a large octagonal hall, you force yourself to breathe. Long breaths, drawing each one out in an effort to keep yourself from boiling over when memories of the very thing that put you here feel fresh in spite of your ten year induced coma. It shouldnât be you here. You, some entomologist they found online for a paper suggesting beetles are smarter than people think.
You werenât even really good with people. Just bugs. You spent most of your time alone with your stag beetles, attempting to bring out the very intelligence youâd written about. You never minded being alone. Maybe itâs sad that you spoke to the beetles, but they kept you company in their own way. Yet here you are now, onboard a space ship by sheer coincidence, if it can even be called that. And itâs not the loneliness you fear.
No, youâre content to grab a marker and draw a face on one of the many white walls, call it âWilsonâ and name yourself the next Tom Hanks, even if your acting credits are undeserving.
What scares you is the narrow hallways holding you hostage in a vacuum. Once you reach the supposed âdestinationâ that the shipâs programmed voice spoke of being imminent, gravity will cut out. The ship will rely on your ability to navigate yourself through its halls and hell, even navigate the damn hunk of metal through space yourself to send the mission target back. Youâre a fucking entomologist. A bug scientist. What the hell are they hoping for from you?
With a sharp inhale, you push back up to your feet, navigating through the cramped hall until you reach the bridge. There are a number of screens and what feel like countless buttons and switches, all labeled with tape. You suppose thatâs meant to be for your convenience given that youâre no pilot, but the amount of labels is a textbook in and of itself. Frustrating.
Slipping past the second of two chairs on the bridge, your eyes are glued to the first window youâve seen. Your lips part as the marvel of space itself comes into view when you slip into the nook by the window.
Itâs beautiful. Stunning. Itâs full of twinkling stars and the far more consistent shine of distant planets. Thereâs debris of various different kinds of space rock meandering endlessly through a void. Thereâs a gorgeous mildly yellow-green planet not too far away with pink and blue accents. Its surface is probably unlike everything youâve ever seen.
Seeing a planet from space is another kind of beast. Space travel is relatively new to humanity as far as the general public is aware, and you certainly never envisioned yourself aboard a spacecraft. In another world, under other circumstances, it might even be a dream.
The nearest sun has you staring down at your fingers, wondering if the faint heat you feel might be from its rays or if youâre imagining things already, hardly a few minutes into your trip. That is, if you donât count the several years in which you were in an induced coma.
Flexing your fingers again as you stare at them, itâs not until a shadow takes away the sunâs distant rays, that you notice something incoming quickly. Your eyes widen at the sight of a ship, alien in appearance. Long, slender, dark grays in sharp and jagged angles all come together to build a ship that makes yours look not entirely unlike the very bugs you study. Very, very small. Insignificant.
âOh shit,â you gasp in wide-eyed disbelief as something straight out of a sci-fi movie moves in a line straight towards you. âOh shitâ you gasp again, racing to push yourself to your feet and clamber for the pilotâs chair as though the labels will push you into action. Paralyzed on the chair, the most you can do is skim each word in hopes that one might magically say âturn one hundred and eighty degrees and get the hell away from the giant evil-looking alien spaceshipâ.
Unfortunately, you never find that button. With your hands hovering over the controls, you find yourself watching in horror as youâre swallowed whole by the other spacecraft. âOh shit.â
Your ship is harshly jostled as all of a sudden the hull drops like a stone onto something hard and metal, screeching as it slides across what you can only assume is a bay of the other ship as you stare into the darkened corridor of the inside of an alien spacecraft. You grip the chair for purchase in an effort not to get thrown aside while your ship blares warning and lights flicker.
âOh shit,â you breathe when the lights outside your ship flick on and flood the bridge with the harsh lighting of a warehouse. There doesnât seem to be any other ships aboard if this is a bay or hangar, but it certainly looks like one⊠Though you suppose youâre basing that off of movie knowledge, which is probably stupid. Especially for a scientist at the top of your field.
Slowly descending from your chair, you approach the window in awe, staring out into the metal box. Itâs largely human, with pipes running up the walls and across the ceiling, lights in long bulbs overhead and lower lighting from small circular vent-like structures. The structure seems rougher than the smooth metals of your ship, almost as though itâs made of an unpolished mineral, with a luster that dictates something akin to quartz or obsidian, but itâs slightly off. The only thing inhuman about the entire thing is the text. Itâs not entirely unfamiliar, the sort of thing that you wager you could decipher in time, but when you spot movement at the far bay, you figure time isnât exactly on your side.
What a way to wake up after ten years.
The alien figure that approaches your ship isnât human. But⊠they arenât inhuman either. You know they arenât human, with an extra pair of limbs attached to their upper torso and an extra pair of eyes aboard a plate of some sort on the right side of their face, but otherwise the only thing inhuman about them is their massive size, standing at what must be ten feet tall.
A tight shirt clings to their upper torso, some sort of spacesuit loosely draped from their torso in an off-pink that matches their short hair. Markings line their jaw, coming up just beneath their eyes not unlike tattoos, though you canât be sure whether or not thatâs what they are. The most inhuman feature of all, however, is the blood red gaze they fix your ship with as they walk in an even, calm stride towards the door.
A creature with a calm like this is one that knows itâs powerful. Itâs the type of confidence befitting of someone who far outclasses everything theyâve ever come across and doesnât fear the beyond like you do. âOh shit!â
Itâs just about the only words you can manage as you clumsily navigate towards the small porthole of the door where the alien has deduced they may find you. Peering out the small circular window, you can only pray you arenât about to be probed or something similar.
When the alien approaches your ship with some sort of technology in-hand, you tap on the glass to get their attention. The large alienâs head rises, their brow lowering to a scowl of sorts as they examine you. This close, they look startlingly like a human man. Like the kind of man you might see in a gladiator movie given his sheer size and musculature, sure, but human enough to reason with. He speaks some sort of language, but you canât understand a word he utters.
The language is a mix of huffs, growls, clicks, and what you would otherwise consider sounds not unlike the languages found on earth. Between each noise that reminds you vaguely of an echolocation sort of noise is a very human syllable. If you were to put the syllables together without the clicking, you might even get something akin to human vocabulary.
By all accounts, this is an intimidating encounter. His gaze is sharp, almost grating in looks alone. His pupils have rings surrounding them that give him a formidable appearance. His mother tongue is so different from any language youâve ever encounteredâ human or animalâ that the only thing you even can compare it to are films. Some part of you is wired to expect a Xenomorph to uncurl from wires and silently drop to the ground, acidic saliva dripping from its mouth, and yet the man remains still, awaiting your reply before he answers in kind.
Maybe itâs your poor instinct for danger, but youâre far more intrigued than you are concerned.
âUhâ Hello!â You attempt to reply in an effort to keep the peace, further perplexing the alien whose eyes narrow. Your heart pounds behind your rib cage as you give your best effort to not get eaten. Or examined. Or whatever this species does. âI come in peace!â You offer, making a peace sign through the door with a wide grin.
His gaze slides to your hand, his deduction of the action clear in the way his narrowed eyes regard the action. He frowns like youâve caused him an inconvenience, gliding his finger along the device in his hand briefly as he looks away. You almost wish he was more animalistic. Youâre a better read on animal behaviour than human.
âOkay, umâ hold on!â You hold up one finger, clumsily dashing back through the ship to the science bay. You grab a white board and marker, making your way back to the porthole. The four-armed alien is tapping on what you assume to be the screen of the device he brought with him, though his attention returns to you once you reappear. You draw a circle and the general outline of the continents, presenting the image to him. âIâm a human. From Earth,â you say, pointing to your drawing.
The alienâs gaze lowers to your drawing, then he taps on the screen of his device, growing more frustrated by the moment. When the device doesnât seem to give him the results he wishes for, his shoulders visibly fall in frustration as he faces you again. His gaze fixes the drawing, then you once more.
When he doesn't reply, you quickly erase the drawing of earth, and draw something that might be more familiar. You draw the very thing youâre here in search of as clearly as you can from memory.
CRM-12. A creature so foreign, the scientists never even gave it a name. Beetle-like in appearance in spite of its size, which begged your attention, one of the heads in entomology. A creature intelligent beyond any credit they were willing to give it, treating it as lesser than even rodents. It was no more than an experiment, and your reason for being in the middle of uncharted space.
You present the drawing of the creature, a metallic brown beetle with accents that resemble an oil spill, iridescent pinks visible in the sun. Its eyes, however, are completely unlike any insect. Cat-like, they follow movement like the eyes of a higher being. Like they know. You hope that comes across in a crude drawing with a black marker.
The alien looks at the drawing you present, seeming to recognize it. He stares at you and chuffs, almost like a tiger, followed by a syllable unrecognizable to you.
âYou know it?â Your brows raise eagerly at the reaction that youâre fairly sure is a yes given the way big cats so often use the first portion of the sound.
Another chuff in reply, then the syllable. You can work with that. The recognition in his gaze tells you that it isnât a no, which means youâre communicating, even if itâs preschool-level communication. Even if he seems frustrated by the whole ordeal. Or maybe by you. Or the device. You really canât say.
âOh my god, you know it? Iâm looking for it!â You point with a grin, intrigued by the alien life that seems to be as advanced, if not more than humanity.
He watches your eager movements with hooded eyes, all four following the way your body almost seems ahead of your mind as you attempt communication. In a far more languid movement, he lifts an arm, simply tapping once on the door as he stares at you, awaiting.
You purse your lips, fairly confident you understand. âOhâ I canât leave my ship,â you glance down at the doorâs handle. âUmâ hold on.â You raise one finger again, drawing another picture on your whiteboard. This time, you present the alien species with a poorly drawn version of your ship, an âXâ, and a stick figure of you, with your tongue out and an âXâ for either eye. âI would die in your atmosphere. I mean, probably. I guess I donât know.â
One of his brows raises at the crude demonstration before he looks you up and down once through the porthole. He huffs, something of disbelief or maybe annoyance, before looking around the bay. He replicates your motion, raising one finger in a âhold onâ type of manner, disappearing for a minute. When he returns after a few moments, he lifts a lower arm to present to you a new device. From the device comes a hologram far more advanced than anything earth has managed thus far.
Your eyes widen at the sight of the very beetle-like species youâre here for. You nod, giving a thumbs up. âYes! Yes, thatâs it!â You loudly proclaim with a grin.
He recoils, though you canât quite place why. He watches your reactions, the smile, the thumbsâ up, the nod, and chuffs in reply. Alright, communication.Â
âHey, um, thereâsââ You stammer over words, before giving your signal for âhold onâ. Quickly and crudely attempting to draw your best version of the window by the bridge. You hold it up to the person opposite you, pointing in the general direction of the much larger window across the ship.
His sharp gaze follows the direction you point, his head moving in that direction altogether, before chuffing and surprisingly disappearing. You blink, before quickly moving in that direction as well, cables and tubing still drifting listlessly behind your clothing from when you awoke. You stare down briefly at the ordeal, at the mess youâre sure you look, and figure thatâs a problem for when an alien isnât staring you down.
Youâre just grateful he isnât looking at you in the same way humanity looked at that beetle. That stupid, god forsaken alien beetle. Even if he does seem a bit annoyed with you.
Dragging the cables along with you, you slip past the chairs in the bridge to the larger window where your new alien peer is curiously examining the circuitry within the bridge. âThis is the bridge,â you explain, pointing behind you. âFor the captain.â You turn to face him again, unsure if he understands a word youâre saying, but the need to fill the air is unfortunately at the forefront of your mind. Slipping into the nook of the window, you watch as his crimson gaze tracks your movements, dropping to the cables that he examines for a moment. âThese are just cables,â you explain, holding them up.
He grunts through a deadpan expression as though he has that figured out already, and itâs at this moment that you realize how grateful you are that thereâs an atmosphere at all in his ship right now to carry either of your voices so that you can communicate. The entire thing is fascinating beyond any kind of entomology youâve ever been witness to. Of course, youâd have an easier time grasping his behaviour if he were a bug, but you suppose you didnât get much of a good understanding of CRM-12âs behaviour anyway in light of the events that took place with the species on Earth.
CRM-12. The thought makes you wonder. âDo you have a name?â You glance down at the whiteboard, but you arenât sure how much itâll help. âA, uhââ You point to yourself, stating your name, then to him. âWhatâs your name?â
He straightens, and in a very alien language gives you a series of growls and hisses, along with a series of somewhat more human-sounding syllables. You attempt to replicate the sound, you really do. The problem is that your vocal chords simply canât shape the same noises that his can. He frowns as you canât reach one of the clicks in your vocal range, and surprisingly offers something more familiar.
âSukuna.â
Your lips purse as you stare out the window at him. Itâs shockingly close to the syllables that sit intermittently between the clicks and growls in his name, like his language might not be as far off as you originally hypothesized.
âHuman.â He adds, then replicates your name, shockingly nearly perfect.
âYeah!â You agree with a grin. âThatâs my name. Iâm human.â
âMy name,â he forms the words, copying them in his deep baritone voice. It sounds somewhat foreign after youâve heard primarily chuffs and hums, but he doesnât struggle to form the words. Theyâre clipped, like his tone isnât intentional and thereâs a rasp to his words like his throat wants to add the clicking to the words, but doesnât.
You have an itch to write and document everything you can, but your lab is a few light years away and your journal is⊠yet to be found, since you awoke. You do what you can to catalogue every detail for later in your mind.
âOkay, okay.â Beyond interested and excited by the ordeal, you make a wild motion with both arms towardsâ wellâ everything. âThis is my ship.â
Sukunaâs gaze lifts to the exterior of the ship, then returns to you. An upper arm lifts, muscle thatâs inherently humanoid rippling beneath what looks to be something similar to a performance long sleeve clinging to his arm. He taps twice on the window. âShip.â Then directly in front of you. âYour ship.â
âYeah,â you breathe in disbelief. âIs this your ship?â
He points back, chuffing. âMy ship.â
The velocity of his ability to learn is stunning. In fact, you would wager a bet that not only is he so far advanced that he outclasses Humanity by miles, you would be willing to be thereâs more to it than that. The scowls, the grimaces, the huffs. Could he be annoyed that youâre not capable of picking up his language? âAre youââ you point to him, then the chair behind you, âthe captain?â
His gaze examines you as you point towards the seat on the bridge behind you. Understanding your gist, he chuffs.
âHoly shit,â your breath. Looking eagerly past him into the rest of the hangar bay, you press your hands to the window. He straightens, taking a step back as he stares at you with a raised chin. âWhere are the rest of you? Do you have a crew? Do you have scientists?â
He growls, but it doesnât appear to be a warning. Your limited knowledge of his language tells you it may just be a vocalization thatâs within his language, but you canât say for sure. You canât be sure whether heâs answering in his own language or simply frustrated with your onslaught of questions. Maybe both.
âAre you alone?â You offer the option. âJust you?â You point.
To that, he straightens slightly, his gaze dropping as he evaluates your stature. He must determine you arenât a threat, because he finally replies with a chuff. âAlone. Just Sukuna.â
Itâs unbelievable, truly. Itâs not the fact that thereâs other intelligent life that baffles and equally excites you, but the fact that not only does he seem to be far more advanced, but itâs clear youâre both studying one anotherâs behavior. More interestingly, heâs making sense of your language so quickly without so much as forgetting a word that youâre fairly sure his species can outdo humanityâs feats in an evening. You watch him pick up words before youâve even used it in much more than a sentence to yourself. He adjusts so quickly that it has you questioning everything you know about life outside of Earth. About life on Earth. About behavior, intelligence, and everything youâve studied so hard when it comes to entomology.
Much of the⊠day? Is spent going back and forth, focusing primarily on language using the whiteboard, and youâre surprised to find Sukuna doesnât just keep up, but clearly surpasses your intelligence. Heâs offput by noise and moves at a much slower pace that gives you the impression that he wouldnât know the expression âlife is shortâ. You wonder how many years heâs wandered the universe.
He primarily listens and learns, letting you yap about tenses and grammar with little more than an aloof frown. He rarely inquires, but as his knowledge grows, he becomes more at ease. The rigidity in his upper and lower shoulders releases, and his expression shifts from one of skepticism to intrigue. Before you can inquire about his species or language, however, your ship comes online. With a robotic timbre, an announcement comes across the speakers. âPlease report to the lab for documentation.â
You stare back into the ship for a moment before facing your new companion. âI need to go make a report,â you explain. âThe humans back on Earth want a video of how things are going.â
You canât be sure how much of that he understands given that heâs largely a closed book, but he chuffs his general understanding.
âDo you⊠sleep?â You make a motion of sleeping. âOr eat?â And point to your mouth.
The mere suggestion has him yawning, revealing primordial fangs behind his lips. He doesnât grace you with a reply otherwise.
In a series of clicks and hisses, he says something youâre unable to translate and turns on his heel. Your best assumption is that heâs wished you a goodnight, so you opt to do the same. âGoodnight, Sukuna!â You call loudly from your side of the glass.
He tilts his head slightly, then shakes it, but doesnât look back.
You watch the spot where he disappeared for a long moment. In the barren bay, the lights click as one by one they shut off until youâre left with only the ambient light of the interior of your own ship. Stepping back from the glass, you blink to yourself. Heâs unlike anything you could have imagined when it came to aliens. Itâs not like you havenât met one, given that your assignment on Earth was studying CRM-12 and your assignment now is simply to retrieve more of them, and while you know even that creatureâs intelligence was largely underestimated, you never imagined another planet like Earth could exist.
Maybe the atmosphere doesnât match your own. Maybe thereâs no oxygen. Maybe his planet is overruled by dinosaurs. You wouldnât know. But somewhere out there is a planet with architecture and entire civilizations that you donât know the first thing about.
As you make your way to the lab, a small camera prepped for you to record, you swear youâre still jittery with excitement. The scientist that swims in your veins canât wait for tomorrow to come, ignoring every natural instinct to exercise caution. You donât see yourself sleeping well in spite of the fact that your body remains heavy with the weight of several induced years of sleep.
Without thinking twice, you flip the cameraâs screen to look back at yourself and begin recording. You recount your ship being engulfed, describe Sukuna, and explain your findings in largely scientific terminology.
âI know heâs not what Iâm here for, butâ This could be⊠I meanâŠâ You shake your head. âIâm not giving up on this research,â you steel yourself, staring into the camera. Chewing on your lower lip, you reach for the camera, shutting the screen and effectively stopping the recording without signing off.
You take the extra time in the evening to put yourself back together. Youâre not trained for space, or even for the use of this vessel as a whole, but you track down a sponge bath and washroom, before finally managing to find a small compartment with your belongings.
Dragging the compartment out from the netted area in which it resides, you open it slowly. Within are some clothesâ some your own, most provided by the company responsible for your launchâ along with a few general sanitary items. Itâs largely impersonal, which you suppose you expected. Having prepared for this, you reach into the pocket of a hoodie and pull out the one thing you hoped to keep with you.
You breathe out a sigh of relief, unfolding a photo. The lines through the center block out only a modicum of the happiness held within it, but at its core itâs everything you wanted to hold onto. Youâre holding the camera with a huge grin, an Extatosoma Tiaratum, a large stick insect, climbs along your shoulder, and your beloved Lucanus Elaphus, an Elk Stag Beetle, is in your hand. To your left is your best friend Shoko and her German Shepherd puppy, a month after she adopted him. Sheâs holding him like her pride and joy in spite of the fact that throughout her entire veterinary medicine degree, she swore sheâd stick to an animal with less genetically pre-disposed health problems.
You had just gotten back from a research trip back then and were meeting her pup for the first time while she cared for your bugs while you were away.
Itâs strange to think that sheâs ten years older now. Your bugs are surely dead, and Shoko hasnât seen you in over ten years. Your heart pangs as you pull the familiar hoodie on over your head and tuck the photo back in your pocket as you make your way back to the bed that didnât exactly do wonders for your neck as you make way for the second day in uncharted territory.
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The morning greets you in the same way it did yesterday. Cold, sterile, and controlled. The white lights flick on without asking, deciding your schedule before you ever do. You blink away the sleep in your eyes, grabbing a dehydrated granola bar sort of thing to bring with you to the bridge as you dress yourself in white pants and your own hoodie.
Sukuna still isnât there when you arrive at the bridge, so you do the only thing you really can do in the enclosed ship bay. You come prepared this time, with a model of your ship, your whiteboard, some snacks, water, and a journal and pen to note your findings. Not necessarily for humanityâs sake, but out of habit, for you. With everything spread out around you, you reach into your pocket, pulling out your photo with Shoko. Your thumb smooths along the fold lines before you set it off to the side in front of you. Then as you would on any other day, you note your findings with small drawings in the column of your journal.
After a short wait, the bayâs lights flick on one after another with a metallic clang as each one begins pulling electricity to the large hangar. Sukuna has also come more prepared, with another new device in one of his many hands and what looks to be a spacesuit draped over another arm. Heâs wearing much the same top in a slightly deeper tone of gray and baggy pants this time around, with that same overall neutral expression on his face.
Neutral is generous, given how grumpy he looks in human terms. Given how grumpy he is. Maybe itâs just his species, you canât be sure, but he gives you the impression you frustrate him.
You perk up at the sight of him regardless as he approaches in the direction of the doorâs porthole, changing his stride when he spots you at the window.
He clicks and grunts, which you assume is a greeting of sorts.
âHi, Sukuna! Did you sleep good?â
He doesnât beat around the bush. âSleep bad.â
âOh. Why?â
He approaches the window, dropping the suit on his arm into a pile on the floor. âHuman loud,â he states, pointing accusingly at you with a finger to the window.
âMe? This ship is huge, thereâs no way you heard me. I donât even snore!â You pout first, but your mind doesnât give you the time to be offended as something occurs to you. âWait, is your hearing really good?â You ask, pointing to your ear.
He chuffs. âYou loud.â He makes a motion to his chest, demonstratively inhaling and exhaling in kind. âLike that.â
âOh my god, you could hear me breathing across the ship?â You instinctively bring up your fancy space pen and journal, scribbling down messy notes as your mouth gets a few steps ahead of your brain. âWait, but the ship is on. I canât be louder than likeâ Is your engine not loud? Or the life support systems? You must breathe some sort of gas orââ
He huffs, tapping the glass with a subsequent growl. Much like yesterday, itâs not a warning but something entirely else. âShip my design. No sound.â
âNo sound? Your design?â You gawk, sitting down at the window. Sukuna follows suit opposite you behind the glass. His movements are heavier in nature and far more languid, one corded muscular arm keeping him upright as he takes a seat. In spite of his constant aloof expression, you note that he does still seem intrigued. âWaitâ oh my god, are you an engineer?â
He shifts his jaw, eyes narrowing thoughtfully as he attempts to use context clues to put the word engineer into place in his mental dictionary. He says something in his own language, reaching for the device he used yesterday to show you a hologram of CRM-12. This time, he flicks it on into some sort of 2D image, a screen of sorts. In concise, easy strokes, he pulls up a blueprint of his ship. âEngineer?â He queries, confirming the term.
âYeah,â you breathe in disbelief. âYeah, youâre definitely an engineer. Holy shit,â you laugh, tone wrought with disbelief. âThe photo you showed me with that yesterday, the uhâ beetle species?â
His gaze narrows and he grunts, almost a low growl.
âUmââ you lower your gaze to your whiteboard, drawing a quick sketch of CRM-12 again, writing its name beside the image. âThis guy.â
The confusion rife across his features dissolves as he chuffs. âKerm.â
âKerm?â You blink, unsure where this word has come from.
He points to âCRM-12â like itâs the most obvious thing heâs ever pointed out, blatantly frowning. âKerm one two.â
You laugh, airy and light, grinning. âYeah, Kerm. Yeah, okay. Kerm. Um, youâre looking for them too, does that mean youâre a scientist too? Like, umââ setting the whiteboard aside, you tap your fingers listlessly along your thigh. âYou study life and elements? And learn about creatures?â
That clicks with him and he chuffs again.
âHoly shit,â you practically bound to your feet, quickly sitting back down at the revelation with a multitude of further questions.
Sukunaâs brow tents as he watches, disdain dripping from his expression as though youâve offended him in your bout of excitement when he shuffles back slightly. He leans back on one arm, the other three held as though you might present a threat to him. Still, he remains silent.
âWait, so youâre the captain, engineer, and a scientist? Oh my god, thatâs incredible. Human life is so short we could never even dream of studying all three things and exploring space.â You donât even pause as your thoughts simply spill from your lips. âYou must be able to live so much longer than us. Or maybe youâre just that much smarter. Waitââ Your hand presses to the glass. âWhere are you from? What planetââ
âHuman.â
ââare you from? How long are your years? How old are you?â
âHuman.â Sukunaâs hand presses to the glass with a jarring bang as he leans over you in spite of the barrier, the size difference growing apparent. His voice booms, stopping your endless trail of words in their tracks. Once he has your silence, Sukuna proceeds to click and growl in a series youâve heard once before, though you now recognize it as displeasure.
It doesnât take an understanding of his language to put together that heâs calling you âtoo muchâ. Heâs telling you youâre annoying.
Your cheeks heat up and you take the opportunity to sit back, sucking in a breath.
Sukunaâs hand peels from the glass, his prints remaining in the spot where it was. He sits back with a loud huff, rubbing at his temple with one hand as he leans back on another. âPlanet isââ he states the name in his language first, then pauses to think before providing something you understand. Removing the noises between the syllables, he lands on a simple name. âSimuria,â he starts, choosing one of your questions and going with it. âAgeââ he glances down at the hologram, waving his hand through it to erase the blueprint. He makes ten markings through it like a whiteboard, then clicks, his word for âtenâ.
âTen,â you nod your understanding.
He points at the markings. âTen tens.â
âOne hundred,â you nod your understanding.
âTen one hundreds.â
Your lips part. âOne thousand?â
He chuffs, staring blankly at you.Â
âYouâre over one thousand years old?â Your disbelief is palpable as your jaw hangs slightly ajar, taking in the details of his face and overall physique. He looks to be in his late thirties or early forties, but if thereâs one thing youâve learned in your time interacting with aliens, itâs that you donât know the first thing about them.
He chuffs again, like itâs plain to see and his age is obvious. âHow old you?â
âUm, three tens,â you hold up three fingers. âAnd a five,â you demonstrate the next number. âBut I, uh, spent the last ten years sleeping to get here,â you offer a tight-lipped smile. His eyes narrow as he attempts to decipher the emotion written across your face, but you train your expression back to neutral before he can. âWe only live to be about nine tens, though.â
âNine tens?â He recoils at the mere thought. âWeak.â
You let out an airy laugh. âWeak, yeah. Humans tend to be.â
âThree thousands. Or more.â
âYou can live three thousand years?â Once again caught up in the sheer difference in time youâve both experienced, youâre forced to sit back, leaning on your arms. âHoly shit.â
Thatâs not even beginning to touch on the fact that his planetâs years could also be longer than Earthâs.
Sukuna has come to recognize your exclamations as disbelief and puffs out his chest. You canât be sure whether itâs pride or a sort of bragging right he holds over your head, but itâs heartwarming to bond with someone so similar, and yet so different.
âWhere your crew?â
âOhââ You push a hand over your neck, staring back into the ship. âNo crew. Just me. Just a scientist. Iâm an entomologist. I study bugs.â
His brow dips as he attempts to put together what he understands based on your statements. âNo captain?â
âNo. No captain,â you reply coolly, the most calm he notes youâve been since arrival.
âCaptain?â He points to the photo of you and Shoko as he peers closer.
âNo, thatâs my friend Shoko. Another human, on Earth. And these are my bugs. Iâm a bug scientist.â You point to the beetle.
âYou study bugs?â
âYeah!â You grin, followed by the familiar feeling of information running through your brain as your most passionate subject arises. âThere are thousands and thousands of them on earth. Like, a thousand thousands. More than that. Weâve barely scratched the surface of what we know about them!â You pridefully explain.
âScratched the surface?â
âLike, we barely know anything about them. So I study them to learn more.â
Leaning back on one pair of arms, he crosses the other pair over his chest, fixing you with a perplexed expression as he clicks and chirps out a word, followed by âhumanâ.
You smirk, lopsided but wholehearted. Itâs yet another of those familiar moments where you recognize the word from context alone. Weird human, he called you.
âDo you not like bugs?â
âBugs on Simuria big.â
âTheyâre big? How big?â
He tilts his head to either side, casting a quick glance off to the side as some sort of debris hits the hull of the ship. His gaze returns to you, unbothered otherwise by the noise. âBig like that,â he presses his finger to the glass separating you.
Following the direction in which he points, you whirl around to find heâs pointing to a duffel bag of sorts. âOh, we have some like that. Most are smaller though,â you explain as you turn back. âThese two are my friends, like Shoko. Thatâs Spike,â you point to the stag, âand Stipple,â you point to the spiny stick insect.
âStipple like Simuria bugs.â
âReally?â Your eyes widen, filled with wonder, and Sukunaâs head tilts as he lets out a pleased chuff. The revelation only brings up more questions. âSimuria,â you breathe the word like something sacred. Were the circumstances of your trip to reach CRM-12 any different, you might even be racing to document this beyond messy scribbles in a journal. âDo you all have four arms and eyes?â
Sukuna follows your gaze before he growls, which you take as a no.
âIs it based on region? Orâ oh, maybe modification orââ
Sukuna huffs loudly, staring intently at you. âHuman weak and loud.â
Ahâ insults. The default when youâre bothering him or going too fast. âSorry Sukuna,â you laugh, still lighthearted and chirpy in spite of his grumpy demeanor.
âSimurians all different,â he explains, waving his hand through the hologram still sitting off to the side to erase it. He draws a stick figure of sorts with horns and an eye on its forehead, then another with a tail that seems prehensile from what you can tell, like a monkey.
âAll different? So, itâs not based on regions?â
He growls, confirming your thoughts. âI need four arms for science and making ship,â he points broadly around him.
You blink in complete and utter disbelief, the buzzing of the bay lights audible even over the gears turning in your mind. âSo you⊠grew two extra arms? Like, your body made them yourself?â
He chuffs, pleased once again by your disbelief with a hint of what you might call a smile. Youâre coming to notice that he seems to like that. He enjoys praise, even if itâs of his species rather than himself. He enjoys being above you in any way he can. Itâs probably one of the most human things about him, in a roundabout sort of way.
âThatâs incredible,â you shake your head regardless, watching as he puffs his chest out again, his chin tilted up. You canât help a smile at the sight of him, the boyish pride on his face is something of a marvel. âWhat other adaptations do you have?â
He considers this for a moment, before running a hand through his hair and presenting a second ear hidden under pink strands over his humanoid ear. Itâs far less human than the first pair, you would consider it closer to an owl. Your lips purse as you near the glass, leaning with both hands splayed across it. He then lifts the hem of his shirt and you damn near choke.
You canât even decide which part it is that actually chokes you. The fact that heâs sporting a six pack like no other and a second pair of pecks that sends heat to places you do not want to think about while trapped in a box in space, or the huge mouth plastered where a belly button would otherwise be. You cough to distract him from the way your throat seizes, then sit back in an effort to disguise how youâve reacted to an alien you hardly know.
Sukuna tilts his chin up slightly as he regards you. You want to chalk it up to nothing more than a natural reaction to your cough, but thereâs a gleam in his eyes that you recognize. Youâre then unfortunately reminded that his hearing is like nothing youâve ever experienced and he can likely hear your pounding heart. It puts an idea in your head that his sense of smell may⊠also⊠be better on that note, too. Breezing past the moment as quickly as you can, you cough once more. âWhatâs, uhâ whatâs that for?â
âEating large food.â
The sensation is jarring, but it occurs to you that youâve never once asked what he eats. âLike⊠what?â
To your surprise, he smiles. Actually smiles. âNoisy food. Good food.â
âAre you joking with me? Are you joking about eating me?â You sputter.
His toothy grin is replicated on his stomach mouth as he lets the hem of his shirt drop and for the first time you hear him rumble in laughter.
You donât even have the instinct to wonder if heâs lying when youâre too intrigued by the whole ordeal and just shake your head. âOh, so you have jokes now?â
âAlways have jokes,â he grins, wide. âYou not understand, weak human.â
You scoff. âI see how it is,â you tease, curious about his ability to pick up not just language but the deeper meaning behind it. With a sigh, you cast a glance back at the spot where he revealed the stomach mouth, focusing back on your mission. For as curious as you are, at the end of the day youâre trapped in a box in space with a limit on time and supplies. âHow quickly can you evolve?â
He tilts his head from side to side, something heâs seen you do when you reply with âmaybeâ.
âDoes it depend? Is it based on how your surroundings are?â You make a motion to everything around you.
âYes,â he replies affirmatively for the first time in your language, rather than his usual Simurian response.
âHow fast are we talking?â
His brow tents, head tilting like the question is stupid. âWe talk at normal speed for you.â
You bark a laugh at the realization that heâs now completely misunderstood. âNo, itâs a saying, sorry. How fast can you evolve? One planet rotation around the sun? Two?â
Clearly displeased with your laughter, he takes a moment to fix you with a glare before replying. âNot one planet rotation. Smaller time.â
âLess than one planet rotation around the sun or less than one planet rotation?â
âLess than one planet rotation.â
You swear you need to pick your jaw up off the floor. âLess than a DAY?â You shout in disbelief, hand raising to the glass in a slam that echoes over the metal bay.
Sukuna growls, recoiling away from your reaction. Itâs not out of fear, but rather that youâre being noisy again. âHuman. Weak human. Stop.â
Sitting back down, you offer another apology to the begrudging man sitting across from you. Pieces of the puzzle all suddenly begin to click into place. Thatâs why he picked up your language so quickly. He didnât just learn, his throat adapted to the sound. His vocal chords changed in less than a day to work around the fact that humans canât. His species is advanced in the kind of way you could only dream. Hell, you never even realized he lost the strange rasp to his vocalizations in your language. âSukuna, Iââ you pause, raising a finger as you become aware that youâre about to get ahead of yourself when you go dashing back to the lab.
You gather a space meal, several beakers, pipettes, gloves, and a sterile handling box. When you return and dump it all on the ground beside you in a cacophony of glass, Sukuna still seems displeased with the noise.
âHumans sent me here because of this,â you present a phial of liquid to him. Held within the small glass container is a dark red, almost black liquid with yellow separation. âThese are Alveoli. Normal ones. Theyâre cells in our lungs,â you point to your chest. âAnd this,â you present another phial, but the color of the liquid is off, almost more of a brown. âIs Alveolarium. It appeared on Earth I guess ten years ago now and we canât find a cure. Around the same time it showed up, I got called to an island in the middle of nowhere to research a new discovery,â you explain. âThey sent a ship somewhere around here back then, and picked up a CRMâ umâ a Kerm.â
Sukuna doesnât move, but you have his attention.
âI was sent to research behaviour since it looks like a bug, but they also discovered that Kerm have cells in their shell that are really similar to the pathogen causing Alveolarium which was spreading a lot, but Kerm cells seem to carry properties that might help or stop or kill the disease or something,â you explain, shutting your eyes tightly as you search for vocabulary heâd know. âBasically they have similar cells,â you explain.
Sukuna inhales, long and slow as he sits up. Interestingly, his gaze splits as he looks over both samples at once. His languid movement makes sense when you consider that heâs well over a thousand years old and still has two thousand to go, if not more. Of course life isnât short for a creature like him.
âWe had one Kerm,â you continue. âBut it died.â
âDied. Gone?â Sukuna confirms the meaning of the word.
âYeah.â
He grunts. Thereâs no real emotion behind it, itâs nothing but sheer acknowledgement.
âSo I need to get more Kerm. ItâsâŠâ You stare down at the sealed contaminated cell sample. âItâs bad, Sukuna. A lot of humans died. Probably way more since Iâve been gone.â
He stares at you for a long moment, his jaw moving as he evaluates your expression and every little micromovement of your body. He has a way about the manner in which he moves like heâs above life itself, everything in his mannerisms is lazy and unbotheredâ that is, until you grate on his nerves, anyway. Thereâs something almost kingly in the way he carries himself. After a long pause, he sets a forearm on his leg, leaning forward. âYou want cells. Mine.â
Your jaw hangs open as you attempt to explain yourself. âI meanâ you might be able to save us, but obviously only if youâre okay with it! I justâ We donât actually know anything about the Kerm, and I canât guarantee if itâll make it back alive or even at all, andââ
âHuman.â Thereâs less heat in his voice as he shuts you up with the low rumbling of his timbre. âI help. You get suit,â he speaks like heâs ordering you, pointing.
âSuit?â
His eyes narrow as he gets to his feet, offense dripping from the very click of his tongue he gives you. âYou scientist. You help.â
Your jaw hangs open as you glance back between him and the ship. You seal your lips into a tight line, staring down at fidgeting hands. âSukuna, Iââ You shake your head.
âYour atmosphere weak, humans weak. Use your second heart, my ship pressure not crush you. Stop scared movement,â he points mildly at your twiddling thumbs.
Before you can explain the truth, youâre perplexed by his words. âSecondâŠ? I only have one heart.â
He huffs. âThen I help reinforce oxygen tank to survive pressure of sulfur gas atmosphere. Weak human. Foolish weak human.â
Youâre left in utter disbelief and mild shock, frozen in place as he turns on his heel to, you suppose, make you a new tank fitting of the pressure of his ship. When the hell did he even pick up the word foolish? Did you say that? Shaking your head of the thought, you need to focus on what matters here.
âSukuna!â
He stops a short distance away, his gaze thrown over his shoulder.
âSukuna, I canâtâ I canât leave.â
He crosses his armsâ all four of themâ unimpressed. âWhy?â
âThis was always meant to be a one-way trip. I donât get to go home. Iâm sealed in here. I have no depressurization pod, no suit, no way to unseal the ship without losing the oxygen in here. No portable generators, nothing. When the ship loses power, thatâs it.â
Slowly, he turns towards you, straightening as he regards you. He doesnât just look displeased, he looks downright offended. His usual go-to doesnât seem to cut it either as he spews out something more than just âweakâ. âWrong.â
It likely doesnât convey what he wants, but you get the gist anyway. âYeah. Itâs stupid,â you agree.
âYour stupid.â
âYeah,â you laugh half-heartedly. âMy stupid.â
Clearly realizing youâre butchering your own language to appeal to his limited use of it, he turns on his heel again, muttering something under his breath. Your hand slips away from the glass keeping you safe and trapped in tandem as you watch Sukuna disappear. You find yourself staring at the photo of you and Shoko again. What you wouldnât give to check in on her right now. Or ever again.
This will be it for you. Your food supply is limited to what it was deemed was a reasonable amount of time toâ somehowâ procure not just one but multiple specimens of Kerm or CRM-12, or whatever youâre meant to call them. Your power will fizzle out. Your oxygen supply will end. Your shipâs fuel is already near its limit. Youâre sealed in a death trap as a final sentencing. You shut your eyes tightly, rubbing your hands over your face in an effort to reset.
When Sukuna doesnât return in a couple of minutes, you move around the ship in an effort to clear your head and get some exercise. Anything that stops reminding you of just how trapped you are in a void of uncharted territory with an alien that far exceeds any of humanityâs feats.
You grab a bite to eat, rehydrating some macaroni and cheese in a flimsy bag. Itâs unappealing as all hell but itâs better than starving. Eating straight out of the bag, you meander back towards the window, blinking when you find Sukuna setting up a mobile science lab of some sort just outside the bridge. You jog closer to the window, taking a seat to watch as he sets out largely similar and recognizable equipment, although the shape and build of much of his technology is infinitely more advanced. Bigger, too, given his size.
One set of eyes glides to your movement, an eerie feat of having an extra pair, while he continues to set up. Your mind goes into overdrive trying to figure out just how much that sets apart his biology from yours to have the energy production and sheer brainpower to manage so much at once.
His nose wrinkles when he watches you spoon food into your mouth. Chuckling, you approach the nook by the window, presenting the bag to him. âItâs macaroni and cheese.â You tilt the bag in his direction.
âItâs bad.â
âHey!â You chide with a grin. âItâs better than it looks. You canât call it bad until you try it.â
With an unusually pompous huff, he turns back to the mobile set-up and picks up a box-like device, connecting it to the window by suction. He runs his thumb along the edge like a dial and it comes to life, seeping a sort of caulk onto the glass before it begins drilling through the window. Your survival instinct recognizes the structural instability. Your curiosity chooses to ignore it as the device uses some sort of nanotech to recreate its shape on the inner glass, sealing itself.
You purse your lips, your spoon held in mid-air. âA mini pressurization chamber.â
He chuffs. âGive macaroni and cheese.â
âYou need to learn manners,â you mutter more to yourself than to him as he literally holds his hand out to bluntly demand your lunch with that unnatural edge to his voice that never quite fits his genuine intrigue.
âManners?â He queries, though his hand never moves.
Chuckling to yourself as you give in and offer the small bag and spoon of food to him, you watch as your door closes and the pressure within the device changes. âWe say please when we ask for something and thank you when weâre given something if we want to be polite or nice to someone.â When his side opens, the bag and food as a whole are crushed under the pressure of his differing atmosphere, presenting him with a dripping mess of squished pasta.
Admittedly, it does look bad now. As it begins dripping melted cheese thatâs entirely too watery out the other side straight onto his shoes, he stares at you with the kind of tight-lipped expression that transcends any language barrier.
Heâs not thanking you for this.
âSorry,â you wince, offering an apologetic grin.
He growls, trudging back across the large expanse of hangar bay to get something to clean up the mess. By the time he returns and cleans up the cheese, he finally opts to take a bite of the crushed food, fixing you with a glare.
âBad. Bad food for weak human.â
You can only smile, because it figures that he would hate it. âFair enough,â you laugh, watching as he sets it along with the dirty rag he used to clean the cheese. Your eyes widen a fraction at the thought. âWait, what do youââ
Rolling his shoulders, he points to the small chamber that connects you. âGive Alveolarium.â
Your thoughts are already long forgotten as you pick up one of the cultures, chewing on your lower lip as you examine the glass. âI think your shipâs atmospheric pressure might crush the vial.â You hold it up to him. âItâs pretty thin.â
With a hum, Sukuna offers a box through the exchange to put the phial in. As you exchange materials and Sukuna begins separating the infected cells into smaller cultures within an oxygen-controlled box with barometric pressure equal to your shipâs, it occurs to you that in spite of your life being cut short, some part of you is happy for this experience. Even if your notes and findings get stranded out here, you can say you found companionship in a grumpy ten-foot-tall genius alien, and thatâs pretty cool.
With your plights long forgotten as you watch Sukuna work with your face practically plastered to the glass, the technology and rate at which heâs able to work grabs your attention. Your chest practically rattles in excitement as he moves through practiced motions like he already knows what to do.
âWhatâs that?â You query, watching eagerly as he injects something into a lower arm.
One pair of eyes flicks to you. âFor cells.â
âFor stem cells? Like from your bones?â
He chuffs, pulling out a rubber band as he restricts his blood flow to take a sample.
âItâs that fast?â You gawk as he already begins drawing a sample.
His brow twitches as you break his concentration, but he chuffs to give you a reply regardless.
âOh my god. We have a drug that does that too, but it takes a while before it produces any neutrophilsâ umâ stem cells. Youâre so much more advanced than us, I never imagined how much different life could be!â You watch as blue blood is extracted from his arm, and he begins separating the sample in order to work with it. âYour blood is blue? Is that because of the differing atmosphere? Or maybe itâs an adaptation somehowââ
âHuman,â Sukuna groans, disenchanted with your rambles. He fixes you with a tired expression, pointing to the experiment in an effort to get you to focus. âStop. Noisy.â
âRight, sorry!â You apologize with a wide grin.
A series of clicks, syllables, and growls escape the brutish man as he mutters something to himself, undoing the band from his arm and flexing his fingers a couple of times before pulling a sleeve back down. As he introduces his cells to the Alveolar cells that are infected in the controlled environment, he moves a small device over the culture slide, projecting hologram of the microscopic cells. His cells are so different from anything youâve observed on Earth that you have no issue telling which belong to him in spite of your differing major.
The cells collide once, the Alveolarium attempts to attack Sukunaâs cells, then simply⊠backs off. âTheyâre incompatible,â you state dryly, your shoulders dropping.Â
Sukuna grunts. âAlveolar cells still functional. My cells not see issue.â
âThat could be it.â You shrug.
He hums, tapping a finger twice along the table. âThen we change environment.â
âCreate artificial stress until your cells react,â you breathe, your hand snapping down to the ground beside you with a metallic clang that has Sukuna flashing you another glare.
âLoud. Loud human.â
âSorry, I justâ Iâm a bit overexcited,â you offer with a smile.
Sukuna continues to stare for a moment, then adjusts the pressure within the glass box where the experiment is taking place to something more dense. He attempts to alter the environment enough that his cells recognize a threat, while not outright killing yours. Striking a balance between them proves to be a multi-day endeavor. In the moments where you can only wait, you slowly begin to unravel the enigma that is Sukuna.
You canât count how many times Sukuna huffs or makes his disdain known with a very dramatic look in your direction when you suggest something altogether dumb, but you also note that he tells you youâre noisy less often. He picks up on more scientific terms, and even begins to pick up on prepositions purely from your use of them. He teaches you about Simuria, how the Simurians all have extra eyes, two hearts, and are fairly large compared to humanity, though they largely donât resemble one another. He teaches you about one with horns, who you assume is a friend. He, on the other hand, refers to the horned Simurian as a neighbor.
You get the feeling Sukuna isnât the friendly type.
âYouâre invasive,â he gruffs out in reply to your question.
Your head falls back as you stare at the ceiling with a groan. âI literally just asked if you choose to be alone!â You retort lightheartedly. âYou donât even have to give me a reason!â
âYouâre invasive. Like Kerm.â
âLikeââ You gawk at him, watching a slow smile curl at his lips. âLike Kerm?â
âLoud like them too.â
âHey!â
His head tilts as you exclaim your displeasure with that statement, but itâs one of the rare moments where he does seem pleased, which brings a smile to your face regardless. For whatever reason, nothing seems to get him boastful quite like belittling humanity. And since his only knowledge of humanity is you, that puts you at the center of his jokes.
âYou know,â you meander back to the topic of Kerm, pulling the smile straight from his lips when you change the subject. âYou never did tell me why youâre here. You know the Kerm too, so is it for them?â
He chuffs. âI did tell you. The Kerm are invasive.â
âThatâs not really a reason. Thatâs just likeâ a statement.â
Seated on the floor with his back against the glass that separates you, he rolls his head along the rigid surface, his gaze finding you. âKerm are smarter than you humans think,â he grumbles out a baseline explanation. He utters something in his language, then puts together a few sounds until he has a new word for you. âMethalonian weapons. They arenât natural. Theyâreââ he taps his fingers on the bayâs floor briefly in thought. âCreated by another species.â
âMethalonian,â you test the word. âAre they artificial? Or are they mutated? Like, completely not real or mutated from something that already existed?â
He taps his finger decidedly. âMutated. Another species mutated them. Iâve been circling this planet for a while now to find where they come from,â he explains. âThere are no other species here. They ate all of their resources. Now they invade.â
âHow do they even leave? Are they that smart?â
He growls. âThey attach themselves to ships and invade.â
âOh. What are you planning on doing to them, then?â
He sucks in a breath. âKilling them.â
You freeze, staring at him as he examines your expression. Youâve never been much good at training your emotions, your pupils narrowing to mere pinpricks. You swallow, gaze averting to the photo of Shoko. âYou were never gonna let me take any.â
â... No.â
âThatâs why you trapped me. You knew I was here for them.â
âMade a guess,â he agrees with a hand motion that youâd equate to a shrug.
Slumping back against the bridgeâs floor, you stare at the ceiling. Your alien counterpart watches in silence as you process what you know of the Kerm, your current situation, and your speciesâ survival. You consider Shoko back home, and the rest of your family and friends. You consider your nights out together ten years ago and what that might look like now if you ever make it back. You consider the failing government, and how itâs possible everything has completely fallen apart since your launch. But what really gets to you is that if this doesnât work, thereâs no world where Sukuna lets you send a Kerm back.
Maybe you shouldnât care. Youâre physically welded into a ship in the middle of nowhere. Yet here you are, even after everything, still being hopeful. Itâs the most human thing you could possibly do. âWhat did The Kerm do to you?â You quietly murmur, still staring at the ceiling.
He inhales once, long. His eyes shut. âTheyâre mutated to kill,â he grunts. âThe cells your scientists found in their shellsâŠâ his jaw ticks as he clicks, something you canât decipher as syllables follow it. âIt is not your cure.â
You lift your head, leaning on two elbows to look at him.
âIt is your cause.â
Your lips part, brow furrowing. âButâ Iâ Thatâs notââ Your chest tightens, emotions betraying you as you feel your waterline wet. Quickly wiping away the evidence, your fingers curl against the metal floor beneath you.
Sukuna doesnât budge, his fiery gaze pinning you to place.
âBut Alveolarium has been around longer than the Kerm was on Earth.â
He moves a knee, tilting his head. âHas it?â
âI⊠Donât know, actually.â At last, you admit it, but things donât fully add up from what you know. You let yourself fall onto your back again. âThe company that sent me here, we had a bit of a disagreement. I guess⊠Maybe they were right, but still.â
Sukunaâs eyes narrow, minute, as he attempts to decipher the vagueness of your statement, but by nature of a language barrier, he canât make out what emotion it is that youâre so graciously dancing around.
You swallow hard. âDid⊠Did they kill a lot of Simurians?â
âYes. Humans?â
âIf itâs them then⊠yeah, I guess. Millions. Like, thousands upon thousands.â
Morbidly intrigued, Sukuna shuffles to get a better look at you, his face closer to the glass than ever. âHow many humans are on Earth?â
âUmââ You quickly pull up the whiteboard, demonstrating a number for ten, then a thousand, then a million, then a billion. âThere were eight billion.â
This is the most baffled youâve ever seen Sukuna, who physically recoils at the mere thought. âHow do you keep distance? How do you celebrate the union of humans?â
âUnion of humans?â You laugh. âWeddings? I donât know, you invite a hundred people and call it a day.â But the question sparks something in you as you sit up to face your baffled friend. âHow many Simurians are there?â
âSeventy nine.â
âWHAT?â You gape, noting that he doesnât complain about your noise in spite of his narrowing eyes and defensive posture. âAre you guys close to going extinct? Like, being gone? Are you not worried?â
He simply growls in reply. âNo, human. Things areâŠâ He hesitates, his gaze averting. âWe all have space and resources, it isnât cramped.â He rolls his shoulders back. âWe celebrate all weddings every year. Then stay alone with our partners.â
Thereâs a pit of jealousy in your stomach that you cover with a smile. âSo you have someone youâll be going back to, hey?â You grin, prodding at him through the window. You equate the unsettling feeling to a yearning for having someone like that back home, or even the option to return, but it would be ignoring the bigger picture that youâve both been sitting in this bay for several days together and youâve grown fond of him. You may not have a choice in being here, but he does. And he chooses to help in spite of his own goals. Your heart likes that he chooses you a bit too much.
To your surprise, your question irks him and his eyes narrow. A harsh hiss erupts from his throat as he suddenly turns back towards the pressurized box where your experimentation is taking place.
Your shoulders fall, watching the muscles over his back pull taut as he busies himself with little more than prep work for a next experiment as you continue to wait.
It doesnât take a rocket scientist (hah) to realize that Sukuna has no partner. The thought trickles through the pockets of your mind. Seventy nine people on a planet total⊠You can only imagine how lonely that gets. Even you, who chooses to be with bugs a majority of your life, always returns home to Shoko and your bugs at the end of a trip.
Seventy nine. Thatâs thirty nine weddings. Is he the only Simurian with no partner? âSukunaâŠâ You watch him work, his movements unbothered as he dilutes samples and ups heat to push his cells to react. âAre you lonely?â
He freezes. A muscle in his cheek twitches as he flexes his jaw, choosing not to reply when he continues in his motions.
Your shoulders fall as you watch him silently work, pulling the rug out from under you on the reality of your relationship. A working relationship, really. Heâs always chided you for being invasive, and you suppose this is why.
âIâm lonely,â you offer, quietly. His movements donât freeze altogether, but they slow. He moves as though any noise might distract him from what youâre saying, in spite of the fact that thereâs no keeping secrets from a man with ears like him. âI wish I could go back to Earth. Or maybe meet the Simurians, or see more of the universe. I wish I could study bugs again.â
When he still doesnât reply, but his movements slow to a crawl, you pick up the photo of you and Shoko, presenting it to him again. âIâd love to tell my friend what weâre up to.â
After an extended momentâs silence, he removes his hands from the box, resting them on the table he rolled in. The dense metal protests his weight, even though it was designed for him. Likely designed by him, too. He still doesnât face you, choosing to protect himself from your prying eyes by continuing to face somewhat away from you.
âItâs not so bad up here though, you know. I mean, I met you. Thatâs pretty cool.â You scoot closer to the glass, hoping to find common ground through friendship, if you can call this such a thing.
Your movement grabs his attention. His gaze flickers towards you, the only sign heâs heard you at all. He continues to face forward, his shoulders hunched over the cool metal table.
âWhy are you alone?â He finally speaks up, unmoving otherwise.
âIâm uhâ pretty noisy,â you offer with a grin in terms he knows well, deflecting the question. âSo I guess it just never worked out with other people.â
Sukuna straightens, turning to face you. âNot what I meant.â
You smile, half-hearted. âIâm a criminal, Sukuna.â
âCriminal?â
You nod, pulling your knees into your chest as he slowly nears the glass again. He takes a seat, cross-legged as he leans over his forearms to give you his full attention. âI did a really bad thing. Other humans got hurt and Iâm here as a punishment. Our technology isnât as good as yours and the crew that signed up for this mission knew they wouldnât get to go back to Earth. The choices I made landed me here instead of them.â
âWhat did you do?â
Your arms tighten around your legs as you settle your chin along your knees. âThe Kerm, you know how I told you we had one?â
He chuffs.
âWe put it in a cell, a big cage or room,â you explain to the best of your ability. âI was told they just caught it and I was brought in to study it, because it looks similar to our bugs so people in charge made assumptions,â you haphazardly point at the photo where your bug pets are crawling on your clothes. Their features are close enough to the Kerm that you can see the train of thought that led to you. âIn my time studying it, I realized it was smart. Like, way smarter than any bug on Earth. Maybe even smarter than any animal. It was listening. It was learning.â
âYou opened its cell.â
With a drawn out sigh, you bury your face in your folded arms, muffling your words. âI opened its cell.â
âIt ate them all.â
âIt ate the crew for this mission. Every last one of them. And then the people in charge killed it, too.â
With two arms relaxed in his lap and two holding him up, Sukuna watches in relative silence as emotions swim through your eyes. He doesnât have a name for most of them, but heâs seen them in himself. Over a thousand years of life will do that to you.
Your voice is a mere whisper. âIt was so smart, Sukuna. I just couldnât watch it live out its life in a cell.â
âNow you live your life in a cell.â
You lift your head, gaze flickering across the buttons you never bothered to figure out and the white walls you never quite grew accustomed to when all you ever see is Sukuna. âYeah, I guess so. Funny how that works, huh?â
âItâs not funny,â he hisses, his brow furrowing in such a way that actually has you curious.
Itâs not as though you didnât consider yourself acquaintances at least with him by this point. You've spent several days together and he chooses every day to return when he could have dropped you off at any point and cleaned up his scuffed hangar, but he doesnât. Every day, he pushes his own goals and mission back another day into the future and chooses to help the trapped little entomologist residing in the back corner of his ship. The whole thing is funny if youâre grim enough about it.
In spite of his frustration, you shuffle forward, pressing a hand to the glass. âItâs okay. Iâm glad we met before Iâm gone.â
His brow twitches not once but twice as he stares at your hand like itâs a personal affront. âMy ship can get you home.â
Your fingers curl just slightly against the glass. Your body inadvertently winces at the thought. âMaybe. But if I go home, Iâll still be arrested and live life in a cell down there. Thatâs⊠worse.â
âEven if you bring back a cure?â
âHumans are⊠complicated.â
âStupid.â
A puff of air leaves your nose. âYeah. Humans are stupid.â You do what you can to mask your underlying sadness as your lips curl up into a smile.
You canât read Sukunaâs expression as his intense crimson stare burns into you. You know thereâs a level of disbelief and maybe even frustration at your self-sacrifice in his eyes. Whether you want to admit that an alien could feel something like that for you is another story.
You can see the internal battle raging within him, although you canât identify what battle it is that he fights. In spite of his troubled scowl, youâre shocked when an arm slowly lifts from where his elbow rested on his thigh. He brings it to the glass, his fingers pressing first over each digit, before his palm splays over yours. The heat he radiates is warm enough that you feel it through the glass, befitting of a ten foot alien that expends far more energy than you. As if you werenât already aware, it makes it apparent just how much he dwarfs you.
You peel your gaze from his hand, examining the way he refuses to look at you. Softly, you pose a question that might answer some of your own. âHow many Simurians were there before the Kerm?â
His frown deepens, his head falling. âOver one thousand. I evolved. Most⊠did not.â
Something briefly occurs to you of the whole ordeal. You wonder if maybe there was someone that even heâ a scientist and engineer clearly capable of incredible featsâ could not save. âYour family?â You query, your voice a near-whisper that you know he picks up on.
His eyes slowly drag across the glass, staring straight through you as his reflection startlingly pins him in place. He swallows hard, refusing to confirm when itâs not you staring him down, but his own misplaced guilt that reflects back at him.
His jaw locks, teeth grinding as he pulls back suddenly, on his feet in an instant with an expression you canât place. Heâs scowling with wide eyes, turning on his heel as he excuses himself with nothing more than an âIâm tired,â trudging away with footsteps that echo throughout the bay.
Sitting back, you let out a sigh as youâre left alone once again.
â
The somber tone of that day never fully recuperates itself into something easier. Thereâs a constant pressure looming overhead that unfortunately isnât barometric. Itâs that of a ship set to fail and a man who treats revenge like a cure for loss. But on the other hand, one thing does change. Sukuna opens up.
He shows you a hologram with images of Simuria that leave you wistful for the greater universe. Space was never your forte, but the dense petrified wood forests and gaseous craters and mountains have your brain tripping over itself in curiosity of what insects could exist in those biomes, much to Sukunaâs dismay as he brushes you off as noisy.
As the days pass and your food supply begins to run short, youâre left with no option but to eat less as you quietly enter survival mode upon realizing Sukuna eats⊠well, rocks. So youâre left only with what was packed for you.
You were intended to have sent Kerm back by now. You werenât intended to find life like Sukuna. You werenât intended to bond. You werenât intended to be left with a yearning to explore the universe and see the things heâs seen. You werenât intended to slowly begin to wither. There was an out for you, as morbid as it is. A single dose ready to take once your mission was complete.
And yet, every day, Sukuna brings something new for you to see or experience. Itâs small, but itâs surprisingly meaningful. He shows you the vast cliff faces of a Simurian coast thatâs a famous vacation spot. He tells you stories of the gaseous craters within the planet that make much of it uninhabitable, hence the far smaller population across it, even before the Kerm. He demonstrates the use of four arms to their full extent and how his brain adapted. He shows you his tattoos. God, the tattoos.
He tells you all about how they each have meaning. How in Simuria, theyâre a mark of life events. His wrists were banded when he finished an equivalent of elementary school at twenty-eight. His upper arms were an equivalent of high school at thirty-six, and something akin to university marked his shoulders at sixty-two. Itâs a wonder to hear someone graduating university at sixty-two with their life still ahead of them.
He lifts his shirt and points to stripes along his shoulder and back. You swear youâre paying attention. You swear. He smirks, but he tells you nonetheless that they were from what you might consider a bachelorâs degree equivalent.
âWhat about your face?â You ask, tracing the ink on his jaw along the glass as you leave behind a smear.
âThat,â he states, âwas my choice. We all choose what our face will look like.â
âNo special event?â
âJust me,â he breathes.
It makes you smile.
He hates how much that very action sits under his ribs. It pokes at him, prods at him like it belongs there, reminding him that this wonât last forever.
One morning, he arrives with dark circles under his eyes. He notes that you both look tired. He knows his reasoning, but he canât place yours. Your energy is largely spent, yet you just awoke. Youâre not noisy anymore. He places a circular device on the ground. A holographic device, you recognize it right away, but itâs far larger than the usual one.
âYou wanted to see the mountains,â he states simply, ignoring the failed experiment to his left, in spite of the fact that he needs to start a new one with time of the essence. âYou will.â
Awaiting him in your usual nook by the window, youâre wrapped up in a blanket, smiling in spite of yourself. For the first time since you met, weak feels as though it properly describes your appearance, but you refuse to give up despite your bodyâs shortcomings as your stomach rumbles. Sukuna never points it out.
He runs his finger along the outer dial that his machinery tends to run on and it springs to life. You bring a hand up to block the light protruding from a high-lumen-count projector, squinting as the hologram doesnât just project something in a controlled, small environment, it extends to every wall as though youâre there. The bulb remains bright as Sukuna steps away from it, allowing you to see a mountain as though youâre there.
Itâs not a rebuilt landscape either, you realize as you press your hands to the glass to get a better view. Itâs a video. Itâs a bit shaky, and youâre certain that if it played audio, you might hear the camera operator panting. Every time it shakes and the hologram canât make sense of what itâs projecting, you squint, but it comes back in a moment. When it flashes suddenly, you catch a glimpse of Sukuna, following along behind the camera operator. He looks young. In human years, you would guess his twenties. Maybe three hundred for him. You canât help a smile as you note that he doesnât seem to have four arms. You wonder if they came later.
The camera flashes again as the operator moves it, revealing his own face along with Sukuna and four laughing Simurians. Sukuna still bears his usual aloof expression, but the joy in his eyes is palpable as they all pose for a photo. The camera operator looks largely like Sukuna, though he bears no facial tattoos and only a simple set of extra eyes. A twin, perhaps.
To Sukunaâs left is a Simurian with shoulder-length white hair whoâs much shorter than the rest of them with an eye in the center of their forehead, a tall and slender Simurian with horns and the same third eye, one with shaggy white hair and six striking blue eyes, and one with silky-looking black hair and four eyes, purple beyond your wildest beliefs.
âAre those your friends?â You query, covering a cough in your elbow.
Sukuna intently watches the action, chuffing when the camera turns away. âWe went on a trip after my fourth tattoo.â
âYou look young.â
He steps around the projector, moving closer to your window. âI was.â Heâs never been the most talkative, but he does ask more questions. You chalk it up to scientific curiosity. âAre Earth mountains like this?â Were you more keen, you might realize heâs deflecting you from the subject of the friends of which heâs mostly lost.
You stare around at the landscape. Simuria is largely rocky with giant craters. Itâs covered in iridescent minerals that seem to form under the far more gaseous and toxic-leaning environment. âSome,â you decide. âThe more harsh environments get colorful like this. Mostly, theyâre gray with trees. Kinda spiky green ones with pointed tops. We get snow, too, at the tops where itâs colder.â
Simuria is warm, from what youâve gathered, and his head tilts curiously at the thought of snow.
âYou know when you bring a liquid to a cold temperature and it freezes?â
He chuffs.
âLike that, but tiny shavings of it. Itâs white and cold. It falls from the clouds.â
âFascinating.â And he means it, too. Itâs the most intriguing part of all of your interactions with him. You donât learn through questioning as scientists anymore, you learn through sharing as friends.
âItâs beautiful,â you murmur to yourself, watching the video clip play out. It cuts off without so much as a sound of warning, the room returning to the usual bright and barren metal appearance youâve grown accustomed to. âSnow doesnât have much friction, so humans would go to the top of mountains and slide down.â
âYou have no cliffs?â
âNot really on the snowy mountains.â You scoot forward, leaning your shoulder against the window as you pull yourself into a tight ball with a blanket draped over your shoulders. âMostly in deserts. Desert mountains look more like Simurian ones, but mostly one color. Theyâre warmer, too. Most of the time.â
Subconsciously, Sukuna leans against the glass, his shoulder warming you enough that your eyes flutter shut. âWhat color?â
You yawn. âOrange. Itâs kinda like a darker version of your hair. If you squint.â
Absently running a hand through said locks, he stares out at the hangarâs walls, where the hologram projected mountains mere moments ago. âI think I know the color,â he murmurs mostly to himself. Rising from where he leans against the glass, his lips part to speak when he finds you sound asleep slumped against the glass.
His jaw tightens, a sharp pain rising behind his teeth at the sight of the tiny Human heâs grown fond of curled into a little ball aboard her ship. His friend. Slowly, a hand rises to the glass as something in his chest twists painfully. He recognizes the feeling, heâs no fool. Heâs spent over a thousand years alive and isnât a stranger to the pang gnawing at him as the noisy stowaway he picked up passes out in his presence.
To you, heâs safety. To him, you're more than just company.
And youâre wasting away in his hangar bay because some species heâs never come across decided that would be the case simply for having compassion. It brought about a mistake, sure, but you had compassion nonetheless where they did not.
He sucks in a breath, taking long strides over the metal floor to continue experimenting until you rise again. He works quietly, although he knows your hearing doesnât compare to his. He moves with silent ease in spite of his lumbering form and watches with a frown as every environmental change he puts either of the cells through doesnât bring out the result he wants. His cells adapt to the environment, but never recognize the Alveolarium as a threat.
Stepping back as he attempts to re-evaluate, he casts a glance back at you. Even if your energy wanes, your heart still beats steadily in his keen ears. He can get you back to Earth so long as he can figure out a solution to get energy back into your system somehow given that his food doesnât fit within your diet.
You stir with a yawn, seemingly roused by his glance. You press against the glass, sitting up and blinking a number of times. When you meet his gaze, a spark of energy ignites that has Sukuna wincing. You clamber against the metal, some sort of button or zipper on your clothes clanging hard against the metal. âSorry, Sukuna! I didnât realize I fell asleep.â
He growls, rubbing absently at his second ear tucked within salmon locks. âItâs fine,â he grumbles, although your company is more welcome than he gives off as you sit upright to watch his experimentation once more.
You offer suggestions that get you deadpan expressions and a dramatic roll of the eyes given your lack of knowledge on the subject of medicinal chemistry is lacking. You figure youâre better at telling stories anyway, and even if you lose your place here and there when your tiredness catches up with you, Sukuna always offers a guiding suggestion when you falter.
The following day is when he starts to notice a trend that doesnât greet either of you with warmth.
You drag yourself to the bridge later than usual without your morning granola bar. Sukuna offers you a mineral, but he knows it would break your teeth. He also offers meat, but you both already know your system rejects it. The blanket youâve been dragging around with you for the past few days is bundled so tightly around you that Sukuna would wager a guess that youâre colder than usual, too.
When you make a motion to point at something on the table, his gaze lingers on your trembling finger. He can hear your stomach. He knows youâre starving. Heâs watching your spirit fade, completely helplessly.
Sukuna, a man whoâs spent over two hundred years coming to terms with the past and adapting to being alone, finds himself completely at a loss and frustrated beyond his means when he finds you the following morning. Orâ more accuratelyâ when he doesnât find you.
His footsteps are even as he makes his way across the hangar. Your belongings remain at the glass, but you arenât there yet. He tilts his head, catching your heartbeat as a slow, steady thump that keeps him at bay, and moves to check on his most recent experiment. He frowns as he finds after the allotted time, his cells remain by their lonesome, still unable to identify your Human disease as a threat.
Truthfully, it perplexes him. You determined early on that you share enough DNA to potentially be susceptible to the same diseases. Hell, by all means this is something Simurians have already overcome. It came from the same source, so he canât figure out why his stem cells have yet to take to yours.
Carding his finger through his hair, he lets out a forlorn sigh, eyes shut for a long moment. Your heart is a steady drum in his ear, a reminder of what it is that heâs working towards. Had someone told him two weeks ago that heâd be helping such a pitiful little species overcome a disease of their own doing, he might not have believed them. But thereâs more to you than your brittle bone structure and weak muscle mass. Youâre smart. Perhaps not as advanced as he is, but youâre smart far beyond your thirty five years.
Youâre smart in the kind of way Sukuna can only dream. Heâs seen the way your mind works, how thoughts pour out before you even have time to put them together. Heâs seen how resilient you are in the face of certain death. But what really gets him is your attitude. You grin through every shortcoming. You ensure him that if you keep trying, eventually your minds will come together and youâll figure it out. You never acknowledge that breakthroughs like this take centuries. You didnât even blink when he revealed that heâs been searching for the source of the Kerm for over a hundred years.
Youâre unlike anything Sukunaâs ever known. And something dark crawls beneath his skin when you donât rouse by the time youâre usually eating. Noon, you called it once.
With his experimental cells set in an extremely cold environment, he leaves the workspace to round your ship. His head tilts as he listens for your heartbeat as though it ever left his periphery, but itâs as sound as itâs ever been. Slowed by sleep perhaps, but sound. He comes to a halt when it grows louder as he nears your sleeping bay. His hand drifts across the scraped metal where your ship tilted on its axis when it scraped the ground as he scooped you up, resting along the damaged hull.
He hones in on you, and finds youâre still breathing. Still there. Still alive. But shallow. Thereâs no wheeze, no sharp inhales. Itâs simple and shallow.
His brow furrows as he turns to fully face the ship. You arenât just malnourished anymore. Something is wrong. His gaze lifts, traveling along the mechanics that keep your ship in one piece, far more primitive than the smooth and compact design of his. He doesnât know what he expects to find, but when what heâs faced with isnât an easy explanation, he turns on his heel.
He moves with more severity than he has in a century, no longer silent as he pads over extended corridors of metal that leave him questioning ever having a ship of this size. When he reaches his lab, he reaches for a scanner and jogs back to your ship.
It only takes a moment to calibrate its sensor to search only for organic matter. He lifts it to your ship. Alveolarium, as expected. Blood, and healthy stem Alveolar cells, as expected. All in small quantities.
Until everything lights up red. Immense amounts of blood, of musculature and tissue, along with a high volume of water. Heâs found you. And along with everything he expects of an organic creature, a revelation that makes his blood run cold.
An uncontrolled quantity of Alveolarium. Youâre infected.
Somehow, between the multitude of items youâve exchanged and the experiments youâve run by your lonesome, you must have been exposed. Your energy is being sapped because your body is fighting a disease engineered to kill.
He harshly clicks and growls to himself in a series of muttered curses, as he stares at the reading. For the first time since the bioweapon you call Kerm was found on Simuria over two hundred years ago, he finds himself completely and utterly helpless yet again. Control slips through his fingers like the sands of time as he raises the scanner once more as though it might reveal a different fate, but it never does.Â
His chest rises and falls heavily, his arms falling to his sides as he stares blankly. His mind takes a moment to wrap around the reality that youâre not Simurian. Youâre human. Youâre noisy and weak, your mind canât keep up with your thoughts, and youâre invasive as hellâ you wonât adapt to the illness. And god, is it quiet without you.
Urgency kicks in like a long-dormant volcano coming to life as he moves back to the table, evaluating how many samples he has left. He draws more of his cells, ignoring the tingling feeling in his arm as he injects himself with a drug to draw stem cells from his marrow. He drags more of his lab to the hangar, setting out tables and creating extra boxes able to pressurize to the same barometric pressure as that of an oxygenated atmosphere.
He lowers incubation times to do more tests, changing the parameters so often that his notes become a mess.
You donât move. He hears you shuffle once on the first day. On the second, he grits his teeth as he listens to your harsh breaths. Your moans, your groans. You move at one point in what sounds like a drag of your feet and he hears water, but heâs not even positive if you make it back to your quarters.
As he watches one of his cells back off from Humanityâs infected lung cells, he leans over the table on two arms, sucking in a long breath. He doesnât know how long he has. He doesnât know how long you can survive without food. He doesnât know if you have more water.
His second pair of hands ball into fists at his sides as he shuts all four eyes tightly. He didnât know what to do two hundred years ago watching something so similar take out his entire species. He doesnât know what to do now, stuck in the same situation. His knowledge is far more advanced than everything he knew back then. His technology and abilities exceed everything from back then. So why the fuck canât he figure it out?
Is it that your suggestions were more useful than he gave you credit for? No, is it that he simply misses them? That they kept his mind from running off-rails into mania?
He works himself to the bone until heâs leaning with his back to your window. With one knee pulled up, he rests his elbow atop it, using his hand to block the light from his pounding head. He absently rubs at the bridge of his nose, eyes shut as he runs through formulas in his head until his mind begins to give in. The only thing he can bring his mind to hone in on is the sound of your heart. The steady reminder of the noisy human heâs doing this for in the first place.
Just as he begins to drift off, the gentle buzz of lights in your ship comes to a halt, a mechanical voice brought to life by necessity.
âBackup power activated. Life support systems online.â
The alien jolts, his slumber interrupted as he stares up at your ship with wild eyes. They flick all around the bridge as he takes in the red light and the way the buttons along the navigation board have dimmed, many shutting off altogether.
âBackup?â He states the word as though the program might respond to him. âOnline?â Neither word is in his vocabulary, and as he gets to his feet, all four hands pressed to the glass, he searches desperately for meaning. âHuman? Human?â His mind is too worn out to fill in the gaps with context as panic coats his movements like a snake slowly seeping its venom into its prey.
With a final call of your name, his fingers squeak as they drag along the glass. He turns back to his work station, dragging his hands violently over his scalp. He clicks and growls to himself, slamming a lower hand down over one of the sealed pressurized boxes. It cracks easily from his strength, putting his experiments immediately at risk. His eyes widen, two hands raising as though he might be able to stop it with his bare hands. He rushes back through his ship, racing through corridors to find something capable of stopping the crack before it shatters altogether.
Returning with a handful of options, he opts to melt a stone element from his planet into the crack. Itâs the safest option he can think of. Sitting back from the soldering gun, he collapses onto the floor in a flurry of exhausted limbs. His stomach mouth parts as his body expends much of his energy on his mental state, only furthering his trouble.
In an effort to gather his thoughts, he leans over his knees, dragging his hands down his face. Backup. Red lights came on, some systems shut down. Using context clues, he can put that together. He pushes down his panic as he works on the second word. Online. He can still hear your ship whirring. He can hear your breathing. Life support must be working.
Okay. One problem down.
No matter how he changes the co-culture or adjusts the selective pressure, no matter how he adjusts his hypothesis or the duress he puts his cells under, the results remain the same. His cells adapt. But never to the disease. They co-exist in separate worlds.
Two eyes flick towards your ship, reminded of you, stuck on your own in a cell of your own doing. His fingers curl into his palm as he drives his focus back to his makeshift lab.
He canât figure out why his cells wonât recognize yours. You may be different species, but his cells should recognize the pathogen in the Alveolarium as similar to the same illness that took out a majority of Simuria. Heâs already adapted past it, and the cell structure isnât that different.
He drags his nails over his scalp while his lower arms remain in fists. How much power do you have left? How much longer can you survive without water? Youâre largely compounded of it based on his scan, can you survive without intake?
With a harsh growl, he pushes to his feet, ignoring the way his muscles protest. Pain simmers as he pushes them, keeping the reins on his control over this situation with an iron grasp. He pushes through the burn, pushes his mind to its limits as he works out chemical compounds with what brain power he has left, all the while continuing to alter the cellsâ environment until he has nothing left to give.
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Your ship doesnât do its usual chime come morning. Whatâs worse is that your coughing startles him awake. Your heart stutters, a deadly sound for any species.
Hunched over in an odd position on the floor, Sukuna cracks his neck, rubbing at it as adrenaline pumps through his veins.
Youâre dying. For all the tireless work heâs doing, youâre still dying.
He reaches out for the window where you once sat, dragging his fingers over it like your very ship might fall from his grasp at any moment. His breathing accelerates, his chest leaden with the gravity of the situation. Resting his entire body against the glass, all four arms settle along the panel. His head rests unevenly on the panel, off-kilter at the whim of the plate that resides over the right side of his face. A low rumble starts from deep within his chest, erupting in a full-blown furious fit of hisses, clicks, Simurian syllables and roars.
He curses in his mother tongue like he did over a hundred years ago. Heâs spent over a century learning, advancing, and searching the damn stars for a bioweapon only for the very same thing to be his demise once again.
Peeling himself off of your ship, he reaches back to rub at a kink in his neck. His first issue was a lack of understanding of your ship system. He fixed that. His second issue is the cells. He canât fix that without trial and error. His third issue is you dying, which is made up of two issues. The pressure of his ship would crush you, but your own life support systems are failing. When your ship depressurizes, the hull will be crushed, your oxygen will flow out into the sulfuric compounds that make up his air, and youâll suffocate.
And then thereâs the dehydration. And he doesnât know which one is a more immediate threat. Regardless, his immediate problem is your ship. He stares at it in an effort to figure out how to remove it from the equation.
He could create a new box for you, something smaller than your ship, create his own life support systems for you and pressurize the box by pumping in oxygen and out carbon dioxide, similar to the box he uses for experiments. Itâs not impossible in theory, but he doesnât have the materials on-board to build a box of that size, nor does he have an extra generator capable of creating oxygen at that scale.
The only materials aboard are from your ship, the very thing he canât tear apart right now.Â
He drags his hand back through his hair, tearing it straight from the scalp as he fails to find a way to guarantee containment while also pressurizing whatever he can work out. On a small scale, he can manage with whatâs in his lab. On a large scale, all he can truly manage is his ship itself. His shoulders fall slowly. His ship.
The pressure of your atmosphere wouldnât be a big deal on a creature like him. His ship could handle that without question. His muscles would survive. He could wear a suit, pump the sulfuric components through it. He could save you from the immediate threat. For a moment, the thought sits with him. It slips into his chest along his ribs, curling around his pounding hearts. It almost doesnât feel real.
But when the dust settles and heâs left simply staring at your window, it becomes suddenly, startlingly, real. He turns on his heel like a man on a mission, moving through the ship as he heads for the mechanical room. He wrenches the small metal door with too much force, causing it to bend as he slips down into the tight space.
Machinery hums and breathes around him, worn pipes humming on every side as he shimmies through the space you might think was built by someone else given how much Sukuna is forced to squeeze through it. A whirring tank brushes his skinâ hotâ burning him in the process, but itâs barely a distraction when heâs aiming for the back of the room.
Sure enough, the sulfuric gas generator residing at the back comes into view quickly. The generator currently keeping his ship pressurized could be repurposed for oxygen through chemical reactions similar to whatâs currently generating his sulfuric gasses. He can suit up, andâ
His hands come to a halt as he finds himself scanning his surroundings like it might change his fate.
]He only has one generator. He can only create sulfuric compounds for his own atmosphere on a small scale with what he has onboard his ship, but not enough to support him long-term, and whatâs currently stored wonât last forever. And thatâs only the tip of the iceberg, when he considers that he still has to kill the Kerm, on a planet whose atmosphere he knows nothing about, with creatures built to kill whether through sheer violence or illness. He canât risk using what sulfuric compounds he has stored while aboard his own ship.
In the cramped space with the generatorâs hatch open, he presses the ball of his palm against his temple. Thereâs an answer. One that heâs already considering. But the cost could be his life. He could make the change to oxygen and pray his body is forced to adapt and maybe save you, should he survive. Itâs either that or sit here and listen to your heart and breathing weaken until youâre nothing but a shadow in his hangar bay.
On the flip side, if he doesnât adapt, then youâre both dead.
Sukuna has always been a man of certainties. He chose science because it makes sense. He chose science, because variables donât react without reason. He chose science because it gives him control of his outcomes through error and studious attention. But this decision isnât about science or reason.
This decision is about the hundreds of Simurians he feels responsible for losing. Itâs about his revenge against the Kerm. Itâs about the noisy human wheezing in his hangar bay who told him she wanted to see Simuria. Itâs about the stupid girl whose heart stuttered as she solemnly lied to him about being okay with her fate. Itâs about how cold your hand felt, even through the glass.
He barks out a Simurian curse, reaching for the tools necessary to begin generating a different gas.
He wrenches on a cable, giving it a harsh twist to unlock it from its position. The ship comes alight with warnings that he opts to block out as the pressure of the hull begins to shift. Itâs not painful to begin, even as the shipâs very structure complains with harsh moans and groans. He floods the chamber with sodium chloride and ups the heat until it begins producing oxygen. As the remaining sulfuric gas runs into a reserve chamber, he shuts the generator and continues to ignore the creaking and warnings his ship spews.
Getting to his feet again, he slides through the tight space, sucking in every last breath he can of sulfuric gasses as they begin to dissipate.
Oxygen hurts. He pushes through the pain, trudging through the halls as he fails to catch his breath, certain that the generator is working when his muscles feel loose as the pressure of the ship adjusts to the new gas flowing through its chambers. He turns down a long hall, ignoring the flashing lights along every wall while the hull groans. When he finally reaches the hangar, his chest doesnât ache or burn, it sears like something is clawing at him from within, begging to be let out. Itâs not his first brush with pain like this, but thereâs something different when itâs his lungs. Tears form along his lash line as he lacks sulfuric gasses to his brain, the compounds unable to pump blood to his most important organs.
When he reaches your ship, he stumbles into it, still upright through sheer willpower alone. He slams his fist into the panel nearest where he last knew you were, loosening the edge. His fingers curl around the newly revealed edge and with all the might left in his body, he tears it off. Along with it comes a series of mechanics as your ship begins to beep and protest in tandem with his. Only once he tears through some wiring with a series of flashing lights does your ship finally shut off.
This is itâ the test of his own scientific capabilities. Whether or not you survive in the environment heâs artificially created within his own ship.
The blaring alarms mitigate his ability to find you, his head whipping one way or the other. He drags himself through the pain, through the mind-numbing brain fog, picking up a half-finished bottle of water he spots on a counter along the way, until he finds you.
Youâre sitting awkwardly in a corner, shivering, but conscious. Alive.
Your eyes are harshly lidded when you stare up at him, clinging to your blanket like itâs a lifeline. Your dry lips part, a look of sheer confusion falling over your expression like you doubt what youâre seeing in the dark corridor of your ship whose systems have completely failed.
Sukunaâs chest struggles to rise and fall evenly, every breath furthering the pain behind his eyes as his lungs fail to pump sulfuric compounds into his bloodstream and his brain function falters. He doesnât let his knees give out until heâs able to hand you the water bottle.
âSâkuna?â Your voice sounds as though itâs been scraped against the very compounds that make up Simurian mountains. You sound as though you donât trust your voice, let alone your mind.
Close enough to leave the water within your reach, the giant alienâs body finally gives out. The water hits the floor beside you just within reach as one arm attempts to grab the counter that you lean against. His palm brushes the surface, but his body drops like a stone to the floor beside you, scraping his palm. His vision is narrow as he uses what little strength he has left to envelop you in his arms, acting as a blanket for your shivering form.
The moment he touches you, clarity shoots through your mind like lightning. This is no fever dream, youâre not waking up out of sheer necessity of needing water or a way to warm up. Itâs a shock to your system in more ways than one. Heâs not just warmâ his body runs like a furnace in comparison to yours. Heâs so warm that curling into him isnât a choice, itâs survival and he knows it.
The very thing that kept you apart for so long hits you harder than the shock that Sukuna is beside you. âWaitââ the word comes weakly as you give his arm a shove. It barely affects him. âYou canâtââ A cough settles at the back of your throat, interrupting your thoughts. âWhat did you do?â You rasp out between the kind of coughs that wrack your body and send spikes of pain to every receptor that will listen.
But he doesnât respond, any semblance of consciousness long gone as his arms go limp. You canât move him. You can barely move yourself. The most you can do is hope that his body takes to oxygen like it did to science, or whatever it was that truly gave him an extra pair of arms. You assume thatâs his hope too.
The flashing lights and warning buzzers continue to blare outside the hull. Your ship offers very little cover from the noise, but enough that your already-foggy mind is able to drown out the noise with the static of illness. Unable to fight the heaviness held over you, you shakily grab the water. You may be too delirious to grasp the true gravity of the situation and what Sukunaâs done, but you know better than to overlook the gift of water.
The massive alien wrapped around you on the ground makes it easy to lean into him, basking in his warmth as it quells a modicum of your shivers. The longer you sit there in the flashing lights and blaring sirens, the more your body gives in to the grasps of the sandman. Subconsciously, you lean into Sukunaâ passed out beside youâ until your head leans against his shoulder. It doesnât rise and fall, but you find comfort in the fact that when you press a hand to his chest in search of something, anything, that might give you hope, his heart pushes a single beat through. One after another, each of his two hearts continues to push through the unlikely situation.
That reassurance makes it easier to give in to the forces pushing you to unconsciousness. Because you recognize Sukunaâs actions as more than just kindness in the face of danger.
This is a species youâve never witnessed whose primary goal was revenge, brought to his knees by the very stowaway he huffed and puffed over being noisy. Not by manipulation or force either, but by choice. Sukuna didnât just choose to save you. He chose pain, he chose to bet on low odds. He chose to put off his mission, and he chose to endanger and expose himself to disease, all for you.
He isnât just asking you to live. Heâs commanding it.
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Sukuna doesnât stir for forty eight hours. You arenât much better, but at least your body faces wakefulness in the face of dehydration. You donât know how long Sukuna can survive without food or water, but you have no other option but to hope itâs longer than you.
Midway through the third day is when he finally stirs. It comes in twitches at first. Itâs not dramatic, but in the few moments where youâre awake and delirious and you spot any semblance of movement, you cling to him like your life depends on it. Because it does.
Next come the wheezing breaths. Then groans, and sharp inhales that sound unnatural. You feel his pain deep in your ribs like a stabbing sensation. His fingers drag so harshly against the metal floor that his fingers break through it, the metal proving to be little more than an ant to his elephant strength.
Consciousness is dramatic for him.
Like a switch being flicked, his body comes to life and with it, his pain and confusion. He flies back, head ramming harshly into the cabinets you had been leaning against. He huffs out his displeasure, but the sensation is harsh in his chest. His lungs may have adapted, but oxygen is a harsh forced change to sulfur. The compounds shred within his chest, something that has one of his many hands flying up to grip at his chest.
He mutters a harsh curse under his breath in his mother tongue that sends pain back through his throat like a ricocheting bullet. In the cramped confines of your torn-open shipâs hull, he rests his head back against the door to the lab. Every breath is fire in the large expanse of his chest, his lungs accepting the oxygen not out of desire, but need.
He mutters a curse again, recoiling far less as he pushes through the pain. Ignoring the deliriousness of pain and the cramping in his gut, he cards a hand through mildly oily locks, pushing them away from his forehead. When his gaze glues itself to you, blearily watching him from the floor in a state of suspended wakefulness, he freezes altogether.
Youâre alive.
His chest finds a new way to deliver pain as he hunches forward, sliding back to the spot where he had clearly been your pillow if your odd position is anything to go off of. He glides over the floor, taking a seat where he had been in an effort to provide a pillow.
The sensation of his returned warmth has your lashes fluttering as you stare up at him. He can see the gears physically turning in your mind as you make sense of him being there, awake, and alive as well.
For a moment, his brain betrays him. He moves on instinct, brushing his thumb over your collar. Only to be met with a weak smack to the chest. He blinks, staring down at you with confusion woven within his fondness.
âYou couldââ you cough, âhave died.â
A series of growls and clicks between syllables you donât recognize fall from his lips like heâs giving you a full scolding in a foreign language. It almost brings a smile to your dry lips as you recognize only two words.
âNoisy human.â His muscles are fraught from disuse as he hoists you into his lap.
The alarms may have stopped blaring, but the lights around him continue to flash in warning, reminding him of the reason he underwent this in the first place. Under the duress of having very little energy after evolution and his chest protesting his every movement, he groans as he pushes to his feet with you cradled close. He pulls you into his chest, casting a glance down at you as even in sickness, your eyes seem to shine as you watch your environment change. You never fail to bring wonder along with you, no matter the circumstances.
He treats you with the fragility of a flower as he brings you to his lab, moving over a panel that has no identifiable buttons, yet as Sukuna moves his hand over it, you hear the shift behind you. A bed reveals itself from the wall, not entirely unlike that of a human, though itâs a far harder material that he makes adjustments to in order to conform to your body as he lays you down.
His medical equipment isnât unlike yours. He gets you started on an IV without hesitation, preventing the first of his major worries, and watches as your body shuts down, grateful for the new fluid intake. Every time you fall asleep is no easier than the last. One of his hearts skips, then the second one, but he takes the opportunity to continue his work. He moves the samples back to the lab, no longer bothering with the oxygenated box as heâs able to work faster now.
Waiting is the hardest part. It leaves him feeling powerless, pushing himself to his limits to distract himself from the fact that you look weaker every time his eyes glue themselves to you.
âDaburaâs anniversary was yesterday,â he mutters one morning, standing between you and his experiments where he can monitor both.
His lower hands rest on his waist, the upper arms crossed over his chest like twisting wrong doesnât still send a shock to his system as his lungs continue to mold themselves to their new dual-purpose. He pushes through, idly taking a step towards you and the pile of blankets he stole from your ship that keep you from shivering.
âYou would like the celebration,â he remarks, meandering to the side of your bed. He lowers himself to take a closer look at you, before sinking to his knees. His upper arms rest along the edge of the bed, chin seated atop them. âWe have aââ he pauses, glancing aside at the realization that he frustratingly canât even tell you about the celebration because he lacks the words. He growls, his expression pushing into a scowl as he utters the Simurian word for âfireâ. âA heat light. Itâs big,â he presses on. âWe use chemicals to create oxygen vacuums,â he continues. âEveryone comes from across the planet. We eat a lot. Drink.â
You donât stir.
âYou would have liked Satoru. He was noisy, too.â His gaze rises from where he sits to sweep your face. You donât have the gentle look heâs grown accustomed to anymore, your features sunken and permanently pulled into a pained expression. It wrenches at his chest more than the pain of evolution somehow. âHe studied the Kaliyans. Some Simurians have deep ties to them. Neither him or I did, so he chose to study them. We never did find answers beforeâŠâ He huffs, muttering a curse of clicks and growls. He lets his cheek fall to his arms, at a loss. He shuts all four eyes at the sound of a timer going off, sucking in a breath as he wearily pushes to his feet.
He stares at the hologram emptily. It irks him to see the Alveolarium still rampant, but he expects no less at this point. He doesnât know what exactly heâs expecting to get out of these at this point when experiments like this donât just take days. They take years. They take materials and vigorous testing and⊠He throws his gaze over his shoulder, noting how shallow your breaths are now.
He doesnât have years. He might not even have days, yet again. He bought himself more time, but heâs back to square one with control slipping through his fingers yet again. He grits his teeth so harshly it sends a sharp pain straight to his brain. One would only catch his wince if they were paying attention, as his bottom left eye twitches from the sensation.
Padding out from the room to give himself a break to eat as he overthinks every equation until thereâs no semblance of hope left, he sits casually at the bridge, staring out at the planet below. Green clouds and space debris make up the remnants of the species that created the Kerm, long extinct by the hands of their own bioweapon. Below those clouds are the pinks and blues that make up the largely crystalline surface where the beetle-adjacent species now resides, hungry and in search of new prey.
Kerm. The thought settles between his ribs alongside the pain of his evolution. He always envisioned his arrival at their planet to be more triumphant. He envisioned traveling to its surface to ensure that his hypothesis was correct and theyâve eaten beyond their means, invasive to their own planet and destroying its very ecosystem until all that remains are themselves. Then leaving without a trace of the Kerm, the planet, or his own actions.
Yet all this trip has done is resurface every scar he buried a century ago. He scratches at them until what remains are no longer just scars, but open wounds. Forcing down what food he can manage, he drags a hand down his jaw, staring out at the planet, Methalon. Itâs silent for a long moment as he inhales and holds the breath.
In Simurian, he finds himself muttering to himself. âWhat if youâre right, human?â Another extended silence as the thought lingers. âWhat if⊠Kerm are more than your cause? What if theyâre your cure, too?â
He taps his finger along the panel in which controls reside as he mulls the thought over, before springing into action. He doesnât have the luxury to consider the consequences, pressing a palm to the controls as they react to electromagnetic pulses emitted from his brain and read through his fingers as he brings the ship to life for the first time in a couple of weeks, disturbing the spacerock thatâs settled around the ship.
With a groan, the shipâs nose shifts as he points it towards the planetâs surface. The pressure surrounding the ship shifts as he nears the atmosphere, far more dense than what you would be accustomed to, so he thanks the stars that itâs him going in place of you. He stops the ship a short distance from the planetâs surface, setting it to hover within the densely gaseous atmosphere. Itâll keep you out of reach of the Kerm, which he hypothesizes shouldnât be able to reach you with their stubby wings.
Should he be wrong, he supposes youâll both succumb to his stupidity. He almost cracks a morbid smile at the thought. Not that you both might be a lost cause because of his decisions, but because he so often chides you for being stupid, when heâs recklessly allowing himself to be stupid now, too.
But heâs certainly not noisy. No, he talks to you because you like it. Not because he does. Heâs quiet.
Suiting up, he drops to the planetâs surface with his limited sulfuric compound supply, his tank unsuited for oxygen. Gravity pulls him down like nothing heâs ever experienced as he drops heavily to the surface. He expected the dense atmosphere, but it still presses down on him like a weight.
Crystallic compounds crunch underfoot, and he shouldnât consider himself shocked when he comes across the first series of Kerm, or as he knows them, Methalonians. He supposes the name isnât very fitting, however, given that theyâre unnatural. They killed whatever species was more befitting of the name.
The first one turns towards him, its head swiveling as its iridescent shell reflects the gorgeous light of the crystalline environment aiding it to blend in. It regards Sukuna with an entirely animal head tilt that might fool someone who doesnât know their methods, but Sukuna isnât fooled. He grips his EMP gun tighter, preparing himself for the inevitable. While the Kerm believe heâs fooled, he sets down a heavy containment pod, opening it with a hiss.
When he faces the group again, all fifteen or so creatures are facing him. Their wings buzz and hiss as they communicate, their antennae twitching through the air as they coordinate what Sukuna already knows to be an attack.
This time, however, heâs prepared. The first one approaches him slowly and curious, feigning a kindness they donât possess. The brutish alien keeps up the facade in an effort to keep himself from being buried by a sea of Kerm.
He reaches a suited-up and reinforced hand out to the creature, watching its mandibles click together. It approaches slowly, peering up at Sukunaâs outwardly non-threatening demeanor. Its head tilts as it nears, nudging his fingers like it might provoke him.
But itâs not Sukuna that breaks the facade first. The creature zips forward, smashing its mandibles together where Sukunaâs hand just was, giving him enough time to lunge back. As the rest of the group moves in a coordinated hive towards him, he unleashes a small EMP attack that temporarily disorients the Kerm, sending them in more varied directions.
One that approaches him meets the fate of a heated vibrating dagger to its thorax, while another leaps at Sukunaâs shoulder. He spins, wrenching his shoulder in an effort to dislodge it from his suit, but its mandibles dig into the material. The material is impenetrable by their mandibles, but fuck if it doesnât hurt anyway.
Hissing, Sukuna throws an arm around the Kerm to prevent it from leaving as he pulls the gut-ridden blade from the previous Kerm to lodge it into the next one. He remains largely in control, throwing one off to tear another from its own thorax with the blade the following moment until the smaller crowd re-coordinates itself. Sukuna launches another small EMP attack, throwing two of the group off, while the remaining four all leap at him at once. Mandibles clamp down on one shoulder, while another clings to his abdomen, choosing to methodically jab at the spots where his organs are.
Smart little asshole.
Sukuna recoils, hissing as pain rips through his stomach just beyond where his second mouth can reach. It momentarily disorients him, knocking him to the ground long enough that the remaining two Kerm are able to pile themselves onto him as well. They separate him from both the EMP and dagger, the sound of the vibrating tool over the crystalline earth grating on his nerves.
He shuts his eyes tightly, attempting to reset himself as he evaluates how much heâs been stamped down. He grits his teeth, grunting as he manages to lift an arm and throw one creature off with enough force to disorient it. The freed hand allows him to get enough leverage to flip himself over, slamming one hand straight through the creatureâs shell. With one fierce glare, he flips the fight back in his favor, grabbing an incoming Kerm by the head and crushing it in one hand.
With a majority of his movement freed, he picks up the EMP again, blasting the remaining three insects and smashing them too, leaving only the one he tossed aside earlier. He grabs it by the thorax, wrangling it between two arms as he shoves it into the containment box with his spare set of hands. Once itâs inside, he lets out a huff, staring down at his gut-covered suit. Heâll need to be sure he carefully washes himself and his suit after this, given that he doesnât want to expose you to more diseases that the bioweapon could have hidden beneath its shell.
Getting back to his feet, he better evaluates the surrounding environment. Thereâs evidence of trees, of civilization and buildings in the distance now turned to rubble and ash. He doesnât have much sulfuric compounds left to breathe, so he figures heâll do a once-over of the planet from within the ship, focusing his efforts back on a cure for you as he returns to the safety of his ship.
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Splaying the Kermâs insides across his workbench proves to be a disgusting feat. Even within a containment box, the smell permeates the damn room. He ends up moving it into the hangar, which by some grace has better filtration, but Sukuna finds himself further beaten down by the smell. As if his failures werenât enough.
Unlike his cells, the Kermâs stem cells do attack the Alveolarium⊠Unfortunately, no matter how he attempts to alter them, they only ever seem to act as aggressors.
For as smart as Sukuna is, he finds himself missing your curiosity. Your stupid questions. You challenge him. Not just because youâre noisy, but because youâre far more willing to approach the unlikely with an open mind. You lack the knowledge he has, specializing in natural biology where Sukuna excels in chemistry, cytology, geology, archeology, and engineering, but heâs also had a few extra years. Your lack of specific knowledge allows you to excel in general knowledge that Sukuna found himself praising you for.
Mentally. Itâs easier to show fondness through actions than words, after all.
Bringing a hand up to his eyes, he presses a thumb and forefinger into them, yawning as every continued failure sets him back not just physically, but mentally too.
He collapses at the base of your bed, your breathing setting his nervous system into a furious rage of emotion as he realizes for the first time how close he truly is to losing you, with no cure in sight. Your species is weak in every sense of the word. Your muscles lack the build that Simurians have, your brainâs capacity is low, your immune system could be knocked over by a harsh wind, and yet Sukuna canât help but find you endearing. Your lifespan is barely a smear in the grand scheme of his life, and yet the brutish alien, a species who mates for life, finds himself wondering how many ways you might be able to throw his life into disarray.
He wants your annoying quips. He wants your too-loud rambles. He wants to feel you warm in his arms, your eyes bright and wide as he shows you a Simurian mountaintop in some dumb-looking suit of his creation.
He slams his head back against your bed with enough force to rattle the very stone that makes it up. Dragging his hands down his face, the most he can do is stare at the experiments as one by one the timers go off and heâs left with one failure after another. His gaze splits as he looks between not just one, but four separate failures. Pushing his hands back through his hair, he balls his fists within the strands, eyes shut tight. Sitting so close to you, he still feels far. He finds himself mourning something he has yet to lose.
You havenât awoken in several days, and as much as he wishes he could equate it to illness, the fact is that youâre dying. He can pump as many nutrients as he wants straight into your body without allowing your stomach the opportunity to reject his food, itâll only do so much when itâs not your stomach fighting you anymore. Itâs your lungs.
Every round of failed experiments is another scathing tear at his wounds as he leans against your bed on the floor. His gut aches where the Kerm attempted to strategically puncture his suit and beneath his performance longsleeve are several mild puncture wounds that only serve as annoyances in the grand scheme of things.
âIâm the foolish one,â he states simply out of the blue. âNot you.â He doesnât follow it up with a long-winded explanation or flourish, itâs as simple as he makes it. You only ever did what you thought was right, giving every living creature the benefit of the doubt. It landed you in a cell, parked in his garage, but god damn it. You gave life your all. You lived without regrets. Sukunaâs lifespan trumps yours, and yet he lives with every weight heâs ever conjured still boiling under his skin.
Heâs spent over a hundred years building himself into an impenetrable wall. The kind of man that doesnât let his past haunt him. Yet here you are, under his skin like a leech and wrapped around his mind with roots that dig straight for his hearts.
Heâs so wrapped up in his thoughts that he doesnât feel your hand at first, as it slips into his hair. He jolts when at last he feels movement against his head, whipping up to face you. He meets your eyes from barely over the bed, heavily hooded as you regard him with a small smile in spite of yourself.
His shoulders fall as he approaches the side of the bed again, resting his head atop his arms. His lips press into a thin line as he doesnât just let you reach back out, but leans into your touch against his cheek.
âYou know,â you rasp, unsurprisingly coughing. âI was wrong about Kerm, but I wasnâtââ another cough, âwrong about you.â
His brow furrows, a deep scowl overtaking his features. Your words sound startlingly like the kind of thing that one might say when theyâre coming to terms with the decisions they made in life, further wrenching his hearts.
âThanks for trying to help Earth.â
He growls and clicks his displeasure with your words, earning a laugh that feels warm even in sickness. When you quiet down, his muttering is nearly unintelligible. âI donât care about Earth.â
âI know,â you smile, your thumb trailing down his cheek as one lower eye flutters shut. âI like you too, Sukuna.â
He allows himself the peace of shutting his eyes, kneeling beside your bed with his cheek in your hand until his legs go numb and you pass out again. Pain spikes through his knees when he finally rises and straightens them, sighing as he wearily looks over his experiments again. His gaze passes over a hologram displaying one of his cells idly standing by as he considers what the hell he could possibly be doing wrong when something finally hits him like the full force of a jet engine as something dangerous surges into his chestâ hope.
His cells are part of a system. A system capable of sending electromagnetic pulses like thoughts to his cells in order to trigger mutation. Sure, the cells will mutate on their own no matter what you put them through, but could the reason they arenât accepting your cells be because thereâs no system to indicate to his cells that thereâs an issue?
Heâs been approaching the whole situation under the lens of his cells being anti-pathogens, when in fact theyâre closer to mutagens. They arenât a cure, they would never be accepted as a cure. In fact, heâs willing to wager a bet that youâre right and there is a cure that could be pulled from the Kerm, but he doesnât have the time to figure that out.
His cells could very well re-write your DNA. They could overwrite important information, they could make you more sick. He doesnât know. His experiments will never work without a live test subject. But on the flip side, they could save you. They could mutate your cells into something capable of handling Alveolarium. Quite frankly, when both alternatives are death, heâs willing to give it a shot.
He moves across the room quickly, hitting a dial that brings to life a hologram in order to act as a whiteboard. He takes your weight and general body size, measuring the exact quantity of his cells that would need to be injected in order to fight a full system infection without the dose being lethal, or possibly mutating beyond control. Gene therapy is a risky move by all means, but he doesnât have any other options.
He moves through the lab with ease as he extracts a new sample from his lower arm, moving it in a box to ensure his cells arenât contaminated. He isolates the cells necessary at a dosage he prays is non-lethal and injects them into a sample of healthy stem cells you provided before you got sick to act as carriers.
With a final check of his calculations, he moves to your bedside, praying the healthy cells trick your body into accepting his cells. Sucking in a breath, he injects the gene therapy, and pulls up a chair to wait.
Thereâs nothing ceremonious about the wait. Sukuna busies himself by continuing to search for a cure, something you can send to Earth assuming he didnât rip through the return vessels in his effort to get to you. After every pair of gloves he tosses aside, he always returns to the same chair to wait, resting his head on the edge of your bed.
On the second day when he wakes up with his hair glued to his forehead by sweat and drool dripping down his cheek, he moves to wipe it when he finds his head weighed down. He blinks, unable to see past the arms crossed under his cheek, but when he lifts his gaze just slightly, he finds youâve shifted for the first time in days. Your hand is settled on the back of his head, fingers curled into his hair.
When he tries to tilt his head, your hand falls away again. Youâre still asleep, but the hope in his chest surges.
Your face fills out properly over the next couple of days. He seems to miss your waking hours whenever they do happen on his horribly varied sleep schedule, but your coughing fits begin to die down and your breathing evens out.
Itâs almost a week later when you wake up with an ache in your muscles like no other, but relief in your chest. The ceiling should be unfamiliar, but even within your fever dreams, you knew glimpses of him were real. Your head lolls to the side, the bedding beneath you rough in spite of its conformity to your body. Across the room, Sukuna moves around the ship in a frantic bout of quick movements. Thereâs a crudeness to his movements that doesnât fit the put-together Simurian youâve come to know. You catch a glance of the side of his face, noting the dark circles under two eyes that rest in a familiar fashion on his face, while those that sit angled along flesh are simply squinting more than usual.
He yawns, betraying the obvious. Thereâs a slight tremor to his hand as he uses a pipette to transfer cells. He sets a phial down, his lower arms heavily leaning over his work table. Itâs obvious weariness plagues him to his marrow, but he doesnât stop for a second.
âSukuna?â
Crash!
In the flurry of his limbs leaving the table as he whips around, he sends an empty flask to the floor. Not a single one of his eyes shifts to follow the mess, frantically flickering around your face as he searches for signs of illness. Rather than the dull look heâs faced for the past week, he finds a gleam that he mentally pockets for later. He moves towards you in slow, lumbering steps like he doesnât quite believe what heâs seeing, before lowering down to a kneel. His skin is deeply calloused, far denser than human skin, as his hands come to rest on your cheeks.
You find yourself biting back a smile as the stoic alien youâve come to know keeps his intense gaze on you as he nuzzles his nose against you. You may not know Simurian, but you know animals. In some species, thatâs a kiss.
âSukuna?â
He hums.
âWas that a kiss?â
His lips press into a line, nudging his nose slightly against yours again like action is easier than a reply.
âHumans kiss with their lips,â you explain softly.
He doesnât move immediately, his face a breadth from yours. Something cocky and knowing gleams within his gaze. A laugh bubbles from within your chest but it comes out as a cough, which you attempt to stifle, pulling back momentarily. Sukuna drags you back like he canât stand the mere thought of distance.
Your laughter subsides quickly as you try hard not to grin.
The stoic Simurianâs breath comes out in an eager puff against your face. âLips are usually for other things,â he offers with a suggestive tone. But he doesnât know how to deny you anymore. The corner of his lips quirk up as he surges forward, engulfing you in a claiming kiss. You donât know what exactly a kiss means for a thousand-year-old being that spends their life with one person when you only live a fraction of his lifespan, but in spite of that you donât think you mind finding out.
Everything about the kiss is all-encompassing. His smell floods your senses first, the sort of sterile musk that comes with a man working himself to the bone in a lab. His taste doesnât match it, though. Thereâs a spice to his taste that isnât Earthly in nature, but itâs pleasant like a warm herbal tea. Itâs intoxicating and addicting all the same, the kind of taste you could get drunk on, should he let you.
His grip doesnât let up, hands sliding up the base of your scalp as he tips your head back to deepen the kiss. Your hands fly up to his collar, curling into the thick material of his muscle-tight shirt for purchase. Itâs dizzying, and not just because your head is spinning with the sheer amount of thoughts bouncing around your overactive mind like ping pong balls. His lips move against yours in the kind of rhythm that doesnât just insinuate passion, but something far deeper. A desperation that can only be conveyed through actions.
You can sense his resistance as you pull back, but you find yourself laughing as your hands splay across his broad chest. âSukuna,â you tease. âIâm feeling better, but you still need to give my lungs a break.â You laugh airily, chest rising and falling heavily as he refuses to break contact.
The lumbering giantâs shoulders tense for a moment, then relax, his hands gliding down the column of your neck to rest on your shoulders. He takes the opportunity to envelop you in all four arms, grateful to find youâre no longer shivering. You donât hesitate for even a moment, arms snaking around his neck as you bury your face into his neck.
âHowâd you do it?â
He inhales, letting out a breath of relief as he relaxes into your grip in spite of his awkward hunched position over your bedside. âMy cells arenât like yours. They react to neural oscillations and signals sent through electromagnetism. We were trying to use them like anti-pathogens, but they arenât.â
âTheyâre mutagens,â you finish the thought in an excited burst, pulling back to face him with those wonder-filled wide eyes heâs come to adore. âYou did gene therapy.â
He chuffs proudly, puffing out his chest under your hands. Itâs somehow far more endearing up close.
âWait, oh my godââ You proclaim suddenly like youâve come to the greatest realization on earth. âDo you think that means I can breathe sulfur? Orâ Or maybe I can grow extra arms,â you murmur, wiggling your fingers over his chest.
His expression deadpans. âNo.â
âBut if you changed my DNA with alien DNAââ
âThatâsââ He breathes out a sigh, amused with your overactive imagination and how fast your mouth moves before your mind can catch up. âThatâs not how gene therapy works.â
âBummer,â you pout. Itâs clear the word perplexes him as he narrows his eyes, but he cracks a hint of a smile. He gets it regardless.
You let the moment hang, laughing airily as the reality of your last two weeks truly hits you. Sukuna doesnât handle the situation with the same lightness as you do, pulling you back into his chest and muffling your laughter altogether. You wrap your arms around his torso once more in reassurance. âIâm still here,â you promise.
âStupid human,â he mutters, his chin dipping over your shoulder as he locks you tightly against him with a squeeze. When you bury your face into his broad chest, he winces, hiding it behind another squeeze as he attempts to ignore the meager injuries left behind by the Kerm. âStupid, weak human.â
âI know,â you murmur into his chest. âI know. But Iâm here now.â
â
The difference between Human and Simurian traditions turns out to be greater than you think. Not in the sort of grand way you might expect, but in the sense that Sukuna doesnât quite seem to know what to make of being close. Of course, Humanity aims to choose a person for life, but not without trial and error. For Simurians, thereâs some sort of instinct. Something Humans donât possess that has Sukuna uncertain how to navigate the idea of courting you. In particular, while youâre still recovering.
Your pulse increases to a steady waking beat as your lashes flutter open. Youâve gotten accustomed to the strange way the stone bed conforms to your shape, but you have yet to grow accustomed to the way youâre greeted every morning, even a week into your recovery whereâ by and largeâ you just have a cough.
Youâve barely roused when Sukunaâs hand is firmly planted on your jaw, tilting your head left and right. âNngh, Sukuna,â you sigh, fingers wrapping around his wrist. He doesnât budge, not satisfied until heâs determined that youâre still on a steady road to recovery. His fingers loosen once he lets out a steady breath, his palm sliding down to your cheek. He doesnât hesitate for so much as a moment to lower himself to his knees and brush his nose against yours. The Simurian nuzzle is something youâve grown fond to waking up to and even in your half-asleep state, you find yourself unable to hold back a grin.
âYou havenât coughed yet.â
âI just woke up,â you reply groggily, amused.
âYouâre better.â
âGetting there,â you chide, staring down at the mountain of a man on his knees for you. Every morning gets easier, and every morning you have a menacing-looking puppy greeting you at your bedside. It makes recovery easier, especially when youâre forced to eat some sort of alien vegetables he cultivated for you upon converting his compost room to a garden as the only food your body wonât reject, alongside nutrients he continues to inject into your bloodstream.
Slowly pushing up to a sitting position, you suppress a cough that comes across as a personal affront to the bulky alien, who stands upright with you. âHow did the experiment from last night go?â You query, your vision still mildly blurry from sleep as you look over the holograms opposite you.
âWeâre close,â he murmurs, long strides taking him across the room. âYour hypothesis was right. The Kerm cells react to heat, but not too much heat. I was killing them before.â
Rubbing your eyes, you smile. âSo weâre close to a cure that we can send back?â
He pauses, facing you. Heâd been unwilling to send his own cells back to the very people who sent you to your death, but at your request, heâd continued experimentation for a cure that didnât require gene therapy. âI donât understand why you care.â
âThere were eight billion Humans, Sukuna.â Your head tilts in sympathy for the fact that he resents a whole species for their treatment of you. âThe hundred or so involved in sending me here shouldnât be responsible for punishing the rest of the species.â
âPunishing,â he repeats the word, though he doesnât need an explanation when he can use context clues.
Pushing to your feet, you walk on weakened feet to join him, sidling up to his warmth. âYou know, I never got the chance to thank you.â
Two eyes flicker down to you, questioning, while the other two evaluate the weakened state of your muscles.
âYouâre breathing oxygen.â
âI am.â
âAnd you risked getting Alveolarium from me.â
He stubbornly looks up. âI did.â
If thereâs one thing that remains the same between your species, it would seem itâs embarrassment. Sukuna is over one thousand years old with no partner. You can only assume he never found someone, or prefers solitude. Or, more aptly, preferred. Itâs safe to say he doesnât know how to navigate your healthy return to his life.
As you jovially grin at his side, Sukuna adjusts the temperatures of his experimentations, each by a fraction of a degree, before he turns to face you. The tension in his shoulders has released upon seeing you eagerly facing him with clasped hands. âYes, human?â
âCan I see the rest of your ship?â
âNot until youâre well.â
âIâm literally fine!â
He crosses both pairs of arms over his built chest. âYou coughed.â
âThere was something in my throat,â you counter.
His lip curls in haughty frustration. He clicks with intermittent syllables that youâre unable to put together. Missing the word, he goes with the simplest train of thought. âNo.â
Stepping towards him, your palms settle over his lower veiny forearms. Your thumbs rub small circles into his tough skin, the hair on his arms noticeably standing on-end. âPlease? I promise Iâm okay.â His eyes narrow a fraction. âI wanna see how you keep your food, and where youâre growing those turnip things. Ohâ! And the bridge, andâ Wait, your ship is so big, what else do you even have here? Do youââ
He huffs loudly, but you note that in spite of the scowl pulling his brow down, relief floods his gaze and his lips fluctuate wildly between a frown and smile. It doesnât take much for him to give in, loosening an arm as he wraps it around your shoulders in an effort to steady you as he leads the way through the ship.
Itâs massive beyond anything you could ever comprehend. Metals youâre not even positive exist on Earth line the walls and natural bioluminescent amoebas are used to light long stretches of hall where wasting energy is unnecessary. Light only exists where needed, like bathing a large medical bay with a missing bed and several bottles and boxes thrown astray as though the room was flipped upside down in search of supplies. Your heart surges with something dangerous at the sight, as you know the stoic creature beside youâ who doesnât so much as bat an eye at the messâ did this for you. He tossed aside equipment and tore through supplies in order to keep you alive, who barely lives a fraction of his lifespan.
Hell, heâs almost twice your height and keeps walking at your unsteady and slow pace without so much as a peep. His hand shuffles from your shoulder to your back as he briefly points out a food hall complete with a garden and a large freezer for overgrowth and cured meats. Thereâs a pungent smell to the room befitting of what was once a compost bay.
âIs this what Iâve been eating?â
He chuffs, lifting a heavy arm to point at what you would otherwise describe as a radish. He states its name in his mother tongue, not bothering to translate given that the syllables thrown in between each click sound painfully like âengineâ and heâs heard you use that word before, so it simply doesnât translate into a word you can both use. You nod your approval as he continues his tour with little fanfare, his hand gliding from your back to your elbow.
âIâm lucky,â he states, âtheyâre the only plant that will grow in oxygen from what I tried.â
Next, he leads the way through an exercise hall, a gravity converter, and a communications bay. His ship dwarfs yours in every possible way and itâs all intended for just one person. The real enigma, however, is the way his hand keeps shifting on you, like he isnât quite sure what to do with himself now that he has you back and youâve kissed.
âI didnât think youâd be so awkward,â you blurt out without a care in the world, pleased as you tilt your head to find his expression narrowing just slightly.
âAwkward?â He searches for confirmation despite being able to put the context clues together.
âYou keep moving your hand. Seven times now, Sukuna,â you tease, your grin widening.
âIâm guiding you,â he grumbles dismissively.
âI donât need a hand to guide me through a ship. Iâm a good follower.â
His gaze glides to the side, teeth gritting as he clicks his disapproval. âNoisy.â
Laughing, you give him a nudge that pulls his attention back. His usual aloof gaze briefly flickers across your face like he expects signs of sickness before fixing on your chiding grin. âYouâre allowed to be nervous, Sukuna.â
âIâm not.â He growls out some sort of curse word in Simurian, continuing on the walk through the ship as he finds the explanation he needs. âI donât know Human traditions. I donât know how to move forward.â
You bite back a smile at the sweet admission. âWell, humans are a bit different.â You give him a thoughtful peek from beneath your lashes, catching the way it disengages the tension in his shoulders. âWe try to stay partners for life, but weâre complicated. Emotions get in the way, people changeââ
âYou would separate from your partner in such a short life?â Sukuna sounds utterly shocked at the thought, his nose wrinkling as he stops dead in his tracks. He turns to face you, staring at you like he wants to shake the mere idea from existence by your shoulders.
âWe try not to. But sometimes itâs inevitable.â You shrug. âSometimes you fall out of love with the person you marry or date, or sometimes things change or distance gets in the wayââ
âThen you talk about it. Or visit.â His voice comes out clipped with edge. You canât tell whether he intends it to.
âOur transportation isnât very advanced. The ship I was in,â you explain, pointing over your shoulder, âitâs the tenth one capable of space travel beyond our own moon.â
The brutish alienâs scowl lessens as something of far greater importance occurs to him suddenly. You allow the silence that stretches on as you recognize his troubled expression. Heâs grappling with something he doesnât know how to address. The ship stands by idly in the moment where Sukuna straightens, settling a pair of hands on his hips while the others cross over his chest. He doesnât move as he speaks with a flat tone that almost conveys solemnity. âI can take you back. To Earth. Along with the cure, once itâs ready.â
Somewhere between the kiss, the illness, and the acceptance that your fate was to die, you forgot that there was another option. âWhat if I donât want to?â
Sukunaâs gaze travels listlessly left and right. Itâs clear this is something heâs considered. After all, imprisonment awaits you on Earth regardless of the cure. What point is there in returning? And yet, Simuria would be imprisonment in a roundabout way, too. You canât breathe the sulfuric gas. He isnât even confident in your ability to withstand the barometric pressure in one of the suits in his ship.
He doesnât answer immediately, either pretending something caught his attention by tilting his second ear towards something, or genuinely listening to something. Regardless, he glances aside as he considers your question before proceeding to completely ignore your query. âHow do Humans wed?â He mutters, as though the concept that he doesnât know makes him mad.
âWe date first,â you chuckle. âWe impress one another. We go out and do fun things together. We give gifts and spend time being intimate. Like, cuddling and kissing. Ohâ! And then if things are going well, one person presents the other with a ring with a pretty stone in the middle and if things are right, that person says yes and then they wed and thereâs a big ceremony, and then both people get rings, and friends come visit, andââ
Sukuna bends down to your height, nudging your nose once, then kissing you. âWhatâs a ring?â
Giddily, you canât help a giggle as he shuts you up without complaint of your noisiness, simply backtracking to the portion of your rambling he doesnât understand. âIt goes around your finger.â Instinctively reaching for his face, your finger traces along the edge of the protruding plate from his face. One of his eyes twitches, but he allows you to do so. âIt signifies to humans that youâre in a committed relationship with another human.â Your finger traces the side of his face as he stays bent to your height. âDo Simurians have something like that?â
âTattoos.â
Your eyes brighten. âHumans do that sometimes in place of wedding rings, too. Basically, you present one ring when you want to get married, and then when you do get married, you get matching tattoos around your fingers instead of matching rings. Itâs actually reallyââ
He kisses you again, that familiar spice of tea flooding your senses pleasantly.
Undeterred, you inquire about Simurian traditions. âWhat about for you?â
âWe simply⊠Know.â
You pout at the mere thought. âLike love at first sight?â You whisper eagerly.
He nudges your nose, growling his disapproval. âInstinct.â He straightens. âNo rings. The date of the ceremony is decided based on when other Simurians are available.â
âOh right, theyâre like holidays.â
He chuffs.
âWere they always, though? You said⊠I mean, youââ
âThere used to be over a thousand of us, yes.â He doesnât bother skirting around the question. âNo, we didnât always do things this way. We used to be selective.â He sucks in a breath, pushing past the question with little fanfare. âThe ceremony has a fire,â he states now that he has the word after some experimentation involving it, âand a ceremonial dance.â
âI canât picture you dancing,â you giggle.
His eyes narrow. âI donât. The dancers dance.â
âOf course, of course, my bad,â you grin.
âThen, we braid one anothersâ hair, and an elder tattoos us.â
You smile at the differing culture. âThat sounds beautiful.â Your gaze slowly rises to his short, pushed back hair. âYour hair isnât very long, though.â
âOur hair has to be long enough to braid before Simurians can be wed. Or in some cases, exceptions can be made.â
âSo youâd have to grow it out?â When he chuffs, you tilt your head with a grin. âThatâs kinda hot.â
Catching the compliment in your tone, Sukuna shifts, a rare smirk crossing his features as he tracks the way your hands rest on your hips.
âAre we talking like a braid in your whole hair or just a small portion?â
âA small portion.â
Your grin widens. âThatâs kinda cute. Youâd be like a Jedi apprentice! Only, I donât think itâs fitting to call you an apprentice, youâre more likeââ
âHuman.â Sukunaâs chiding carries far less annoyance since your recovery. âI donât know âJediâ.â
âOhâ! Right, yeah, I guess you guys donât have Star Wars. Well, at least you avoided the sequel trilogy,â you mutter more to yourself than him when he lets out a huff as you turn to explore his ship again. He no longer leads the way, allowing you to explore all on your own, only keeping a hand on you to ensure steadiness as though your dwindling cough might blow you over. At least, thatâs what he would tell you if you asked why he insists on keeping a hand on you.
His ship is vast. It could be compared to several acreages where your ship is barely the equivalent of a small apartment. The size is staggering, and you begin to realize exactly what he meant when he said Simurians enjoy having large properties to themselves.
âSo, do your instincts just like⊠line up with the other person?â
âGenerally.â
âHow do you tell one another that youâre in love?â
Sukuna is silent for so long that you stop at the precipice that leads down into a storage and whip around to face him. Heâs scowling at you with that kind of look that has you realizing your bug-based brain has missed a very Humanâ or in this case, Simurianâ social cue.
âWe nuzzle.â
You purse your lips as youâre faced with an intensity thatâs oddly sweet given the frown itâs accompanied by. Itâs not like you havenât figured out by now that Sukuna is fond of you, but the reality of Humanity and Simurians is that heâll outlive you. Youâll be nothing more than a distant memory by the time his hair goes gray. Assuming it does that, anyway. Thatâs not even beginning to address the planetary differences, atmosphere issues and dietary needs amongst other things.
Or the fact that youâve known him for only a few weeks. Unusual by Human standards to be in talks of marriage, but by Simurian standards, you suppose heâs implying he chose you already. As much as the very Human part of you wants to call him yours, the scientist in you knows only compatibility. Heâs a Thorny Devil Stick Insect to your Isopod Cubaris. Everything about the situation is absurd and your brain and your heart are fighting for keepsâ Sukuna, or the reality that you should return to Earth and let Sukuna find a Simurian that allows his instincts to kick in.
As you stare blankly at him with pursed lips, he steps closer into your space, examining the way you fiddle with the hem of the hoodie draped over your shoulders. His movement kicks you back into the present.
âO-ohâ! The nose, uhâ The nose thing? The kiss?â
He huffs, shockingly cross as he averts his gaze. âYes, the nose thing.â
You swallow hard, the reality of your harshly pounding heart bringing to light every issue youâve already gone over in your head in spite of the fact that youâve spent so long craving the touch of this ten foot tall man you have no right to. âSukuna, I barely live like a thirtieth of your life span.â
The noise he lets out is something between an affirmative chuff that he knows and a grumble of sorts. He lets the moment hang, unsure what to make of it before brushing it off with something too simple. âInstincts,â he grumbles, nearing you again as his face lowers to yours. Without knowledge of dates or Earthly traditions, the most he can do is press his lips to yours. Thereâs something pleading in it that melts every reservation your brain screams at you.
His lips are never soft, neither in texture nor movement. Heâs a being that lumbers around and his strength is beyond obvious. You feel that, too, in the way he aims to claim you, should you let him. When he leaves the ball in your court, you press forward, wrapping your arms around his neck as the kiss deepens.
Your tongue slips against his lips like an invitation that he doesnât hesitate to grasp as he takes charge again. He still tastes of something with an overall spicy tang that you canât place, but itâs no less pleasant now than it was the first time. No longer weakened by illness, he takes the opportunity to lift your thighs with his lower arms while his upper arms support your torso as he hoists you up, straightening. His lower hands knead your thighs in what feels like a subconscious manner, thumbs gliding over the stretch marks and scars of a life not yet fully lived.
He stumbles towards the wall, caging you between him and it, the strange coarse texture of the metals that make up his ship cool against the spot where your hoodieâs ridden up. He presses in, his lips moving faster, his body pressed against yours so tightly that you can feel the fact that his stomach mouth is panting.
The things that does to your body should be studied. Just as you grip him tighter, fingers curling into fists in his hair, he pulls back with a strange rigidity to him. âYou neverâ I can still bring you back. To Earth,â he offers through pants in a tone that doesnât suit his usual clipped and formal one. The uncertainty swimming in his gaze is unbefitting of him.
âWhââ You look around like someone might be around to share your incredulous stare. âYouâre asking that now?â
He swallows hard, the movement betraying his embarrassment. Good to know heâs capable of that, truly. âI want to give you the option.â
âIs it greedy of me to ask for both?â
He tilts his head curiously, something of a clicking noise coming from deep within his throat as he places just enough distance between your faces to take in your expression.
âIt would be nice to make sure the cure gets delivered to the right people when we get there,â you admit, âbut Iâd like to say bye to Shoko and my family.â
He sucks in a breath. âYou lost ten years getting here. You would lose another ten returning, andââ his hands dig into your thighs, his shoulders tightening as he calculates distance based on where you identified the Milky Way in your many scientific discussions prior to your illness. âSeven more, at least, on the trip to Simuria.â
Your gaze falls. âOh.â Leaning back against the cool wall that suddenly feels nice on the back of your head, your fingers curl into Sukunaâs multi-sleeved compression shirt. âSo Iâd be over fifty,â you murmur. It shakes you to your core, and you lean into Sukuna.
He adjusts his arms to embrace you, nuzzling his face into the crook of your shoulder. âIâm sorry.â
The silence that follows is a welcome one of mourning. You had accepted death sealed in a tin can in the void of space. You had accepted death faced with illness, grateful to have met such a wonderful otherworldly being. You had been satisfied knowing you fell for someone, even if it never came to fruition. It had all been enough.
Until Sukuna came barreling through the hull keeping you imprisoned, unwilling to let death be an option.
To say you fell harder would be an understatement. If the option ever presented itself, there was never a question what you would choose. There is no question what youâre choosing.
After an extended period of silence, you lift your head from Sukunaâs shoulder. âThe pods arenât too damaged to make it to Earth?â
He blinks a number of times, questioning your decision-making. âI didnât damage them.â
âThen⊠As long as my friends and family know I made it to the cure, thatâs enough.â
Slowly, Sukuna sets you back on the ground, a surprising amount of conflict in the way he runs his tongue over his teeth, casting his glance at the makeshift garden whose artificial sun has set.
The low bioluminescence of the hall light glows softly over his features as you watch his expression pull taut. âYou donât seem happy.â
âI am,â he argues, flashing you a glare as he mutters something under his breath in Simurian.
âThen whatâs wrong?â
He sucks in a breath, stepping forward as he leans his massive form down to your height. âYouâll be stuck aboard this ship until I can figure out something better.â
âI could use a suit!â You offer gleefully. âActually, that would be kinda cool if you think about itââ you begin, your mind wandering. âItâll be kinda like all the movies and shows I watched growing up and then I can come back to my littleâ no, actually this place is hugeâ my huge ship, or I guess our huge shipââ
Sukuna doesnât interrupt you for once, chuffing not in affirmation but amusement. Thereâs almost a purr to it as you prattle on about how every kid on Earth dreams of being an astronaut and here you are on an alien ship. He casts you a sidelong glance as you make commentary on the hot alien company youâve found, sidling up to him with a grin as you compliment him.
âHey, umâ Do you wait until marriage?â You query with warmth in your cheeks, sending the conversation in a complete one-eighty.
âFor what?â
âSex.â
Sukunaâs jaw shifts as he regards the small being beside him. âSex?â
âUmââ Your gaze averts as your cheeks warm further. âLike reproducââ you pause when you narrowly catch his lip quirking up out of the corner of your eye. âYou know what I mean. Youâre fucking with me.â You face him with a deadpan expression.
The creature rumbles in amusement. âNoisy human,â he chides. âIâm not having sex with you here. My ship is meant for one. We donât wait, but this is unsightly.â
âOh, so now you have decorum?â
Using context clues to put together the meaning of your retort, he straightens. âWhen have I not?â
âYou call me annoying all the time!â
âI call you noisy. And Iâm right,â he puffs his chest out as he crosses his arms over his chest as he continues your little tour.
â
The long-awaited day comes far sooner than Sukuna could have imagined. After countless temperature adjustments and endless suggestions from you that may have had him rolling his eyes weeks ago, the fresh Kerm stem cells attack the infected Alveolar cells, curing them.
He straightens, watching the immediate reaction under the duress of an exact temperature, and replicates it once more. Then again. And again.
Youâre already watching, on the edge of your seat as you set aside the roasted turnip you were eating. You both wait with bated breath as the fifth experiment comes out as a success.
âIt worked,â you breathe, getting to your feet. âYou did it.â Disbelief coats your tone, the dimmed lab lighting reflecting off of Sukunaâs gloves as he discards them and steps back, staring at all five successes.
âA cure,â he states. His disbelief is plain, but thereâs something far greater woven within the way his fists ball up at his sides and his shoulders rise.
He failed once and his species suffered for it. Maybe itâs not Simuria, but Earth means something to you. And this time, he didnât fail.
As control weaves itself back into his grasp, he stares down at his hands, sucking in a breath. Blinking as tears prick his waterline, he stays put so as to not reveal his vulnerability to you.
But youâre already bounding towards him, practically whipping yourself around his immovable form to hug him with unmatched ardor. âYou did it!â Your whole body trembles with relief at the thought that just maybe Shoko is still out there, and this might save not just her, but your entire home. Your family.
With a sharp inhalation, Sukunaâs arms curl around you, lifting you effortlessly, as he hides his relief in your shoulder. âWe did.â
But as you put together instructions for cell breeding and duplication and prepare the cure to be sent to Earth, so too comes the day Sukuna has been dreading.
Staring out the window after sending off the cure, you lean over the control panel, wide-eyed as the stars twinkle back at you. You whip around to face your companion, but your question is met with a solemnity you arenât expecting. âWhat now? To Simuria?â
Sukunaâs lips are drawn into a frown. Itâs not unbefitting of him, but the dullness of his cerise eyes tells another story.
The pieces fall into place with every ounce of tension in his musculature. The gleam in your eyes burns out like a solar systemâs light at the realization that faces you. âYouâre gonna destroy the planet.â
Two slanted eyes turn to face you, followed by the two more humanoid ones, his arms crossed over his chest as his heart pangs at your disappointment. Heâll never fault your compassion, but this is something he canât let go.
âItâs a sacrifice,â he admits. âA few to save many.â
âI know theyâre the cause of so much destruction but⊠do you have to? It feels⊠wrong. Even if theyâre artificial.â
The alienâs voice is a low rumble. âYouâre kind, little human. I like that.â The warmth in his compliment echoes over hard stone lining the interior of the bridge. âI flew over the planetâs surface while you recovered,â he explains as he stares down at the stark green gas buildup around the planet thatâs been increasing the longer the ship sits just outside of orbit. âThere are no other species on the planet. No flora, no fauna. Where there were cities, there are now ruins. Trees are shredded. Thereâs nothing left. If I leave them, they will evolve. Someday, they will escape, or another unsuspecting species will do what Simuria or Earth did.â
When he puts it like that, you can understand his reasoning. After two hundred years of searching for the Kerm, you can sympathize with his need to follow through.
âThis decision doesnât need to involve you. This would have happened regardless.â
You turn to face him with your arms around your middle, hugging yourself. âI know, but after letting that one go on Earth, I feel like Iâm involved now.â
âYou had no way of knowing. Then or now,â he excuses your action, something youâre grateful for, as much as youâll always harbor that guilt and the vision of a creature tearing through a crew.
After a moment of silence as he allows you to grapple with reality, he moves towards the control panel, sliding his finger along a series of sensors as his ship turns to move further from the planet while more systems come to life as he prepares a laser.
The planet looks beautiful from a distance. Pinks and blues scatter the surface, while a gaseous blue-green surrounds the planet. You donât doubt Sukuna told the truth, but your heart pangs to know that the gorgeous sight will dissipate in mere moments at the hands of someone you care for. Hell, maybe even at your hands, if you think too hard about it.
Guilt bubbles in the pit of your stomach as the whirring of Sukunaâs ship ramps up, a bright light beginning to form somewhere from the side of the bridge where you canât see. The brutish alien glides his hand over a few sensors, pressing something with finality before returning to your side. His palm settles along your shoulder, pulling you into him as his chest rises and falls, his own guilt palpable in the air between you.
The whirring of the ship comes to a sharp halt, the laserâs light suddenly brighter than the sight of the sunlit planet itself. Sukunaâs grip on your shoulder tightens as he moves deftly, pulling you face-first into his chest and wrapping you tightly in all four arms to prevent you from seeing the blast. With one hand on the back of your head, he prevents you from turning your head.
Even in your peripherals, you see the light. You shut your eyes tight, Sukunaâs grip on you increasing as the blast goes off. Some part of you expects to hear something, forgetting that space is a vacuum, and youâre met with nothing. But nothing is worse. An entire species eradicated, and youâre met with nothing.
Sukunaâs heart pounds hard as he watches the planet splinter. His curse to live with, but never your burden to bear. He wonât let it be. He holds you tight until the planetâs remains are little more than debris floating every which way. Youâre far enough away that whatever else was blasted into space isnât visible, and for that, heâs grateful.
He holds you so long that he isnât sure whether itâs for him, or for you.
âItâs done,â he murmurs, allowing you at last to look out over the wreckage as his shipâs whirring slowly winds down.
âThey wonât hurt anyone else,â you murmur as your brow tents when you look over the wreckage of stone and crystal that floats where Methalonâas Sukuna referred to itâ once was.
âLetâs hope thatâs true,â he murmurs in return, his body hunching over as he drops his face to your head, eyes shutting tightly.
â
Itâs a wonder you make it to Simuria at all. Not because of any extenuating circumstances, but because you have so many questions and queries and noisy impulses that Sukuna seems to perpetually scowl at you. On equal grounds, however, you catch him with a longing stare when you least expect it.
In the midst of a full explanation on the reproduction of Scorpions. When youâre desperately trying to yank a Simurian radishâs roots from the ground while it protests you, sweat dripping down your spine. Even when youâre sifting through the remnants of your belongings from Earth. He trails after you with nothing short of zealous loyalty.
When you arrive on Simuria, youâre trapped on the ship as you expected, only able to experience the planet from the bridgeâs window. Still, itâs more than you ever could have hoped. Not unlike Methalon, Simuria is primarily crystalline in nature with petrified trees growing crooked from mountains. Youâre able to expand your diet to more vegetables, supplementing your vitamins with injections that Sukuna is damn-near overbearing about.
âSukuna, I can do it myself!â You try to insist as he nuzzles you, intermittent with kisses.
âItâs my job to take care of you,â he insists into your neck, nipping at the sensitive skin to distract you before pulling back to inject your daily supplement into your thigh while youâre distracted.
âYouâre a menace!â You insist through giggles, and the injection becomes nothing more than an afterthought.
Still stoic, you see his warmth within that familiar four-eyed gaze. âYou chose me without instincts,â he points out in a teasing manner, pride held within his straightened back. âNow come.â
Rolling your eyes at his shockingly witty retort as he gets too good at your language, you let him lead the way through the ship until you reach the exit door. Youâve only seen the planetâs surface through glass as he promised you an oxygen tank to withstand his atmosphere someday. It had been taking so long that you figured he ran into a snag, but as you stand at the bay and watch his hand glide along the sensors, you realize just how foolish you had been.
For the first time, the bay opens up and you find yourself instinctively trying to search for a way to protect yourself from the sulfur.
âSukuna, Iââ
âGive me your trust, ange.â He holds your bicep as you begin to back away, his gaze insistent.
Ange. The syllables that, intermittent with clicks and growls, make up the word âangelâ in Simurian, and frenchâthe language of romanceâ and his favorite nickname for you. He had explained that when he takes you to meet the rest of his kind, it would be helpful for you to understand more of his language, and that if you paid attention toâ and spokeâ in only the syllables of the words, you would largely be able to communicate with his kind without issue. The clicks and growls come out of necessity of Simurians having broadly low voices and living in craters. The second ears and extra sounds in each word allow them to communicate from longer distances without the necessity for the syllables, but the same is true for communicating without the clicks. The syllables can also stand, mostly, on their own.
Your jaw tightens as you stop resisting his grip, allowing him to lead you through a small bay door where youâve often seen him leave through the pressurized chamber. When he leads the way through it, thereâs shockingly no change in barometric pressure. Or oxygen.
Off to the side of the ship where you arenât able to see from the bridge, Sukuna has built out a massive domed biome with oxygen production within, allowing you to touch the surface for the first time. Your lips part as your feet scuff over the crystal-threaded dirt beneath your shoes.
You take small steps at first, glancing to the left where petrified trees protrude from a cliffside within the barrier of the biome, hanging over the mild seafoam that coastal waves leave behind. You tread towards the beach, your shoes sinking into the sand as you take in the smell of the salt water, your mouth still agape at how massive the space is.
To your right is a cavern that you know to be partially artificial, Sukunaâs home held within. You turn to face him, the shock of it all pinning you in place, when youâre met with another surprise.
Heâs not down on his knees, but in his hand is a ring crafted from metal with a gorgeous off-pink crystal in the center, clearly carefully procured. Itâs simultaneously gorgeous and obvious. The jewel matches his hair. Itâs romantic, but itâs claiming too, something youâve realized of Sukuna over the months that youâve resided within his ship.
Your hand raises to cover your lips as you stare down at it. âAre youâŠ?â
He runs a hand through his locks. âMy hairâs not long enough yet for a ceremony,â he states, the strands falling through his fingers, âbut I think your traditions are different.â
âIââ You breathe, staring down at the stone. Itâs not like you didnât know this would all happen in time, but to wrap your brain around being proposed to by an alien who made a barometric dome of oxygen for you is still a feat. Slowly, you reach for the gorgeous stone. âYes. Iâll marry you.â
His brow scrunches as though there was no need for an answer and he already knew such a thing, but he hands the ring over regardless, watching as you slide it down your ring finger with a gorgeous grin.
âThis is beautiful, Sukuna,â you breathe.
He chuffs pridefully, four palms finding their place along your bodyâ two on your hips and two your waist. He doesnât hesitate to pull you in, his fingers kneading your skin as he nuzzles you hard. His hooked nose rubs against yours before he dips down to kiss you passionately.
Given that kissing in its Simurian form is so different from Humanityâs version, itâs almost unfair just how good he is at it. Your body goes warm as you grip the Simurian robes heâs begun wearing now that heâs home.
Kisses with Sukuna are never slow and sweet. Thereâs intention behind every swipe of his tongue as he invades your mouth, pleasantly flooding your mouth not with the usual herbal tea youâve come to expect, but something more minty, like there was thought behind this kiss that makes you smile into it.
He swallows your smile as he deepens the kiss, tilting your head up. There was a point where you were convinced you would die alone in the darkness of a welded ship without feeling the warmth of the sun on your skin again, and by some miracle, the very man who held your life in his hands now holds your heart instead.
When he pulls back, his thumb brushing your waist softly, he inhales, long and deep. âIt isnât Earth,â he concedes, a rare vulnerability within his baritone voice. âBut I hope youâll be happy here.â
Reaching for his cheeks, your thumb brushes the plating along the side of his face. âSukuna, this is everything I could have hoped for.â You smile softly, turning around in his grip to stare out at the ocean as you shed your shoes and wriggle your toes in the sand, his hands never once leaving you. âI could live here for a lifetime.â
âGood,â his chest rumbles behind you as he chuckles, watching the tide swim ashore to your feet. âBecause you very well might, ange.â
You grin up at him, wading further into the warm water. The planet is so much warmer than Earth due to the heavily gaseous atmosphere that the water isnât cold like much of Earthâs oceans, pleasant around your ankles. âIâm kinda like Sandy Cheeks, if you think about it.â
âWhat?â Sukunaâs nose wrinkles, perplexed.
You laugh heartily, staring down at the stone around your finger. âDonât worry about it.â
The worst part is that you can see the maw on his stomach grinning from under his white robes.
You whack his arm softly, earning a playful chuff in reply as he looks you up and down, already mentally undressing you of the traditional Simurian wedding gown that Sukuna had an elder Simurian make for you, giving your measurements and no further details as he perplexed the poor elder on just who his bride-to-be might be.
The robes drape over your shoulders elegantly, the pale green accents of the off-white robes complimenting your traditional makeup. The sweet young (in Simurian years, anyway) woman doing your makeup and using traditional natural skin dyes hadnât stopped gushing the entire time about Sukuna finding a mate, something you had picked up through broken understanding of their language.
You had even caught on that as it would turn out, he was the only Simurian adult who lacked a mate of those remaining.
âHave you picked out your tattoos yet?â She excitedly inquires, sure to slow her speech down so you can piece together what you can.
In extremely broken Simurian, you reply, âYes! He chose design and I chose placement.â
She squeals in excitement, going on to tell you about how a Simurian named Dura recently took up tattooing, and you two would be his first wedding tattoos. Thereâs a certain solemnity in knowing that, with dwindling numbers, you very well may be his last, too.
Your nerves hit hard as you grow closer to emerging from Sukunaâs home where youâve been prepping.
âIf youâre still worried,â Sukuna offers as the young woman heads off to prepare herself for the ceremony, âjust remember you and I are the only ones that can breathe oxygen. Theyâll all be in suits.â
Youâre pretty sure he just told you to picture them all in their underwear essentially, but it helps ease some nerves regardless.
âYouâve got a point,â you breathe out a sigh of relief before sucking in a breath. âRemind me how this goes again?â
Sukuna steps towards you, lowering himself to a knee to speak with you. His hand raises, his fingers gliding along your palm as he takes a moment to stare at your palms pressed together. To think that glass once separated you feels like another reality now. His gaze moves from your hands to your eyes as he intertwines your fingers. âYou will wait in a tent by the beach as I am readied,â he explains, referring to his own traditional makeup that needs to be applied, his hair shaggy and a complete mess now that itâs much longer and ready to be braided. âDabura is to wed us, as heâs my closest ally. Heâll come get you. There will be a ceremony with dancers and a large bonfire, then Dura will tattoo us.â
âAnd then?â You chew on your lower lip eagerly.
âThen,â he nears you, his fingers delicately brushing your robes. âThe night is ours.â
You let out a breath, biting back a smile at the thought given that you had chosen to wait to have sex after all when it took so long to get you out of the ship.
âAre you nervous?â He gruffs, tilting your chin with a calloused hand.
âFor the sex, or the wedding?â
âEither.â
It takes you a moment to consider the thought. âYeah, I guess so. Both.â
âNo one can understand your language. If you need something, just say so. Iâll be here the whole time.â
âYou know, you never would have had me thinking you were so sweet when we first met.â
His brow twitches, his gaze averting. âIâm not.â
Stubborn.
âNoisy.â
Your eyes narrow. âJust curious, can you hear my thoughts?â
âNo, why?â
âNo reason.â
The night carries out as he promised. Seventy eight Simurians gather from far and wide, of tribes from a bygone era, of all ages and appearances. A fire is stoked and dancers do what youâre sure was once a much more elegant dance without the added bulk of spacesuits beneath traditional outfits.
The Simurians are kind to you, regardless of your broken ability to speak their language. They pick up on the occasional word in your language too, not unlike Sukuna.
Once the grand part of the ceremony is over, the rest of the Simurians take their seats on the beachside surrounding you and Sukuna as you both take small portions of your hair and braid them for one another. Your husbandâs fingers are surprisingly deft, and upon finishing the braid, he gets the rest of his hair cut back down to his preferred length. Once the ceremony is complete, youâre met with cheers as Dabura declares you officially wed.
The horned alien is somehow more aloof than your husband, and the largely disinterested looks he shoots everyone you come to realize is his neutral. Were you not surrounded by far more boastful Simurians, you might even think theyâre all like this.
Following the cheers of the ceremony, as things begin to quiet down, youâre approached by a Simurian with long, flowing white hair tucked into his spacesuit. He has a friendly look about him as he grins at you. âDura,â he introduces himself, extending his hand.
Your brow raises at the realization heâs given you his name in your language, keen to the fact that your ability to speak is broken. Sukuna seems to respect that, taking a step back from the protective shadow heâs been all night with so many people so close to you, wary that someone might disprove his choice to wed a Human. You shake Duraâs hand in turn, offering your name as though he hasnât been hearing it all night.
âHave you chosen a design?â He asks in his mother tongue.
He speaks slowly, allowing you to keep up. âSukuna chose design, I choseâ umââ your brow furrows as you attempt to place the syllables for the word in Simurian.
âPlacement?â Dura steps in.
In a harsh tone, Sukuna steps forward, his lip curled into a snarl. âMy wife is talking,â he snaps, the growls and clicks far more bitter than youâre used to hearing.
Duraâs hands raise. âI was just helping with words, Sukuna,â he smiles easily, waving the white flag before anything breaks out amongst the Simurians still lingering from the ceremony. âI wasnât interrupting.â
You exchange a sympathetic glance with Dura, setting a hand on your husbandâs arm. âItâs okay, Sukuna,â you murmur. âI just didnât know the word, he was helping,â you agree.
Your husbandâs shoulders fall slowly into something less aggressive, his gaze immovable as it glues itself to Dura. The tension between the two men is brief, before Sukuna gives into your sweet touch and softens, describing the design and placement to Dura. The white-haired man proceeds to prepare a table for you, sanitizing everything and pulling out what, by Earthâs standards, would be traditional handpoke tattoo materials.
Once ready, Sukuna goes first. The design is small, two zigzags mirroring one another with a simple tear in the center right where you choseâ on the ring finger. Heâs completely still throughout the process without any complaint, and you find yourself embarrassed when you wince at the first tap of the stone tool. Dura does what he can to distract you, attempting to speak with youâ though at you is probably more apt given how broken your Simurian is. Still, youâre proud of yourself for your proficiency with the language and your ability to sit through the tattoo, which isnât so bad once the first few punctures are through.
Once itâs complete, you hold your hand up to Sukunaâs, comparing the ink to one another with a bright smile before Dura bandages them. Your husband leans down to nuzzle and then kiss you, succinct but meaningful.
As the night winds down and the attendees begin to take their leave in ships of varying sizes, you sit by the entrance to your now-shared home with Sukuna. The stars twinkle overhead as you marvel at how different they are from Earthâs. In spite of everything, you stare out at the same vast expanse of space as your family back home does. You wish they could see that you got married. Pulling your knees to your chest, you rest your chin on them as you stare up at the sky, only able to wonder.
A bulky shadow leans over you after saying his goodbyes to Dabura and shutting the dome for the final time of the night. He blocks your view of the stars, pulling your attention to his ever-intense gaze. His chest rises and falls evenly as he regards you fondly. âIâm sure that was a lot.â Sukuna doesnât often apologize, and youâre fairly sure itâs what he intends when he speaks.
âI liked meeting everyone,â you shake your head, relaxing as you lean back on your splayed palms. âI just wish my friends back home could see.â
âSee how well the robes compliment you?â He comments in a smooth tone, although his expression remains unchanged.
You scoff, shaking your head. âThe ring. The tattoo. That Iâm married. Here, Simuria. All of it, really.â
Sukunaâs fond smirk fades as the moment hangs. The waves washing ashore have an ambient white noise that barely manages to hide his small sigh. âIâm sorry,â he starts, kneeling down to your level in an act that reminds you just how big he is. âBut Humanity doesnât deserve my ange.â
You let out a breath through your nose, offering a lopsided smile. âThanks, baby.â
It took him a moment to get used to that nickname, but now he fondly chuffs. âBut,â he tacks on, a little more chipper than youâre accustomed to. âI do have something for you, too.â
âFor me? Is that something we were supposed to do?â You worry. âOh god, I didnât get you anythingâ I donât even know what I wouldââ
âAlways so noisy,â he jeers, growling out what you recognize as a Simurian word for âmouthyâ even as he offers his hand to help you to your feet.
âHey!â You smack him playfully, earning a grin as he casts a glance at you, his gaze dipping down to the portion of your leg that protrudes from your robes as he helps you up.
It seems to be the Simurian version of when men just put a chair and a TV in a room and call that decorating. Despite living in a cliffside, the rest of the house is well-decorated, just not well lit. It isnât largely personal by any means, something you hope to change with art and photos, but at least you can say he does have furniture.
When you reach your bedroom, the most expansive room in the house, decorated with plants and a small bug-like creature you found within the dome that youâve been studyingâ to Sukunaâs dismayâ he reaches within a closet and pulls out a large box. Blinking as you stare down at what you recognize as a device, you slowly approach the box as he sets it atop the bed that you requested he make plush, rather than the conforming stone he was accustomed to. With a glide of his thumb, a hologram comes to light.
âWhat is it?â You ask your engineer husband, nothing immediately giving it away as the light displays nothing.
âYour species uses frequencies to speak from long distances on Earth, right?â
You straighten, staring at the brute in disbelief as he continues fiddling with the machine. âSukuna, you didnât.â
Itâs all you can manage as you watch Sukuna fiddle with a dial, tapping his nail along the smooth surface of the machine as he makes calculations to figure out how many parsecs the signal will need to travel and at what speed in order to allow you to speak to your friend in real time. Once heâs finished fiddling with it, he turns back to you like this is just another day, handing you what, effectively, looks like an old phone hooked up to the box.
âYou use numbers, right?â He chuffs for the latter portion of the sentence, completely ignoring your slack-jawed expression.
âI donâtâ I canâtâ You did all of this forââ
âAnge.â He chuffs, nuzzling your nose as he pulls you close. âDial the number.â
A lump sits at the back of your throat, but no amount of swallowing will rid the feeling as you stare at your husband. Tears prick your eyes as slowly you find yourself needing to set the device down in shaky hands, curling into his chest as warm tears trail your cheeks. âYou did this for me?â Your voice is hardly a whisper, frail in its delivery into his chest as your makeup inevitably stains his white robes.
âObviously,â he clicks in his mother tongue, positive you know the meaning.
âYou didnât have to,â you sniffle, muffled. âI brought a bug into our room and I know you think Iâm loudââ
âHuman,â he growls, his voice clipped as he pulls back. The ceremonial red makeup streaking across his forehead and nose has smeared with the dayâs activities, a sheen of sweat over his skin as he lowers himself to your height, holding your cheeks. âYou are loud. You are noisy. And you are my wife. I want you to be those and more.â
âEven the bugs?â
A pair of eyes swivels across the room to the beetle-esque creature in a large glass enclosure. A grumble begins in his chest. âIâm less fond of those,â he admits. âBut, yes.â
You smile. Lopsided, but genuine. âAt least youâre honest.â
âPut in the number for your friend.â
Given that itâs not common to memorize numbers anymore, youâve never been more grateful in your entire life that you actually know Shokoâs off the top of your head. Your fingers betray your disbelief by trembling as you turn back to the remote of sorts that he gave you, typing Shokoâs number with no regard for what time it might be. It rings once, twice, three times, and a final fourth before your friend picks up.
âHello?â
Your voice breaks into something between a sob and a gasp the moment you hear her. She sounds older. Thereâs a rasp to her voice that betrays the weariness of her trade, but she also sounds well. Not sick. Alive. âSho?â You breathe her nickname in sheer incredulity.
The shuffling on the other end is immediate, a flurry of static as you can practically imagine her flailing out of whatever chair or bed she was slumped over in. âYouâre alive?â More static follows, a distraught shout for someone, then, frantically, âoh my god, I thought you were dead, orâ I mean after the cure got here, I just had to assume you had taken the drug and I justâ where are you? Can you facetime or something?â
It brings a smile to your face to hear your friend again, tears continuing to silently trail down your face in disbelief as tremors ripple through your muscles like waves. You laugh airily at just how much she sounds like you, her mouth at least ten steps ahead of her brain. Turning to Sukuna, you wipe your tears with the back of your hand. âSukuna? Is there a way to connect to video?â
Standing idly behind you, his gaze lowers to the glimmer of fresh tear trails, his adamâs apple bobbing as he steps forward. He lowers himself to nuzzle your nose first, undoubtedly wiping tears along his own cheek, before fiddling with the box. âWhat frequency are your videos run on?â
Shoko is practically vibrating on the other end of the line. âOh my god, who is that?â
âI donât think Facetime uses frequencies, I think itâs on like⊠internet. Or LTE, or something.â
Sukuna hums, though he doesnât seem confident.
âGoogle says two point four gHz to five gHz!â Shoko much more helpfully adds on the other side.
âTell Google that helps,â he gruffs as he fiddles with frequencies until the blank hologram gains static.
Thereâs a brief silence on the other end as Shoko attempts to process how strange that sentence comes across to someone on Earth, but she doesnât have time to question it when at last a video is displayed for each of you.
Itâs clear when the video connects that life has been harsh in far different ways on each of you. Neither of you are the spry twenty-five year olds finishing up degrees and putting out papers that put you at the top of your fields at young ages. Smile lines adorn the corners of her mouth and her eyes have an ever-lidded look to them that only time and exhaustion could bring about. To your surprise, you recognize another acquaintance in the background in Utahime Iori, Shokoâs biggest crush at the time and a big rock on her ring finger.
A wide smile crosses your face and if she were right in front of you, you would surge forward to hug Shoko. Utahime, too.
Shokoâs gaze flicks around your surroundings as she holds up her phone. âWhere the hell are you?â She queries as Sukuna rises from where he was fiddling with the long distance radio, popping into the frame behind you.
âSimuria. Itâs gorgeous, and the people are so kind, you would love it here.â
âWhatâs on your face?â
âOhâ! Right, itâs ceremonial makeup,â you explain as you hold up your ring finger to display both your engagement ring and wedding tattoo. âI got married like two hours ago,â you giggle, bubbly.
The sight has your husband closing in on you, unable to stand so far apart when the very sound of your happiness draws him in like a moth to a flame.
With her jaw already on the floor at the revelation of your marriage, she can hardly contain her next question. âWho is that?â Shoko exclaims again, her image a blur as she nearly drops the phone at the sight of your husband.
âThis,â you hold a hand out to the brutish alien, âis my husband. Sukuna, this is Shoko.â
Itâs not often that Sukuna greets others in your mother tongue, so as he leans into frame, revealing four arms and four eyes, he simply waves at your gawking friend.
âNice to meet you!â She starts, before it devolves into that scientific disbelief programmed into her brain. âHeâsâ I meanââ Shoko shakes her head incredulously as she attempts to make sense of the situation. âAliens are real,â she mutters to herself. âNot just beetle things, either.â
âI feel like youâre really breezing over the four arms and eyes part here,â Utahime comments, surprisingly calm given the situation. You were never particularly close, but the way she evaluates you both seems to anchor your best friend. âAlso hey,â she greets you by name with an easy smile. âWeâre married too.â
Before you can even congratulate them as well, Shoko is already continuing, too many things to catch up on in too little time. âHonestly after CRM-12, nothing comes as much of a shock.â It comes as an observation more than any kind of blame as she evaluates your towering husband behind you. When he hums, you note that his more talkative personality may be reserved for you only.
âCongratulations, by the way! Waitâ Sho, did the cure get there?â
âTHE CURE!â She cries out suddenly. You grin through a laugh as everything hits you both at once, over ten years to catch up on. âGirl, yes. You savedâ I donât know, billions of people. And you didnât even need to send any of those fuckass beetle things back. The company was pissed at first, but I swear they didnât actually want a cure.â
âThey still spread the cure out though, right?â
âThey didnât have a choice. One of the pods landed with NASA. We got lucky.â
âThank god. I was worried about that.â
âWait, speaking of beetlesââ The hologram flashes and flutters as Shoko moves about the room, a clicking noise followed by something snapping and at last the camera faces her again. âLook!â
You stare in disbelief at the Stag Beetle on her fingers. Sukuna curiously leans forward.
âThereâs no way in hell Spike survived this long.â
âMeet Spike Thirteen!â She grins as the stagâs antennae reach for her phone, its mandibles curiously snapping together.
Barking a laugh, you lean back into Sukunaâs warmth. Under the dim lighting of the strung up bulbs, he relaxes into your touch as he instinctively reaches for your waist. âThirteen makes way more sense.â
Changing the subject again with so many things she wants to go over, Shoko sets Spike on her shoulder. âAre you able to come visit?â
You knew the question was inevitable. The one you were dreading hearing, for thereâs no easy way to say it. âI canât. Weâre about seven years apart. Iâd be almost sixty by the time we get home.â
Thereâs a brief somber silence, but it surprises you when Shoko smiles, genuine and kind. âHome.â She repeats the sentiment. âNever thought youâd find one. I think Iâm okay with that, knowing that you found a home.â
Your vagabond tendencies make her sentiment make sense, and a tender smile graces your features as Sukunaâs remaining two hands find your hips, like heâs grounding himself in his own home. âYeah. I hope you did, too.â
âYeahh, Hime and I are doing pretty well,â she agrees, mirroring the sentiment that perhaps home can be unconventional. For you, an alien in a dome (and just one little bug in a tank), and for her, a person.
âGood. That makes me happy,â you murmur softly.
Shokoâs lips part and itâs clear she has further questions and ten yearsâ worth of stories to fill you in on, but she shuts them with a smile. âI should let you enjoy your wedding night.â She sits back, Utahimeâs hand barely in frame as it rests on Shokoâs shoulder, opposite Spike Thirteen. âCan we talk again?â
You swivel towards Sukuna for confirmation. He shrugs. âI built it for you. Use it as you wish.â
Your hand finds his, threading your fingers through the thick ones resting on your waist. âYeah, Iâll talk to you soon, Sho.â
âYou too,â she canât help her grin as the line cuts out.
Leaning back into Sukuna, you bask in the thrill of seeing your closest friend again. It doesnât quite compare to your old dinner and ice cream outings where you claimed dessert was for your second stomach and nearly threw up when that proved to not be the case, but itâs more than you could ever have expected. The lumbering form of your husband leans down slowly, nuzzling your neck from behind. His hooked nose nudges your chin. âHappy, ange?â
âThan I ever thought I could be,â you murmur, tilting your head as you allow him access to the sensitive skin of your neck. Thereâs a level of harshness to just how much he grinds his face into your neck, earning a giggle as he pulls you closer with ease.
âMy wife deserves nothing less.â His lower arms anchor you to his chest as his upper hands trail delicately along the green accents of your robe. One hand dips between your breasts, resting on the tie around your waist. In Simurian, he mutters, âmay I make you mine?â against the warm skin of your neck.
A shiver runs stark up your spine as you nod. He sets the transmitter aside, effortlessly lifting you onto the plush of the bed.
âI donât know how you ever had sex on those stone beds,â you comment breathily as Sukuna parts your legs with a knee.
âMy skin is denser,â he replies between nips and licks at your skin. âYouâre weak.â
âYet you married me.â
âWeak and noisy.â
âWhatever you say,â you hum when his lower palms press your hips into the mattress, his torso slipping between your thighs. It comes as a shock when heâs wet on his abdomen and youâre damn sure youâre not the reason. You instinctively search for the cause to find his stomach maw must be drooling under his own robes, more emotive than your husband is himself.
Eager to feel him, your hands slip to the tie of his robes where he leans over you, pulling one end until they hang loosely from his shoulders, revealing a toothy smile along his stomach. The mawâs grin widens, his tongue slipping from within teeth so jagged one would almost think your husband were a predator, not that he eats rocks. Along with his drooling maw, you discover something far more debauched that you had yet to come across.
Simurians donât typically wear undergarments during wedding ceremonies given that itâs typical to give oneself to the other following the ceremony, hence why the party left at a reasonable hour.
So why on Earthâ or in this case, Simuriaâ does this man have two massive dicks?
âWhy do you have two?â You query in bewilderment as he deftly unties your robes.
His expression twists as he lifts his gaze to you, searching for an explanation to your perplexity in the fact thatâ
âWhy donât you?â
âWhy would I need two?â
He points to his two throbbing dicks, each with a black band around the base. âTwo,â he states plainly.
âYeah, Iââ You chuckle at the absurdity of it all. âI see that you have two dicks, Sukuna.â Covering your face as you canât help laughing, you shake your head from behind your palms. âBut why?â
âTwice the pleasure,â he states, letting out a throaty noise that you recognize as Simurian for âduhâ. âWhereâs your second one?â
âI donâtâ Humans donât have a second one, Sukuna!â
He hums, something of a grumble. âWeâll make it work.â
Left staring straight through your husband as he moves on while youâre still caught up on him having two dicks, on top of the fact that heâs almost twice your size, he returns to his musings. His nose trails the length of your neck, nudging your robes aside and kissing along the red dyes used to mark you for the ceremony, leaving new marks in their place.
âGorgeous,â he clicks and purrs in his mother tongue, slipping his hands beneath the ceremonial garments as he pulls your mind to the present. Slipping your arms from the sleeves, you let your hands run along the tattoos that wrap over his shoulders, reveling in the way his rough skin still seems to get a rise from your touch, goose bumps following your fingersâ trail. Ten feet of alien bulk and a tiny human still brings him to his knees.
You let out a gasp as drool from his stomach drips to your abdomen, trailing down to your thighs, warm and wet. If he wasnât already obvious with how hard he is, his stomach mouth gives him away entirely.
âYouâre soft,â he comments, the words slipping from his lips like an idle thought unintended to be spoken. A large tongue swipes from the bottom of your slit to your clit, the sensation sending shivers up your spine as you breathe in a soft gasp.
The room is already warm with the anticipation of arousal, the musky smell of the nightâs earlier activities pungent around you. Your husband drinks in the way your back arches for him when he gets a taste of you, a languid pace to his movements as he crawls further over you in spite of his eagerness. Once he realizes he has something, heâs not quick to let it go. The size difference between you allows him to lap at your entrance with his second mouth while he delves his tongue between your lips. Your fingers curl into his shoulders as your nails leave stark half-moons in their wake.
When he adjusts the way in which he laps at your dripping pussy, the flat of his tongue puts pressure on your clit as you realize that his tongue has a mildly rough texture as though itâs intended for your pleasure. Your back arches once more, separating your kiss. One pair of hands drives your hips further into the mattress, while the other pair steadies your cheeks, allowing him to swallow your moans once more.
Itâs downright euphoric the way he uses his tongue to work you to the edge so quickly. You want to chalk it up to being over ten years since youâve felt this sensation, but the only thing to blame here is him. Not unlike your language, heâs learning your body. Fast.
âHah- fuckââ You breathe when he finally lets up for air, his chest heaving as you cling to him for purchase. âDonât stop, Kuna.â
His chest rumbles as he lowers himself to one pair of forearms, continuing to knead the plush of your hips with the other pair. His fingers run along the imperfections of your skin, committing each and every stretch mark, scar, and beauty mark to memory without so much as pulling his gaze from your expression.
He drags his massive tongue slower against your clit, the barbed texture pulling you closer and closer to the edge and leaving you breathless altogether. Blood roars in your ears as he slows his pace to keep you right where he wants you, crimson irises mere rings as his blown pupils watch whimpers pour from your slacked jaw.
âI like you like this,â he murmurs, his nose nudging your cheek where makeup has already smudged. âAt my mercy and begging me not to stop.â
âThatâs because you have a superiority complex,â you mutter even through the haze, still mouthy at the worst of times.
His tongue pulls back, your head lifting in disappointment just in time to watch his stomach maw nip at your inner thigh. You yelp, clinging tighter to his shoulders as you undoubtedly leave behind marks. âI like you noisy during sex, but not mouthy,â he coyly remarks.
âYouâre such aââ You sharply gasp when his tongue returns to your clit with another long drawn out stripe up your slit.
âDonât be smart,â he chides in Simurian, although he speaks so fast heâs positive you donât catch it. Your headâs already in the clouds, thrown back into the mattress as you cling to him for purchase when at last he gives you what you want.
Adding to the pressure of his tongue, he finally throws you over the edge with shorter, faster licks. Stars encroach on your vision, your nails digging into his tough skin as he nuzzles your chin affectionately while your body twitches with each jolt of static to your abdomen that could damn well be slowing time and you would never know.
When your vision begins to even out, you shift against your husband, suddenly very aware of just how much drool and cum has collectively pooled between your thighs. Your movement rouses his attention as he lifts his head to inspect you. The bliss lighting up your features has his chest puffing out, that stupid prideful and boastful purr that youâve grown fond of rumbling his chest.
Your lips part as you catch your breath, pulling him back into your shoulder. He doesnât protest, nuzzling into you so hard you might think he wanted to live there.
âI love you too, Sukuna.â
He lifts his head, his slanted eyes curiously narrowing. âIs that how humans express partnership?â
You smile as he picks apart your traditions so scientifically. âItâs one way,â you murmur softly, tracing a finger along his cheek. His left eyes flutter shut, only opening when your nails rake through his hair.
He chuffs his approval, returning his attention at last to your body with kisses to your breasts. He shifts you up the bed, spreading your legs over his thighs as he sits between them. His cocks are heavy against your stomach, twitching, and equally slick with his own drool and your cum.
As he leans over you, kissing you once more with ease given his extra height. Two thick digits gather the mix of cum and drool, bringing it to his mouth. He runs his tongue along his lips, bringing his wet fingers down to your core. Regardless of species, he clearly knows better than to try sex without adequately working you open for him. Youâre small and he has no intention of hurting his wife.
One finger eases in without any friction, the saliva coating it acting as a natural lubricant. The second is met with little resistance too, and he uses the opportunity to pump them slowly. He moves his fingers not like a human might, but as though heâs searching. Like he knows, biologically, that you derive pleasure from a specific point. And god, does he find it. Your hips buck for him as he locates your g-spot, a devious smirk curling on his lips. Your nails rake down his back with each slow pump of his fingers, your arms trembling as you cling to him.
A third finger swipes up the amalgamation of drool and cum and slowly he slips it in to the first knuckle. He watches your shoulders tense, allowing you to pull him closer until your chests are slick with one anothersâ sweat. Your walls donât clamp so tightly around his fingers as you adjust and slowly, he slides the third one in to the knuckle.
The stretch of three fingers from your massive husband is immense as-is. You both know he isnât fitting the second of his dicks in you, but he seems satisfied regardless as he watches your expression with blown pupils.
âFuck, that feels good,â you breathe as he works you open slowly but surely, picking up the pace until heâs got you damn-near at the edge again.
He hums, pulling his fingers away with a wet squelch just as your nails dig into his skin. âKeep that feeling going for me, ange.â
When he lines himself up with you, a shudder rocks your body. Heâs always been big. From this angle, he looks massive and his cocks are no different. The upper cock is heavy as it rests atop your abdomen, leaking pre-cum and coated in saliva all the same, both of you equally a mess. When he pushes in the tip, you suck in a breath, a hand flying to his chest to stop him from pressing in too quickly.
He hisses at how tight you are, the size difference more apparent than ever. Swallowing hard, all four eyes turn their attention to you. âRelax, baby,â he coos, his voice dropping an octave as he uses your preferred pet name for him on you. Anything to allow you to anchor yourself. His gruff attitude flips on a dime, with no intention of causing you anything but pleasure and the knowledge that itâs not only been a long time, but you arenât the same species.
He wets his thumb with his mouth, bringing it down to your clit to massage small circles into it. Your lashes flutter, the muscles in your arms slackening as the pain of the stretch twists into ecstasy, searing and hot. His body runs so warm that the sensation of him stretching you open all the while warming you up is nothing short of heady and intoxicating. Slowly, he sinks in past the black band around his cock until he reaches the hilt, heavy balls resting against your ass.
Your walls convulse, still short of an orgasm but grappling with his size, until they finally let up and he shifts his hips slightly, testing how you react. You throw your head back in a searing moan as you grab his shoulders again, the kind that rips from straight in your chest and to your surprise, your husband groans in response. âFuck, thatâs it,â he gruffs with a pleasureful lilt to his tone. Heâs only ever heard you curse twice, but it seems he got the gist of its meaning quickly.
He pulls out to the tip, his breath hot on your sweat-slicked chest, gliding back in swiftly, though he watches you carefully. When heâs met only with a louder moan and your hands raking down his back, he takes the opportunity to dive in.
His hips rock slow at first, speeding up as he chases both of your highs. He keeps one finger perpetually on your clit, moving in calculated circles in spite of the fact that his hips now snap into you. Moans, pants, and the sound of his balls slapping against your ass fill the air as the scent of sex fills the room.Â
Your head is too hazy to look, but youâre fairly sure his stomachâs tongue is pleasuring his upper cock, if the feeling of pressure on your abdomen is anything to go off of. Itâs like nothing youâve ever experienced before, and just as his hands ball into fists in the sheets where they rest on either side of your head, both begin twitching. A heavy load of cum fills your pussy and coats your stomach all at once. He doesnât stop once they begin jerking, chasing your orgasm and riding his own out.
The sensation of his cum filling you is enough to push you over the edge moments later like glass shattering as it rocks your body in ways youâve never experienced before. You cling to him as your vision goes black, the world around you fading into an afterthought when all you can think of is your massive husband, hunched over and finally having stopped his movement. All four of his arms hold him upright and in one unsteady movement, he lowers himself to his forearms.
Both of your chests heave as you ride the highs, eyes lidded when he nuzzles the crown of your head. âI love you,â he murmurs into your hair, a hint of a question to the statement, as though he isnât positive that heâs using it correctly.
Through pants, you chuckle at his uncertainty, lifting your hands from his back to the nape of his neck. âI love you too.â
He slowly pulls himself from within you, rolling to the side so as not to crush you. As you come back down, you give yourself a onceover, blinking at the mess along your stomach and thighs and coating the sheets.
âSukuna, thereâs drool everywhere.â
âThatâs your fault,â he grumbles, eyes shut as he lays to your left.
âLiterally how?â
With no words in your language for the matter, he replies in his mother tongue. âYou feel too good.â
You canât help a smile, but you do take the opportunity to turn and curl into him, coating him in every fluid youâve shared.
âMm,â he hums as you intertwine your legs, your head resting on his bicep. âYou might be right.â
âJust a little bit.â
âIâll clean us up,â he murmurs, leaning down to nuzzle the crown of your head. âJust give me one more moment of this.â
â
The tides are low as you sit with your bare feet in the wet sand. The water scarcely reaches your toes, coming up to your husbandâs calves as he naps in the sun, a hat laid over his head. He stirs every so often as you read a Simurian romance novel with your legs thrown over him, the written text coming easier to you these days.
The couple in the novel are so youngâ relative to the speciesâ that it has you feeling wistful for days long past.
âSukuna?â
You know heâs awake, having recently adjusted his hat. His chest rises and falls in a content sigh before he chuffs.
âWhat will you do when Iâm gone?â You wonder about your husband, a species that mates for life.
He moves lazily as he sits up, hunching over you to parse what youâre reading. When it isnât of interest to him, he adjusts the hat back over his head to block the sun. âIâll mourn you.â He stares out across the ocean of the dome heâs grown into a much larger space over the years. âBut Iâll celebrate your life, too.â
The thought brings a smile to your face in spite of the somber tone of your conversation. âWill you take care of my bugs?â
âThatâs what youâre worried about?â
You shrug. âYeah, a little.â
He sighs. âNot the ones that sting. I donât like them.â He wrinkles his nose at the thought of them. âBut the rest, yes. I like the ones with extra legs.â
âYeah, the tarantula-looking ones are pretty cool,â you agree, leaning back into his chest.
His gaze softens as he looks over your features. Youâve aged beautifully over the past several years of marriage, and he knows your reservations about the difference in your speciesâ lifespans, but he knows something else, too.
Your aging has slowed to a near-halt. At around forty in Human years, your body stopped showing the signs of age that you so often describe. Heâs more than positive that you havenât noticed, but every minute change in your features is something he categorizes mentally.
It was never on purpose, but by the will of some God, whether Human or Simurian, his injected cells have slowed your aging. He isnât sure if heâs gained a lifetime with you, or simply a few more years, but he considers the action the sort of thing you might call star-crossed. Like the gene therapy that saved your life acted as a string of fate too, bonding you together not just for your life, but several Human lifetimes.
One pair of arms holds him up as he leans back on them, the other pair sliding around your waist as he pulls you closer, the feeling of your bare skin familiar and comforting to the lumbering man. His fingers curl into your skin as he watches you happily turn a page, content with his reply. His gaze lingers on the ink on your ring finger that matches his.
However many lifetimes it may be that youâre blessed with, he knows heâll cherish each and every one.
âŸâ a/n ; okay so i watched phm and between that, iron lung, and alien earth, i got alien sukuna brainworms. i didn't anticipate it being like 38k đ i hope you enjoyed though!! this one was a lot of fun and i'm proud of how it turned out. you may also notice a difference between the tumblr and ao3/wattpad versions of this fic which is because i found tumblr's post limit (1000 paragraphs) and had to do some quick combining/editing. forgive me for any strange pacing on this piece in the tumblr version <3
i also wanna take the time to thank you all for the patience while i deal with some medical issues, i promise my regular series should be coming back soon <33
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BOSS IF YOU MAKE HER CRY ONE MORE TIME OUR STOCK PLUMMETS
âȘ a part of â« ââ the j in jujutsu corp stands for jeez why are we still working here...
the three times your workmates try to sabotage you for the lolz, and the three times you made your boss grovel for it.
content: language, crude humor, crack fic, modern office au, female reader, reader is a bit clueless for the plot and humor, reverse harem, the company stuff in this fic is not peer-reviewed
You've been married to him for years. What you find in the shed makes you question everything.
Pairing: Husband!Sukuna x fem!reader
CW: character death, murder / homicide, gore (blood, injuries), body horror, psychological manipulation / gaslighting, toxic relationship / unhealthy relationship dynamics, captivity / imprisonment, Implied cannibalism, mutual obsession
For my event INTERLACED
Ten years.
A whole decade.
Wasted.
You wear your wedding gift from him, always neatly tied or braided into your hair.
Ivory white and clean as a whistle. You kept it spotless.
A lace bow, with the most delicate trim and floral motifs.
Every day.
You loved Sukuna so much it hurt your heart at times, unable to properly show how much poured from your fingertips after touching his skin. Just a hug or a small kiss would have you flooded with love. All for him.
He was the same, you never knew any hardships when he was around, there to be a strong arm, a word that made you laugh, brightening your day. Never upset you, sure, he might be a bit rough around the edges, but you weren't perfect, either.
The purest kind of love and adoration, care.
Mutual obsession.
So when did it start going wrong?
Truthfully, you hadn't even noticed it. Nothing was amiss. Your mind about him is as spotless as your bow, your husband could do no wrong.
Nothing was wrong in your marriage, nothing had changed in your relationship.
But your surroundings were shifting.
Missing knives, but they were replaced with new, better ones a day or two after you began asking where they had gone. A safe tucked away in the closet, no clue what was inside.
"For our safety, sweetheart, you know how wild animals are."
Having to do more loads of laundry than usual. But Sukuna himself would do it, not letting you glance at his dirty clothes thrown into a pile in the middle of the hamper, reassuring you to leave it to him.
"Go rest, my flower. I'll handle it."
No questions about this odd tint of red around his fingernails that never went away.
Why was the shed locked shut?
The shed.
Just a regular tool shed, your husband kept his power tools and lawnmower there, nothing unusual for the house.
So why was it bolted shut day after day unless Sukuna strolled inside of it?
"Just working on some things in there, don't worry your pretty little head about it, alright, my doll?"
"You should be worrying more about watering the flowers instead of some junk in a rotting shed, my love."
Sweet words, easing your curious heart. He was a good man.
But you couldn't help yourself, could you?
Off at work, at least that's what your husband told you he was up to, not around to fill your ears with light whispers and reassurance of your growing paranoia.
It was starting to get cloudy outside, a storm rolling in from past the canopy of nearby trees. Your first sign not to step outside.
The second one was the lock on the wooden door.
You had the key, right?
Of course you did.
While searching for your slippers in the morning, you had peeked under the bed.
Taped on the underside of your husband's side was⊠something.
Now it was in your hands, your anxious, shaky hands.
Don't be nervous now, all you have to do is turn the lock.
Click.
You didn't reach for the handle yet, taking a shaky breath and shutting your eyes.
Sukuna wouldn't be mad, right?
No, no, he wouldn't.
The only way he spoke to you was through patience and gentle guidance. He'd just chuckle and show you what's inside himself, yes.
Manipulation and lies, sugarcoated to sound as tender as your flesh.
You didn't know, using that same feeling of safety to calm your nerves, peering at the door once again, your hand on the handle already, key in the lock.
Nothing to be uneasy about, it's just a shed with gardening tools and maybe some car parts. Stop feeling like you might get your neck snapped just by having a little look.
The door creaked open, louder than you would have liked. The treeline went silent after the uncomfortable noise. A third warning.
What you saw wasn't all that odd⊠the lawnmower in the corner, a grass trimmer, and a few shovels in a dark corner.
You stepped inside, leaving the door ajar.
The lamp in the middle of the shabby thing flicked awake after tugging on the string dangling down.
There was this faint smell of dread hiding behind the organization.
Your eyes flicked around, landing on the workbench at the far side. Your feet carrying you there before your brain.
A small jar of pulled teeth fell into your gaze.
Teeth?
The more you looked around, the items didn't seem so innocent anymore.
Thick rope and a few rusty saws tucked under the table.
Not rust.
Maybe the worst thing was a splotch of thick blood on the edge of a bucket filled with that same stench of impending doom.
It wasn't blood⊠just paint.
Your fingers reached out, you had to prove to yourself that it was nothing.
But the deep crimson stained your hand, the smell of iron hit your nose, and you couldn't keep the fantasy stable anymore.
Thunderclouds had hidden the sky completely outside, making the space darker than before.
The loud thuds of heavy raindrops hitting the tin roof of the shed rang through your ears, overwhelming your senses, hands trembling while looking at the glossy blood seeping into your nail beds.
You should not have left the door open.
"My flower, what are you doing in here?"
Sukuna had returned.
You snapped out of your trance, blinking and looking in his direction, hand reaching up to your head in search of the comfort of your lace bow, fiddling with it while watching your husband approach.
Rough hands cradled your face, gently checking if you had hurt yourself. Red irises did a horrible job of hiding his displeasure with you.
"You didn't harm yourself, did you? Oh my sweet girl⊠come here."
A hug, face smushed into the comfort of his chest. A steady heartbeat against your ear.
So he wasn't mad⊠good.
Your trembling hands clung to his back.
You couldn't see the way Sukuna's jaw clenched, nails itching to claw into your sides and squeeze you tight enough to have you pop.
"You shouldn't be in here. How about we go back inside and have dinner, hm?"
No questions about the key or your findings.
False safety.
Sukuna had taken you back in the house, sat you down, and helped heat up some food. It was silent while you ate, your fork barely able to cut through a soft vegetable, as the thought of the odd findings popped back into your mind.
"Sweetheart, why is your bow filthy? Messy girl."
Your fingers had stained a corner of it with the Incarnadine shade.
Scrubbing. Scratching, desperately washing both your hands and the lace, couldn't get rid of it.
You cried in his arms that night, gathered up in his chest, head lying against his.
Sukuna caressed your back, caressed your hair, and shushed you to sleep.
It was just a bow.
The truth was cracking from the seams everywhere you looked now. The house was lacking color, the dullness and real darkness creeping in from unlit corners. The ingredients in the pantry and the shelves in the fridge seemed to be rotten, tasteless.
Sukuna's face looked different, touching it made your skin tingle- as if it refused to connect with his.
Maybe it was because the romanticized image of him was losing its shape.
And maybe the fact that he refused to let you go outside.
No more garden work, too harsh for your puzzled mind.
The sun was too hot, even on a cloudy day.
You needed to relax, even after sleeping all day.
It was getting unbearable.
The front door was locked, the back door too. Sukuna was working in the study.
Trapped in your own safe haven, you needed to do something, so why not go down to the basement?
Your husband never said anything about the cold concrete box below the floorboards, knowing you were too scared to go there.
With nothing better to do, his logic was being proved false with every step you took down the squeaky stairs.
You found the light switch, getting a yellow, old hue illuminating the space.
Oh yeah, the freezers were down here.
Two, to be exact. Sukuna liked smoking meat and fish on sunny days, so you knew he used them to keep them frozen.
A little peek wouldn't do you any harm.
So what if your last gander took away your freedom to leave these walls? This was different.
As if.
The sound of the creaking steps had alerted him, no matter how slow you had gone.
Your tainted hands lifted the large hinged lid of the chest.
Just some plastic bags of red meat, parts of a pig, and venison. A large salmon head stared up at you from the side.
The eyes of the dead fish were gouged out.
The lid went back down, now wanting to see if the same contents were in the second one.
You should have stopped with the first one.
At first the same plastic bags stared up at you, what looked like minced meat and animal body parts.
Not that human hand though.
Sawed off from the bicep, a fleshy limb wrapped in the same plastic bag, but oozing crimson from the palm made eye contact with you.
The color drained from your face, doubling over and pulling the dismembered part out, your own arms shaking while looking at the frozen appendage.
Bile churned around in your stomach, a sour, watery taste taking over your mouth.
The stairs were still squeaky, making sound as heavy footsteps rushed down.
"Flower, what are you up to now?"
Once Sukuna's head went low enough from the upper floor, seeing the sight of you holding something you never were supposed to see.
Your hands dropped the bag immediately, clattering to the basement floor, a part of the bag opening, the smell of decayed flesh hit your nose once again.
"My angel, are you trying to get yourself in trouble again. It hurts me to keep you locked away, but if you keep fooling around, i might just keep you in one room and tend to you."
His voice was gruff, trying to sound smooth and caring, but it was clearly impossible to do so.
He tried to reach out to you, blunt nails touching your hair, easing you to step into his embrace. Just like any other time to have you calm down and trap you in his arms till he felt you'd deserve freedom.
His palm crushed your skull into his chest, Sukuna acting like he wanted to infuse you inside of his ribcage.
"Silly thing, must you keep poking your nose in my things?" He cooed into your hair, but you swore you could feel his canines trying to bite into the top of your head.
"We will go upstairs, watch a movie, and forget all about this-"
"No!"
You never spoke against him, so the sudden outburst had Sukuna's grip faltering, you shoved yourself off of him, looking more panicked than ever, not letting him worm his way into your logical thinking.
"Come back, you littleâŠ!"
You stumbled back, tripping over the same arm, trying to grab onto the freezer but it did nothing, crashing backwards with a thud.
Thankfully it only gave you a faint dizziness, scrambling up right after.
A tattooed arm wrapped around you, holding you tighter than before. He wouldn't let go now.
"You hit your head, my dear. It's bleeding. Maybe you shook your little brain back into place. I told you, we are forgetting about this and watching a fucking movie."
He dragged you back up the stair by your middle, not caring about you tripping over your own feet, not caring that you were looking at the melting limb on the ground and the image of pooling blood and peeling skin underneath a plastic sheen was the last thing engraved in your mind before the lights got switched off.
He sat you down, giving you a stern glare before disappearing into the bathroom to grab a first aid kit for your bleeding scalp.
The gash was above your bow, it still neatly wrapped into your hair, the thick red seeped into the middle of the ivory lace. Stained worse than before, just a few spots keeping the previous ivory color safe.
His fingers were gentle, parting your hair and cleaning the wound with stinging spirit. Your eyes blankly watched the subtitles flow as some old western movie played on the television.
You didn't dare look up, not wanting to see the cold glaze in his irises, knowing Sukuna wanted nothing but to take away your air and put you to sleep.
You weren't the one slumbering.
The only way you could end this nightmare was to snuff out the source.
It was past midnight, a large, full moon shining trough the tightly shut windows. Your bow hanging on by a few messy locks of hair, a bandaged wrapped around your skull with a red splotch on the back.
A knife, your favourite one to cut up fruit. The one with a pretty handle, engraved with both you and your sleeping husbands initials.
You stood over him, eyes almost bleary while watching Sukuna's peaceful expression. Like the day he asked for your hand, for the day he said he wanted to be yours. The day you bought a house together in the middle of nowhere.
If only you were strong enough, your breathing had turned shaky and bordering on gasping as your hand shook, unable to even process what you were about to do.
The last thing to give away your actions was a droplet, a salty and large teardrop rolling down your cheek and right on to Sukuna's lips.
His eyes shot open as if his senses were on high alert, an arm already reaching out to grab at you.
You didn't know what else to do besides listen to your mind- stumbling back and running as fast as you could.
Almost falling out of the bedroom after shoving the door open.
Sukuna didn't yell for you to get back. He was already chasing after you.
You couldn't hear a single thing, heart too loud in your ears- wanting to leap out of your mouth.
Glass shattered, sharp pain in your palms and legs while climbing trough the kitchen window.
Damp grass padding against your bare soles as you ran for the treeline, unable to breathe.
You don't know how far you ran.
Didn't know how long.
He caught up, he always did.
Why would such a silly girl like you think he had just let you go?
"My petal, where have you gone now? I can hear you."
It felt like he was right behind the tree you had hid, blunt nails digging into the handle of the knife you thankfully hadn't dropped.
You shut your eyes, holding your breath. But that was no use.
"My angel, come out."
Heavy footsteps approached, with no care stepping right past the thick bark of the tree.
A stab to the chest, your hands weak from fear but driven enough to push the blade right to his beating heart, ripping trough muscle.
Too shocked by your own action, the pain from the same type of sharpness slicing trough the side of your throat.
Maybe it was a bit romantic, the last time spent together, in each others arms, spluttering and struggling to breathe, buried in moss with a pale moon not even giving you the ability to see one another bleed out.
Sukuna had never kissed the top of your head as tenderly as right before his last breath.
"I love you."
Not like you could reply, blood filling your lungs and vocal chords sliced.
Already fading out together with the last beat of his heart.
The bow, the lacy thing no longer white, barely even recognizable by how much blood had been spilt.
Yoon's notes: hi guys sorry for the lame ass horror fic
note: you let them know your bed is lonely without them in it! zanka, august, & follo not on the permanent lineup !! theyâre just special appearances.
àČ.word count: 5.5k àČ.art by: @!narutoss.ramen on X
àČ.pairing: Nerd!Satoru x Nerd!Reader
àČ.content & warnings: ê°non canon au âźâź crack! âźâź reader & satoru are heavily inexperienced âźâź Satoru being annoying otp âźâź bad sexting âźâź masturbation m & f âźâź reader humps a pillow âźâź oral. fem rec âźâź loss of virginity âźâź p in v âźâź multi-orgasms âźâź c-pied âźâź cum eating âźâź kissingê±
It had been a week. One whole week since the two of you had officially, undeniably, ridiculously become a couple. Your boyfriend. You still were not entirely sure how that word had ended up belonging to Satoru Gojo.
Sometimes you would be doing something completely ordinary. Brushing your teeth. Standing in line at the grocery store. Trying to decide what to eat for dinner. And your brain would suddenly go. Oh. Satoru is your boyfriend. Then you would have to stand there for a moment. Staring blankly at whatever was in front of you while your face slowly heated.
It was stupid. You had had boyfriends before. Technically. Wellâ Maybe not. Okay. No. Not really. But Satoru was different. Satoru was the person who had somehow gone from a complete stranger you met at a Doraemon expo, to the man whose name sat permanently pinned at the top of your messages.
Your Satoru. Your boyfriend. And apparently, according to him you were his girlfriend. He had started using the word like he had been waiting his entire life for permission. "My girl." "My girlfriend." "Angel." "Pretty girl." "My favourite person."
The first time he called you my girl over text you stared at the message for a solid thirty seconds before throwing your phone onto your bed. Then you picked it right back up. Then you reread it. Then you buried your face in your pillow.
Satoru meanwhile had apparently been having an equally profound experience. Because somewhere between the movie theater and the following morning he realized something terrifying. He had a girlfriend. Satoru Gojo had a girlfriend. Not a temporary fling. Not someone he met at a party and forgot the next morning. Not a stranger whose number would eventually disappear somewhere in the endless scroll of his phone.
You.
You were the person he could text when he woke up. The person he could send stupid memes to. The person who actually laughed at his jokes. The person who would tolerate him rambling about something obscure for twenty minutes because you genuinely wanted to hear him talk. And perhaps most importantly you were the person who had seen him at his most embarrassingly enthusiastic and somehow still wanted him afterward.
That last part had been sitting in his head a lot. More than he would ever admit. Because the thing was. Satoru had never really thought he would have this. Not in the way he had always secretly wanted it. Someone who wanted to know him. Someone who wanted to stay. Someone who would curl against him and laugh until her stomach hurt because he said something stupid. Someone who would look at him like he was something precious.
It made him feel almost unbearably lucky. Which was annoying. Because Satoru Gojo did not like feeling unbearably anything. Except apparently unbearably lucky. And unbearably horny.
That was becoming a problem too. A very significant problem.
It had been a couple weeks since that wild night in the bathroom stall at the movies. Your first real date. The way his hands had found you there. Inside you. The heat and the rush and the desperate way you both clung to each other after. Confirming everything. He was your boyfriend now. You were his girl. Satoru Gojo was a lucky boy because he did not think he would ever have a girlfriend. Someone to spend time with. Someone to share his jokes with and hear your pretty laugh in return.
That night after he came to the realization that he actually had his hands on you. Inside you. It had all been so surreal. And now the two of you had been constantly talking over text. Even sexting. Yeah. Sexting.
The first time it happened started innocently enough. He had just gotten out of the shower.
You were lying in bed. Half watching something on your laptop when your phone buzzed. You picked it up. A message from Satoru.
His response took longer this time. Then your phone buzzed, a picture??? Why was he sending a picture right now, you took a sharp inhale.
And opened it. And immediately sat up. Satoru was standing in what looked like his dorm room, obviously. You've been there a couple of times to recognise the background. He was still wet. A towel hanging loosely around his neck. He wasn't smiling properly exactly. It was more of that lazy little half smirk he did when he knew precisely what he was doing. Your heart gave one stupid, traitorous little thump.
You stared. Then stared some more. Your nipples tightened under your shirt just from the sight of him like that. Fresh from the shower. Skin still warm and damp.
You looked down at yourself. You were wearing an oversized shirt, it was nothing special. Nothing remotely seductive. Your hair was messy. You had not done anything to look pretty. But your body was already reacting. Skin tingling. Pussy getting slick just from talking to him.
Your smile faltered. Not because the question was shocking. It was just. Different. Your fingers hovered over the keyboard. Your nipples were hard now. Pressing against the soft fabric.
You stared at the screen. And then your phone rang.
You nearly dropped it.
"Satoru?"
His voice came through warm and slightly amused.
"Hi."
"You called."
"I did."
"Why?"
"You were taking too long to answer."
You smiled despite yourself.
"To what?"
"Anything."
You rolled onto your stomach now.
"Satoru."
"Angel."
The nickname was softer over the phone. That was the problem. Everything sounded different when he said it aloud. You tucked your face into your pillow. Your pussy was wet now. Aching.
"What?"
"Are you still wearing the shirt?"
You made a tiny noise of disbelief.
"You're still on that?"
"I'm persistent."
"You're annoying." Yes he definitely was.
"You like me."
"I do." ... "fucker" - You muttered that under your breath.
The silence afterward was immediate. You could hear him breathe, it was soft and shallow, like he himself was trying hard to stay still. It made you close your eyes. You smiled.
"What's wrong?" Your voice came out a little shaky, you didn't mean for it to.
"Nothing." He said voice calm, almost assuring.
"You went quiet."
"I'm appreciating the fact that my girlfriend just admitted she likes me." Well that sounded a bit sarcastic.
"You already knew that." You retorted.
"I like hearing it."
Something in your chest softened. You turned onto your back. Your hand drifted down. Hovering shyly over your stomach.
"You're ridiculous." A small chuckle left your lips.
"Yeah."
His voice.. you can tell he was smiling. Then after a moment.
"Can I see you?"
Your heart jumped, you started to blink rapidly.
"uuuh r-right now?"
"Right now." He said straightforwardly.
"Satoru." You said, voice coming out an octave louder than necessary.
"What?"
"You've already seen me."
"I know."
"Today." You reminded.
"I know."
"Earlier." You re-affirmed.
"I know."
You could hear the grin in his voice.
"I want to see you right now, Angel."
That did something to you. Something so embarrassingly simple, had you smiling ear to ear at the ceiling. Your fingers slipped lower. Brushing over where your panties were soaked through.
"Okay." You sighed breathlessly.
There was a small pause. Then the call changed. The screen lit up, the emoticon to switch to video, you pressed it absentmindedly. And suddenly there he was. Satoru. His hair was still damp. His towel had fallen around his shoulders. He was lying back against his pillows, and his signature wire-rimmed glasses weren't on. He had one hand resting behind his head.
"Hi." He said playfully, his perfect teeth glaring at you.
You stared, eyes probably wide. He raised an eyebrow.
"Hi?"
"Yes. Hi." He tutted, then without giving you a secondâ
"You're staring."
"I'm not." You blinked your eyes off to the side.
"You are." He teased.
You groaned softly. "Your hair is still wet."
"That's what you noticed?" He huffed.
"Yes."
"Wow." Oh you didn't even notice the lack of his spectacles. That kinda broke his heart.
"Stop fishing for compliments." You said, eyes rolling.
"Tell me I'm pretty again."
You laughed, in disbelief.
"No."
"Please?" God... why did that sound so... ughhh.
"No." Your eyebrows pinched together.
"Angel."
Damn.
You covered your face. He laughed. Fuck. You loved his laugh. You loved how easy it was. How he never seemed embarrassed by it. Your fingers pressed lightly against your clit through the fabric.
"You're pretty." You muttered.
"What, what was that, hm?" Oh he was taunting you now.
"I said you're pretty." You said defeatedly.
"Louder."
"No."
"Come on."
"Satoru." That came out a little too whiny.
"Pretty please."
You groaned, again.
"You're pretty." You said honestly, voice loud enough for him.
He smiled and there it was. That look. The one that made you suddenly feel like you were the only person in the world.
"Thank you." That sounded so sweet, coming from him.
"You're welcome."
Then his eyes flicked downward.
"What are you wearing?"
You stared at him. He stared back. You narrowed your eyes. Your pussy clenched.
"You already know. Baka"
"I want to hear you say it."
"Ugh." You're weird."
"I'm your boyfriend."
"That doesn't explain anything."
"It explains everything."
You laughed again. Your fingers started moving in slow shy circles.
"An oversized shirt."
"Still?"
"Yes." Annoyance clear and present in your voice now.
"Nothing else?" He was prying.
You froze. Satoru's expression changed. Not dramatically. Just enough though. His smile softened into something more curious. His free hand shifted lower on screen.
"Angel?"
You swallowed. Your voice came out breathy. Shy but honest.
"You're being nosy."
"Very." At least he was self-aware.
"You can't see anything."
"I didn't ask to see anything."
"You're thinking about it." Oh he definitely was.
"Maybe." That confirmed it.
Your cheeks warmed. Your nipples were so hard they ached. Your pussy was soaking. You wanted to touch yourself properly. To him. To his voice.
"Oh." He said softly.
"What?"
"You're flustered."
"I'm not." You tried to deny, to play it somewhat cool.
"You are." This asshole.
"Stop looking at me."
"Never." omg.. why was he like this?!
You hid your face. But you kept your fingers moving. Slow and awkward. Horny and unsure, no you were sure, so sure actually.
"You're so annoying."
"You're cute."
That shut you up, and Satoru laughed quietly.
"See?" His voice teased.
"See what?"
"I can make you speechless."
"Don't get excited."
"Too late."
You rolled your eyes. But you were smiling. Most times the two of you stayed like that. Talking. Teasing. Learning. There was no rush. No script. Just two people who were still figuring out how to be together. Shy in so many ways even after that bathroom stall. Still exploring every new feeling.
Sometimes the conversation drifted toward things neither of you had the courage to say directly. Questions. Curiosity. Little admissions.
Satoru'd asked what you thought about him. You told him he was irritating. He asked what else. You said he was kind. He went quiet. You asked why. He said he was not used to people saying that. You told him he should get used to it. Then he smiled.
And suddenly you understood something. The flirting was easy. The teasing was easy. But underneath it there was something softer. Something neither of you knew quite how to handle yet. Something that made every new step feel bigger than it should.
But right now your fingers kept rubbing. Little whimpers slipping past your lips, trying to be quiet but he was picking up on every stray sound. He could tell and maybe that excited you.
"Angel. Are you... touching yourself?" His voice dropped. Unfiltered.. teasing and horny, you could hear it.
You bit your lip shyly. Fuck. You were caught.. But you nodded. You nodded anyway because you couldn't keep anything from him even if you wanted to.
"Yeah. A little." Your voice came out strained. There was no going back now.
"Fuck. Don't hide it." He breathed. "Let me see you. Please."
Your heart pounded. But you switched cameras. The screen showed where your t-shirt had ridden up your tummy, and your other hand clearly shoved into the waistband of your panties. His eyes darkened when he saw it.
"You're so pretty like this." He murmured. "You're ah- um touching yourself..?" He sounded so shy and wrecked, asking a dumb question, the answer was obvious enough at this point.
It still made you whimper. Fingers slipping lower under your panties. Sliding through your wet folds.
"Yes. Satoru." Affirmations was definitely his kink.
Your breathless purr of his name, made him groan.. he was coming undone quick. His camera flipped down, now too. His sweats and boxers shoved down mid thigh, cock out and visibly hard. Flushed and pretty. Long and leaking precum at the tip. His slender hand wrapped around it. Stroking slow. All for you to see and your eyes lingered, staring intently.
"Look at what you do to me." He said. Voice rough. "So hard for you angel."
You rubbed your clit faster. Watching him. The way his hand moved. The slick sounds. His moans of your name.
"Satoru..." You gasped. Fingers circling. Wet noises filling the call on both ends.
He stroked harder. Thumb spreading precum over the tip and down his length. "Fuck. Your sounds. S'messy Angel. Let me hear your pretty cunt."
You moaned. Shy but needy. Rubbing quicker, building fast. His hips bucked. Hand flying.
"Angel. M'gonna cum." He panted. Moaning your name loud, then in the next second thick white cum streaked across his chest. Over his fingers. So much. So pretty.
You followed. Messy on your fingers. Clenching and whimpering out his name, desperately.
He caught his breath. Eyes hungry. "Can i see.. Angel.. can I see your fingers? show them to me please.." Fuck... he was begging so nicely, it did something to you.
Shy but obediently you held them up. Shiny, your arousal thick and sappy stringed on your fingers, webbing in the light.
"Good girl... fuck. Put them in your mouth.. haa-ah taste yourself f'me Angel."
You slipped them into your mouth, with a moan, Sucking softly as he wiped his cum off his chest. Licking a bit from his fingers, in sync with you.
The two of you stayed on the call. Breathing softly together. Smiling shyly, left over horniness fading way now. Both connected and sated.
Eventually Satoru's eyes left your pretty face for a second and glanced at the clock in the little upper left corner on his phone.
"It's late." He said in realization.
"It is." You knew it was by now.
"You should sleep." Voice tender-soft.
"You first." You murmured back.
"I'm not tired."
"Neither am I." He sounded believable but you were sure.
"You are."
"I'm not." He was going to play this game, but you weren't gonna let him win this.
"You've yawned three times."
That made him grin, "You're counting?"
"Obviously."
He smiled.
"Stay on the phone, with me Angel." Voice low and lazy.
You blinked.
"While we sleep?"
"Yeah."
Your heart squeezed.
"Okay."
"Okay?"
"Okay."
With that he settled deeper into his pillows. You did the same and for a while neither of you said anything. You could hear his breathing. He could hear yours.
And eventually...quietly.
"Hey angel?"
"Yeah?" Your voice came out a little drowsy.
"I'm really glad you're my girlfriend."
You smiled into the darkness.
"Me too."
A pause. Then-
"Also."
"What?"
"Your shirt is still bothering me."
You burst out laughing.
"Satoru!"
He laughed too.
And somewhere between the teasing and the laughter the call stayed connected. The two of you fell asleep like that. Not knowing exactly where this was going. Not knowing how much you would learn about each other. Not knowing how many more firsts were waiting.
Just knowing that somehow. Against all odds. Satoru Gojo had a girlfriend. And you had a boyfriend. And he was lying in bed somewhere smiling at the sound of your sleepy breathing.
Thinking probably for the hundredth time that week. Holy shit. She's really mine.
And maybe just maybe you were thinking the same thing.
Because tomorrow he would text you again. He would send something ridiculous. You would pretend to be annoyed and he'd flirt. You would flirt back. And eventually one of you would say something that made the other flustered.
And you would keep discovering each other. Slowly, carefully, and with hunger. One little secret at a time.
This time you're at his dorm room on campus.
And it starts with a pillow.
Wellâ you, and a pillow, and a very stupid pair of thigh-high socks that Satoru swore would be the death of him when you slid into his dorm room wearing them and nothing else but one of his oversized hoodies and a shy little smirk.
He gawked.
You straddled his pillow without a word, right in the middle of his bed, and started grinding. Soft. Slow. Just for yourself. His jaw went slack. His hands froze mid-text. And you were so casual about it, like you didnât even notice the way he was staring at you like youâd hung the moon with your pussy.
Satoru dropped his phone. Physically. Onto the floor.
You giggled. "I wanted to see if I could get off just humping something."
He made a sound like he'd been punched.
So now here you areâ on your hands and knees, still wearing his hoodie and those sinful socks, pussy flushed and puffy from humping his favorite dorm pillow, hips twitching like you're almost there. You don't even realize you're whimpering until his hands slide around your hips, and he speaks, low and starving, right behind you.
âAngelâŠâ
You look back over your shoulder.
Satoru is kneeling behind you, shirtless, eyes dark with hunger. He brushes your ass with his palm. Then slips his hand between your thighs and cups your pussy over the pillow. Soaked-sticky and messy.
âYouâre so wet,â he groans. âYou were gonna cum on a pillow and not even let me watch?â
âI was...testingâ you pant, wearily.
He flips you like a doll.
Suddenly youâre flat on your back, head on the sheets, thighs trembling open and hoodie bunched around your waist. The pillow lies forgotten beside you, damp with slick. He looms over you, hair falling into his eyes, lips parted and pink.
âYou wanna ride my face, Angel?â he asks, voice hoarse.
Your whole body shivers.
ââŠCan I?â
He laughs soft and stunned, worshipful almost, and leans down to kiss you like youâre the most delicious thing in the world.
âFuck yes, you can. Sit on my face. Suffocate me. Make me drown in it.â
He lays back against the pillows, adjusting under you with arms out like a throne. His glasses are already tossed to the side, and heâs licking his lips like he can already taste you. Youâre climbing over him, thighs shaking, when he grabs your hips and drags you up.
âRight here,â he whispers, eyes locked on your glistening cunt above him. âRight here, baby. Let me feel the weight of it.â
You lower slowly, knees braced, hands pressed into the wall behind his headboard. You hover above his mouth, panting and then, gently, you sank down.
His tongue meets your folds like heâs starving.
You wail.
Your pussy clenches instantly, overwhelmed by the first hot drag of his tongue from your entrance to your clit. Satoru groans, loud, grabs your thighs like he needs more, and pulls you down until youâre seated fully on his mouth.
âSatoru!â you cry out, rocking without meaning to.
His tongue slides in now, licking into your dripping pussy like heâs mapping it. He moans like it tastes like heaven, like itâs a privilege just to be under you. Your thighs squeeze around his head. Your hips roll. Your clit finds his nose. And you grind.
Heâs letting you.
Letting you fuck his mouth like you need it to breathe.
âDonât stop,â you whimper. âDonât stop, Iâmâ Satoru, Iâm gonna cum, Iâm so closeââ
He hums against your clit and the vibration breaks you.
You cum on his tongue with a scream, body jerking, hips grinding down in helpless little circles. He grabs your thighs, keeps you there, mouth open, licking, moaning, slurping like he doesnât care that youâre sobbing above him.
You collapse forward, hips still twitching, body limp, cheek against his bare chest.
He gasps when you move off him, his face soaked, chin dripping with your slick.
ââŠYou taste like candy,â he whispers, starry-eyed.
Youâre panting, half-laughing. âThat was insane.â
âI think Iâm addicted to your pussy.â
You slap his chest, weakly.
He grins, wild and happy, then he murmurs, "You've got the prettiest pussy I've ever seen Angel, We need to do this again.. maybe ah-hundred times before we," His voice drops as he leans in and whispers into your ear teasingly, "fuck huh?"
Now youâve been thinking about it all day.
All week, really.
Every time your thighs press together too tightly in class, every time you catch Satoruâs glazed-over stare sliding to your chest or how he bites his lip when you fidget in your seatâyou think about riding him.
Youâve made out on his futon. Youâve touched. Explored. Cum multiple times on his fingers while crying into his neck. Youâve memorized the way he moans when you stroke him, how his cock twitches helplessly when you kiss the head and whisper how much you want to take it inside.
So now⊠itâs time.
You sit on his lap in his tiny, warm dorm room, legs bare, wearing nothing but one of his hoodies and knee socks, straddling him while his hands hover at your waist like heâs too scared to grip you. Your panties are already shoved to the side. His sweats are pushed down, and his cock's hard. Flushed, drooling against his belly, it twitches between your folds like itâs waiting for permission.
Youâre both shaking.
âYou donât have to,â he whispers. âNot tonight. Only if you really wantââ
âI need to,â you breathe.
You lean close, your nose brushing his, eyes wide and nervous but burning.
âI want to ride you, Satoru.â
He chokes on air.
âOh my god.â
Your hand wraps around the base of his cock, hot and slick from his own arousal, and you guide him up, between your slick folds, over your clit. You both shudder. You roll your hips, let him feel the mess heâs made of you. His eyes are already fluttering back.
âYouâre so wet,â he whispers. âYouâre gonna take me?â
You nod. âJust⊠let me go slow.â
You lift your hips, line him up with your tight little entrance, and take a deep breath.
âOkay. Iâm ready.â
He holds your waist, his grip tightening.
The tip presses in.
And holy fuck.
Youâre stretching already, your walls squeezing down on him like youâre trying to keep him inside before heâs even all the way in. Your jaw falls open. He moans so loud into your shoulder you nearly lose balance.
âOh ...oh fuck angelâangel, youâre so tightâfuck, I canâtââ
You both gasp, frozen, as you sink down another inch. Itâs like a punch to your stomach and your cunt at the same timeâhot, overwhelming, raw and perfect. Your thighs tremble. Your nails dig into his shoulders.
âI can feel everything,â you sob. âYouâre so big, Satoru, youâre splitting me open.â
Heâs crying. A little. From how tight you are. From how warm. From the way your pussy clenches around him like you love him already and he hasnât even bottomed out yet.
âTell me when to stop,â he pants. âTell me if I hurt you.â
âYouâre not,â you gasp. âDonât stopâdonât stop. I need you.â
You sink lower. Lower. Inch by inch, your walls stretch around him, pulsing with slick heat.
Thenâ you bottom out.
And it feels like your whole body is going to break open from the pressure, from how full you are.
You bury your face in his shoulder. âIâm full. Iâm so fucking full, I can feel you in my stomachââ
His hips twitch and he sobs again.
âIâm inside,â he whispers. âYouâre letting me in. Youâre my firstââ
You press your lips to his ear. âYouâre my first, too.â
And thenâ you rock.
Gently. Testing how much you can move.
And his hands slam down on your hips like he canât take it. His cock twitches inside you, and your walls clench around him in response.
You moan.
He moans louder.
Then you start riding him, slow and messy. Tight little bounces, up n down. Just enough to feel the stretch, the slide, the overwhelming wet heat of your cunt clinging to him like your body doesnât want to let go. Itâs all instinct and desperation. The sounds of skin against skin, of slick, needy friction echoing in the tiny dorm room.
Your thighs are shaking. His hands wonât stop gripping, guiding, worshiping.
âFuck, angelâ fuck, youâre riding meââ
You cry out. âYouâre so deepâ I-I canâtâI feel you in my chestââ
He bucks into you by accident and you scream, throwing your head back.
âDid I hurt you?!â
âN-noâagain, do that againââ
He does. And you swear you go cross-eyed.
The rhythm is clumsy. Awkward. Your knees are slipping and his hips stutter, but you donât care. You donât care about perfect. You care about how he moans your name like a prayer. How your pussy makes that wet little schlk sound every time you take him down to the base.
âIâm gonna cum,â he gasps. âIâm gonnaâfuck, I canât hold itââ
You grab his cheeks, force his eyes to meet yours.
âCum in me,â you whisper. âPlease. Make a mess inside me.â
His cock throbs violently.
âAngelâfuckâI love youââ
He explodes.
Itâs hot. You feel it fill youâ pulse after desperate pulse. Sticky, thick, messy. It overflows instantly, leaking between your thighs and down his cock while you grind and cry out again, cumming right after him. You shake through itâ sobbing, clenching, writhing in his lap like your body doesnât know how to survive this much fullness.
You collapse against his chest.
His hands cradle you.
Heâs panting. Moaning your name over and over.
âIâve never felt anything so good,â he whispers.
You kiss him then, slow and shaky-sweet.
âNeither have I.â
And then you both fall backward onto the bed, tangled, ruined, still joined at the hips.
You stay that way for a long, long time.
Youâre still straddling him.
Bare thighs trembling. Pussy aching. His cock softening slowly inside you, twitching with little aftershocks, buried deep in your cunt and leaking. You can feel it. His cumâso much of itâ pooling hot and sticky inside your body. Seeping out in slow, obscene dribbles every time you shift or twitch.
Itâs messy. Youâre flushed and overwhelmed, shivering through the afterglow and clinging to his hoodie like a lifeline.
And Satoru Gojo is staring between your legs like heâs entranced.
You glance down. Follow his line of sight.
Thereâs a little stream of milky white trickling from where heâs still inside you, slipping down between your folds and soaking into the mess of his hoodie bunched beneath your ass. You clench involuntarily and more leaks outâ sticky-warm and filthy.
Satoru groans.
âI can see it.â His voice is wrecked. âItâsâfuck, itâs dripping out of you. Thatâs my cum. Inside you.â
You moan softly, hips rocking like youâre chasing the stretch again.
His hands grip your waist.
âI wanna clean you up,â he whispers, breath hot against your cheek.
You blink, dazed. âI can justâ get a towel, orââ
âNo. Not like that.â
You look down. Heâs already pulling outâslowlyâ and you both gasp as his softening cock slips free of your pussy, followed immediately by a thick, wet gush of cum that drips from your folds in slow, shiny strands.
Satoru watches it fall.
Then he drops to his knees.
Right between your thighs.
âSatoruâ what are youââ
âI need to,â he says, voice low, eyes blown wide and desperate. âPlease. Let me clean it with my mouth.â
You canât even think. Not with the way heâs looking at you like youâre something divine, something sweet and holy and soaked in his mess. His hands part your trembling thighs and he moans at the sight of your sticky, cum-dripping pussy glistening in the soft dorm light.
âAngel,â he whispers, reverent. âYouâre ruined. I made such a mess.â
You reach down, brush his hair back. âThen clean it up.â
He dives in.
His tongue slides through your foldsâ warm, flat, soaking up the slick with long, filthy licks. You scream, thighs snapping around his head, because youâre so sensitive, still throbbing from your orgasm, and now his tongue is licking up his own cum from your pussy like heâs starving.
You squirm. Whimper. Try to push him back. âS-Satoruâs'too muchâ!â
He groans into your cunt, arms wrapping around your hips, holding you down like heâs not letting go until youâre clean.
âCan taste you,â he pants between licks. âYou and me, mixed togetherâfuck, itâs so sweetââ
You throw your head back, moaning like a girl gone dumb.
His mouth is everywhereâ lapping up the mess he made, licking into your hole, nosing against your clit until youâre gasping through gritted teeth, thighs shaking violently.
Youâve never felt anything like it.
Itâs so dirty. So loving.
So deeply, terrifyingly intimate.
âSatoruâpleaseââ
âCum again,â he begs. âOne more. Let me taste it fresh.â
And you do.
You cum with a sob, hips jerking, pussy leaking fresh slick into his mouth. He groans, drinks it, licks until youâre sobbing and twitching and clinging to his hair like you donât know who you are anymore.
When he finally pulls back, his is face wet, chin shining, cheeks pink and youâre spread wide, limp, flushed from your ears to your tits and totally wrecked.
He climbs over you, kisses your forehead, then your lips, slowly, letting you taste yourself, his cum, the sweat and breathlessness of your shared first time.
âYouâre my favourite thing,â he whispers.
You start crying.
He cradles you, strokes your hair, tucks you against his chest and wraps a blanket over your trembling body.
âI want you again,â you whisper.
He kisses your hair.
âIâm yours now,â he says. âSo anytime you want me⊠Iâm yours.
summary: when your boyfriend abandons you on the side of a mountain you find solace in the form of a pink-haired mountaineer who comes to your rescue
word count: 11k
content: 18+ mdni, smut, modern au, mountaineering/hiking, reader is dating naoya :(, abusive bf, misogyny, injury, fluff, hurt/comfort, friends to lovers, cheating (kind of? reader's relationship with naoya is essentially done), semi-public sex (in a tent), piv, fingering, soft!sukuna
a/n: thinking about this scenario was the only thing that got me through my own miserable mountain experience and food poisoning last week :(
Youâd joined the mountaineering club out of a desire to connect more with your boyfriend.Â
He was an experienced mountaineer - the type of person whoâd been climbing peaks with his family since he was a kid, and youâd thought heâd be happy to be able to go on those adventures with you. Youâd figured it could be one of those interests that you shared. Something you could do together.Â
Dismissal had been the emotion youâd been met with when you first told him youâd joined. It had been a scoff paired with an off-handed statement about how you werenât cut out for all that.Â
Maybe, if youâd had more sense, you wouldâve broken up with Naoya in that moment and saved yourself a whole lot of trouble. Instead, just like always, you made excuses for him. You figured he was just having a bad day - that you just needed to prove yourself to him and then heâd be happy to have you as a climbing buddy.Â
He was just concerned about your skill. That was all.Â
So youâd worked hard at the club - learned plenty of skills, did plenty of hours in the gym, made dozens of friends with the other club members to ensure you werenât dependent on Naoya to teach you everything.Â
You tried to ignore how uninterested your boyfriend seemed in your progress, tried to ignore the way heâd flirt with the other women at the club - you were sure heâd be so impressed with you on your first major outing to Mount Hotaka that heâd forget about everything else and be pleased with you for once.Â
That was all you wanted, for him to be proud of you outside of the offhanded thanks heâd give whenever youâd make him dinner.Â
Your first trip out to the mountain had several people in attendance. Beyond you and Naoya there were a handful of women from the club who youâd grown close with: Shoko, Utahime and Yuki, and then a few men. There were a couple of older guys you didnât know very well, and then a few in your age range who had been helping develop your skills - the most notable of that group being Sukuna, who had dedicated lots of time to teaching you knowledge that Naoya had brushed aside.Â
It had surprised you at first, that the hulking pink-haired man had any interest in helping you do anything. Others in the club had claimed that he tended to be aloof, harsh and generally unfriendly - and while he was harsh in his teachings, unfriendly was certainly not the word youâd use to describe him.Â
Heâd gone out of his way to help you, chasing away others like Satoru with the claim that they were âtoo stupid to teach you rightâ. Spending hours at your side, heâd taught you all you needed to know about equipment, rope skills and climbing. He wouldnât provide praise unless it was deserved, but once youâd finally started getting things right heâd always made sure you knew he was pleased with you.Â
It was praise you were desperately starved for, praise youâd love to receive from your boyfriend, and you were ashamed to admit that Sukunaâs simple compliments lingered in your mind for longer than they should have.
Youâd grown rather fond of him since joining the mountaineering club, even despite his somewhat prickly demeanour to everyone else, you felt he was someone you could rely on, someone who wouldnât call you stupid for asking him questions. Even if heâd sometimes tease you for getting upset or frustrated for not understanding something, heâd still take the time to help you understand.Â
Unlike Naoya, who would roll his eyes and once again point out how unfit you were for something as involved as mountain climbing.Â
The comparison between the two was something you found yourself making more and more often, eyes straying over to your pink-haired friend when he wasnât looking, your stomach flipping when heâd speak to you, or when heâd place a large hand on your shoulder in congratulations at a task done well.Â
You knew it was wrong, chastising yourself whenever the thought of Sukuna would stray into your mind late at night while Naoya was snoring away next to you. Not only did you have a boyfriend, but you were certain Sukuna didnât think of you in anything beyond a friendly manner anyway.
So you kept those feelings locked deep within your chest and tried to focus on why you were in the club in the first place - to prove to your boyfriend that youâd make a good partner for his mountain expeditions, to prove that you were worth more to him than being a glorified maid in his house.
The first few hours of the hike, starting in the early morning, had gone by fairly uneventfully. Your training had paid off and your legs felt good as you winded up through valleys and fields, trailing a little behind the group of boys, favouring a slightly slower pace and jovial conversation amongst the girls.Â
Despite Naoyaâs reluctance for you to join the club, you felt like it was where you were supposed to be. You loved being out in nature - taking in the fresh air and drinking from mountain streams, wandering along with like-minded people and encouraging each other along through the gruelling uphills.Â
It wasnât until late afternoon that things started to get more difficult, with the altitude creeping steadily up, and the group stumbling across snow fields that still hadnât melted in the late spring air. It was nothing you werenât prepared for, but with everyone feeling a great deal more tired than they had in the morning hours, the pace slowed considerably.Â
A group of the more experienced men ended up going on ahead at a quicker pace, saying theyâd get the next big section of uphill completed and scout out a good camping spot for the night, since the plan was to make a summit push in the early morning to watch the sunrise.Â
You didnât mind that so much - you didnât like the feeling of slowing them down and that arrangement meant that you could keep going at a comfortable pace without feeling stressed about it. The girls you were with were perfectly experienced in their own right, and Naoya had chosen to hang behind with you anyway rather than going on ahead.Â
That was a decision that youâd convinced yourself was on account of him wanting to keep an eye on you, but a part of you believed it was really because he didnât get along with any of the men at the club.Â
Or perhaps it was just so he could keep staring at Yukiâs ass like he had been for the entire hike up to that point.Â
The next couple of hours were difficult, and everyone grew more withdrawn under the effort of a constant uphill - facing switchback after switchback with no clarity on how far you had to go beneath a freshly settled blanket of fog lowering the visibility. Shoko had been struggling for a while, and after an extended rest on a rock decided that it was best if she turned back and camped somewhere lower in the valley.Â
Sheâd been having issues with her lungs and didnât think it was wise to keep going.Â
At her decision, Utahime also suggested that she wanted to go back, mentioning that she also didnât feel in the best physical condition, and Yuki insisted on going back with the two of them to make sure they got back down safely. Youâd considered joining them, but you were still feeling good both physically and mentally and were keen to continue upwards towards the peak.Â
Considering Naoyaâs experience, you were certain that the two of you would be fine even without the girls, so you waved them off and continued upwards into the mist, eager to reconnect with the other half of your group and get settled with Naoya in the tent for the night.Â
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Sukuna had found a pretty good camping spot. He was pretty sure it was in a similar position to where heâd set up on his solo winter ascent a couple of years before - a location that should be downright comfy in the mild spring weather.Â
Assuming that weather stayed mild.Â
It was hard to tell through all the fog, but he was almost sure he could see dark clouds rolling high in the sky. He hoped he was wrong. There hadnât been a storm on the forecast, and if one was to roll in that could make for a very harrowing evening, especially for people like you whoâd had little experience of the mountains.Â
He hoped one bad night wouldnât be enough to put you off entirely.Â
âYuki just radioed.â Satoru called out to him. âShe, Shoko and Utahime are all going back down. The others are still coming I think.âÂ
Sukuna hummed in affirmation as he moved to set up his tent. He wished it couldâve just been you coming up, rather than you and your shithead boyfriend, but he supposed heâd rather you have a buddy in the mountains than be out there alone. If heâd had things his way, he wouldâve hung back with you for the whole duration of the hike, but he didnât need people casting suspicions on his actions.Â
Heâd already received some strange looks over his eagerness to teach you - the last thing he needed was the rumor mill in full operation.Â
Even if the rumor mill was right in this case.Â
He liked you. He really liked you.Â
Feelings that he needed to keep to himself, because your boyfriend was one jealous asshole, and he was almost confident that any sign of flirting on Sukunaâs part would have Naoya taking out his anger and jealousy on you, which was the last thing he wanted. He wasnât sure what you saw in that guy, but god, Sukuna wanted to bash his teeth in.Â
Heâd been watching it for months now - the depressing life you lived in which youâd excitedly bound over to Naoya to show him something youâd learned only for him to react with total disregard. Sukuna had watched the light in your eyes flicker and die each time, doing his best to control the rage boiling in his chest.Â
You deserved better than that fucker.Â
But he got the sense that you werenât able to see that.Â
Almost everyone had set up their tents, laughing and joking and tearing into provisions by the time Naoya appeared from the mist. A couple of hours had passed since the group first found the camping spot, and Satoru welcomed him enthusiastically as he stepped into the clearing. He looked surprisingly exhausted for a man who was supposed to be experienced.Â
Sukunaâs red eyes scanned the fog, waiting for you to appear behind the man. His chest squeezed when only silence followed, no sign of your presence in the mist.Â
âIs it only you?â Satoru asked, voicing the very question that was on the tip of Sukunaâs tongue.Â
âYeah, the girls went down,â Naoya responded nonchalantly, shrugging off his backpack. âIs there a good place for me to set up?â Satoruâs lips parted, as if to question the manâs statement, considering Yuki had relayed specific names, but he clearly thought better of it, nodding and pointing Naoya in the direction of a clear patch of dirt for him to pitch his tent.Â
Sukuna wasnât so happy to shrug it off.Â
âYuki only said she was going down with Utahime and Shoko,â he called out to Naoya. The man turned to look at him, irritation shining in his amber eyes. Sukuna was well aware that Naoya despised him just as much as he despised Naoya.Â
âThey all went. Think I donât know where my own girlfriend is?â Naoya snapped.Â
Sukuna stared him down for a moment before leaving him be, heading over to Satoru and asking for the radio. Speaking into it, he called out for Yuki, praying that they were still within a reasonable range to pick up his voice.Â
He was met with only silence, cursing under his breath at the realisation that they were probably all the way back in the valley by that point and likely impossible to reach. His crimson gaze fell to Naoya once more, watching him hum as he set up his tent without a care in the world.Â
Something in the pit of Sukunaâs stomach told him that there was something wrong. You hadnât gone back with Yuki. Youâd been so happy all day, so excited about your first major peak. Not only that, but youâd been in good condition - heâd been watching you whenever he could, heâd been proud at how well you were doing.Â
You wouldnât have turned back. And if you had, Yuki wouldâve listed your name when she was heading down. Yuki was no newcomer to the mountains - she was responsible and experienced and she always emphasised the importance of good communications. And if youâd have turned back any later, Naoya shouldâve gone with you - it's what any sensible person wouldâve done.Â
But he was here, and you werenât. And you hadnât gone with Yuki. So you were alone.Â
Sukunaâs first instinct was to bash Naoyaâs head in. He wanted to walk over there and silence that bastardâs humming with a well placed rock to the head. What kind of a man - an experienced mountaineer, no less - would abandon their inexperienced girlfriend on the side of a mountain?Â
It wasnât like Sukuna doubted your ability. Heâd taught you all you needed to know, but putting those things into practice alone, at altitude, and in adverse weather was a whole other thing.Â
Instead of doing anything about Naoya, he parked that issue temporarily and quickly moved to dismantle his own tent. He wasnât going to sit there and do nothing while your location was unaccounted for. Even if you had gone down shortly after Yuki, even if youâd made it back to the valley by yourself, he wasnât going to roll the dice on your life.Â
Heâd go back the way theyâd come and heâd walk until he found you - even if that happened to be safe and sound at the bottom of the mountain.Â
âWhatâre you doing?â Satoru asked, hovering as Sukuna put his stuff back into his pack. Naoya had stopped to watch, a sneer on his already ugly face.Â
âI donât think she went down with Yuki. I need to make sure the boyfriend of the year over there didnât leave her in some bad situation,â Sukuna explained.
âOh my god, sheâs fine.â Naoya snapped from across the campsite. âYuki just misspoke, she went down with them. Why is it your problem anyway? It's not like sheâs your girlfriend.âÂ
The defensive edge to the manâs voice told Sukuna all he needed to know, and he ignored the jabs in favour of packing up more quickly. He didnât want it to get too dark - if something bad had happened and you didnât have your headlamp on it would be impossible to find you at night.Â
Unfortunately, Naoya seemed to have no interest in letting up. âI mean seriously? Youâre actually doing this? I know you wanna fuck her but sheâs always been a loyal little thing - she ainât gonna put out for you because of this. I think sheâs realised that she isnât cut out for this type of shit - she went back down to safety with the rest of the girls and I think sheâll probably quit the club. She can get back to what sheâs good at.âÂ
Sukunaâs hands stilled as he zipped his bag shut, his expression calm as he finally looked at the man before him. There was malice in his expression and a clear, guilty desire to keep Sukuna from trekking back down the mountain path.Â
ââShe can get back to what sheâs good atâ?â Sukuna asked, drawing himself up to his full height. âAnd what would that be?âÂ
The smug grin Naoya shot him was sickening. âMaking me dinner.âÂ
Sukuna laughed, a deep unpleasant sound rumbling from his chest. âRight.â He took a step forward, towering over your boyfriend who he deeply hoped would be your ex-boyfriend after that expedition. Before Naoya could react, Sukuna grabbed him by the front of his raincoat. âListen. Iâm going back down that path. If I find her out there, abandoned and alone, be assured that Iâll beat you so badly that youâll never climb another mountain again. Do you understand me?âÂ
Fear flickered in Naoyaâs amber eyes, but he pushed it down quickly, replacing it with a scowl. âGet the fuck off me.âÂ
Sukuna let him go, revelling in the way he stumbled about off balance, barely keeping himself from careening onto the floor. If he was being honest with himself, the desire to enact justice on Naoya in that moment was tempting, but he could wait. Every moment he spent in that camp was another moment of peril for you.Â
And unlike Naoya, he wouldnât leave you to a night alone on a mountain.Â
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You werenât sure when youâd lost Naoya.Â
Heâd been picking up the pace significantly while youâd been getting slower and slower, and despite calling out for him to wait for you to catch up, eventually he just disappeared off into the fog - the sound of his footsteps fading entirely.Â
It had left you at a loss, unsure as to whether you should keep going or turn back. You were certain that the summit camp probably wasnât too far off, but you had no real idea of how far that distance might actually be, and had a vague concern that you might take a wrong turn in the ever-thickening fog, leaving you stranded for the night. You and Naoya were sharing a tent which heâd been carrying, and subsequently ending up alone for the evening wasnât ideal for you.Â
The most youâd be able to do is wrap yourself in your sleeping bag and find a sheltered place to hunker down for the night.Â
But it shouldnât come to that.Â
Getting down to the valley would take too long, and you werenât sure where Yuki and the gang wouldâve settled anyway. Naoya had the radio. He had everything really, which meant that the only thing you could do was continue upwards and hope that you stumbled across the other half of your group.Â
It was a plan that was going okay until youâd carelessly stepped on a loose rock, sending you tumbling back down a hill of scree youâd spent the past half an hour climbing.Â
At first youâd thought only your morale was damaged, your mind exhausted at the prospect of having to get back up and reascend a slope youâd already climbed once. But as you struggled to get to your feet, you realised that it wasnât only your mind that had undergone damage.
A hot pain spread through your ankle as you tried to stand, sending you straight back down to the floor with a yelp. Panic instantly overcame you, the sudden realisation of where you were hitting you like a tonne of bricks. Naoya, your boyfriend, had abandoned you on the side of a mountain. Heâd left you in the fog, beneath the setting sun, without a tent and without a radio. And now you were injured.
If you didnât know better, you wouldâve said he was actively trying to kill you.Â
But what was more likely was that he was just proving the point heâd been trying to make all along - that you werenât cut out for the life of a mountaineer.Â
And considering your condition, could you really disagree with him?Â
Soft sobs overtook you, and you began to spiral. You werenât sure how long you sat there, shivering as the cold grew more intense, mumbling incoherently to yourself about how you shouldâve gone back down to the valley with Yuki.Â
Perhaps you never shouldâve tried facing the mountains in the first place.Â
Maybe Naoya was right.Â
They were thoughts that fled from your mind at the blessed sight of a headlamp cutting through the fog from above, footsteps crunching evenly on scree, picking up in speed the moment the light shone upon your sorry figure huddled on the ground.Â
âFuck, are you okay?â Sukunaâs voice had a tremor of relief shooting through you, and more tears swelled at the corners of your eyes. He was crouching down in front of you, expression laden with concern as he scanned your cowering form. One of his hands reached for your face, wiping away tears carefully while he waited for you to answer him.Â
âMy ankleâŠâ You mumbled. Everything was too overwhelming for you to articulate any further, your words already coming out all choked and shaky. Sukuna didnât need to hear any more, attention instantly shifting to your foot. His hands moved to prod gently at it, watching your face for a grimace which came quickly under his touch.Â
âDoes that hurt?âÂ
You nodded. He bit down on his lip and quickly moved to untie the lace of your boot. A soft whimper left your lips as he pulled it from your foot, but he was right to pay your reaction no mind since you were overcome with relief once your ankle was freed from those rigid confines pressing down too tightly upon it.Â
It had swollen up significantly in the time youâd been sitting there waiting for someone to come for you.Â
âRight. Iâll deal with the ankle soon but I want to get us to someplace better first before it gets fully dark.â It was only just occurring to you that the wind had started to pick up a little, your clothes ruffled by air rushing against you. It would be best to be in a less exposed place - Sukuna had taught you that exposure made all the difference when dealing with bad weather.
âThere was a plateau back down at the bottom of this slope,â you mumbled, remembering the slight respite youâd had from the seemingly neverending onslaught of uphill.
Sukuna gave you a proud smile and it made your heart flutter. âYeah, that would work. Iâm gonna carry you down there, if thatâs okay? I donât think you should try walking on that ankle until we give it a proper look.âÂ
You wanted to collapse into fresh tears at the suggestion. While your boyfriend, the person who was supposed to look after you, had abandoned you on the side of your first big mountain, Sukuna was here offering to carry you to safety. The feeling his offer was giving you had a risk of overwhelming you entirely, utterly grateful that he was the person whoâd come back to look for you.Â
Naively, you wondered if Naoya had sent him down to look for you. It was a weak hope, a desperate, delusional belief that your boyfriend wasnât as cruel as he truly was.Â
âYeah, thatâs okay,â you said, quietly. You tried to ignore how pleasant it felt when Sukuna crouched down to scoop you up into his arms. His touch felt warm against your body which had grown cold over the past few hours of inactivity. The arms holding you were strong and secure, building a feeling of safety knowing he was there with you.Â
Naoya wouldâve taken issue with it, but you wished youâd asked Sukuna to stick with you throughout the whole trip. Things wouldâve felt better if it was him you were relying on rather than your boyfriend. In his lessons heâd always emphasised the importance of matching your pace with a mountain buddy - always checking that they werenât far behind.Â
Rules that a supposedly experienced mountaineer like Naoya shouldâve been well aware of.Â
Sukuna strode down the rest of the hill with ease, keeping you tucked close against him in a princess carry. Considering that you had your pack still on your back you were surprised at how easy he made the whole thing look, because he wasnât exactly carrying a light load between you in his arms and his own bag on his back. But he didnât complain or demonstrate any signs of struggle.Â
Outside of the fact that he was largely silent until you reached your destination.Â
You didnât mind that. It wasnât like you were in the mood to talk either, your mind swimming with all kinds of things now that you were in safe hands. Naoya had left you behind to die. You couldâve died if no one had come back for you. Exposure couldâve gotten to you, or an animal, or some person with ill-intent prowling the mountainside.Â
Heâd left you helpless and defenceless.Â
And, as rain started to drip from the sky above, you realised that if Sukuna hadnât come for you, it wouldâve been an evening out in the storm, at altitude, with nothing but your rain jacket and sleeping bag to huddle within.Â
You couldâve died.Â
Sukuna found a well sheltered area and placed you down while he set up the tent. You were in awe at how quickly he got it done - the same actions wouldâve taken you three times the time it took his experienced hands to get it sorted. You were grateful for the speed, because it meant the two of you made it inside before the worst of the rain began to hammer down from the sky above.Â
âOkay. First the ankle. Then everything else.âÂ
You tilted your head a little at his statement, not quite sure what he meant by everything else, but you assumed he was referring more to your mental condition and questions around how youâd ended up in your terrible position in the first place. You hoped he wouldnât be mad at you for failing to make it up to the peak after how much time heâd spent teaching you things.Â
You thought maybe heâd chastise you for things like not having your own tent or radio, but Naoya had been insistent about carrying those items for you, assuring you that heâd stick at your side and claiming his actions were out of a desire to keep your pack as light as possible.Â
You were stupid to have believed him.
Sukuna knelt by your foot, removing your sock and inspecting the damage carefully. His fingers pressed delicately against the skin and you found yourself admiring his concentrated expression in the lamplight. âI donât think it's broken,â he said. âProbably just twisted.âÂ
Reaching into his first aid kit, he found a bandage which he wrapped around the problem area, before pulling out an ice pack and snapping to activate its effects. He placed the pack down on your ankle, earning a little hiss from you which pulled a small smile from his otherwise serious face.Â
Heâd been really serious since heâd found you, his expression all irritated and stormy.Â
Was he angry with you? Frustrated that heâd had to come back down the mountain to your aid? You didnât like the idea of being his burden.Â
âEndure the cold for a bit - itâll make you feel much better.â he said, placing a warm hand on your calf. Your breath hitched involuntarily at the contact and Sukuna quickly withdrew from you, a tinge of guilt flickering across his handsome face. He instantly busied himself before you could question it, moving onto the next stage of tending to your injury.
He fumbled about in his pack and withdrew some clothing, bundling it up into a small pile and wedging it beneath your foot to elevate it a little. Nothing he was doing was particularly revolutionary - on the contrary, his actions were all things heâd taught you to do in the event of an injury.Â
Youâd just been too panicked to do anything on that scree slope.Â
Perhaps he was mad at you for that too.Â
Sukuna laid out his sleeping mat next to you, his nose wrinkling at the revelation that you didnât have one because it was in Naoyaâs possession. He slid his mat beneath you, keen not to have you lying on the floor, before pulling out his sleeping bag and sitting on top of that for some amount of comfort.Â
âSo, what happened?â Sukuna asked. His voice was a little clipped, as if he was holding himself back from saying what he really wanted to say.Â
âI was rushing and lost my footing on some scree-â
âNo. I mean, why are you alone?âÂ
âOh.â You shrugged, taking a deep breath and avoiding his eyes. There was a sticky feeling building up in your throat, keeping your words down. If you said the truth aloud you were certain youâd burst into tears again. âI donât know,â you mumbled finally.Â
âYou donât know?â He echoed.Â
âIt just sort of happened. The girls went back down the mountain and Naoya kept going quicker and then we got separated somewhere in the fog. I imagine he was probably waiting somewhere up ahead for me but then I slipped.â You werenât sure why you were trying to defend your boyfriend. You werenât naive enough to truly believe heâd been waiting up ahead for you.Â
Heâd left you.Â
But the idea of airing out just how stupid you were to be in that relationship in the first place felt humiliating. You wanted to at least pretend that Naoya didnât leave you for dead - that you werenât the fool who had stayed for years with an abusive boyfriend when you shouldâve just left.Â
You didnât want Sukuna to think you were completely pathetic.Â
âNaoya arrived at the camp hours ago,â Sukuna said, his tone detached, as if he wanted to avoid projecting any of his own emotion onto you. âHe said youâd gone back down with the rest of the girls.âÂ
The horrified expression on your face mustâve said it all, because Sukunaâs impartiality quickly faded, rage burning within those crimson eyes. Naoya really had abandoned you. And not only that, heâd also attempted to sabotage any retrieval attempt that might be made for you. Heâd outright claimed you were safe when he knew no such thing.Â
It was a thought that made you sick, and once again the tears started to flow, dripping down your cheeks. Youâd spent years with that man, feeling like you were less than good enough. Youâd let him break you down, put up with his endless bullying and tormenting, all because heâd been sweet to you at the start.Â
Youâd always thought you werenât good enough, always thought that it was your fault he was so unpleasant with you.Â
Now it felt like your eyes were open for the first time.Â
Heâd left you on the side of a mountain. He couldnât care less about your wellbeing. He couldnât care less about you unless you were making him dinner.Â
And youâd put up with it.Â
You were a fool.Â
âI knew that fucker was lying,â Sukuna hissed. âYuki didnât say your name when she radioed in to say she was heading back. Sheâs always good with that sort of thing. Fuck, Iâm glad I came down to check, who knows what wouldâve happened if-âÂ
He cut himself off, faltering before he could finish the sentence. It was clear that he didnât want to scare or upset you further, not when youâd already reduced yourself to a puddle of tears. You didnât want to imagine what fate the night wouldâve brought if not for Sukuna arriving as your saviour.Â
Falling silent, he shuffled a little closer to you. Reaching out delicately he began to wipe away your tears with his thumb. The touch of his skin against yours felt pleasant, and you found your sobs faltering at the new found comfort he was providing. A deeply loyal part of you urged you to pull away, reminding you of your boyfriend. You immediately pushed the thought aside.Â
Naoya wasnât your boyfriend.Â
Not after what heâd done.Â
âDonât cry. Youâre okay. I found you and weâll make it through the night together. Iâm not going anywhere.â Sukunaâs words were soothing, and you found yourself nodding between sniffles, your tears gradually drying up. You hadnât realised you were shivering until Sukuna tentatively wrapped an arm around you, pulling you up and close to him.Â
The storm had worsened outside, and you huddled down in your jacket, letting yourself lean into Sukunaâs chest to keep the shivering at bay. If this was how you felt inside a tent with another human to warm you, you hated to think how you wouldâve felt still stuck all alone on the scree.Â
It didnât bear considering.Â
âYou should report that asshole to the police once we get down. Nothing will come of it because it's hard to prove intent, but this was an active attempt on your life. He had a duty of care he ignored, stripped you of shelter and then tried to prevent a rescue. I have half a mind to kill him myself.â Sukunaâs voice rumbled through his body.Â
No one had ever really stood up for you before. Naoya was always good at being charming when it mattered. Your parents and the rest of your family had always seen him as a good prospect - a polite and handsome man from a well off family. With your friends, youâd done the damage on your own, always defending him, manipulated by him to act like the perfect picture of an abused girlfriend.Â
âIâm so stupid,â you whispered.Â
âWhat?â Sukuna asked, pulling back ever so slightly so he could look at you properly. You hadnât spoken at all since the reveal, and your quiet words clearly caught him off guard.Â
âIâve wasted so much of my life with him. Spent so much time defending him like he was some good guy. I only joined this club to impress him and all he ever did was tell me how useless I was at stuff like this - at everything. Did you know that he spent most of this hike staring at Yukiâs ass? And yet, when Iâd tell him about how much stuff youâd taught me heâd get all mad about me talking to another guy and verbally berate me until I cried. And I just let it all happen. You must think Iâm an idiot.âÂ
Sukuna hesitated, searching for the right words. It made you smile in a twisted sort of way, because he was definitely trying to find something to say that wouldnât indirectly call you stupid - an impossibility considering the circumstances. Now that your eyes were open you could finally see how foolish youâd been.Â
You just wanted to go home. Forget mountaineering or anything else youâd tried in an attempt to bond with that asshole.
âI donât think youâre an idiot,â he said finally. âI think guys like that are very good at getting their way, and you happened to be his victim.â The words were uncannily gentle, and at a glance at Sukunaâs face you could tell he was out of his comfort zone, but trying his best. He tightened his grip on you as a sudden gust of wind battered the tent.Â
The touch had your heart fluttering, and you wondered how Sukuna felt about your current position. It was probably just a necessity in his eyes - a bid to warm up a tired and stressed woman, nothing more than that.Â
With your loyalty to Naoya stranded somewhere on the mountain never to be recovered, you found yourself wishing the contact was something more than that.Â
But considering your woefully pathetic attempt at summiting this relatively easy peak, you doubted Sukuna held you in high regard at all. His type was probably some strong, confident girl who already knew all her outdoor skills without Sukunaâs input. The type of woman he could rely on to partner with for dangerous and difficult peaks.Â
That wasnât you.Â
You werenât sure youâd step foot on a mountain again after this.Â
âMaybe you donât think Iâm an idiot for that, but you probably think I am for all this.â You gestured in the general direction of your foot, still humiliated at the thought of Sukuna having to rush down the mountain to your rescue, like you couldnât be left unsupervised for a single moment without finding yourself in need of rescue.Â
Much to your chagrin, Sukuna laughed. âAn idiot for getting injured? No, thatâs practically a rite of passage. You were doing great through most of the hike - I was keeping an eye on you before the group split in half. Weâll get you down the mountain and get your ankle sorted, and then you can try this peak again another time.âÂ
Sukunaâs optimism had butterflies swarming in your stomach, but years of insults and abuse werenât so easily displaced. You lowered your gaze, staring down at your hands in your lap. âI donât know. I just wonder if Naoya was right. Maybe Iâm not cut out for this.âÂ
Sukuna pulled a face, clearly displeased by that statement.Â
âDo you like being in the mountains?â He asked simply.Â
He made no statement on your skill, no attack on anything your boyfriend had told you. Asked nothing more than whether you liked being out in the fresh air, doing what youâd been doing before your ankle had been injured.Â
And you did.Â
You really did like it.Â
âYeah. I do.âÂ
âThen you are cut out for this. Enjoyment is literally the only requirement,â he said earnestly. âBesides, that guyâs full of shit. I taught you everything you needed to know and I have faith in your abilities. If you need to listen to someone elseâs opinion to determine your value, how about you consider mine instead of his.âÂ
A flush appeared across your cheeks. Those were the kind of compliments Sukuna would always pay you. Nothing particularly special or flowery, but deeply genuine in a way that had your whole body bursting with pride, pushing the rot of Naoyaâs insults from your veins and replacing it with Sukunaâs approval.Â
âWeâll come back here together in a few weeks, just the two of us, and weâll do this peak. I can promise you itâll be better. I wonât abandon you in the fog.â You believed him, nodding a little in agreement. Even in your fragile mental state that evening, you couldnât help the excited flip of your stomach at the thought of Sukuna wanting to do something alone with you.Â
The mountaineering club had been a means for you to learn your skills to climb alone with Naoya. You hadnât expected that it would leave you excited at the prospect of climbing with another man.Â
Still, you tried not to get ahead of yourself. Your little crush on Sukuna, which had been present for several months more than you were really willing to admit, seemed to have finally found the freedom to really take over your thoughts. Your heart was practically in your throat at your current proximity to him, a desire coursing through your whole body.Â
You needed to push it back down even with Naoya out of the picture, because you were certain Sukuna was just being friendly, just being a better person than Naoya was. You couldnât afford to let your mind run wild with fantasies.Â
At least, thatâs what youâd told yourself.Â
The two of you had sat in silence for a while after Sukunaâs offer of climbing alone together, still huddled together and listening to the wind and rain outside the tent. You found yourself calmed by the steady rhythm of Sukunaâs heartbeat, basking in the warmth of his body which took your mind off the cold compress burning at your ankle.Â
âDo you mind if we share the sleeping mat? It's okay if not, but it would be warmer for you and more comfy for me that way.â Considering that the two of you had been cuddling for a while, you didnât see the issue. Anything was fine in matters of survival and you were more than happy to remain close to Sukuna.Â
âYeah, sure. We can zip our sleeping bags together.âÂ
Sukunaâs lashes fluttered and you swore you could see a dusting of pink on his cheeks, but you were quick to disregard it. It had been a long and exhausting day, and you were likely just seeing what you wanted to see.Â
The cold compress had started to lose its effect, and Sukuna removed it from your ankle while the two of you shuffled about to get ready for bed. Your ankle was feeling much better after a period of rest and elevation, and you found you could move it again without excruciating pain. Getting back down the mountain might still be an issue, but it was one you could leave to figure out in the morning.Â
Zipping your sleeping bags together and settling down on the sleeping mat, Sukuna made space for you beside him. You had to half lay on him for you both to stay on the padding, but with how warm his body seemed to run, you really didnât mind. He wrapped his arm around you, nestling you close against him under the guise of conserving space - an action that had your whole body thrumming with electricity.Â
You couldnât remember the last time youâd felt that way. For months, maybe even years, the only thing youâd felt under Naoyaâs touch was mild dread. This was something nicer, something more exciting - a feeling you wanted to experience over and over again.Â
âWarm enough?â Sukuna asked, giving you a reassuring squeeze. The tent was relatively cool, the fabric being battered by the storm outside, all of which seemed distant as you lay there in Sukunaâs grip. It was a safe and warm place to be, one where you could take your mind off troubles and anxieties knowing he was there to keep anything and everything at bay.Â
Troubles which Naoya had actively brought upon your life, were effectively chased away by Sukuna.Â
How you wished youâd met the pink-haired man earlier in your life.Â
âWarm enough,â you echoed, your voice coming out muffled as you buried your face into his chest.Â
Again, the two of you fell into comfortable silence, listening to the whistling of wind and basking in the feeling of your bodies pressed close together. You were half asleep and almost convinced that Sukuna was already asleep, when his deep voice cut through the darkness and silence.Â
âI donât usually go on these things, you know,â he confessed quietly. âThis is my first one. Iâm only in the club because it gives you connections for exhibition funding and learning new skills. Usually I do mountains solo and usually I do stuff much harder than this.â He waved his hand in the direction of the tentâs exit.Â
A guilt blossomed in your gut at the speech, recalling similar words from your boyfriend when youâd brought up the trip. Heâd said that climbs in the Japanese Alps outside of wintertime were nothing special, and that the whole thing would likely be so easy that he could do it in his sleep. Heâd only agreed to go after youâd begged him, reminding him that you didnât have the experience he did.Â
âIâm only here because of you,â Sukuna continued. The guilt within you only grew sharper. Was Sukuna trying to imply that he was only present out of concern for your inexperience? Had you forced him along because he knew something like this would happen? Had he known heâd need to come to your rescue?
âSorry. I must be such a burden,â you mumbled quietly, burying your face in your sleeping bag.Â
Did Sukuna really want to commit to climbing alone with you knowing that you were so much less experienced than he was? Or was he just doing it because he felt bad for you? You were likely a pitiful sight with your messed up ankle and an abusive boyfriend who had abandoned you.Â
Sukuna blinked rapidly, astute enough to swiftly connect the dots. âWhat? No, thatâs not- I was trying to say something nice. I was saying I only came along because I enjoy spending time with you. I donât like these group things and I prefer to do harder stuff but Iâm here because youâre here, and I like you.âÂ
Your heart was pounding so hard you could hear it in your ears, completely drowning out the sound of any thoughts on how you were supposed to reply to that. You were too caught up on the word âlikeâ, on the way Sukuna shifted ever so slightly against you, pulling you more firmly against his body.Â
âWhat?â You asked, dumbly.Â
âI like you,â he repeated. âI think youâre so cute and I love how happy you get whenever you learn something new and Iâm so fucking exhausted of watching your boyfriend ignore you and take you for granted when Iâd cherish you.âÂ
Again, your stomach flipped, your ears growing warm.Â
âAnd when that fucker showed up at the top of the mountain without you, I wanted to kill him. When I found you all cold and alone on the slope I just- fuck. I want to keep you safe. I want to be the person who looks out for you, I want to take care of you in a way that guy seems unwilling to. He has no idea what he has- had, while I understand exactly what youâre worth. I want to take you to the mountains at my side because unlike him, Iâd be thrilled to have you as my hiking partner.âÂ
Before you knew what was happening, you were crying again, wetting his clothes immediately with your tears. Your shoulders were shuddering and you could feel Sukunaâs heartrate picking up. It seemed like he was starting to panic - concerned that you were upset by his words when the reality was the total opposite.Â
Youâd never heard something so romantic from Naoya and you never would. To have someone speak such beautiful words to you felt surreal and your body had no idea how to react beyond sobbing from being so overwhelmed with love and affection.Â
âSorry,â Sukuna said quickly. âI know it's been a long day, now probably wasnât the time to say anything. You donât have to respond-â
He faltered as you peered up at him, your face wet with tears. He usually looked so confident, and even then there was still some atmosphere of certainty about him, but he couldnât fully hide the glimmer of anxiety in his lovely red eyes. There was a fear of rejection buried within him, a fate that he seemed almost certain he was going to face.Â
If only he could step into your shoes for a moment and feel all the emotion rushing over you at his confession
You didnât say anything, you couldnât think of anything that would suffice as a response to his outpouring of desire. Instead you tilted your face upwards, lips parting softly in a clear signal - one that Sukuna caught onto immediately. He closed the gap swiftly, lips slotting perfectly against yours with a warmth youâd never experienced before.Â
Naoyaâs kiss had always been domineering - a wet and unpleasant experience. Sukunaâs kiss was gentle and exploratory. His lips took the time to appreciate yours, to linger on that lovely shared warmth and soak in the feeling of being connected so intimately for the first time.Â
His tongue ran along your lips carefully, requesting for you to open your mouth. You complied easily, letting him hold you ever closer as his tongue pressed into yours, deepening the kiss in a way that felt so natural despite the fact that youâd never kissed each other before.Â
A rumble of thunder overhead had the two of you parting for a second, and you found your shivering renewed as a particularly cold wind blew through the tent. Sukunaâs red eyes went to the entryway, the space illuminating for a second as another flash of lightning ripped through the sky above. His hands rubbed your back soothingly at a louder rumble overhead.Â
âIâm so glad I came down to find you,â he whispered.Â
âThank you for coming to find me,â you mumbled, eyes fixed on his handsome face, your mind still struggling to catch up to all that had transpired in the past few minutes. Thoughts of Naoya and all the suffering heâd put you through seemed distant in the intimacy of that tent. âI feel so lucky. Injured ankle aside.â You giggled softly, heart jumping at the way Sukuna grinned back at you, pressing another soft kiss to your lips.Â
There was a gratefulness to his expression, a soft affection in his gaze which made you feel seen and special in a way youâd never felt with Naoya. It had you sinking deep into another kiss, your lips locked against his in a deeply intoxicating manner. All the stress and the anxiety of the day seemed to wash away beneath his grip.Â
Even with the storm raging outside, you felt safe and warm with him there beside you.
You shouldâve known about his feelings for you - shouldâve understood the moment Yuki had made a comment about how Sukuna never usually spoke to anyone. Heâd spent so much time on you, being so gentle in his teachings, making sure you knew what you were doing, making sure you were praised.Â
Heâd liked you from the start and youâd been too blind to see it.Â
Too beaten down by your own experiences in relationships to believe that any affection directed towards you would be legitimate.Â
You wished you couldâve puzzled it out sooner. You wished you couldâve noticed the soft look that always sparkled in Sukunaâs eyes whenever he looked at you. You wished youâd dumped Naoya several years ago, because it shouldnât have taken an abandonment on the side of the mountain for you to realise how truly awful your ex-boyfriend was.Â
But what was done was done. Sukunaâs hands were on you now, and that was all that mattered. Youâd made it in the end, even if it had taken you a little longer to get there than you wouldâve ideally liked.Â
âYouâre so pretty,â he whispered as the two of you broke apart for breath, red eyes scanning your face like he was committing your features to memory. âHow Naoya could be so stupid, I have no idea.âÂ
âHeâs not a smart man.âÂ
âNo. He really isnât.â Sukuna agreed. âBut his loss is my gain.âÂ
You hummed, leaning against Sukunaâs chest once more, listening to his heartbeat beneath you. Despite the excitement, you were suddenly aware of how tired you were, and how much the cold was still seeping in through your clothes and down into your bones. Altitude was no joke, and the pleasant spring warmth was nowhere to be found on the mountainside that evening.Â
âAre you still cold? Youâre shivering.â It wasnât possible for Sukuna to physically pull you closer to him than you already were, but he gave it an attempt all the same, practically crushing you in his grip.Â
âA little, yeah.âÂ
âShit. Once sec.â Moving away from you for a moment, he reached out of the sleeping bag and rummaged about in his bag, withdrawing his down jacket and draping it around your shoulders like an additional blanket. You were grateful for the added warmth, coccooned in between that and Sukunaâs warm body.Â
For a few moments you lay there, your shivering finally subsiding, only for all the hairs on your neck to raise at the feeling of Sukunaâs voice vibrating against the top of your head. âThere is another way I could keep you warm.âÂ
His tone was suggestive and perhaps a little amused. The comment had heat billowing throughout your body, your gut tightening at the suggestion of something youâd never allowed yourself to think of before. Sukuna was very attractive, and sometimes your mind had drifted in his direction when your hand had been caught between your thighs. But youâd always scolded yourself for it, had always driven away the idea of picturing a man you actually knew when you had a boyfriend.Â
Now the suggestion was right there on the table as something real and tangible, and your mind was conjuring all sorts of exciting imagery.Â
âO-oh. Yeah, that could be nice,â you said with a sudden rush of confidence. It was Sukunaâs turn to falter, red eyes suddenly wide with surprise, as if youâd called some bluff without even realising it.Â
âI donât have a condom,â he murmured, pushing you back ever so slightly so he could look properly at your face. âSorry, I wasnât actually expectingâŠthis.âÂ
âI am on the pill,â you offered a little bashfully, embarrassed to have reacted so enthusiastically to what you were now realising was a joke. âBut we can wait if youâd rather use a-âÂ
âNo, no-,â his face was definitely a little red this time, seemingly caught off by your willingness. âIf you want to, Iâd like to. I justâŠâ He rubbed his neck a little awkwardly. âI was just teasing and you surprised me, I guess. Youâre always surprising me.âÂ
Before you could backtrack or come up with some witty response, Sukuna recovered himself and his lips were on your neck. You let out a soft whimper at the sensation of his teeth dragging against your sensitive skin, his lips latching onto you and sucking purple marks onto you with no concern for who might see them the next day.Â
As far as he was concerned you were his. Naoya could rage all he wanted. If he wanted to keep his girlfriend he shouldnât have discarded her on the mountainside. Bitterly, you hoped Naoya found out exactly what you and Sukuna had done that night. Let him seethe. Let him reflect on all that heâd lost.Â
The bastard deserved all that misery and more.Â
Sukunaâs hands found their way beneath your clothes, calloused fingers pressing against your skin with care. You hadnât realised how much your whole body was aching until he was touching you like that, your muscles flexing at the new contact.Â
You took his actions as a sign to do the same, sliding your own fingers beneath his shirt and pressing them against his abs. You knew he was well built - on hotter days heâd been shirtless when working on teaching you to lead climb, and youâd pretty shamelessly stared at him until your mind had reminded you of your boyfriend.
It would be nice for him to be shirtless now, but neither of you felt like removing any layers of clothing in the cold, so for the time being your touch would have to suffice. That was a freedom that Sukuna seemed to be taking full advantage of, mapping out your body with his hands, his fingers moving to your breasts and squeezing, red eyes lighting up at the little moan it earned him.Â
âReally shouldnât be doing this now,â he whispered huskily against your ear. âHad the whole thing planned out. Figured once youâd broken up with Naoya that Iâd take you out on a nice date and then bring you back to my place so we could do this properly. But here we are.âÂ
You giggled softly at the dismay in his tone. âWe can still stop.âÂ
âNo. I want this now. You arenât so easily resisted. But mark my words, once weâre back home, Iâm going to take my time with you. I want to look at you properly beyond just fumbling about in a dark tent - as hot as this is.âÂ
Giggling again, you nodded, in total agreement with his sentiment. Doing things like this, while a little limited, did feel exciting in its own way. It felt like you were keeping some secret with each other, doing whatever you could in the dark without anyone else knowing about it. There was an allure to it that you couldnât quite put your finger on.Â
With Sukunaâs attention on your breasts, you were the one that ended up making a major move first. Your hand slid down beneath the waistband of his trousers, finding its way into his briefs. He let out a groan at the feeling of your hand brushing against his cock, which twitched erratically at the slightest touch.Â
It felt big beneath your fingers, and you hadnât realised that your breath had hitched until Sukuna was letting out a chuckle.Â
âImpressed?âÂ
âMaybe,â you mumbled shyly. You didnât have much of a point of reference for such things. Naoya was the only man youâd ever been with, and you imagined that he wasnât packing anything particularly unique down there. Not if Sukunaâs size was anything to go by. You wrapped your fingers around the shaft, enjoying the way Sukuna shivered in pleasure.Â
Meanwhile, Sukuna mirrored your actions, his fingers moving down your body until they were grazing against your panties. It was a little embarrassing how damp the fabric had grown, your pussy desperately slick from the events of the evening. Your body wanted Sukuna just as much as your heart and mind did, and it was making that fact glaringly obvious.Â
âSo wet,â he said with a chuckle. âThere I was all nervous that you wouldnât feel the same. Shows what I know, huh?âÂ
You flushed, glancing away from him in embarrassment as his fingers pushed your panties to the side, giving him free access to your pussy beneath. His fingers moved deftly through your folds, moving the slick around before rubbing at your clit, leaving you whining his name and squeezing his cock a little tighter.Â
âCute,â he hummed, his nose brushing against yours. One of his fingers prodded at your opening, pushing in with a little effort. He took a few minutes opening you up with two of his fingers, languidly stuffing you full with them to prepare you. You didnât want to admit to how emotional the whole thing made you feel, because Naoya had always said that foreplay was a myth.Â
Never before had you been prepared for anything, and Sukuna taking so much time to do so had your heart fluttering.Â
You tried your best to return the favour, stroking his cock as best as you could while it was still confined beneath his clothes, but he didnât seem to pay that too much attention - completely fixed on making you cum around his fingers before moving onto anything else. That was another thing that Naoya had never done. Cumming with him was so infrequent that youâd almost grown certain that you couldnât do it with another person.Â
And yet, Sukuna had you doing it in a matter of minutes - your toes curling in desperate pleasure as you gushed over his fingers with a sweet little gasp.Â
There was no time for you to catch your breath before he was pushing your trousers and panties down ever so slightly to give him access whilst still keeping you dressed and warm. He did the same for his own clothes, gently displacing your hand from his cock and repositioning the two of you so that he was on top.Â
The sleeping bag was still wrapped snugly around the two of you, keeping the warmth in effectively while he lined himself up over you, his muscular body keeping you pinned down beneath him in a position youâd be more than happy to remain in for the rest of your days. It was so nice to be under him like that, to be so surrounded by his body and heat and scent.Â
It was where you were supposed to be. In some uncomfortable tent on the side of the mountain feeling happier than ever because he was there with you.Â
Youâd gone to the mountaineering club for Naoya, but you couldnât help but think fate had guided your actions and really led you there for Sukuna.Â
âAll good?â He asked, hot breath brushing against your ear. The tip of his cock was pressed up against your opening, and you realised that he was giving you a chance to back out - showing you a level of consideration that Naoya never would.Â
âYeah,â you breathed, lashes fluttering as you peered up into lovely red eyes, letting out a whine when he finally pushed into you.
You hadnât been prepared for just how big he was, your eyes practically rolling to the back of your skull as he pressed his way into your tight pussy. Your nails dug into his arms and a whimper left you at the intensity of the feeling. You felt like you were aware of every ridge and vein on his cock, your pussy squeezing around him each time heâd involuntarily twitch within you.Â
It didnât take long for the uncomfortable fullness to give way to pleasure once he bottomed out inside you. It had a pleasantly warm buzz running through your body once he started to thrust within you, the weight of his body keeping you still and secure, keeping you warm even as the storm picked up outside.Â
Any fears of the thunder and lightning were pushed aside in favour of focusing on the feeling of being split in two. Sukunaâs lips found your neck once more, overstimulating you as he bit and sucked on the juncture between your neck and shoulder, bringing tears to your eyes beneath all the pleasure he was giving you.Â
Even through the stretch it felt right to have him inside you, and it was downright heavenly each time one of his long strokes hit that one specific spot inside you, bringing stars and light to your vision each time.Â
This was where you were meant to be.Â
Neither of you lasted particularly long. Not after the day youâd just had, and certainly not after months of mutual crushing. Youâd cum first - your body already sensitive from the previous orgasm and totally overwhelmed by the intimacy of it all. Sukuna had reached down to play with your clit while he fucked you, and that set you on a high unlike any other.Â
If Naoya had known where the clit was, heâd certainly never touched it.Â
And yet, there Sukuna was utilising it. You could count on one hand the number of times youâd cum from penetrative sex, but Sukuna had pulled an orgasm from you like it was easy.Â
And maybe it was easy.Â
Maybe Naoya just fucking sucked.Â
Sukuna wasnât far behind you in reaching his release. When youâd cum youâd clamped down around him tightly, locked in a spiral of pure pleasure unlike that which youâd experienced before. It felt better than anything you could achieve with your own hands - infinitely more intimate and lovely.Â
The way youâd squeezed him so tight had sent Sukuna over the edge, prompting him to groan your name in that low tone of his as he filled you with his seed, riding out his own release to the point where you were growing overstimulated and begging him for mercy.Â
Mercy which he gave you with a gentle smile and a kiss planted atop your sweaty forehead.Â
The two of you lay then in the darkness, soft pants drowned beneath the howling of wind. Sukuna was holding you tightly, keeping you secure in his grip like you might vanish if he didnât cling to you with all his might. He was still inside you, softening but present in a way that felt blissfully intimate. Whenever youâd laid with Naoya, you couldnât wait to escape his grip and get cleaned up.Â
With Sukuna, it was different.Â
You could stay there with him sheathed inside you for hours - connected in a way that just felt right.Â
His lips were ghosting against your hair, soothing you with kisses, running his hands over you repetitively in a bid to ensure you stayed warm at his side. Your ankle was throbbing a little from all the movement, but with Sukunaâs legs intertwined with yours you found yourself able to ignore it. All thoughts and discomforts overridden by how happy you felt in that moment.Â
âTry and get some sleep,â he murmured against your hair. âIâll look after you.âÂ
âI know,â you whispered.Â
He smiled softly. âJust making sure you know it. Apparently you canât take for granted that everyone will look out for you.â His tone came out a little bitter, but instead of feeling anger at the reminder of Naoyaâs actions, you felt a warmth blossom across your chest at Sukunaâs display of care.Â
You liked that he was angry about it. It was nice to have someone care about you for once.Â
In hindsight, it was a blessing that you never made it out into the mountains alone with Naoya like youâd intended to at the start of your mountaineering training. If you had, perhaps you wouldâve ended up left for dead - freezing on the side of the mountain while Naoya summoned some crocodile tears and dismissed your fate altogether.Â
You were lucky to have Sukuna. Lucky to be able to continue going into the mountains with someone who actually wanted you there. Someone who would really take care of you.Â
âIâm glad youâre here to look after me.â Your hand reached for his face, tracing his tattoos with great care. As pleasant as your evening with him had been, you were looking forward to making it down the mountain - to spending time with him outside of that tent. It would be nice to see just where those tattoos disappeared off to beneath his clothes.Â
But that would have to wait.Â
You knew that the next day would be long. An arduous trek back down the mountain was ahead of you, along with a no doubt vicious confrontation with your ex. One that you were sure Sukuna would take the lead on, but still not something you were looking forward to experiencing.Â
Either way, you wouldnât dwell on it that evening.Â
Because for the time being, there was nothing you needed to worry about. The storm could rage on outside for as long as it needed to. You were safe in your tent, in the arms of a man who would never leave you alone on the side of a mountain.Â
And it was possibly the happiest youâd been in a very long time.Â
a/n: after getting down to the bottom of the mountain the next day I promise reader slapped naoya and sukuna beat the hell out of him :)
had such a fun time writing this its literally the most self-indulgent fic I've ever written as I love being in the mountains hehe
hope you enjoyed! reblogs and comments are appreciated as always!