Warning: I don't think I'll be posting much but this personal blog is full of my delusions, my mental health issues, random stuff, stupid complaints, etc. Keep this in mind when entering this blog and/or interacting with me!!
HIHIHI
My name is Nana but you can call me Yu/Yuyu or any other nickname
My DMs here or on any social media are always open if you're looking for friends or want to talk about anything!!
My English is quite bad because my language is Spanish and I mostly speak Spanish
I am someone afab and mostly use feminine pronouns but if you want to use he/they with me, u are also free to do so
#wlw #wlm #wlnb
I like to write and draw. I have a blog dedicated to writing!! @b0mbngel
I am a Jirai and a Gal (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧
DNI/Likes/ Interact /dislikes
DNI
If you are toxic: This blog is full of my mental problems and my complaints and it also aims to be a safe space for everyone so hate, toxicity and those kinds of attitudes are not welcome. You are also not welcome if you are misogynistic, politically gray, right-wing, transphobic, queerphobic, radqueer, radically morally correct (if you think everything is black or white), if you think you are always right and everyone else is an idiot, ai supporters, proshippers, racist (get your racist ass out of my blog. I'm Latina and I don't want any racist here)
Important: If you are a believer of Jesus (whether Christian or Catholic) THIS IS NOT YOUR BLOG!! I am not comfortable with Jesus believers because I have had terrible experiences with Jesus believers
Interact
If you are part of the community (gays, lesbians, pansexuals, bisexuals, trans, etc., everyone is welcome here), if you are alt, jirais, gyarus, gyaruos, punks, ghots, etc., most alternative people are also welcome. Also if you like anime, visual novels, otomes, if you are an artist, if you are open-minded, etc. As long as you have a good attitude, are kind and respectful, you are welcome here
❌: Insects, spiders, toxicity, destructive criticism, I don't like people who think they are morally superior, I detest people who are rude and unpleasant using the excuse that they are direct and say what they think, I hate cruelty, cake, clean look, minimalism, christianity and catholicism
✅: Guys, girls, people (I love you all), art, maximalism, kind people, empathy, people trying new things (try everything, it doesn't matter if you fail), people dressing differently, color, fashion, makeup.
Warning: I don't think I'll be posting much but this personal blog is full of my delusions, my mental health issues, random stuff, stupid complaints, etc. Keep this in mind when entering this blog and/or interacting with me!!
HIHIHI
My name is Nana but you can call me Yu/Yuyu or any other nickname
My DMs here or on any social media are always open if you're looking for friends or want to talk about anything!!
My English is quite bad because my language is Spanish and I mostly speak Spanish
I am someone afab and mostly use feminine pronouns but if you want to use he/they with me, u are also free to do so
#wlw #wlm #wlnb
I like to write and draw. I have a blog dedicated to writing!! @b0mbngel
I am a Jirai and a Gal (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧
DNI/Likes/ Interact /dislikes
DNI
If you are toxic: This blog is full of my mental problems and my complaints and it also aims to be a safe space for everyone so hate, toxicity and those kinds of attitudes are not welcome. You are also not welcome if you are misogynistic, politically gray, right-wing, transphobic, queerphobic, radqueer, radically morally correct (if you think everything is black or white), if you think you are always right and everyone else is an idiot, ai supporters, proshippers, racist (get your racist ass out of my blog. I'm Latina and I don't want any racist here)
Important: If you are a believer of Jesus (whether Christian or Catholic) THIS IS NOT YOUR BLOG!! I am not comfortable with Jesus believers because I have had terrible experiences with Jesus believers
Interact
If you are part of the community (gays, lesbians, pansexuals, bisexuals, trans, etc., everyone is welcome here), if you are alt, jirais, gyarus, gyaruos, punks, ghots, etc., most alternative people are also welcome. Also if you like anime, visual novels, otomes, if you are an artist, if you are open-minded, etc. As long as you have a good attitude, are kind and respectful, you are welcome here
❌: Insects, spiders, toxicity, destructive criticism, I don't like people who think they are morally superior, I detest people who are rude and unpleasant using the excuse that they are direct and say what they think, I hate cruelty, cake, clean look, minimalism, christianity and catholicism
✅: Guys, girls, people (I love you all), art, maximalism, kind people, empathy, people trying new things (try everything, it doesn't matter if you fail), people dressing differently, color, fashion, makeup.
I already made two or three posts about this at the time but I'm telling everyone again that if you spam likes, then I will block you. Tumblr detects like spam as bots and that affects my blog!!
I thank everyone who likes my posts but spam does not help me
A friend sent me the link to a video on TikTok and the user uploaded a video where he says that pedophilia and SA are not that bad and admits that he abused other people. He also says that he is transphobic and that he wants to SA his boyfriend when he does something he doesn't like.
?? What's wrong with people? It's not even ragebait, it's downright sickening.
Hey, about that visual novel I want to write, I'll tell you a bit in case someone (from the English-speaking community) is interested:
The description (taken from itch.io and translated by me):
After your sister disappeared, everything changed. In an attempt to find her, you'll find yourself caught up in a strange investigation… where the only suspects seem to be three very different boys. Looking For You is a visual novel in Spanish with touches of mystery, comedy, and choices that change the course of the story. And if you like femboys, geeks, or goths… this is the visual novel for you.
(The characters are taken from the goth, femboy, and geek stereotypes)
The characters:
Elian
Elian is a serious guy who always seems to want to be alone. He constantly responds and acts brusquely with the intention of pushing others away so they don't try to talk to him.
Aiden
He is this feminine and delicate boy who likes makeup and shopping. He's the one who acts the most normal and kindest to mc from the beginning. Although it's obvious how much he likes the attention.
Oswaldo
He is a boy who has a clear taste for anime and geeky things. He is socially awkward and has a clear dislike for handsome guys like Elian. In addition, he also has problems with women, making hostile comments towards them.
About the novel (general):
Currently it only has 3 chapters and the novel is still incomplete
The MC has a defined appearance (she's not the typical gray MC).
About mc being "she": Mc is implicitly she/her. The creator had said that she was going to add he/him pronouns but there were several people who harassed her about that topic and in the end she said that the game was only going to stay with feminine pronouns.
♱ You can call me Vic, Yu or give me any name that seems better to you.
Masterlist ♰ Rules for requesting!
English is not my native language so my work may have several errors. Still I try to check them and make them readable.
[⚠] Preferably I would like minors not to interact because in my blog they will find sexual content, dark themes, blood, death, mental health problems, among other things. The warnings are always at the beginning of my writings and I know that I cannot really prevent them from interacting so read the content at your own risk.
I am always happy to receive questions or requests but I may take a while to answer because I am dealing with my mental health, which causes me to isolate myself from social media. I don't ignore the requests/questions I receive and I will answer them as soon as possible!
Please do not spam me with likes.
𝑅𝑒𝑞𝑢𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑠
Unless my description says otherwise, my requests are always open! Feel free to send questions, writing requests or any headcanon you have.
Fandoms:
Killer Chat • Creepypastas • Gokurakugai • Genshin impact • Looking For You • Nanbaka • Chainsaw Man • Jujutsu Kaisen • Gachiakuta
It seems a bit exaggerated but it's so there's better coexistence on my blog and so you can get satisfactory answers to your requests. (人 •͈ᴗ•͈)
What do I need to make a request?
You need to do is check my pinned post where you can find the fandoms I write for ദ്ദി◍˃ ᵕ ˂◍)
Also make sure that my requests are open for the fandom you want to make the request for. You will know if requests in general are open in my description or in the pinned post. Requests closed specifically for a fandom can be seen in the masterlist.
Why do I have to make sure it's open?
Because I can close requests for a specific fandom but keep requests open for all other fandoms!
How long does it take you to respond?
I may take a few days or weeks to respond. I always try to do it as quickly as I can but sometimes I'm busy or my mental health is just too bad to do the requests.
If you send a request for a fandom for which I have requests closed then it may take much longer to respond. This is because I probably closed requests for that fandom due to lack of motivation and I don't want to give them a fanfic or headcanons that are bad or boring.
I think my request is being ignored...
If you think I didn't see your request or that I'm ignoring it, you can always send a message to my ask box to find out what happened to your request.
What kind of things do you write about?
Smut
Fluff
Angst
Self-harm
Comfort writing
Suicide
Mental health topics
What things you don't write?
SA
Dysphoria
Extreme fetishes
Bodily waste
Explicit gore
Yandere
What if I don't know if you write for something I want to request?
You can always ask! Don't feel ashamed or afraid to ask me if I'm writing for something specific.
What should I specify in my request?
If you don't have a clear idea of how you want the fanfic or the headcanons to be, then you can put what you have in mind and I will do the rest with my ideas.
If not specified I will always write for a gender-neutral reader
If you have a clear idea then:
The idea you have in mind with all the specifications you have (it doesn't matter if there are many. I am happy to create the request you have in mind)
The gender of the reader you want me to write for
How should I interact with the blog?
Please make sure not to spam me with likes. If you spam likes, you will be blocked ˶ˊᜊˋ˶
Make sure to always be polite when commenting, sending DMs or sending requests.
English is not my best language, so if there are any errors in the writing or pronouns of the characters, you can always let me know through my ask box. ヾ(＾-＾)ノ
Most of my content is for those over 18 so be careful when interacting with my blog.
The most unexpected people met and became friends! ft. Diluc & Lyney
n/a: This post is not intended as a ship post but you are free to interpret it as one.
Nobody would think that Lyney and Diluc would be friends. They had never met at the University, and neither had been interested in the other.
Diluc became interested in Lyney when he became interested in Arlecchino. He thought keeping an eye on Lyney was an easy way to find something out since Diluc knew Arlecchino would find out if he started watching her. Since they are in the same university, it was not suspicious that they crossed paths in the hallways. Lyney was not initially suspicious as he was quite busy between his projects, classes, work outside of school, family matters, the club, etc. He didn't even have time to think about how he was now running into Diluc more often and he didn't really seem suspicious.
Diluc began to realize some things about Lyney: how busy he was, that he was depressed, the marks under his sleeves, how stressed he was when it came to his sister's safety, and all those things. Regarding the matter of Arlecchino, he realized that it was nothing that affected innocent people. He decided not to get involved in that matter unless it became dangerous for innocent people.
He was determined to stop watching Lyney. They weren't friends, and there was nothing he could do for him. That was until he overheard a conversation. A girl was talking to her friend about a completely crazy plan to get Lyney's attention. Although the whole plan was basically about stalking him, finding out where he lives, learning his routine and starting to appear in his day-to-day life. Diluc thought that was sick and couldn't stand idly by.
Diluc began to investigate and monitor that girl until he obtained enough evidence. He had the girl arrested for harassment, and Lyney obviously found out about the whole affair. Diluc is an observant person and even though Lyney seemed calm, he was completely affected. The fact of being harassed didn't help his trust issues.
Diluc invited Lyney for a drink at a nearby cafe so they could talk. Obviously Diluc didn't talk about the fact that he had been following him before the whole harassment thing, but he explained what the girls had planned.
"You seem quite stressed...." -It wasn't something difficult to notice. So it was also obvious that this complicated Lyney realizing he was being harassed.
Lyney became defensive. He hated that someone would discover something more than him as a charismatic and outgoing boy. "What? Me? Of course not haha!" - He tried to divert the attention away from himself, it just made him too nervous.
Diluc didn't want to overwhelm him anymore, so he simply dropped the subject, but not without first offering him help. "If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask."
Lyney looked at him silently for a minute before changing the subject. He thought Diluc would be intimidating and he was but he wasn't difficult to talk to.
Diluc didn't monitor Lyney, but sometimes he invited him to eat something together and occasionally they would meet in the library to study. Diluc knows perfectly well that Lyney wouldn't ask for help exactly like that, so many times he had to intervene so that Lyney wouldn't hurt himself or overwork.
They both discovered things about each other, like Lyney has a beautiful voice and sings very well, but he also plays the bass, and Diluc knows how to play the drums and the guitar.
Eventually Lyney met Hu Tao who was in the process of forming a band and invited Lyney. Since members were missing, Lyney invited Diluc who accepted simply because Lyney insisted too much.
English isn't my first language and this is not proofread, so it may have many errors
Includes Eyeless Jack, Jeff, Toby, and Bloody Painter
𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑒𝑛 𝑂𝑡𝑖𝑠 '𝐵𝑃'
This boy doesn't care much about his clothes
Don't get me wrong, Helen takes hygiene VERY seriously. That is to say, in addition to his personal care, he keeps his clothes washed and in good condition, but he's not the type of person who wants to be fashionable or worries much about his attire, whether he looks great or not (It's not even necessary, people usually see his damn perfect face more than his clothes)
When he's working on his art, he wears very neutral clothing, usually a white shirt and comfortable black pants. He has several identical white shirts because they sometimes get dirty when he's working on a painting
When he has to go out, he wears loose and comfortable clothes. He doesn't like to look scruffy, so he manages to maintain an elegant and clean air even if his clothes are loose
She doesn't wear jewelry, she doesn't care about it, and the truth is she doesn't even have rings or a watch
Wear some black leather shoes. He has two identical pairs and cleans them every so often to keep them in good condition
He's not a fan of colors in his clothes, so he usually wears black, dark blue, gray, and neutral colors
𝐽𝑒𝑓𝑓 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝐾𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑟
He's a damn show-off and too messy at the same time
LISTEN TO ME, this guy is lazy and I would swear that he often chooses the clothes that are cleanest (never completely clean) and his clothes ALWAYS have at least one stain of something (almost always dried blood)
That being said, I think that when he was young he was skinny, but after becoming a serial killer and over time he started to gain muscle and a good physique. So now he wears tight shirts that especially show off his arms (he's a cocky bastard)
He's not careful at all, so his clothes might have some holes or tears. He never bothers to fix them, so he'll keep wearing those clothes until it's literally impossible to wear them
He wears old and scruffy shoes that he has never bothered to clean. They have several stains of blood and dirt
The only accessories she uses are a belt that she wears occasionally and a necklace that he's had for a long time
The baggy t-shirts he wears have band prints on them (some he doesn't even know)
He uses white for some stupid reason since it gets dirty easily, he also uses black and red
𝑇𝑖𝑐𝑐𝑦 𝑇𝑜𝑏𝑦
My cute boy HEHE
He really likes ripped pants so he mostly wears them
Besides his pants that are like that on purpose. He's kind of absentminded when it comes to himself, so when he notices, his clothes might have tears or holes, and that's why his clothes have patches and clumsy repairs
Sometimes he forgets to wash his clothes, so when he remembers to do it, there are stains that he can no longer remove, but he tries to maintain some cleanliness with his clothes. He tries not to get too dirty
He has some Converse that, while not broken, are somewhat worn and dirty
He has one or two rings that he found somewhere and wears them when he remembers to put them on (and when he finds them because he loses them very often)
He has some button-down shirts (especially plaid ones) that he wears over t-shirts (often with logos of bands he likes)
He's had those shirts for so long that the logos are worn out
Use gray, brown, and orange colors
𝐽𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑁𝑦𝑟𝑎𝑠
This man is SEXY (he doesn't know it)
I refuse to change my idea that he wears those tight shirts and it's not even to show off or anything, he just feels comfortable in them
I think he also wears those wide, Japanese-style pants (I don't know if they have a specific name), but when he wears those formal pants, he also wears a simple belt
He has a pair of leather shoes and some simple shoes (both black)
When he's not wearing those tight black shirts (😔), he's wearing formal shirts or simple sweaters
He has a simple wristwatch that he uses to measure times if necessary and to know the time
When he has to go out, he uses sunglasses to try to hide his eyes
Although he has no problem using neutral colors, he's the type who mostly wears black or bluish gray
Menciones de autolesiones, asesinato, muerte (ligero)
Mentions of self-harm, murder, death (minor)
Mucha mención de Ther/ There is a lot of mention of Ther
Mentions/Spoilers of gluttony gods and of Gluttony!Ronin
Menciones/Spoilers de gluttony gods y de Gluttony!Ronin
Esp/eng
I was quite inspired by Ronin's alphabet that went up @lav-is-writing
Eng
A— Anger (what makes them angry? How do they deal with the anger?)
Normally, Ronin's anger is cold. He doesn't usually shout, and there are no threats; there are only warnings when it comes to him. I think something really bad would have to happen for him to scream, and that would be really weird. He almost always deals with his anger by hitting the skull of some idiot with very bad luck finding him in that state.
B— Bad Habits (what bad habits do they have?)
Ronin doesn't pay too much attention to his feelings and prefers to keep joking. Besides, their best solution is almost always to kill
(A small mention/spoiler of Gluttony Gods) When Ronin was younger he used to self-harm
Ronin already processed some of his feelings for Ther, but he wasn't above projecting Ther onto others (Angel)
I don't think he ever stays in one place. It's loving for a moment, but it never lasts too long.
For example: He could stay and cuddle with you during the night, but the next day you'll wake up without him
C— Can’t (what can’t they do? Is it a moral thing or some skill they just never learned?)
He's a murderer, he's skipping a LOT of moral issues. Their solution for many things is murder.
In addition, he does things to annoy others: sarcastic comments, too loud where he shouldn't, comments against Christianity (we know that on many occasions such comments can be problematic)
D— Death (How do they die? With family or alone? How does their partner find out?)
Ronin dies alone, he doesn't want to involve his partner and any of his friends. Whether he is caught, attacked or one of his victims, he is not just a fearful man and ends up defending himself. I would never call, but in mention of Ronin's “good” ending, he has something planned to break the news that he died and to joke even to the end
E— Embarrassed (what embarrasses them?)
I'll also mention this below: He feels ashamed that only he left Angelwood, but Ther didn't and he's ashamed to have left alone. He is also a little embarrassed to have screened Ther in Angel
F— Fake (what do they fake? An emotion? A lack of emotions?)
He doesn't pretend exactly, but he's never able to say what he feels, or at least not completely. He always gives half the information when it comes to his feelings, and there are always jokes involved.
G— Guilty (what do they feel guilty about? why?)
He still feels some guilt for not being able to save Ther. He left Angelwood, but Ther didn't and that bothers him
H— Heartbreak (how did they deal with heartbreak? which time effected them the most?)
There are two references here Ther and Angel:
With Ther it was quite hard since it didn't exactly have an ending, they took Ther away and that's why Ronin didn't process his feelings properly. That's why I was projecting Ther into Angel and for a long time he was quite angry with Angelwood and the people in that place.
Later with Angel it was much calmer, they had a closure and it was mutually agreed so they could remain friends even after the breakup.
So it depends, if it's by force then he'll feel lost and angry, it would destroy everything, but if it's by mutual agreement or something like that then he'll take it easier
I— Insecure (what are their insecurities?)
I'm going to be a little vague about this: When I was younger, I obviously felt insecure about how others perceived me (the perception of gender) and I felt insecure when Ther told me I couldn't be a boy (choose certain answers in gluttony gods)
Currently: It's not exactly an insecurity, but sometimes he thinks a lot about the reason why he became the devil, the main reason is gone and that sometimes makes him think
J— Jealous (what makes them feel jealous of others?)
He doesn't feel jealous, he has what he wants or he can get it. There's no need to feel jealous
K— Kill (what have they killed? any people? dreams? an animal?)
He has murdered several people and, by extension, they dreams.: Abusers who think they can get away with it? Murdered, religious who believed that their sins would be forgiven without consequences? They met their end at the hands of Ronin
L— Lost (what have they lost?)
To his first love and I would dare say his greatest love. I mean, he loved Angel and would love his current partner, but he would never feel the way he felt for Ther again.
M— Memory (what’s their best and worst memories?)
Better: He has very good memories with Ther and also when he finally became comfortable with himself
Worse: The heartbreak that came with Ther and all the memories she has about religion in Angelwood
N— Nightmare (do they have them? what are they about? Reactions?)
They are no longer common, but when the wound with Ther was fresh he had a lot of nightmares, at the time and now he has nightmares about religion, he is in church, stone angels, cures, etc.
O— Obsolete (do they feel like they’ve been replace or could/should be? Do they feel like they aren’t useful?)
No, Ronin has such a strong presence that no one could replace him. Whether for better or worse (depending on everyone's opinion) he leaves a mark on people
P— Past (how has their past change them, has it made them better or worse?)
Somehow it became better or what can be considered better. He is a murderer, but now he feels better because he is comfortable with himself and moved away from the place that made him feel miserable
Q— Question (do they question themselves a lot? do other question them? Do they question others?)
As I mentioned before, he sometimes thinks about how the whole thing of becoming the devil started.
Any normal person would question that. V constantly questions him about why he is such a ruthless killer and I think that on the server many people wonder why Ronin is the way he is, but they never mention him.
He constantly questions things (religion) and by extension people
R— Regret (what do they regret in life)
I mentioned this in the other letters so I won't go into detail: her regret is about Ther and not being able to save them
S— Snake (have they ever betrayed someone? ever been betrayed? How did they react?)
I think the first “betrayal” came from his family who see Ronin as something bad and obviously turned their backs on him. On the other hand he has never betrayed anyone, I don't think that's his thing
T— Tears (what makes them cry?)
He doesn't cry. He doesn't feel the need to do it and when he does feel the need he is almost unable to do it.
U— unmovable (What opinion will never change, not matter what goes against them?)
His opinion on religion: All the trauma he had, everything he experienced and heard means that his opinion about Christianity will not change no matter what happens.
V— Vicious (what makes them vicious, do they try to hide it or overcome it?)
Murder is the first thing we all think about
Now, it seems to me that Ronin is doing things of dubious safety (his surgery in a dubious alley). So I think he's doing things like that on several occasions and in none of the things mentioned he's looking for help, for him that's fine
W— Weak (what makes them feel weak? How do they avoid it?)
Let them see too much of him, a part of him that he doesn't want or isn't ready to show. Ronin plays in his own way and at his own pace so he feels weak if anyone discovers more than he is showing. So he always jokes and diverts attention (if that doesn't work then his lever comes into play)
X— X-Ray (what’s going on inside? Both health wise and mentally, are they okay? Do they need some help?)
NOBODY knows exactly what's going on with him, but it's obvious that he's not right. He's a killer after all and obviously needs help, but he won't be looking for it. He wouldn't tell anyone what's going on with him and he can't seek professional help (they would call the police immediately)
Y— Yearn (what is one thing they want that they know they can’t have?)
To have Ther again, to be able to have a talk again, but without all the heartbreak she got the first time
Z— Zero (what would they do if it were their last moments on earth?)
Esp
It would cause more chaos, as it always has.
Estoy dejando las preguntas en inglés
A— Anger (what makes them angry? How do they deal with the anger?)
Normalmente, la ira de Ronin es fría. Él no suele gritar, y no hay amenazas; hay avisos. Creo que tendría que pasar algo muy malo para que él gritara, y eso sería muy raro. Casi siempre lidia con su ira golpeando el cráneo de algún idiota con muy mala suerte de encontrarse con él en ese estado
B— Bad Habits (what bad habits do they have?)
Ronin no le presta demasiada atención a sus sentimientos y prefiere seguir bromeando. Además de que su mejor solución casi siempre es matar
(Una pequeña mención/spoiler de gluttony gods) Cuando Ronin era más joven solía autolesionarse
Ronin ya procesó una parte de sus sentimientos por Ther, pero no estuvo por encima de proyectar a Ther en otros (Angel)
Creo que él nunca se queda en un solo lugar. Es amoroso durante un momento, pero nunca dura demasiado.
Por ejemplo: Podría quedarse y acurrucarse contigo durante la noche, pero al día siguiente despertaras sin él
C— Can’t (what can’t they do? Is it a moral thing or some skill they just never learned?)
Es un asesino, está saltándose MUCHAS cuestiones morales. Su solución para muchas cosas es el asesinato.
Además, él hace cosas para molestar a otros: comentarios sarcásticos, demasiado ruidos en donde no debería, comentarios en contra del cristianismo (sabemos que en muchas ocasiones ese tipo de comentarios pueden ser problemáticos)
D— Death (How do they die? With family or alone? How does their partner find out?)
Ronin muere solo, no quiere involucrar a su pareja y a ninguno de sus amigos. Ya sea que lo atrapen, lo ataquen o alguna de sus víctimas no sea solo un miedoso y termine por defenderse. Nunca llamaría, pero en mención del "buen" final de Ronin, él tiene algo planeado para dar la noticia de que murió y para bromear incluso hasta el final
E— Embarrassed (what embarrasses them?)
Esto también lo mencionaré más abajo: Él se siente avergonzado de que solo él salió de Angelwood, pero Ther no lo hizo y se avergüenza de haber salido solo. También se avergüenza un poco de haber proyectado a Ther en Angel
F— Fake (what do they fake? An emotion? A lack of emotions?)
No finge exactamente, pero nunca es capaz de decir lo que siente o por lo menos no completamente. Siempre da información a la mitad cuando se trata de sus sentimientos y siempre hay bromas de por medio
G— Guilty (what do they feel guilty about? why?)
Todavía siente algo de culpa por no haber podido salvar a Ther. Él salió de Angelwood, pero Ther no lo hizo y eso lo jode
H— Heartbreak (how did they deal with heartbreak? which time effected them the most?)
Hay dos referentes aquí Ther y Angel:
Con Ther fue bastante duro ya que no tuvo exactamente un final, le arrebataron a Ther y es por eso que Ronin no procesó sus sentimientos adecuadamente. Por eso es que proyectaba a Ther en Angel y por mucho tiempo él estuvo bastante enfadado con Angelwood y la gente de ese lugar
Después con Angel fue mucho más tranquilo, tuvieron un cierre y fue de acuerdo mutuo así que pudieron seguir siendo amigos incluso después de la ruptura.
Así que depende, si es a la fuerza entonces se sentirá perdido y enfadado, destruiría todo, pero si es por acuerdo mutuo o algo así entonces él se lo tomará más tranquilamente
I— Insecure (what are their insecurities?)
Voy a ser un poco vaga con esto: Cuando era más joven obviamente se sentía inseguro en cuanto a como lo percibían los demás (la percepción de género) y se sintió inseguro cuando Ther le dijo que no podía ser un chico (eligir ciertas respuestas en gluttony gods)
Actualmente: No es exactamente una inseguridad, pero en ocasiones piensa mucho en la razón por la cual se convirtió en el diablo, la razón principal ya no está y eso a veces lo hace pensar
J— Jealous (what makes them feel jealous of others?)
No se siente celoso, él tiene lo que quiere o puede obtenerlo. No hay necesidad de sentirse celoso
K— Kill (what have they killed? any people? dreams? an animal?)
Ha matado a demasiadas personas y sus sueños: Abusadores que creen que pueden salirse con la suya? Asesinados, ¿Religiosos que creían que sus pecados serían perdonados sin consecuencias? Encontraron su final a manos de Ronin
L— Lost (what have they lost?)
A su primer amor y me atrevería a decir que su más grande amor. Quiero decir que amó a Angel y amaría a su actual pareja, pero nunca volvería a sentir lo que sintió por Ther
M— Memory (what’s their best and worst memories?)
Mejores: Tiene muy buenos recuerdos con Ther y también cuando finalmente se sintió cómodo consigo mismo
Peores: La angustia que vino con Ther y todos los recuerdos que tiene sobre la religión en Angelwood
N— Nightmare (do they have them? what are they about? Reactions?)
Ya no son comunes, pero cuando la herida con Ther estaba fresca tenía muchas pesadillas, en aquel momento y ahora tiene pesadillas en cuanto religión, él en la iglesia, ángeles de piedra, curas, etc
O— Obsolete (do they feel like they’ve been replace or could/should be? Do they feel like they aren’t useful?)
No, Ronin tiene una presencia tan fuerte que nadie podría remplazarlo. Ya sea para bien o para mal (depende de la opinión de cada quien) él deja una huella en las personas
P— Past (how has their past change them, has it made them better or worse?)
De alguna manera se volvió mejor o lo que puede considerarse mejor. Es un asesino, pero ahora se siente mejor ya que se siente cómodo consigo mismo y se alejó del lugar que lo hacía sentir mirerable
Q— Question (do they question themselves a lot? do other question them? Do they question others?)
Como mencioné antes, él a veces piensa en como inició todo el asunto de convertirse en el diablo.
Cualquier persona normal lo cuestionaría. V lo cuestiona constantemente sobre porqué es un asesino tan despiadado y creo que en el servidor muchos se preguntan la razón por la cual Ronin es como es, pero nunca lo mencionan.
El cuestiona constantemente las cosas (religión) y por extensión a las personas
R— Regret (what do they regret in life)
Mencioné esto en las demás letras así que no me extenderé: su arrepentimiento es sobre Ther y no haber podido salvarlas
S— Snake (have they ever betrayed someone? ever been betrayed? How did they react?)
Creo que la primera "traición" vino de su familia quienes ven a Ronin como algo malo y obviamente le dieron la espalda. Por otro lado él nunca ha traicionado a alguien, creo que no es lo suyo
T— Tears (what makes them cry?)
Él no llora. No siente la necesidad de hacerlo y cuando sí siente la necesidad es casi incapaz de hacerlo
U— unmovable (What opinion will never change, not matter what goes against them?)
Su opinión sobre la religión: Todo el trauma que tuvo, todo lo que vivió y escuchó hace que su opinión sobre el cristianismo no vaya a cambiar sin importar lo que sucede.
V— Vicious (what makes them vicious, do they try to hide it or overcome it?)
El asesinato es lo primero que todos pensamos
Ahora, me parece que Ronin hace cosas de dudosa seguridad (su cirugía en un callejón dudoso). Así que creo que él está haciendo cosas así en varias ocasiones y en ninguna de las cosas mencionadas busca ayuda, para él eso está bien
W— Weak (what makes them feel weak? How do they avoid it?)
Que vean demasiado de él, una parte de él que no quiere o no está listo para mostrar. Ronin juega a su manera y a su ritmo así que se siente débil si alguien descubre más de lo que él está mostrando. Así que siempre bromea y desvía la atención (si eso no funciona entonces su palanca entra en el juego)
X— X-Ray (what’s going on inside? Both health wise and mentally, are they okay? Do they need some help?)
NADIE sabe que le pasa exactamente, pero es obvio que no está bien. Es un asesino después de todo y obviamente necesita ayuda, pero él no la buscará. No le diría a nadie que pasa con él y no puede buscar ayuda profesional (llamarían a la policía inmediatamente)
Y— Yearn (what is one thing they want that they know they can’t have?)
Volver a tener a Ther, poder tener una charla nuevamente, pero sin toda la angustia que obtuvo la primera vez
Z— Zero (what would they do if it were their last moments on earth?)
