Becoming My True Self

FtM - Trans Masculine Being on a journey to living my truths and being free.

[giofvcks]

I don’t know if it ever really gets any better. Yeah theirs moments of euphoria but that is quickly overshadowed by the constant transphobia.

I’m reminded me often I’m not wanted or accepted. I’m reminded that many of the people in my life aren’t true friends or family. The art of detachment has helped me a long the way. It helps a lot especially seeing that as a trans person you’ll often be used or cast aside.

They’ll use you for sexual gratification and once their done back to the shelf you go. Never 👎🏽 dated. No dates for trans folx. They don’t want to be seen in public with us. I’m also noticing how even my so called friends never wanna do anything. I’ve been a recluse the past two years. Before COVID19 I was either working, at the gym, or at home. That’s how it will maintain.

I’m done ✅ forcing relationships and situations. Hence the art of detachment. I’m letting go of people, places and things. Im tired 😓 of it all to be honest and look 👀 forward to not existing in this earthly realm.

The dead naming, the misgendering and constant disrespect is beyond exhausting. I’ve pulled away from everyone at this point. I rather not deal with people at all if it comes with disrespect and transphobia which is like 90 percent of the time.

I also feel drained when dealing with people. Most are literally just users, manipulators and liars. Oh and add transphobic into the mix. Even the so called gays (LGB) are just as transphobic as their Cishet counterparts.

My new focus will be on my body and the gym something I can control and craft. I’m going back deeper into my shell. I deactivated my Facebook page the first time this year. I needed a much needed break. I get sick of social media especially Facebook.

2021 first entry.

[sensei-aishitemasu]

2020 Black-Owned Gift Guide!

2020 Black-Owned Gift Guide!

It’s that time again! Our SIXTH ANNUAL BLACK-OWNED GIFT GUIDE IS HERE!!!! This Black Friday, try and support a Black-owned business for all your gift-giving needs. For last years gift guide, click here. For the 2018 gift guide, click here. For the 2017 gift guide, click here. For the 2016 gift guide, click here. For the 2015 gift guide, click here.

Similar to previous lists, I kept every individual item listed under $100! Click on the links to be taken to the websites in order to peruse more yourselves: all businesses listed are Black-owned, and many are run by Black women, Black Americans specifically, manufactured here in the United States, and/or sustainably and ethically sourced with philanthropic causes attached to sales! Check them out. 

In addition, this year there are THREE NEW CATEGORIES! Check out items for the ‘Goth/Kawaii,’ for your ‘Activist Bae,’ and for the ‘Esoteric’ down below.

[As always, this guide has been split into categories to make it easier to get through, but feel free to mix and match for the person in your life that fits all of (or none of!) these categories!]

For the Homebody:

Lettie Gooch Small Safety Matches, $18 Lettie Gooch Amber & Moss Soy Candle, $20 Lettie Gooch White Concrete White Tea & Ginger Candle, $28 Lettie Gooch Planetarium Throw Blanket, $68 Lettie Gooch Soleil Throw Blanket, $68

Debra Cartwright ‘Bike’ Watercolor Print, $38 Debra Cartwright ‘Aura’ Watercolor Print, $87 Debra Cartwright ‘Astro Millennial Ladies in Quarantine’ Coloring Book, $5

Harlem Candle Company ‘Brownstone’ Luxury Candle, $45 Harlem Candle Company ‘Lenox’ Luxury Room Spray, $30 Harlem Candle Company ‘Langston’ Luxury Room Spray, $30

Jungalow Genie Vase, $89 Jungalow Handwoven Peach Planter, $49 Jungalow Azul Face Pillow by Justina Blakeney X Loloi, $89 Jungalow Soft Mint Pillow, $89 Jungalow Aja Wallpaper in Green by Justina Blakeney, $5 (per sheet) Jungalow Tigris Wallpaper in Onyx by Justina Blakeney, $5 (per sheet) Jungalow Cream Looped Wool Rug, $99.00 Jungalow Silvia Teal & Berry Rug by Justina Blakeney X Loloi, $69.00 Jungalow Striped Orange Outdoor Rug, $59.00 Jungalow Reindeer Games Hook Pillow by Justina Blakeney, $60.00 Jungalow Peace Vase by Justina Blakeney, $68.00 

Kashmir Viii ‘S is for Soul’ Print, $35-$45 

Galerie LA Rooted Incense Holder, $45

Duchess365 358 Art Print, $23.99 

Jeff Manning Art ‘Aplomb’ Art Print, $45 Jeff Manning Art ‘Pacific’ Art Print, $30

Kicky Mats ‘Get Naked’ Bath Mat, $30 Kicky Mats ‘Did You Wash Your Hands?’ Doormat, $50 Kicky Mats ‘Go Away, Come Back With Wine’ Doormat, $50 Kicky Mats ‘Did You Call First?’ Doormat, $50

228 Grant Street Candle Co. Tobacco + Patchouli Gold Travel Tin, $11 228 Grant Street Candle Co. Wild Blackberry + Absinthe Amber Jar, $21 228 Grant Street Candle Co. Oakmoss + Amber Apothecary Jar, $32

Shea Makery Strawberry Cheesecake Signature Candle, $40 Shea Makery Cinna-Bowl Signature Candle, $40

The Silver Room Cider and Cedar Leaf Candle, $34 The Silver Room Rose Water & Tea Leaves Diffuser, $28 The Silver Room Minnie Ripperton - Les Fleur Vinyl, $26

Rituals + Ceremony Anonomy Sculptures, $79 Rituals + Ceremony USB Travel Ultrasonic Essential Oil Diffuser, $25

Handcrafted Ceramic Watering Cans, $64

Fill More Waste Less Natural Loofah Sponge, $2.50 Fill More Waste Less Food Huggers, $12. 99 

Ment Nelson Backwoods Baptism Print, $50 Ment Nelson Old Sheldon Print, $40

Quarantine Games!

Trading Races, $19.99

Winsults, $25

Cards For All People - Black Card Revoked (First Edition), $17.99

Trap Wars - The Urban Game Night Experience, $22.99

Lyrically Correct 90’s & 2000’s Hip Hop/R&B Edition, $24.99

Black Wall Street - The Black History Board Game, $49.99

Pull Your Card Music Trivia: Hip Hop Edition, $14.99

Spill It Card Game, $23

‘Verified’ A Party Game for Social Media Lovers (Original Edition), $19.99

For the Foodie:

Kashmir Viii ‘The Black Power’ Mixtape Coasters, $40 Kashmir Viii ‘Reclaim It’ Mug, $16 Kashmir Viii ‘I Slay.’ Clutch, $45 

Galerie LA Peak and Valley Balance Blend, $30 

‘The Cooking Gene,’ by Michael W. Twitty, $28.99 

‘From Crook to Cook: Platinum Recipes From the Boss Dog’s Kitchen’ by Snoop Dogg, $24.95 

Essie Spice Signature Sauce Collection, $42 

‘Your Guide to Tasteful Manners’ with Love Cork Screw, $19.95 

‘Deliciously Vegan’ Cookbook by The Chic Natural, $28.95 

EAT Apron, $30

Midnight Reflections Crowned White Ceramic Mug, $19.99

The Spice Suite Utensils + Oven Mitts, $50 The Spice Suite ‘The Little Black Spice Book’ (E-book), $30

Rituals + Ceremony Circle Mug, $40 Rituals + Ceremony Agate 6pc Plate Set, $24

Blk + Grn Stainless Steel Tea Ball Infuser, $4

Fill More Waste Less Reusable Tea Strainer, $14.99

Good Thoughts Tea Co. Tea Spoon Set, $12

KazvareMadeIt Personalised Alphabet Mug Tile Print, $20.99 KazvareMadeIt Banananana Cushion, $55.80

Addie Rawr ‘Addie’s Cocktail Collection’ (Cards & Prints), $3.75

For the Beauty Guru:

Lettie Gooch Blends Perfume: Earth, $30 Lettie Gooch Bloom Perfume Blend No. 586, $48 

Galerie LA Hand Sanitizer, $10 Galerie LA Cream Cleanser, $16 Galerie LA Citrine Sea Tropical Exfoliator, $18 Galerie LA Botanica Rose Roller, $14 Galerie LA Botanica Lavender Roller, $14 Galerie LA Aurora Superfood Elixer (Face Serum), $27 Galerie LA Jade Eye Mask, $44 Galerie LA Rose Quartz Facial Roller, $28.00 

Shea Makery Scar Healing Serum, $23 Shea Makery Cinnamon Bun Body Butter, $25 Shea Makery Glazed Donut Body Butter, $25 Shea Makery Milk + Honey + Syrup Bubble Bath, $22 Shea Makery Honeycomb Bath Set, $16

The Lip Bar Cheek and Eye Palette, $15  The Lip Bar ‘Goddess’ Lipgloss, $14 The Lip Bar ‘Bawse Lady’ Liquid Matte Lipstick, $13  The Lip Bar ‘4:00 Stuntin’ Fast Face Kit,’ $99 The Lip Bar Limited Edition Easy Holiday Glam Collection, $25  The Lip Bar ‘Lip Bar Littles,’ $18.99 The Lip Bar Minimalist Lovers Bundle, $36

Auda B. Beauty Soy Polish Remover, $26 

Breukelen Polished ‘Paid and Full,’ $11 Breukelen Polished ‘Get Me Right’ Treatment Set, $25

Beauty Bakerie ‘Milk & Honey’ Highlighting Brush, $18 Beauty Bakerie ‘Coffee and Cocoa’ Bronzer Palette, $38 Beauty Bakerie ‘Black Egg-cellence’ Beauty Sponges, $18  Beauty Bakerie ‘Sugar Cookies’ Palette, $28 Beauty Bakerie ‘The Butter’ Hydrasilk Primer, $24

Mented Mini Brush Trio, $10 Mented Everyday Eyeshadow Palette, $28 Mented Brush Collection, $45 Mented Holiday Faves Trio, $50

Blac Minerals Highlight Bundle, $32 

Danessa Myricks Beauty Oil, $30  Danessa Myricks Waterproof Cream Palettes, $36 Danessa Myricks Luxe Cream Palettes ‘The Nudist,’ $44

Pear Nova ‘Holiday Essentials’ Nail Set, $90 

Habit Cosmetics Nail Polish in Voodoo, $18  Habit Cosmetics Nail Polish in Midnight Cowboy, $18 Habit Cosmetics Nail Polish in Black Orpheus, $18 Habit Cosmetics Nail Polish in Scarab, $18

Hunny Bunny Cuticle Cream, $4.50 Hunny Bunny Grapefruit Sugar Scrub, $20

Taupe Coat in Good Fortune, $11

More Brands To Try:

People of Color Beauty

Mischo Beauty

Suite Eleven

Brown Butter Beauty

Beija Flor Naturals

Plain Jane Beauty

Ancient Cosmetics

Hue Noir

Lotus Moon Skincare

For the Fashion Conscious:

Merit ‘Fate’ Bucket Hat, $20

Chris Cardi Signature TwistDYE Tee, $33

Lettie Gooch Black Mineral Washed Jacquard Leggings, $68 Lettie Gooch ‘Smiling On The Inside’ Mask, $28

Kashmir Viii Face Masks, $16 Kashmir Viii ‘Around The Way Girl’ Clutch, $45-$60

Galerie LA Hemp Tie Button Down Sage, $90 Galerie LA Gratia Jumpsuit Tumeric, $100 Galerie LA Red Zipper Wallet, $45 Galerie LA Dopp Kitt (Makeup Bag) in Navy, $40 Galerie LA Lunar Star Earrings, $100 Galerie LA Meria Sunglasses Coral Pink, $75 Galerie LA Oda Ring, $45 Galerie LA Sabbath Cocoon Tunic, $85

Tree Fairfax Keychain, $22.50 Tree Fairfax Lois Belt, $45

LoveCortnie Polka Dot Leather Key Chain Clasps, $15 LoveCortnie Small Leather Tassel, $17 LoveCortnie ‘Color Me’ Coin Purse, $30 LoveCortnie Envelope Card Holder (Black & White), $32

Rue 107 ‘Toni’ Bikini in XOXO Print, $98 Rue 107 Signature Pencil Skirt in XOXO Print, $68 Rue 107 Tied Cropped Tank in XOXO Print, $48 Rue 107 Tied Cropped Tank in Vintage Rose Print, $48 Rue 107 Signature Pencil Skirt in Vintage Rose Print, $68

Grant Blvd ‘Sustainable Shit Only’ Fanny Pack, $26

Ebony and Green Mindfulness Earrings, $10

For the Bookworm:

‘Daymares’ by Kenya Moss-Dyme, $12.99

‘Hood Feminism’ by Mikki Kendall, $26

‘The Source of Self-Regard’ by Toni Morrison, $28.95

‘Tar Baby’ by Toni Morrison, $15

‘The Beautiful Ones’ by Prince, $30

‘In Her Hands: The Story of Sculptor Augusta Savage’ by Alan Schroeder, $12.95

‘The Street: A Novel’ by Ann Petry, $15.99

‘Chasing Down a Dream: A Blessings Novel’ by Beverly Jenkins, $14.99

‘Rebel (Women Who Dare)’ by Beverly Jenkins, $5.98

‘Night Song’ by Beverly Jenkins, $8.99

‘Tempest’ by Beverly Jenkins, $5.98

‘Our Black Year: One Family’s Quest to Buy Black in America’s Racially Divided Economy’ by Maggie Anderson, $17

Rayo and Honey ‘Books Change Your Mind’ Pennant, $75

Jungalow Face Bookend Vase by Justina Blakeney, $98

Midnight Reflections Black Nerd Tote Bag, $18.99

Addie Rawr Book Club Dolls Stickers (Die Cut Stickers), $9.50

For the Kids:

Jungalow Leela Terracotta Rug by Justina Blakeney X Loloi, $89.00 Jungalow Pink Looped Wool Rug, $99.00

Galerie LA Kids Face Mask, $25

Duchess365 237 Canvas Print, $98.99 Duchess365 231 Tote Bag, $24.99 Duchess365 279 Art Print, $23.99 Duchess365 241 Framed Art Print, $47.99

Shea Makery PB & J Soap, $10 Shea Makery ‘Save A Life’ Mini Assorted Hand Soaps (Set of 12), $5

Little Leaders: Bold Women in Black History, $16.99

‘Clean Getaway’ by Nic Stone, $16.99

‘Bee Fearless: Dream Like a Kid’ by Mikaela Ulmer, $16.19

ABC Me Flashcards, $20

IkdKids Rag Doll, $40

KaAn’s ‘Living The Dream’ Denim Jacket, $40

Yinibini Baby Badminton Playing Octopus Tee, $23 Yinibini Baby Fox Pullover Sweatshirt Jogger Set, $41 Yinibini Baby ROAR Lion Hooded Pullover, $45 Yinibini Narwhal Toy, $28

For the Masculine:

ALWD Signature DC PROPER Sweatshirt, $40

Chris Cardi ‘Bastards’ Tee, $30.03

Merit Flannel Shirt (Green), $65

Kashmir Viii ‘Everybody Eats, B,’ Tee, $45 Kashmir Viii ‘The Knockout’ Tee, $45

Galerie LA ‘Mister’ T-Shirt, $45

Jeff Manning Art ‘Overflow’ Art Print, $30 Jeff Manning Art ‘The Golden Age’ Art Print, $45 Jeff Manning Art ‘Overflowed Emotions’ Art Print, $50

Levi Fisher Beard Bundle, $39.99

Scotch Porter Face Care Collection, $28.99 Scotch Porter Journal, $9.99

Shea Makery Beard Oil, $15

Enbois Matte Lava Rock Bracelet, $40 Enbois Benji Matte Sunglasses, $45 Enbois Bracelets Collection - Cocoa, $50

The Silver Room Tourer Backpack, $95

Urban Profile Black Panther Shirt, $24.99

Solo Noir Starter Kit, $28.99

Bevel Shave Starter Bundle, $89.95 Bevel Skin Starter Set, $61.95

For the Tech Savvy:

Enbois iPhone Case, $12 Enbois Power Bank, $15 Enbois Grip Socket, $4

Chic Geeks Brown Faux Crocodile iPad Case, $75 Chic Geeks Brown Snakeskin iPad Case, $75 Chic Geeks Emerald Faux Crocodile iPhone Case, $50 Chic Geeks Grey Marble MacBook Case, $80 Chic Geeks Black Faux Crocodile iPad Case, $75

Khristian A. Howell Cava Melon Sleek and Chic Phone Case, $39.99 Khristian A. Howell Cava Black Sleek and Chic Phone Case, $39.99

NSPRE ‘Inferno’ Bluetooth Sunglasses, $71.99 NSPRE Micro SD Card (128GB), $21.98 NSPRE ‘The Ombres’ Bluetooth Audio Sunglasses, $59.99  NSPRE ‘The Solars’ Bluetooth BlueTech Glasses, $59.99

For the Goth/Kawaii:

VickiBeWicked Vinyl Sticker Heart Drippy Mushroom, Laptop Decal, $4 VickiBeWicked Rainbow Unicorn, Black Girl Magic Laptop Sleeve, $30.99 VickiBeWicked AfroGirls Masked Up Laptop Sleeve, $30.99 VickiBeWicked Pastel Horn Face Resin Keychain, $12.99 VickiBeWicked Red and White Splatter Skull Dangle Earrings, $7.50

Kashmir Viii ‘The KeKe’ Print, $35-$60

Adorned by Chi ‘Goth Club Presidenct’ Unisex Raglan T-Shirt, $34.99 Adorned by Chi ‘Pro Black’ Unisex Raglan T-Shirt, $34.99 Adorned by Chi ‘Pretty Girls Like Anime’ T-Shirt, $32.99 Adorned by Chi ‘Awkward’ Iron-On Patch, $11.99 Adorned by Chi ‘I Need My Space’ Hard Enamel Pin, $12.99

The Colour Polka Dot iPhone XS ‘Creepy Cute’ Rainbow Phone Case, $40 The Colour Polka Dot ‘Creepy Cute’ Spoopy Ornaments, $12 The Colour Polka Dot ‘Kawaii Cute’ Face Mask Case, $16

Embrii Shop Blush Pink Laptop Sleeve, $36

Gothic Lamb Anti Social Goth Club Tee, $28 Gothic Lamb ‘FedUp’ Tee, $24 Gothic Lamb ‘Make America Goth Again’ Tee, $28 Gothic Lamb ‘Melanin Manson’ Tee, $24

For the Esoteric:

Behati Life Third Eye Vision And Prophetic Dreams Intention Oil, $22 Behati Life New Moon Bath Soak Herbal Mix, $22 Behati Life Lunar Goddess Moon Magick Intention Oil, $22

Lettie Gooch Ecuadorian Palo Santo Quartz Crystal Bundle, $18

Jungalow Chaya Wallpaper in Amethyst by Justina Blakeney, $5

The Silver Room White Sage Bundle, $6

Grandma Baby’s Black Gold Lenormand Tarot Deck, $44

Pretty Spirits ‘The Truth’ Decks, $50

The Afro Tarot, $88

The Hoodoo Tarot: 78-Card Deck and Book for Rootworkers by Tayannah Lee McQuillar, $18.66

‘Rootwork: Using the Folk Magick of Black America for Love, Money and Success’ by Tayannah Lee McQuillar, $11.99

Rituals + Ceremony Palo Santo Pack, $7 Rituals + Ceremony Empowered Vibes Ceramic Incense Holder, $10 Rituals + Ceremony Adinkra Intention Candles, $23 Rituals + Ceremony Cleanse and Protect Ritual Kit, $34 Rituals + Ceremony Crystal Candles, $22 Rituals + Ceremony Crystal Bliss: Attract Love, Feed Your Spirit, Manifest Your Dreams Book, $14.99

Ebony and Green Raw Clear Quartz Earrings, $15

For Your Activist Bae:

Kashmir Viii ‘Kash’s Bacon Shack’ Clutch, $45 Kashmir Viii ‘Copy and Paste’ Tee, $45 Kasmir Viii ‘We Did It First’ Stickers, $5.25-$20 Kashmir Viii ‘Reclaim It’ Clock, $45 Kashmir Viii ‘The Black Family’ Tee, $45

Jeff Manning Art ‘MLK’ Art Print, $35 Jeff Manning Art ‘We Shall Prevail’ Art Print, $45

‘The Spook Who Sat By The Door’ by Sam Greenlee, $21.99 ‘The Black Panthers Speak,’ $20 The Black Power Mixtape: 1967-1975, $22.95 A Beautiful Ghetto by Devin Allen, $26.95 ‘Are Prisons Obsolete?’ by Angela Davis, $15.95

Angela Davis T-Shirt, $25

Legendary Rootz ‘Black Girls Are The Purest Form of Art’ Tee, $25

Alex Carter ‘BLACK BUSINESS OWNERSHIP’ Tee, $50

Rayo and Honey ‘Much To Be Done & Undone’ Pennant, $75 Rayo and Honey ‘Black Lives Matter’ Pennant, $75 Rayo and Honey ‘Joy Is An Act Of Resistance’ Tote Bag, $65

‘They Carried Us: The Social Impact of Philadelphia’s Black Women Leaders’ by Allener M. Baker-Rogers & Fasaha M. Traylor, $ 28.99

Midnight Reflections Black Radical Woman Tank, $25.00

The Colour Polka Dot ‘Fuck Racism’ Resin Heart Keychain, $8

Rituals + Ceremony Be The Change Scented Candle, $24

Grant Blvd ‘Disrupter’ Tee, $30 Grant Blvd ‘End Cash Bail’ Hoodie, $54 

Cards, Notebooks and Wrapping Paper + Holiday Ornaments:

VickiBeWicked ‘Skull Santa’ and Candy Cane Greeting Cards, $2

Harlem Candle Company Set of 10 Vintage Nightclub Greeting Cards, $30

Kashmir Viii ‘Nina En Printemps’ (Nina Simone) Notebook, $14 Kashmir Viii ‘Boo Yow!’ Notebook, $14

Midnight Reflections Wrapping Paper 3-pack, $26.97

Midnight Reflections Claus Ceramic Ornaments, $15.99

Midnight Reflections Emoji Black Santa Christmas Stockings, $24.99

Bylianarae Note Cards, $15

KazvareMadeIt Rap Lines Inspirational Coloring Book, $18.20 KazvareMadeIt Lemonade Notebook, $18.20 KazvareMadeIt Fried Egg Wallpaper, $4.88 KazvareMadeIt Diamond Retro Wrapping Paper, $4.88

Khristian A. Howell ‘Speak To Me’ Wallpaper, $12 (sample pack) Khristian A. Howell ‘Palm Springs’ Gift Wrap, $8.99 Khristian A. Howell ‘Sonar’ Gift Wrap, $8.99 Khristian A. Howell ‘Twinkle’ Gift Wrap, $8.99 Khristian A. Howell ‘Ansley Park’ Gift Wrap, $8.99 Khristian A. Howell ‘Rosy’ Holiday Gift Wrap, $8.99 Khristian A. Howell ‘Long Weekend’ Gift Wrap, $8.99 Khristian A. Howell ‘Bonjour’ Card Set (10 pk), $18

GreenTop Gifts ‘Clarence Claus’ HOHOHO Gift Wrap, $7.50 GreenTop Gifts ‘Clarence Claus’ Do Not Open Gift Wrap, $7.50 GreenTop Gifts ‘Clarence Claus’ Candy Canes and Trees Gift Wrap, $7.50

Addie Rawr 2021 Planners (Preorder), $30 Addie Rawr The Great Gratitude Journal, $20 Addie Rawr The Great Gratitude Journal, $20

[giofvcks]

Reconnecting requires both people to be ready. It’s been two years and you are still the same. I can’t deal with that any longer. I know my worth and where I stand. I will respect you and your wishes. But I’ve moved on to what’s reciprocated, mutual and respected and that isn’t you.

[giofvcks]

Happy Birthday 🎁 King 👑 @nipseyhussle I picked up your positive message for group economics and giving back to our communities. I respect ✊🏽 your love ❤️ for your family, friends and community. May you rest in eternal peace. May blessings, and love ❤️ be bestowed to your family, friends and love ones, especially your children 👶🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 #themarathoncontinues🏁 #happybirthdaynipseyhussle #ripnipseyhussle #blacklivesmatter #groupeconomics #ujamaa #neighborhoodnip #blessings #memorial #godblessthedead #godblesstheliving #ermiasasghedom #love #acab #blm https://www.instagram.com/p/CD6-5WTDEa6/?igshid=uqu6w5i2kihn

[giofvcks]

August 4th is Michigan Primary day! I hope 🤞🏽 you consider voting 🗳 today or hopefully you already voted 🗳! We have a lot on stake, we always do. Voting 🗳 is one ☝🏽 of the many tools 🛠 in the social justice toolbox 🧰. Voting isn’t the end all be all, it isn’t thee “answer” but it plays a major part in getting justice, rights, freedoms and resources to our communities. #TransMenVote #blackvotesmatter #transvotesmatter #michiganprimary2020 #michigandemocraticparty #michigandemocrats #Leftist #ProgressiveLiberal #FlintLivesMatter #BlackLivesMatter #ACAB #voteforchange #votelgbt #voteblack #Transman #TransFtm #ftm #blacktransman #transmasculine #electionsmatter #liberationnow #freeallpoliticalprisoners #freedomisnotfree (at Flint, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDeS737DA5M/?igshid=rz722ynf9sqk

[giofvcks]

Let’s talk about health and well being when it comes to sexual health. As a transgender man/ trans masculine person who sleeps with cis men occasionally lmao 🤣 it’s important I take care of my reproductive health and protect myself from unwanted pregnancies. #IUD #TransMascHealth #TransMan #TransFTM #humansexuality #lgbtq #giofvcks #youtube #subscribe #education #transinclusive #universalhealthcare #lilettaiud #birthcontrol #contentcreator https://www.instagram.com/p/CDW5_6CDc1v/?igshid=jmh8qlnu7r0w

[giofvcks]

You only get one ☝🏽 mom. My mom turn 50 years old yesterday. I’m thankful I was able to give her a great 👍🏽 50th bday celebration 🎉. Granted we originally was supposed to be in Minnesota at Paisley Park for a few days. But due to Covid-19 and our health we didn’t go. We ate sushi 🍣, we drove around my new living area, we listened to great 👍🏽 music 🎼 , we smoked the best herb 🌿 and enjoyed each other’s company. Forgiveness is for you & the other person. Stop 🛑 holding grudges and hold love ❤️ & healthy boundaries. #happy50thbirthday #princerules #forgiveandletgo #mama #blackandwhite #cancerseason♋️ #halfacenturyyoung #love #family #july #blacklivesmatter #blackmothersmatter #peace #prayers #blessings #positivevibes #smiles #blacktranslivesmatter #blacktransman (at Warren, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CC884DsjYvP/?igshid=1dy4um7jurt7y

[giofvcks]

My non consistent self finally uploaded a new video on YouTube! Link is in the bio. The gist of this video is discussing my trans masculine experience and recognizing my privileges .... oh and if you didn’t already know BLACK TRANS WOMEN MATTER!!! #blm #acab #protectblacktranswomen #blacktranswomenmatter #blacktranslivesmatter #blacktransmenmatter #blacklivesmatter #youtuber #transmasculine #ftm #transftm #contentcreator #newvideo #datingin2020 #subscribe #commentary #lgbtq #sexuality #gender #giofvcks https://www.instagram.com/p/CCm3w-ejPnY/?igshid=1pzlb12catje7

[giofvcks]

New video 📹🎥🎞📽 Link in my bio check it out 👀 #TransLivesMatter #BlackLivesMatter #BlackTransLivesMatter #blacktranswomenslivesmatter #protectblacktranswomen #happypridemonth #gayrightsarehumanrights #blackrightsarecivilrights #stopkillingus #topsurgery #ftm #giofvcks #youtuber https://www.instagram.com/p/CBbH8MYDwix/?igshid=5kdhl38mvsuf

[giofvcks]

It’s been a minute since I’ve vented in word format. I usually share pics from my Instagram on here or make a video to discuss my feelings and thoughts. Today, I felt it was necessary to vent in word format.

I’m beyond tired 😓 and drained with everything going on in the world 🌍. It’s going on 3 months of being at home 🏠 due to the COVID19 Coronavirus Pandemic. I can’t take it much longer and I’m currently working on relocating. I can’t stand being around my grandmother 👵, she makes my life a living hell and annoys me to no end. She’s either narcissistic and/or emotionally abusive and too needy. I don’t get how you can verbally berate folx all day and turn around thinking 🤔 people should help you after you treat them like shit. She very dirty and unclean too. The only rooms in the house that I can manage to be in is my bedroom and office. She eats up everything too. It’s like seriously I’m so ready to relocate and not have to deal with her, my mom or uncle. I’m sick of my family. They are emotionally draining and toxic.

Not to mention the continued homophobia and transphobia my grandmother and uncle display on a consistent basis. I’ve been suicidal basically since childhood , only had two attempts so far, but as I stay in this house without having any outlets I’m becoming more interested in the 3rd and final attempt. I can’t do this anymore. I hate life for the most part, and I’m sick 🤕 of being here. I also feel being trans and Black plays a major role in why my life is so blah 😒 and miserable. I don’t want to be here, my love 😍 life has always been nonexistent. I don’t think I’ll ever have a significant other, again being trans good luck 👍🏽 with meeting someone that actually wants to get to know you outside of sex. People constantly talk about it getting better, when that’s not the case. It’s been 9 years since I first learned about being transgender and it has not gotten any better. Hell I was happier 9 years ago.

I’ve been used and discarded by so many people and I’m done ✅ I don’t know 🤷🏽‍♂️ anymore. I’m at the point of no return. Fuck this world.

[giofvcks]

It goes without saying ....ALL BLACK LIVES MATTER! Including our LGBTQ + 🏳️‍🌈 Black Lives. Including BLACK WOMEN & BLACK GIRLS! Including BLACK TRANS WOMEN , BLACK TRANS MEN, and BLACK TRANS FOLX! #blacklivesmatter #blackwomenmatter #blackgirlsmatter #blacktranswomenslivesmatter #blacktransmenmatter #happypridemonth #blackmusicmonth #pride🌈 #pridemonth #justiceforallblacklives #message #justicenow #nojusticenopeace #freemypeople #fuckthepolice #fuckhomophobia #fucktransphobia #fuckwhitesupremacy #fucktrump #endpolicebrutality #endpoverty https://www.instagram.com/p/CA522cejN4U/?igshid=is58ku2rdkyu

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After all these years, OUR BLACK LIVES still don’t matter? Haven’t we’ve begged and pleaded enough? Haven’t we’ve given and worked enough? Haven’t we loved and forgave enough? Haven’t we been peaceful enough? Haven’t we stayed silent enough? Haven’t we cried enough? Haven’t we loss/lost enough? Haven’t we prayed enough? What can we ever do to prove that OUR BLACK LIVES matter?! #blacklivesmatter #blackmenlivesmatter #blackwomenlivesmatter #blacktranslivesmatter #blacklgbtqlivesmatter #allblacklivesmatter #fucktrump #fuckthepolice #fuckcapitalism #fuckracism #fuckwhitesupremacy #fuckhate #freemypeople #wearetired https://www.instagram.com/p/CAt7QHoDD6O/?igshid=60jm4nx3s06g

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I remember being in the 5th grass reading Malcolm X Biography (Alex Haley was a brilliant writer) yes a 10 year old me was reading 📖 books 📚 way above my grade level. I guess this stems from my mom and familiar background. Happy Birthday 🎉🎊🎂🎈🎁 to a true revolutionary King 👑✊🏽 #malcolmx #malcolmxquotes #byanymeansnecessary #happybirthdaymalcolmx #history #blackhistory #blacklivesmatter #fuckcapitalism #capitalismisgreed #blackliberation #freemypeople #readbooks #amindisaterriblethingtowaste #panafrikanism #blackculture #blackrevolutionary https://www.instagram.com/p/CAXSrUXD31o/?igshid=id0g0e5qlzei

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In my new skin I find myself more attractive and comfortable. Yes, I still have plenty of moments/days where I don’t want to look in the mirror and find myself repulsive. But, with therapy, and the homework (yes my therapist has some doing daily and weekly assignments) I’ve been making small changes and improvements. Here’s another “fuck boy” pose lmao 🤣 dudes really be starring off into the camera lens with their lips parted like we sexy or some shit....lmao aye maybe we are sexy. Maybe it’s because these are the only poses I know. Either way I’m unapologetically Gio =D #prettyboyswag #ftm #transmanofcolor #transman #transmanthirst #marijuanasaveslives #decriminalizemarijuana #feltcutemightdeletelater #gendereuphoria #transftm #translivesmatter #intersex #giofvcks #handsome #blacklivesmatter #blacktranslivesmatter #gaypride #transpride #bestbudsforlife https://www.instagram.com/p/CAQk-6sjwIV/?igshid=b4gl3a0l9mdv

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I know I’m not consistent on uploading on this channel. Lol 😂 I always say imma try n upload at least once a week. I’m sorry 😐 I have no excuses I just dnt be making videos. Click link n my bio to watch the latest video. #coviddiaries #transftm #ftm #transmanrealness #transmanofcolor #youtuber #vlogger #mystory #history #intersex #transmasculine #contentcreator #blacksndtrans #lgbtcontent #translivesmatter #myjourney #giofvcks (at Ann Arbor, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_vtpvkj69e/?igshid=w42wl4u2ecw3

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I swear I posted this last year. Again this picture speaks a thousand words. White men can storm the state of Michigan capitol building. Threaten political officials, break the law (stay at home order, stay 6 ft a part, wear mask 😷 in public, and practice social distancing) wave confederate flags and have AR style weapons with no fines, jail time etc. Yet a Black kid can’t play at a public park with a BB gun? A Black woman can’t knock on the door for help? A Black man can’t sell lose cigarettes? A Black boy can’t walk home? A Black woman allegedly doesn’t use a blinker and ends up dead in a jail cell? These are just a few examples of what happens to Black people in this country. I stand with @gewhitmer #ThatWomanFromMichigan I oppose RACISM, WHITE SUPREMACY, SEXISM, MISOGYNY, XENOPHOBIA, HOMOPHOBIA, TRANSPHOBIA, and BIGOTRY PERIODT!!!!! #stayhomestaysafe #stayhomesavelives #covid19isreal #fuckracism #fucktrump #fuckcapitalism #lifelibertyandthepursuitofhappiness #blacklivesmatter #translivesmatter #michiganders #savetheworld #epidemologist #healthiswealth #medicareforall #frontlineworkersdeservehazardpay #healthcareisahumanright #socialjustice #politicsmatter #globalpandemic https://www.instagram.com/p/B_u8ArSD92L/?igshid=7b0a4l6twpk5

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As we remember Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Who was assassinated April 4th 1968 this quote from his last book 📖 speaks volumes during these trying times. Rest In Peace Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽 #drmartinlutherkingjr #drkingquotes #socialismisthefuture #blacklivesmatter #equality #equity #endpovertynow #thepoorpeoplescampaign #love #racismisavirus #capitalismsucks #ripdrmartinlutherkingjr #socialjustice https://www.instagram.com/p/B-kUgKujTq2/?igshid=1gy42kemuom9r