You can feel yourself slipping down the hill again, holding on to whatever you can find. But this is all very familiar. You even remember the particular rocks and shrubs that you grabbed on to last time. You remember which were weak and buckled under your weight “I’m just going to focus on myself today and not think about him” and which were sturdy but sharp and cut into your hand “He is doing just fine without me” Last time, you used your own body strength to pull yourself out of it. But this time, you carefully let yourself descend. You remember that what’s waiting for you at the bottom of the hill is a climb back to the top of the hill, and you recognise this as exactly what you need











