Girl Of All Things Devine

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[girlofallthingsdevine]

Would anyone deeply enjoy me

if my wellbeing wasn’t at stake?

Do you really want me there

Or is that just for my sake?

It’s my feelings you try to spare

But it’s still some kind of ache

I know you do it because you care

But still here i lie awake

Wondering if i’m what you choose

Or what you have to partake

Does my presence add to your views

Or just a guilt you can’t shake?

[girlofallthingsdevine]

It’s starting to feel less like longing

and feeling more like grief

God won’t you please give me

A miracle, relief

My heart is filling with despair

I dread the time it overflows

Becoming more than I can bear

I feel it, i know it shows

Fear that grips me

like burning-cold vines

Thoughts that fill my head

‘Till they pour out of my eyes

[girlofallthingsdevine]

[girlofallthingsdevine]

[girlofallthingsdevine]

[vomitingwords]

Someday it will be okay,

and you don't have to wonder why

things need to happen that way.

Hope // ma.c.a