Primarily content about my book series inspired by The Lost Boys, which begins with Wishful Sinful. I maintain David and the boys sparkle on the *inside* per glittery vamp blood post-staking-Marko. And I LOVE all things sparkly.
(Also already on Kindle Unlimited, if you have that)
You can find it with a title search and my name, but I think it pops pretty early into search results with just the title, too.
Promoting this one again, for my upcoming birthday. MY birthday, but giving YOU a gift. The series began long before any discussion of the musical, because my bestie and I agreed David and the boys always looked like a hair band.
Imagine my thrill mid-project discovering Kiefer is a musician.
And The Violent released a "People Are Strange" cover about then, too.
Fanfic adjacent. Lots of changes. Eric and Raul are more OC's than homages to specific characters from the movie. Pierce has Marko's hair and an epic denim jacket. Are they similar otherwise? Up to the reader.
But I feel like this series still scratches that itch to give David, Star, and Michael something closer to an (admittedly somewhat problematic) happily ever after.
Like David, Dorian Volker makes loving him literally and figuratively very, very hard. But he's so damn charismatic, Jared can't help falling for him, anyway. Riding out all of Dorian's moods, with Haven alongside them both.
This is book one in Rock is Undead. There's already an interconnecting haunted hotel short story, "Hyacinth House," and a follow-up novel, Mystery Train, available.
With hopefully more to come.
Jared's best friend Lenore Grenway is one helluva fun trip, too.
(IF you are curious about Wishful Sinful but for whatever reason, anti-Kindle, reach out via DM, and we can maybe work out another way for you to read it. I've already done that once, for someone else.)
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I'm thinking this would have happened shortly after their first date-date. Either way, the "shine" on the relationship very much has NOT yet worn off, for either of them. But David is actively keeping it interesting, all the same....
There's an earlier love scene mentioned here, only in dialogue summary. Not sure if I would ever want to flesh that out into its own thing...
David had suggested the night before, that they pretend he's still mortal, his own literal, physical age. So they're both teenagers. And whatever scenario he devised around that, the object of the game was to stick to making out, touching, etc., but clothes still on, for as long as they could both possibly stand it.
It got intense.
He gave Michael bad enough beard burn, it was still visible the following night. Michael tells him he shaved just before coming to the cave the night before. That's probably why his face was so sensitive.
David proposes another experiment. What if Michael quits shaving for a time? Just so the both of them can see what it feels like.
Still tweaking as per the eraser marks LOL... So please be kind. Promise I *have* been sketching here and there, just not Lost Boys stuff, until tonight, again.
Kinda wanna play with this reference image for awhile. See how else I can stylize it, maybe further abstract it. Part of me wants to find a way to work David into it, nipping his neck.
Damn, did Jason Patric look AMAZING from that angle.
I happened upon that LJ Benet Instagram post this morning and freaking bawled my eyes out with gratitude and so many other emotions all messily swirled together.
This time, I let it go, hadn’t called or texted anyone, hadn’t emailed my therapist, but I hit a definite crisis point late last night.
And then, this.
Feeling seen. Reassured. Empathized with. Shown compassion and care. From a stranger.
So if any of the rest of you are in a similar situation, maybe it will help you, too. 💜 (Original video with the post I screenshot, was him outside the theater, not the clip above from the show).
Happy Lestat Day!!! And so much joy about TLB Musical's critical successes.
EEEEEP I cannot wait to watch TVL tonight!
And I don't have live TV (will be watching Lestat on AMC +), but I'm SUPER psyched about TLB Musical's tony nominations. Y'all better keep me in the loop!!!
ALL THE QUEER VAMPIRE ROCKSTAR GOODNESS.
AND DURING PRIDE AND MY BIRTHDAY MONTH LIKE... just wow.
I don't understand what people mean when they said David and Michael "weren't gay enough" or were "just another queer ship that didn't make canon". They're literally Canon? Just because they weren't endgame or they didn't kiss doesn't mean they weren't queer. Michael drank David's blood for fucks sake.
At least for me, I don't know that any interaction between Michael and David would live up to the anticipation created by the escalating tension between them. And I guess that's okay. They look beautiful together, though, even if when you're honest about it, the relationship isn't a healthy one.
My take on David's thoughts re: the noodles scene: "What's a little hazing between bros? Mind if I fuck with your head as foreplay? But I'll make it better, after." Very much an abuse cycle scenario.
OKAY I AM GOING TO HARDCORE NERD OUT ABOUT THIS:
Beyond the context of 1987 societal norms generally, and Hollywood conventions of the era, the power of leaving that tension to build WITHOUT fulfilling it, might also in part explain why they don't kiss, or more. As great as it sounds, maybe in reality, it would have been anticlimactic. Not that I wouldn't have still appreciated it, in some way, I imagine.
HOWEVER, I feel like as much as you could argue peer pressure by all the guys, influencing Michael to drink the blood, and explaining why he was drawn into David's emotional web, I think a lot of it was also the way David looked at him.
David's tone, when he said Michael's name.
All the MANY, many times David says Michael's name, some even within Michael's mind. Building intimacy. Some of it, through mind-control, but still. Intimacy nonetheless.
Others have pointed out all the blatant touching in the musical, and the gestures while teaching Michael guitar (to say nothing of "I'll do the neck"). But even in the movie, David puts an arm around Michael in the very scene following Michael punching him in the face.
Michael shrugs it off, looking incredibly uncomfortable.
But by the time they're at the train bridge, David has his arm around Michael once more, and Michael looks perfectly comfortable.
(See gif above)
(I've posted before about blood consumption as a metaphor for bodily fluid exchange, and if I haven't mentioned it specifically, the bottle stands in for explicit oral sex-- check how he looks with his mouth on it, and all the attention paid to Patric's mouth in that whole sequence... licking his lips, etc.-- and David being superimposed over a montage of Star behind the curtains, as Michael becomes blood-drunk... and it passed from David's lips to Michael's).
David directs a thin stream of smoke toward Michael's mouth, when Michael's furious, all up in his face, demanding, "Where's Star, David?"
Like they're kissing.
He doesn't immediately shove Michael out of his space, furious or not. Because he's more than happy to have him there, whatever Michael's mood.
And while I won't argue Michael isn't attracted to Star for her own sake because he clearly is, she's also a surrogate for what he can't do with David. As suggested by the sequence of the clouds, while the boys are flying back to the cave, being part of the love-scene montage. It simultaneously becomes a visual metaphor for orgasm, and it's shot from the vampires'/David's point of view while flying. So David is symbolically every bit as much a part of the love scene as Star.
Michael and David spend a lot of time in each other's personal space in both the movie and the musical. And again, let's not forget the 100+ instances of "Michael" in movie dialogue, most of which are a blend of David/David in chorus with the guys.
The touching is more obvious in the musical, yes. But there's also a toxic eroticism to the final fight between David and Michael in the movie, too, where David works Michael over to get him riled, bring his vamp to the surface. To show they're not so different. And they collide.
Reminds me of an entirely different movie, where a former boxer says, "I don't know the difference between fucking and fighting sometimes" (or the reverse... sue me if the wording isn't perfect). I feel like David would hard-relate to that.
And you can't tell me all that apparent regret in the second gif from that fight is because he's still a vampire. No. I think he feels remorse. Both because he killed, and because he killed DAVID.
EDIT TO ADD: I can’t believe I didn’t catch this until someone else here had pointed it out, but when Michael impales David with the horns, Kiefer’s expression shifts so brilliantly, from betrayal and agony to something a LOT like sexual ecstasy, as he’s bathed in white light, just before he dies. So if you read anything erotic in that final showdown, that right there is the penetration substituting for the literal sex they didn’t— couldn’t— have.
Sure, you COULD argue all of that is fan-service subtext, but I don't really agree with that. Because I think there's too MUCH there to dismiss it that readily.
They were a thing.
I also think David saw his own former innocence in Michael and that even as he was trying to corrupt Michael so they could be together, on some unconscious level, maybe he hoped Michael would end it and bring him down. Help him find peace.
I once read a post where someone said they don't bother shipping Michael and David in fics because they were already a couple, so there's no point.
I agree and disagree. Obviously, I have written Michael and David together. Mainly in efforts to give them a better shot at some kind of happiness, even if sometimes it still comes out on the toxic side. But after many many years of obsessing over this movie, I do agree they were already bonded, in the source material.
They had a love. It was just tragic, very flawed, and inherently doomed.
...well, in theory, anyway??? 😂 At least... the hunter/prey vibe is framed as a means for Dwayne to help reader overcome their fears and any mental blocks holding them back.
ALSO... @sparrow-the-jester I am VERY VERY seriously considering using the special abilities from your post about how the boys could have tricked the Emersons and the Frog brothers. Faked every single death. Allowed them to believe they'd gotten Marko's heart.
BECAUSE Dwayne's ability would unlock some VERY exciting possibilities for the next chapter here, and I am super super thrilled to explore them!!!
(Hopefully I remembered correctly, and you are in fact the one who posted that, the second time around... rephrasing an earlier post we both saw but couldn't remember the OP).
I don’t usually deviate from Lost Boys content, I know, but I am pretty dang proud of the collaging I did tonight, in my journal.
(There is SOME Lost Boys stuff below tho.)
I just got a mess of stickers and some Tarot-themed washi tape (a HUGE box set of different sizes and varying designs). And I had found some planner stickers I had long forgotten about. Some of those in use here, too.
Not like I haven’t been occasionally spoiling myself regardless, but I’m calling this (which like hey everything together was under $18), an early birthday present to myself.
As Kiddo put it, stuff to help scratch that creative itch. And I still have one more notebook divider left I can decorate, front and back. Dang. This journal came together nicely. Same one with the Lost Boys sticker collages I posted recently.
I think I already posted the back cover some time ago, since that was all Lost Boys and didn’t say anything about smut 🤣 But I’m gonna be BRAVE and show you some bits I don’t think I have.
Front cover, inside cover, inside of back cover
I really really LOVE collaging.
AND now, maybe just maybe I am ready to dive back into writing angsty smut. 🤣 I left Dwayne waiting (wow, you could apply that to I think THREE of my four ongoing fics… poor guy).
I saw some content questioning anachronisms in TLB fics.
Given that I was albeit young but alive in 1987, I have some understanding of the timeframe. Maybe not any underground culture of precisely 1987, because young, and living in suburbia. But I had some grizzly experiences as I got older. And I think I was perma-jaded by the nature of my childhood, and VERY rocky teen years, etc., etc.
My point: I will admit I have willfully downplayed the toxic masculinity present in character interactions in the movie, and any possible bigotry surrounding issues of gender roles and sexual orientation (internalized or otherwise). Because I wanted to.
(Look at that "We saw you from across the Boardwalk and liked your vibe" expression on their faces 🤣 He came SO CLOSE to being immediately invited back to the cave... 😂)
(They all deserve an occasional happy ending, don't they?)
More on all of that below. And before you continue, if you do, I don't harbor any ill will to anyone who disagrees with how I see it.
Not like I have 100% sanitized David in every single fic... but I think he's probably more self-aware when I write him, than he was originally intended to be. And sometimes, more sensitive. Still (at best) morally gray here and there. Occasionally worse. Which is fine.
I fully understand and can appreciate any efforts to reflect the social setting of the era more accurately. When I came out in the 90's, there were some contexts where it was accepted, and others where it vehemently was not. The ratio between the two and where specifically acceptance could be found, likely shifted dramatically between 1987 and the mid-90's. I'll grant that.
But some of it may surprise you. I was raised Catholic, and we had a visiting priest who mentioned gay rights in a positive manner with every single sermon he gave. Not Catholic now, but damn. It was a small kindness.
However, I've lived through enough homophobia and biphobia that I generally don't want to recreate it, unless I'm doing something reflective or autobiographical. So it's not an accident that Michael doesn't have a mega-intense identity crisis, followed by lashing out, etc., etc.
No argument against anyone who disagrees with this approach. It's just my preference. And I am JUST sensitive enough to feel like I needed to put this out there, in case anyone had any issues with anything I had written, and just never called me out, specifically.
Happy vamping.
(Also, side note: re: the theory that the boys' deaths were elaborate hallucinations/faked... that makes the above scene make a bit more sense? Because you'd figure that unless David was just THAT overwhelmed to be alone with Michael, given his psychic abilities, that he would have known the others were already dead, wouldn't you? Food for thought!)
OK, if Kiefer Sutherland and his hot girlfriend asked me to join their vampire polycule and live along the California coast, I wouldn't be pissing and moaning about it. Because I'm built different
I mean, yeah, David's a toxic murderer... BUT HE LOOKS LIKE KIEFER SUTHERLAND WHILE DOING IT! 😍I feel like that excuses an AWFUL lot of wrongs... 🤣 Would I try to create a moral loophole for myself and feed off the morally repugnant? I suppose that's not really ethical either, buuuut... 😂
Although honestly, if somehow given the choice not to be the Michael Emerson of the story, but rather someone else... I definitely in my day would NOT have been opposed to romancing Michael, too. Because it's my fantasy dammit, and I like them all. 😅
My headcanons about the lost boys vampire powers + how they're alive theory ITS ALL CONNECTED TRUST ITS SO GOOD
All vampires can fly
David- mind reading/mind manipulation
Paul- electricity manipulation [proof: the scene with the lights with max]
Dwayne- can turn into mist/smoke
Marko- can talk with/command animals
Micheal+Laddie+Star are halfies and so don't have an official power yet
K so I didn't make up this theory but I believe it with my full chest: David and co staged the whole final showdown in an attempt to escape Max for good aka faking their own deaths
Marko was "killed" first, but the frogs actually MISSED his heart. This gave David the idea to fake it
Marko 'dies' first -> uses his power to get Nanook to push Paul so David can illusion his death
Paul 'dies' second -> uses his power to make the stereo go weird [irl it wouldn't happen especially not like that] so Dwyane can use his power to assist David's allusion
And then David scampers away while no ones looking [canon]
And so they're all alive and well and free
Which is why they attack one at a time and we don't see David till it's his 'turn' with Michael; he was in the shadows or hiding somewhere to be able to make the frogs + Sam think they're winning. We know the boys are stronger as a group so WHY would they attack like that if it wasn't all staged?
Oh and also if "no two vamps go out the same way" David could make them see whatever he wanted them too and they'd take it as truth
This is really interesting... I remember seeing that other post, too, but can't tell you who posted it. I went a different direction keeping the boys alive in my longest ongoing series, but I like this take a lot! It's a very fun spin, and it works, logistically.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
I had it in my head to do something like this, for a bit, and just finally got around to it. Fluff. David and Thorn. Precisely one line of innuendo, in reference to Michael, hence the rating, but pretty tame. The feels!
Well, not in the gif, but that was before they became friends.
well, at least ONE of you might like this crossover...
*sigh* I suppose at some point, I have to do something productive around my apartment with day off, part two...
BUT...
"Who Wouldn't Be?"
The Lost Boys meets 1991's Point Break.
Scenes with the Point Break characters are summarized in dialogue because I was too lazy and frankly intimidated to even try coming up with authentic-sounding surfer dialogue. But there are some Point Break quotes included.
Props to Michael Emerson, for having the talent to wear David out, and to Paul, for trying to lighten the mood and cheer Michael up, after all the fallout.
I also didn't get into all of Bodhi's crew, though David (correctly) assumes he has one. They all kinda blurred, for me, even if they seemed very individualized in the initial bank-robbing footage, in the movie.
