Goblintelligence

30/transmasc (he/him)/illustrator and graphic designer

[systlin]

As an Indigenous person, millitant vegans drive me nuts, especially in their trying to stop seal hunts/whaling up north. Like, okay, I just wanna lock one of these fuckers in a freezer with a 20$ bill, a cell phone with no signal, and a piece of seal meat and see how long they last. And the soonest they can get a head of lettuce is 6 weeks from now, for 38$.

I've legit seen the argument that indigenous people in the far north should go to growing crops and i'm like

how

On the fucking ice?????

Point to where in this image people are supposed to grow things, kthx

[goblintelligence]

I eat mostly plant-based, if you're vegan your qualm should be with factory farming, not a community of people surviving with what they got. How entitled to think that they treat feeding their people is in any way shape or form similar to the average person buying animal products in a grocery store. They hunt what they need, and they use all parts of the animal they can. Their children understand that this is an animal on their plate. Most vegans do not get brought up vegan, tell me more about how kids eating overly produced Dino nuggies bc it was convenient for the parent is the same as Indigenous families eating seal/whale/whatever they want. What part of which animal is in the Dino nuggie?

Amazed at how many people are completely out of touch with food, and the environment, and not everyone having your exact experience and means. How bizarre.

[zacsoyama]

seeing dimension 20’s worlds calendar pointedly saying “FUCK TERFS” in both the description and art for the month of june was such a heartwarming surprise today

edit: in a reblog I shared the full June month art and the remaining hidden FUCK TERFs but the rb got lost in the notes so see the rest below :)

also credit to the amazing artist here: @sydsketch !!! go tell them how amazing they are!

[virtualgirladvance]

Realised strange nerd is an anagram of transgender and my life suddenly got better

[genderqueerdykes]

it kills me how much people love to speculate on the trans male experience. transphobes and even other trans people will conjure up ideas of what it must be like for us to live, how hormones affect us, and especially what society treats us like. they love to tell us how we live our lives; strawman after strawman about fictional trans men who started hormones and became "evil and ugly", completely fabricated stories about about how every trans man they know suddenly "gained male privilege" and never deal with misogyny or transandrophobia.

people who tell you how your transmasculine experience will go have no idea what they are talking about. even if they sound confident, they are not correct- each and every transmasculine person has a different experience in life- we do not automatically gain the societal privilege of cishet white men once we decide to socially transition. they cannot see what your future holds. you don't deserve to have someone telling you how you will experience your own life, it is yours, you are allowed to live your truth, pave your own way and prove that we have varied lives that transcend what transphobes think the trans male experience is.

[goblintelligence]

The amount of times I've been told these two things:

"You're ftm, you have it easy. You just wear a big hoodie and a beanie and some straight legged jeans and you look like a guy." By both trans and cis-people

"I struggle to see you as a man because you are very feminine, it doesn't help that you sit with your legs crossed and that you sometimes do not lower your voice."

So we must have it easy because apparently passing is "easy", but we should try harder because we'll never be "man enough".

Being chronically misunderstood, getting conflicting messages, having your problems massively underestimated and at the same time not being part of "the gang". It sucks.

I've written this before but "male privilege" is indeed not part of the transmasculine "welcome package". We're valued as "man when it's convenient" and "woman for their comfort". Often even infantalised. I've been made to feel like an 8 year old boy at best by some cis-ters, do tell me how you'll also tell an 8 year old boy that he has "male privilege" when you damn well realise that you hold the power in that dynamic. And you know what, that's not a great feeling especially if you're a thirty year old man like me. I do not want to be called "cute" or "baby boy" or whatever googoogaga bs you mean to cast on me for AGAIN your comfort. I know it must be scary to treat me as an equal. A big part of that is that most people are scared to sexualise trans men, because it "fucks" with their sexuality apparently. This however is not our problem, thus shouldn't be made into that.

We're not asking for much. More visibility would be great, more acceptance even better. A bigger space for masculinity in all its facets, not just cisnormative stereotypes that we can never fulfill the way they're being held up by current society.

[goblintelligence]

Thougth:

It really sucks being a self taught designer and illustrator who doesn't work in adobe, and being trans and ND/disabled on top of that.

- adobe is the industry standard

- my design community almost exclusively consists of middle aged ladies who will constantly use "hello ladies" in the group chats while I am A MAN. And me telling them this repeatedly.

- no company will hire me because I have no degree

- I cannot go back to school because I have schizoaffective disorder, am autistic and have cptsd (also trauma regarding school)

So I just hope to get noticed bit by bit, but the process is awfully slow and I keep getting denied for having "no experience in the industry". How am I supposed to get experience when everyone turns me down???!!

I try my hardest, I run multiple online stores and social media pages, work hard on my portfolio, but the algorithm is not in my favour. One mentor I sought out actually told me not to publicly mention that I am trans. Should I masquerade as a woman just to fit in with the crew? Hell no. I've been cosplaying as a woman long enough and I'm done with it.

If you're reading this and you wish to support me any advice and tips on how to advance are welcome. You could give me a follow or a like on @marijnliran on insta or marijnliran on behance. And if you also struggle I'm willing to support you back, perhaps we could even create a community with disabled ND queer artists. Because I'm sick of feeling like the odd one out.

[goblintelligence]

Illustration by me (Marijn Liran || @marijnliran on insta).

[totallycirclek]

Trying to prove a point to my transphobic parents

Reblog if trans men are REAL, VALID AND HANDSOME MEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

Reblog if trans women are REAL, VALID, AND BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, NO MATTER HOW THEY CHOOSE TO PASS

And finally, because it's a part of my argument for this point, and also because they are,

Reblog if nonbinary and genderqueer people in general, are REAL, VALID, AND GORGEOUS PEOPLE, NO MATTER HOW THEY PASS

[florashifting]

I saw someone misgender a nonbinary person and when they were corrected this mf said "I prefer to use she/her on her ❤" I'M SORRY??? HUHH??

So close! You actually don't get to choose someone else's pronouns for them! Hope that helps! 💖💞

[gaymolegaming]

Imagine doing that to a cis person lmao. Just some guy and you just start using she/her pronouns for him

[goblintelligence]

I occasionally do this, especially with cis-men who consistently misgender me, it's a hoot.

[yaoiboypussy]

Those cis women who are only ‘inclusive’ to trans men when it comes to hating them are the worst. They say “I hate all men - and yes that includes trans men 💖✨ they are still men💖✨.” but then throw a fit when they are asked to stop calling menstrual products feminine products and to include trans men in their reproductive care activism….

[sunflowersolace]

[goblintelligence]

Starting early with mermay, so have a transmasc merman, with top surgery scars!

[transandrogyny--turtlebug]

You can say "this thing is bad" without saying that trans men somehow have it easier. Stop theorizing about experiences you've never had and then treating them as fact. For fuck sake

[the-delta-quadrant-deactivated2]

most trans people who people like to call "non transitioning" actually do transition, but people don't want to acknowledge that not all transition is medical

changing your hair is transition

deciding to shave or grow your body hair is transition

doing something different with make up is transition

changing your new wardrobe is transition

changing your name is transition

changing your pronouns is transition

coming out to people is transition

even just accepting your own transness without telling anyone else is transition, as it changes how you see yourself

it's almost impossible to be trans and truly non transitioning, even if that transition might be non medical, non visible or entirely self contained

all kinds of transition are valid.

there are also things that aren't necessarily associated with transition that an individual may consider to be part of their transition, like working out to make their body look different, getting piercings and tattoos and so much more

there are so many ways of transitioning besides surgery and hormones

"non transitioning nonbinary/trans person" is just code for "i don't consider your transition to be real because it doesn't fully fit into what cis people expect"

"some parents would rather have a non transitioning trans child than one who does" like yeah no shit. a non transitioning trans child is a trans child who doesn't come out, doesn't change anything about themself. not their name, not their pronouns, not their hair or wardrobe. a non transitioning trans child is a trans child who never talks about being trans so their parents can pass them off as cis. a non transitioning trans child is a trans child that is in the closet. of course a lot of parents would rather have a trans child who stays in the closet so they don't have to deal with their transness. but you all mean "non transitioning" as in "not medically transitioning" and that's not true either. trans people get kicked out of their house for doing as little as changing their pronouns. and if you say you're doing literally anything as part of your transition/because you're trans, people will absolutely give you shit for it, while a cis person can do the same thing and it's no biggie. social transition is not accepted at all.

there are some weird trans people out there who will completely dismiss people's life saving transition steps as "non transitioning" because they don't fit cis ideas of transness, it's disgusting

when i say "transition" i'm always including medical transition and social transition, as well as anything else an individual may consider part of their transition that doesn't necessarily fit into the two boxes

also can we stop acting like social transition isn't also constantly under attack

[goblintelligence]

I no longer want to be a man only when it's convenient to people. I am a man all the time, but I am not a cis-man. Don't for a second think that transition, social or medical, comes with a privilege bonus. Even the "stealthiest" of trans men carry loads of dysphoria and trauma. Even cis-people (yes them too) carry dysphoria, because what even is a "real" man/woman?

When they see trans individuals living their truth they get confused because we are defining gender for ourselves. Something they were "taught" can't be shaped. So they lash out, call transmascs "mentally ill women" and worse, because of their own insecurities surrounding gender. But we swallow and take it, because we too then dive nose deep into toxic masculinity and try to detach ourselves from our emotions. Be stoic and move on.

Transmasculine people don't get privilege, we're grossly misunderstood.

To all my transmasc brethren, young and old; hold on to your trans joy, your gender euphoria. May it be a comfort in times you are yet again being made to feel like a "part-time man".

[goblintelligence]

It is okay to not have bottom dysphoria. At all.

You are not less trans, you are not perverted, you are not your agab because of what's on your bottom half.

And it's also okay if you change your opinion on this later, but it's very valid if you don't, it's not a bad thing to be content with your bits.

[cyberatioum]

I'm so tired of seeing transmasc's suffering downplayed

[trans-androgyne]

This could have been its own post about a transfem experience, there was zero need to bring in a shitty assumption of what transmascs deal with. Many parents of transmascs treat their “daughter’s” hair as part of their body and are horrified if they change it whatsoever. A haircut can get you kicked out. That “so much trouble” can be a beating too. Do not do this shit.

[doberbutts]

I've seen way too many CIS girls pinned to the ground by their parents while their head is forcibly shaved as punishment for cutting their hair, too many videos of parents going on rampages and breaking all of their kid's stuff and completely destroying the house, heard too many stories of parents beating the shit out of or disowning kids that cut their hair short, too many people get caught in lesbiphobia and butchphobia and end up actually dying due to their short hair, schools and government bodies making mandates on minimum hair lengths, and kids who have every scrap of control or privacy removed from them the very first time they come home with hair "too short" to think that screenshot OP has any actual grounding in reality.

I'm not saying it doesn't happen to trans fems. I *am* saying it happens to us too, and the idea that it doesn't is... well, pretending the problem doesn't exist hasn't really gone well for us thus far now has it.

[goblintelligence]

My hairdresser openly mocked me in the middle of the salon, went as far as to verbally humiliate me, for even suggesting I wanted a mens haircut. "I'm not going to let you look like a gross dyke" and then proceeded to ultra feminise my hair.

I am now going to a barber who actually does what I want.

[goblintelligence]