[govviecheez]

she has hate in her heart

right where he placed it

right from the start

[govviecheez]

I miss you

And the love we had

And the love we made

I want it back

Sweet nothings

In my ear

Quiet mornings

By the lake

But you were never there

With me on those days

You were thinking of her

In my dopamine quake

[govviecheez]

Afflicted

All of your afflictions

Stem from your addictions

Eating

Gaming

Smoking

Blaming

Judging

Shaming

Others for your pain

You pick one up

After the last one is junk

Then loop the cycle

All over again

[govviecheez]

When I say that I miss you

What I really want to say

Is

I will drown myself in the ocean

Just for a taste of your breeze

When I say that I love you

What I really really mean

Is

I will rip the pages out of my book

Just for a glimpse of your ease

When I say that I want you

What my body tells me

Is

My nights are yours sweet lover

My days are too if you please

[govviecheez]

When I say that I miss you

What I really want to say

Is

I will drown myself in the ocean

Just for a taste of your breeze

When I say that I love you

What I really really mean

Is

I will rip the pages out of my book

Just for a glimpse of your ease

When I say that I want you

What my body tells me

Is

My nights are yours sweet lover

My days are too if you please

[govviecheez]

The first step off of the ship is the hardest

The world as you know it

sways

like the lyrics of a song that won't leave your head

The training is all encompassing

For the

smartest

tightest

fittest

covers

For the sad ones

For the best lovers

The words roll off the

tongue

Dance in the ears of the loneliest others

Don't speak of what they show you

Just pass the virus on to the

brothers

[govviecheez]

i remember the beginning

i recall the love

bomb

splitting me open beautifully

now you hide behind

neon

nothingness to buffer

repentance for not showing

up

[808heartbrake]

i am sorry i am vain

superficial

a spectacle of nothing

chaos is my middle name

i have lived in the shadows

with nothing much to claim

i have flown thru the gallows

cloak all aflame

i have heard things with my token

that would make you go insane

i have seen things left unspoken

i will take all of the blame

[govviecheez]

i’ll pull all my hair out before I ask for help

Or

admit i’m not okay

Or

believe the jargon that spills from your lips

Or

the saccharine words you always say

Or

try my best when my worst is whats pressed

Or

wait any longer for the warmth of your kiss

Or

begin again at the end of the world

Or

bear the strength of both our wrists

[govviecheez]

He is risen

Eternal damnation

Cross the street

At the biker bar

Hellfire bent on nothin’

Cept’ Jesus

Satan knockin’

At yer door

Sit round the table

Have a laugh in the pew

Fall down the capn’s hole

We’s all just a waitin’

[govviecheez]

Raised on music

Moody

Sultry

Loud

Dark rooms

Built the foundation

For a life of feeling

Gravity

Brevity

Goosebumps on skin

Curtains never reach the sun

Sacred knowing

Lyrics pound out the empty

Soundtrack of a life

Softly slowing

[govviecheez]

There is a sunspot in my eye

Where I used to see your image

A buzzing in my ear

Where your words once lived

A piece within my heart

That I no longer give

To vagabonds just passing through

Lost memories and wishes

[govviecheez]

You

It was always you

When you were just a dream

In my waking view

I would run to slumber

To see your face

To wake up feeling

Like I had found my place

In your arms

I long to be

Forever

All ways

It will forever be you

I will never let another

Devour my being

The way that you have

Guard down

Head up

No longer swimming

In a sea of quicksand

[govviecheez]

Heroin (e)

As the tourniquet tightens

The world loosens

Around a bulletproof vest

Of the blank nothing of righteousness

Floating across an endless sea

Vastness blackens the cacophony

Music restless in the soul

Counting coins for a golden deity

To display upon a dusty shelf

In a house empty of any war torn enemy

The tunes they sate an unending quest

[govviecheez]

I meet the hurdy gurdy man

On the shores of a dream

He has a pocketful of sand

Splintered bones for hands

He has a heart full of love

With no one to claim

He has a scroll full of words

A past with no name

Now he follows me around

A ghost with no home

He sleeps in my bed

So tenderly bound

[govviecheez]

If this is the beginning of the end

Let me lay once more

In the mahogany bend

Of your sleepy eyed gaze

Of your hands on my face

Adoring the angles

That I’ve always mistook

For egregious mistakes

All the others are fakes

No man before you

Had the courage to look

Through me like you do

[govviecheez]

She is our offering

Sad endings

Clipped wings

Hard beginnings

She is white light

Informal observations

Fungal blight

Whispering incantations

She is bird song

Red trillium

Caged long

Forever delirium