Well, I guess I figured the world out.
This week has been spectacular. I've spent the nights awake, working on film and schoolwork. The holy spirit has been explaining the season's values to me - what's gonna work toward what I want and what will work against me. I'm having a blast.
I'm discovering the depths of the lord's words to me when I met him - "don't make plans" he said. Now I understand, you go to school to learn what materials you want to learn. Following your heart isn't as dangerous as resisting it. The classes I take, the working out I do, the food I eat, the films I study, I am doing them because I feel depth and enjoyment in it. I was worried that following my heart would lead me away from my goals, hopes. But now I see, it's the trust that helps you walk it out.
Before, when I felt good about an activity I would conjure up it's inclusion into either an original grandeur plan, or its inclusion in an existing goal or dream of mine. But those ideas distracted me - sometimes simply only keeping me from a rested heart, which can stop me from doing what I feel inspired toward or feeling inspiration at all - or sometimes they overwhelmed me and I would shut down.
When pursuing long-term dreams, you must understand yourself. You must.
About six months or so (vague timing) I heard Bill Johnson say that he could not wait until he and the people he loves heard the Lord say, "tell me, what is it that you want? I will give it to you."
The Lord says this constantly. He says this, I feel, because his words to us are "yes & amen." But what does that mean? I have asked the lord myself and he spoke toward the topic - it means that you were set free by him for freedom's sake. His idea of blessing you isn't that he will constrict you and force you into some lifestyle you've never asked. He doesn't give freedom in areas simply because it's effective. He says, "be free & I will bless you" because he wants to know what we want - not what he can force us into. This world isn't new, he's been around for a long, long time, and he already knows what he wants and can create, but now he wanted to make living art - so let him. Let him know what you want, write it down. Talk with him about it. Listen.
Now when I ask him, "Father? But what do you want in this situation?" he answers, "What's the difference between me and you?" Yes, from that old rap song ha.
He says that the human heart is man's responsibility. Read Proverbs 16. The heart of man belongs to man. It's our responsibility. The answer from the tongue comes from God. He explained to me that in this proverb, solomon already knew that the tongue was the most powerful muscle in the human body because it can pursuade the rulers of the world - us. The lord told me the reason why he refers to the tongue here is because it represents our perspective of the temporal realm. The realm made of atoms, that we are in right now. The proverb means this:
Man's heart is his own responsibility. The heart being the place of inspiration, of desire, of peace, of faith. The heart is the emotional and inspirational part of a person. It's our responsibility to tend it and pay heed to it. When we are inspired with desire we can ask him for what we want. God's role is to provide the miraculous movement of the temporal realm, to line up things to work on our behalf. Now I know that many people pray to God for things they do not get, this is a very large concept and I will touch on it an aweful lot more later on in these posts. I feel if I had a "major" in life it would be on faith, how it works, why it works, and how to have miracles in your life. I'll share some cool stories and what I learned from them later too. I know, I'm excited as well -woot. Anyway, we stay honest, he stays faithful. Amen.
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