The Night is blue and black

Cai, he/him (putting new name and pronouns in my bio aaahhh)

[orteil42]

given the current climate this pride especially i feel i must mention that i love my trans friends, i stand with trans people in the fight against transphobic legislation and those who would enforce it, and this blog is not a good place for you to be if you do not vibe with that

[groveofbones]

Iron Lung was the first horror movie I've watched since I was a teenager, and I maintained for like two decades that I don't like horror. Then I started reading horror books and loving them and updated that to not liking horror movies. I love being scared, horrified, terrified, but one thing I absolutely despise being is startled. It's not a cathartic feeling for me, it just leaves me feeling irritated and unhappy. And then along came Iron Lung, which I'm pretty sure has no jump scares, just horror with no startles, and I loved it. And I'm like... are there more like that? Please? All I want is to be scared without being startled, is that so wrong?

[groveofbones]

I hadn't watched a movie that wasn't requested by a four year old in the better part of a year, and now I've watched two in quick succession because the PHM fandom convinced me to watch not only PHM, but a completely unrelated movie. Anyway, loved both movies, thanks PHM fandom, you bunch of weirdos.

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags if you can remember where you got the shirt you're currently wearing.

[evergreen-femme]

im just so happy i live in a time period where actual meaningful biological transition is possible. even if we lose rights or the ability to exist in public, nothing can turn back the clock on that, and just by having any sort of access to that our lives are made immensely better. millions of our sisters throughout history would never have dreamed of a day where they could have what HRT does for us.

please don't lose the plot of this. if you're a trans person on HRT you're a living miracle, the dream of hundreds of millions of your ancestors. your lives are all deeply meaningful no matter what anyone says.

[t4t4t]

תפילה להפך – מאבן בֹחן | Prayer for Transformation, from the poem "Even Boḥan" by Rabbi Ḳalonymus b. Ḳalonymus ben Meir (1322) • the Open Si

A prayer by Kalonymus b. Kalonymus ben Meir that appears in his poem ספר אבן בוחן, יג Sefer Even Boḥan (§13), describing the author's wish t

[unabashedllamamusic]

Cursed be the one who announced to my father: “It’s a boy!"... ...How could he twist the course of the stars so much? How could he have erred so in his astrology? A lying tongue, a fool’s mouth it had given him For he foolishly transformed justice to poison He altered the law and transposed the lines

Oh, but had the artisan who made me created me instead – a worthy woman... ...I would say "how lucky am I"

Father in heaven who did miracles for our ancestors with fire and water... ...Who would then transform me from a man to woman? Were I only to have merited this being so graced by goodness...

What shall I say? why cry or be bitter? If my father in heaven has decreed upon me and has maimed me with an immutable deformity then I do not wish to remove it. the sorrow of the impossible is a human pain that nothing will cure and for which no comfort can be found. So, I will bear and suffer until I die and wither in the ground. Since I have learned from our tradition that we bless both, the good and the bitter I will bless in a voice hushed and weak: blessed are you [HaShem] who has not made me a woman.

I think I'm gonna go lay down for a little while.

[thevulturesquadron]

text: [ “Some of you have forgotten that only three years ago you were perfectly capable of writing an essay, writing a eulogy, telling a bedtime story to a child, and it should worry you that powerful companies have convinced us we can’t do things we’ve been doing for 5000 years.” ]

[groveofbones]

All I do every time I get on this hellsite now is like approximately 104 project hail mary posts and then leave, this book/movie is taking over my brain.

[groveofbones]

I'm sure PHM is going to get a (deserved) visual effects Oscar nom, but if it doesn't also get costuming and score noms then snakes are going to manifest physically in all the academy members' houses. I know this because I am going to be personally manifesting the snakes.

[groveofbones]

I found a really fun article about men's fashion aesthetics that I went back to a few times, so I decided to check out the rest of the site. Lo and behold, it's actually a "looksmaxxing" site with a button to upload a picture of yourself so that it's special AI will tell you what features you need to "work on." Presumably with hammers, a la Clavicular. What the fuck. Hell is empty, and all the devils are here.

[groveofbones]

A moment from right after the explosion that killed DuBois and Shapiro:

""Grace?! Are you okay?!" It was Stratt's voice. Her portable was right next to mine."

This is the first thing she does, even before she gets on the walkie talkie to figure out what happened. Their houses are right next to each other. They lived practically in each other's pockets for years. Their relationship makes me want to chew through my own arm.

[groveofbones]

Absolutely fucking ghoulish for the US government to keep saying "We're trying to offer life-saving aid to Cuba" when Cuba's most immediate and life-threatening problems could be solved if the US government just lifted its fucking fuel blockade.

[groveofbones]

I tore the box these came in open like a bear trying to get the honey from a beehive.

[groveofbones]

Barbie's Bad Day spoilers

Oh, hello, new character I'm obsessed with.

"That wasn't a threat, that was an OFFER!"

Also, Barbie having just a grindingly shitty day and still throwing the drugs off the balcony, I just met her and I'm so proud of her and I hope her days get better <3

[groveofbones]

I like to imagine Bobby eventually finding out about the demon hunting and just instantly taking it in stride. Like, "Of course my girls are all that's standing between the world and total destruction, that makes perfect sense, they're amazing."

[groveofbones]

I finally came out to my husband yesterday. I had been so terrified because I really want to spend my life with him, and because he's always considered himself straight. But I also shouldn't have been so scared, because I know exactly the kind of person I married. He told me that he loved me and he wanted to support me so I could be myself. It was pretty much the ideal response I would have wanted. He called me by my chosen name, used my pronouns, everything. I can't believe how lucky I am. I'm still kind of giddy and in shock about how lucky I am. I'm so happy that he exists and that I get to love him.

[groveofbones]

First TDOV since I realized I'm trans. I'm finally visible to myself, hooray!

[groveofbones]

Wait, Kinger said they weren't building a game, they were just building an AI who could create. Did they program it to create a game? Or is that just what Caine wanted to do? Was the purpose that he's so obsessed with something he gave himself?

June is way too far away, I'm going to chew through the walls D: