life is shit but that's okay

[grungeloveeee]

does anyone else feel like no matter how hard they try they are just never good enough for anything ever? even the simplest of  things most days I feel like I can’t even accomplish. 

[grungeloveeee]

I saw something today that triggered the need to self harm so bad that was all I could think about. I never thought I was addicted until I tried to stop. It’s been two years but the urge is still always there in the back of my mind.. will it ever go away?

[grungeloveeee]

Some how it’s 3 am I’m drunk again and all I can think of or want is you and I can’t have that so now I’m crying wishing with all of my being that you were still in my life. I need you.

[userethereal]

We’re the kids your parents warned you about.

[grungeloveeee]

One bad thought leads to another bad though leads to a worse thought and then next thing you know I can’t breathe because I’m overwhelmed and anxious.

[grungeloveeee]

Does anyone else feel like they just had their heart ripped out? Cause I feel like that and I can’t even fucking breath it hurts so fucking bad.

[grungeloveeee]

drinking is fun and all until you remember something that you didn't want to and then next thing you know you are sobbing on the floor wishing things could be different. 

[grungeloveeee]

does anyone else feel like no matter how hard they try they are just never good enough for anything ever? even the simplest of  things most days I feel like I can't even accomplish. 

[grungeloveeee]

This is something that I wrote myself at a very low time in my life when I was extremely suicidal. I wish I could tell my younger self that life does get better, that change is good, that trying new things is fun and can lead to amazing experiences. When I wrote this I never thought I would live to see 21. But I did. It was hard but worth it. Life still fucking sucks but I now get why people do it. It’s really all about the little things in life, so to my younger self you do get better slowly and surely every day that your Alive and trying your best.

[grungeloveeee]

Does no one look in my eyes

Do they not see that just because my lips form a smile does not mean I’m happy

Do they not hear the forced laugh I give them because I was so lost in my thoughts I didn’t hear what they said but they’re laughing so I will to

Do they not bother to ask about the random scratches on my arms and hands

Do they not realize that when they’re talking I’m a million miles away thinking about god knows what

They would notice these things if they really looked me in the eyes.

They say the eyes are the portal to your soul

Well honey look into my eyes only to see crippling depression with suicidal tendencies, there’s nothing happy about me anymore.

[grungeloveeee]

New tattoo who dis

[grungeloveeee]

The thoughts in my head are so much different than the words that come out of my mouth.

Me.

[grungeloveeee]

Blurry lights blurry life.

[grungeloveeee]

Addictions always get the best of you no matter what it is your addicted to.

[grungeloveeee]

Rainy days, long car rides, mood music, makes for a perfect fall day.

[grungeloveeee]

i woke up wanting to kiss you and fell asleep thinking how could i ever want that. 

[grungeloveeee]

Almost broke my hand last night. Two full bottles of wine will do that to you though.