I don’t blame you. How can I?
You guys grew up in a small pueblo where small-minded ideas grew and were cultivated.
Ideas that seemed harmless, but were in fact damaging to yourselves. Sort of like pesticide covered roses.
Speaking the language of past generations because it was the only thing that made sense in the machista world you guys lived in.
Phrases like, “ Para, no eres niña” or “ Como te vas a casar si no sabes calentar tortillas.”
As if straying from gender roles were a way of bringing shame to the family. Which, in most cases, it was.
I don’t blame you for limiting me for being a woman.
I understand where you are coming from when you say I shouldn’t be out late alone or even when you say I shouldn’t be alone in a room full of guys.
You’re just trying to do your job as a parent to protect your daughter and prevent whatever danger that can come across.
You have lived in a world where women were seen as fragile flowers who needed protecting.
Words passed down generation will be retorted with more liberal views shaped from the world I currently live in.
Phrases that limit me because of my gender will be answered with questions on how it exactly does this shame the family.
Slowly uncovering the hypocritical, illogical layers these phrases were earthed upon.
I know that you see it more protecting rather than limiting. But you can only protect me from so much.
I don’t need protection. I need support. When things do get bad, I need to know that you will be there. That’s when I will need you the most.
I understand you. All I ask is that you understand me too.
Basically, this letter is my inner dialogue that I would want to say to my parents, but haven’t yet. Even though this is more for my personal reasons, the dialogue can illicit a response from any person who has had clashed heads with their parents. People will relate to this because I believe there is this inner battle of love/hate relationship most people have with their parents. Maybe not my letter, but the concept of understanding both sides of the problem can help make people better advocates for gender justice. Just because you understand something, does not mean that you have to agree with it.