Haired

he/him 18 blog for when im losing it

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im hungry :(

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i have to swim tomorrow and im going to fucking peel myself i fucking hate this shitass fucking fuck i fucking damnit fucking shit fuck

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i just got a full screen ad what the fuck was that

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Fuck

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oh my fucking gods its pride month its pride month and i just made a vent post oh my fucking gods

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Vent below

is it normal to feel like a fraud because i dont look like a man?

it makes me feel guilty for even thinking about correcting people in public because its not their fault I don’t look or sound like a man

ive yet to correct anyone outside of my circle of friends (they all started using the pronouns i wanted) because i feel stupid making random people/strangers validate me

this happens even on the internet when i speak or text to people on discord and they immediately call me by she/her i just use stuff like the intros to put in my pronouns and dont correct people

it just makes me feel like a fraud for having my friends use he/him when these random people and even my family use she/her

and my family i don’t even know where to go from

my father i think would eventually talk to me about everything once i start hrt and start looking like a man and then im hoping we could sort everything out im too much of a coward right now to confront him directly

on the other hand my mother doesnt support me on hrt at all and ive talked to her twice about gender affirming care she doesnt want me on it and i really dont know if ill ever be a man to her

there’s also lowkey a major difference in understanding what trans people are and feel between the both of us the second time i brought up hrt she started shouting at me for no reason and got really angry

i can understand where shes coming from but i dont agree with what shes saying

ive told my brother what pronouns i wanted him to use but ive never heard him use them which i really dont blame him for because of my parents

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im actually tweaking break has fucked me up i havent done shit

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hrt wait for me </3

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i havent posted anything in 2 weeks on my art blog i feel like a fraud

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been playing an mmo

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uh so I cant see my posts

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nevermind we ball

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uh so I cant see my posts

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FUCKUFKCUFKCUFJCUFJUFYFKDBJEKW

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when putting on transtape how stretched should the middle of my chest feel?

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I want to go back

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I tried taping and I’m bad at it

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I fucking hate it here there’s so much shit everywhere in a tiny ass fucking box