depressed bi human

people from earth, I’m bi, mentally ill and fucked up i enjoy talking though so be afraid also I’m 18

[lone1nmycastl3]

[wardenapproaches]

Daily checklist of affirmations:

Nothing wrong with me

Nothing wrong with me

Nothing wrong with me

Nothing wrong with me

[allsadnshit]

I will never get over how weird it feels to have tragic and emotional chapters of your life where you just also still go to work, and the grocery store, and see funny videos online all while feeling such paralyzing fear and heartache

life just goes on no matter what

[br-o-ken-poetry]

[theirdelusion-deactivated202106]

[siickangel]

i knew you would

[beautifuldarkmind]

I ruin everything good because I’m so unstable.

[siickangel]

i remember

[lizardeater706-deactivated20201]

THE ONLY THING YOU EVER TAUGHT ME

[rottenbutrecovering]

A post on splitting

Splitting is the term used to describe when someone with BPD’s view of something shifts from one extreme to another. For example from obsessional love to all encompassing hate. 

Others sometimes call it ‘swinging’ but most use that to describe mood swings specifically.

The term is currently considered to be specific to only those with BPD/(B)PD traits.

This stems from the section in the diagnostic criteria of BPD that refers to ‘black and white thinking’ or ‘all or nothing’. It also links to frequent and extreme mood swings common of BPD. 

Splitting is regarded as a coping mechanism in regards to fear of abandonment caused by BPD. Eg ‘if I hate you it won’t hurt if you leave' 

Those with BPD say they’ve ‘split on X’ something to say when they’ve had this shift of views in regards to X thing. 

Those with BPD say they’re ‘splitting’ to say that they are currently experiencing a shift in views. 

Most people use ‘split’ to describe when they shift from love to hate of something, but splitting is also accurate to describe shift from hate to love. Typically when someone with people says “I’ve split/am splitting on X” it means they currently have extreme hate/anger towards X. 

Someone with BPD can split on people, objects, ideas, concepts and on themselves- they can split on anything. 

Not all those with BPD split. 

Splitting is very difficult to control and very often the person isn’t aware they are splitting. 

Splitting can occur for many reasons, and to those without BPD the reasons can appear trivial but it’s important to remember that to those with BPD these experiences are very real and often very distressing.

[halfgayandmessedup]

i actually am aware when i’m splitting, specially when i’m doing it with someone, it sucks to be aware and be able to do nothing

[bitchycode]

Name a more iconic duo than my fear of abandonment and instinct to self isolate, I’ll wait

[bpdmoth]

*makes 15 different playlists to match all my personalities*

[borderlinebastard]

article: “people with BPD are terrified of being alone”

me: *has isolated myself for the past 5 years*

[death-is-sucha-flirt]

Do you ever get sad because you're scared that the things you're thinking(paranoid) about are just anxiety induced thoughts and they're not really real but at the same time you're scared that your brain is just telling you they're not real so you wont be upset so now you dont know what's real? Because same

[turing-tested]

self care is putting yourself to bed on a regular schedule because it’s the base treatment for mood disorders

there’s no twist or anything it’s just really really good for u to sleep at consistent times

[m86-deactivated20171116]

me reading this at 5am:

[top-secret-suicide]

Sometimes i wish something terrible would happen to me. I wish everyone would leave me. I wish i didnt have such a normal life. Because maybe then my feelings would be valid. Right now, nothing is ever bad enough.

[softyin]

who needs therapy when emotional dissociation exists which stops me from feeling anything 🤠