No stopping.
Thoughts of suicide are on my mind again. Tired of them. I don’t want to be stopped this time, I don’t want talked out of it. I just want to leave. but somethings holding me back. I know its the pain of hurting my friends, family and my lovely boyfriend, I cant leave this close to the holidays and my birthday. Im so emotionally tired. Im exhausted. Im so ready to move away and never look back, I just wish someone understood and could help me instead of just saying “It gets better” or “you’re always depressed cheer up” Its not that easy and when it gets better it just goes back to being terrible. Im numb and lost. Maybe one day I’ll have the guts to go through with it.











