Imperfect

✨Bent not Broken✨

[cherryplumbubblegum]

It was when I moved her hair away from her face and asked her why there were tears in her eyes that I realized. No one ever cared if she did. Or if she didn’t. Please don’t. Don’t cry.

[ninasdrafts]

Seeing you again was like gazing into a distorted mirror. I remembered the colour of your eyes, the shape of your lips. The edge to your smile. You hadn't looked at me like that in a long time. If I wasn't careful my own smile would slip. My hard-won composure would crumble. Even though I wanted to turn away, I did the sensible thing and asked about your life. About work. About your family. I wasn't trying to be polite - I was trying not to cry. I guess a small part of me wanted you to cave in and tell me you'd missed me, but from your answers I gathered that just wasn't the case. And it hurt. When you invite somebody into your life, let them see your darkest parts while also showing them how bright the world can be and they still choose to leave - it's the worst kind of pain. Wanting to re-create a connection that faded over time is not enough. You either accept the changes both of you have gone through, or you accept drifting apart. Sometimes there's just no going back. And if it makes you sad ten years down the road it doesn't mean that you haven't moved on. It only means that what you used to have was so special, was so genuine that you are still mourning. And that's okay. So I return your smile and tell you that I'm doing fine and I mean it. But a small part of me hopes you still think of me from time to time with a lump in your throat, wishing you could turn back time.

distorted mirror / n.j.

[i-wrotethisforme]

No matter how many times you replay the whole timeline in your head, you’re never going to be able to pinpoint the exact moment it went wrong. Rereading months of text messages isn’t going to give you any clarity, or make it any easier. You won’t get answers out of his friends, or his horoscope, or the pictures he’s liking on his phone. Sometimes you have to tell yourself it’s not something you did, or didn’t do, and there’s nothing you could have done differently, and it’s not because you were too much to handle, nor is it because you weren’t enough. And then you have to just let go, because it’s all you can do.

[always-overthinking-things]

I sleep so much better wrapped up in your arms

[words-for-j]

I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life with you.

-we just have to get through this distance for a little while

[trulymadlylonelyhungry]

11:53pm

You aren’t even gone yet and I miss you already.

You’re still tangled in bedsheets with me, the taste of your lips still tingling mine, the air still shimmering over goose-bumps on exposed limbs, but the dull ache of missing you is already making itself comfortable in the pit of my stomach.

I haven’t had enough time yet, I’m not ready to let go of your hand, don’t want to leave the comfort of your arms, can’t I just have you for one more week?

I know you have to go but just know that I am so stupidly in love that I will miss you in all the love songs I sing in the car, the sunsets and sunrises I wish I was next to you for, I will miss your laughter at my stupid jokes and fuck, I will miss holding you.

Come home already.

- 28.8.2021

[hbryleer]

Today I realized how much I have changed. I’ve grown up. I pay all my bills, instead of just one. I listen, instead of fighting. I’m learning, instead of being a know-it-all. I have a love I never thought I would. I’m better, and stronger, and wiser. But, I still wonder how you’re doing. If you’re still angry like you used to be, or if you’ve grown too. A part of me will always wonder.

[lifewithmentalwellness]

[leeisawkward]

Things to put in letters!!

This is mostly for personal reference because one of my best friends is moving in t-2 days and I’m gonna miss him like hell but anyways;

-stickers!

-photos or printed memes

-flat fridge magnet

-money (doesn’t have to be a lot, send just a dollar or a couple quarters)

-confetti

-maps

-glow in the dark stars

-a packet of seeds (flowers would be cute!)

-a drawing/collage/small art piece

-comic strip/puzzle

-custom photo stickers (I use Canon mini print)

-a playing card

-puzzle pieces! (can send a few at a time until they can complete the puzzle, bonus points if you write a note on the back of the finished puzzle!)

-a balloon for them to blow up (also could have a message on it!)

-origami

-buttons

-a flattened penny

-coloring page

-buttons

-napkins/drink holders

-a fortune from a fortune cookie

-flat pins

-a bookmark

-friendship bracelet

-dried flowers/herbs

-ticket stubs and other mementos

-temporary tattoos

-a stick candle (good to go with a balloon, like a birthday party to go!)

-depending on how big the envelope; a handmade CD/DVD

-paint swatches of their favorite colors

-pieces of fabric

-googly eyes

-a coaster

-mini garland

-guitar pick

-gift cards or coupons (once again, doesn’t have to be much!)

-a printed recipe

-an air freshener

-unused stamp/envelope (so they can send you a letter back!)

-post it notes

-a lottery ticket

-depending on size again; small candy (chewing gum ships well!), toys, or jewelry

-a feather or a leaf

-a mini envelope for a letter within a letter

-page of a calander, folded, with specific dates marked

-a tea or hot chocolate packet

-a face mask, nail file, hair pins/barrettes, bandaids, a flat self care package!

-ribbon/string

-paper crowns

-miscellaneous paper clips/safety pins/etc.

-a written playlist of songs

-iron on patches!

-a page of a book

Feel free to add on! Remember it’s not about the item itself but the meaning and thought behind it and how it pairs with your letter!

[culinary-agender-lesbianism-blog]

“Turn off the phone. Make some food. Curl up in bed with your laptop and have a cute date night with her. Don’t let distance dictate the limits of what you can do together.”

–LDRs have no limits when it comes to romance.

[lostmountians]

Missing you

Missing you no longer comes in waves like it once did. Missing you is now a constant flow of desires to be next to you, to hold you, to taste you on my lips, and feel you in my bed. Missing you was like waves on a beach but now I’m in the middle of the damn ocean.

-Mid morning thoughts-

By: ART

[giraffalope]

l o n g  d i s t a n c e

[hi]

[unapologeticallymadelyn]

I thought I had known love before you, but boy was I wrong. With you this is different. This is true love. Not the ‘love’ where youre infatuated with the idea of someone, but once things get tough one of you leaves. That is not love. This, this is love. The love I know in my heart will never die. The love I know, although it just began, can make it through anything the universe may throw at us. The love that can make even the most terrible of places feel like home, just because you are there. I thought I knew love before, but I’m so glad I was wrong.

m.r.s// you got me to write again my love 10:08 pm

[thelifeofhayleymarie]

26/11/2018: I’m a cheesy girlfriend

Ok so today marks a year and a half since L and I got back together. The 26th of every month is kinda like ‘our day’ we like to celebrate. It’s also his last week of his last IET course and with me being the cheesy girlfriend I am, I decided to send him a cute little punny surprise to get him through the week and to make him smile.

L and I have been doing a lot better and making more of a consistent effort with each other, despite all the stress and rough times each of us have been dealing with lately, and I’m glad we’re back on track again. Sometimes I think the distance and stresses of our day to day lives can just get to us sometimes and we forget why we’re doing this. I also just decided I need to stop taking things so personally and just be supportive of him no matter how he’s feeling (as long as he makes an effort with me). Compromise and communication is key.

So as I mentioned before, he’s on his last week of his course right now and he’s been finding it super difficult and the pressure has been getting to him a bit (even though he’s doing amazing and is the best in his class at the moment- overachiever? I think so 🙄😂). So I came up with an idea to send him a package full of different types of chocolates and lollies inside with punny notes attached to each of them. It’s just a funny lighthearted gift to make him giggle and to remind him how much I love him and am proud of everything he’s accomplished.

It’s crazy to think we’ve almost done a whole year of long distance. As hard as it’s been, it’s absolutely flown by, and I’m so thankful for that. Not long now until he comes home for Christmas and I get to spend almost 3 whole weeks with him. I haven’t been this excited in the longest time. It’s been a month since I last saw him, and we’re both going to be so busy leading up to Christmas that we decided to just wait until he comes home to see each other. This will be the longest stretch of time apart since his basic training, which sucks and it’s getting harder everyday, but the countdown is on and there’s only 25 more days until I get him back. He hasn’t been home for almost 6 months now. Its always exciting to go fly over and visit him where hes living currently, but its so much more exciting to know he’s coming home because everything’s just better when he’s here. Our families and friends are here. We fell in love together here. It’s our home. I can’t wait. I miss him very very much.

Here are some pics of the package I sent. Don’t judge me ok, it’s super cheesy but it made him happy and that’s all that matters 😂♥️

[euphoricutie]

Some day…

We will be alone in our own house enjoying ourselves. Whether it be date nights or cuddling on the couch, we will always be together. The walls will have stories embedded in them over time and so will our beautiful minds. But as of right now, desert, mountains, beaches, and an ocean is what keeps us apart. Home is where the heart is and I can’t wait to have you back, my home…

Some day…

[findmeinthedepthsoftheocean]

“I hope you’re looking at the stars and you feel my presence there with you. I have no idea where you are, where you are heading and I can only hope that wherever the sea is dragging you, you are safe and okay. It’s been far too long since I heard your voice. It’s been far too long since that last time I heard you laugh, seen your smile, and looked into the mountains contained in your eyes. I wonder if you think of me too. Last time we spoke you said it was my thought that would keep you at peace. I can only hope I keep bring you that peace. Know that wherever you are, it is you that keeps me going, your thought that gives me strength to wake up in the morning, your love that keeps me sane. I’ll be here, waiting, always for your return…”

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