hc-503

(she/it) defective machine marked for destruction (20s)

[hc-503]

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HUMAN COMPATABLE ANDROID MANUAL

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hello! im hc-503, or just 503 for short. she/it please!! this blog here is nsfw more often than not, i just post stuff i think is neat. like all robots, i'm autistic and transgender! my dms are open!! (im also open to asks)! i dont have notis on here but i promise will always respond eventually!! orginal writing will be tagged with "503 text logs".

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[waiting663-deactivated20211206]

[drarry]

Imagine being the gays at a pride event in 2004 living their lives when someone grabs the microphone and announces to the room that Ronald Reagan was pronounced dead. Can you even imagine the hype, the celebration, the pure elation

[drarry]

This is the Pride Month that It will happen. I feel it in my gay bones

[broken-horn-of-equius]

[crippled-peeper]

“survive out of spite” sounds cool and all but I miss feeling like I was a human being worthy of love

[epicsause-official]

d*mn!

[nonbinaryjudean]

OCD things that you don't hear about:

episodes of paranoia, delusions, and dissociation

cyclical thoughts/spirals

magical thinking

episodes that can be very similar to psychosis or mania

attributing human emotions to inanimate objects

dermatillomania and trichotillomania

false sensations (like bugs crawling on skin)

paying way too much attention to very small things

physical health issues caused by compulsions

symptoms that are "problematic" (doing things that are considered "wasteful", needing reassurance or validation from others...)

extreme, deep, dreadful fear of things that can't truly be explained

disconnect between emotional and cognitive/logical responses or thoughts

contamination fears

problems with addiction and dopamine regulation

other people trying to force exposure therapy onto you without your consent and it making your anxiety way worse

list making

[ellisillus]

anybody else uhhh. anybody else. anyone else uhhhhh

[cicada-swarm]

wild having moral OCD while also believing in the inherent goodness of humanity/the necessity for restorative justice, because it’s like: yeah, people are a product of their circumstances. very rarely is anyone truly incapable of change and there’s no such thing as a person who is fundamentally evil. except for me of course.

[captain-price-returns]

[fre4kcore-b4stard]

“The axe forgets, but the tree remembers” is typically a very true statement. Unless, of course, you have moral ocd, in which case the axe has been haunted for weeks and the tree does not remember or care. In fact, many sources report that the axe, which is actually a plastic butter knife, has never been anywhere near a forest. And also there is no tree.

[cheaphalloweencostume]

“be gay do crime! but sex is yucky and crime is wrong!” ass website

[cheaphalloweencostume]

literally 😭😭😭

[posthumousprincessparts]

cuz it got wiped from the internet: transfems it's so cute to want to be cute. do what you think makes you cute, it's ok if you feel awkward that's cute too. you can be yourself, even if you don't think that's very cute, you will still be the worlds cutest girl. i love you

[dykeanthropedog]

I want to fuck the robot so bad I want to fuck the robot so bad I want to fuck the robot so bad I want to fuck the robot so bad I want to FUCK HER

[beardedmrbean]

[beesmygod]

my tummy hurts from laughing

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[sailatina3]

I wish it were more acceptable to discuss suicide and ponder death without having to worry about someone pulling the therapy speak or getting mad at you for thinking about these things.