Tiny Steps: From Addiction to Recreational Use
Suffer from marijuana addiction.
Some may not even believe its a “real” thing...
“How can you be addicted to wEeD?”
Read on for a small tale from my journey....
I have been a smoker of marijuana daily for the past 7 years.
I’ve come to understand that I use marijuana as a coping mechanism for my anxiety, whether its real or all in my head...
I smoke during all segments of my daily routine.
As soon as I wake up, when im driving, when im using the bathroom, before I eat...the hold this drug has on my daily life is becoming more than overwhelming as I desire to become more present in life...without weed.
Unknowingly to me, in the years I’ve shifted from recreational use...to addiction.
As I approach my 25th Birthday, I am desperately ready to make a change.
My first step in healing is awareness & identity realignment
Becoming aware that in order to progress within my journey, I need to take action; performing tiny steps daily that will help me reduce my marijuana usage.
I am taking 100% accountability for the fact that I am the problem - not the weed.
In order to heal from an “addiction” mindset, my tiny steps will slowly transform my identity from an addict, to a mindful recreational user.
The ultimate goal to one day become a content, sober young adult.
This week (Aug 2- Aug 8) - My focus is using a reward system to help me practice discipline throughout my day. After all my morning affairs are in order I’ll reward myself with a smoke before I start my day. Avoiding smoking in its entirety from 8am-8pm - Once I'm home, settled, fed and relaxed for the evening, I will reward myself with a smoke before bed, reflecting on my discipline and presence throughout my day.
Whenever I have the urge to smoke, I plan to remind myself of my goal of not smoking within the designated hours and that if I don't, the reward of genuine relaxation will be worth my current discipline.
The Goal of this tiny step is to cut back my usage, helping me to be more present in my daily routine when eating, driving and interacting with the world around me. I also plan to alter my identity , become one who is content with being a sole recreational user over one who suffers from a addiction. The difference being that I have control over when I should smoke, not my mind. I plan to designate smoking to leisure periods in my life instead of feeding the thought that it is needed to get through daily life tasks.
I am taking back the power and self control in my life.
Check back tomorrow for an update on my tiny step - I'll be documenting my progress within posts.
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