I'm crippled. Ask me about my Cartoon Anxiety.

🔞 Moon or Rose 🔞 HEADER IMAGE BY peque917 ♿♥️🙏 Luna to Long Time Mutuals.  Queer Cartoony Creature and Monster Loving, Creepy, Cripple Punk. Blog a WIP. 20+ Preferred (18/19s on thin ice). Original Character and Concept are entirely owned by me. Original artist I paid for commission preferred not to be credited. Everything's mine. That's all you need to know.

[aswang-s-tbi2x]

In the event that post gets deleted

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My reply

Again, whatever happened I'm sorry but this is NO EXCUSE TO BE DISRESPECTFUL TO A STRANGER ‣ NOR BEING MEAN ‣ NOR ACCUSING PEOPLE OF THINGS THAT ARE NOT THEIR FAULT ‣ NOR STEREOTYPING A WHOLE GROUP ‣ NOR MAKING UP STUFF THAT DOESN'T EXIST TO FIT YOUR NARRATIVE ‣ NOR BLAMING STRANGERS FOR WHATEVER HAPPENED TO YOU ‣ NOR BLAMING PEOPLE FOR NOT KNOWING YOUR DISABILITIES ‣ NOR BEING ENTITLED TO ANYONE'S TIME OR "RELATIONSHIP" JUST BECAUSE YOU WERE A CUSTOMER ‣ NOR ASSUMING YOU WERE FRIENDS FOR A VERY BRIEF INTERACTION ‣ NOR TRAUMA DUMPING TO PEOPLE YOU JUST MET ‣ NOR MAKING ANYONE CARRY YOUR BURDENS

You don't want Antis to interact with you but with the way you interact YOU ARE NO DIFFERENT FROM AN ANTI

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Since we're playing post tag here and why the fuck did you just screen cap an entire post you just reblogged? Obsessive and creepy. All the misinfo you've just spread is just debunked there and I'm not reading any capslock screeching from a stranger nor repeating myself again. FUCK YOU, STALKER!

AFRAID YOU'LL GET REPORTED?

AGAIN YES THE FUCK IT IS! NOW THAT YOU'RE HERE, MOTHER GOTHEL! CALM YOUR SAGGY TITS, MOTHER GOTHEL! I'M A BETTER "FANDOM DRAMA ARCHIVIST" THAN YOU'LL EVER BE AND "HAZBIN HYPOCRITICAL" IS THE BETTER BLACKLISTABLE ARCHIVE TAGLINE FOR IT AND I'M APPARENTLY ALREADY BLACKLISTED AND PETITPRINCESS1 IS GETTING WHAT SHE WANTED EVEN THOUGH Y'ALL NEVER LIKED HER EITHER AND PARTIALLY BECAUSE I PROVED I WAS RIGHT AND I'M STILL RIGHT ABOUT Y'ALL BEING ABNORMAL AND CREEPY TO ME AND WAKING UP ONE DAY IN SCARY ISOLATION BOX AND TRYING TO APOLOGIZE AND TALKING ABOUT YOUR CAT PASSING AWAY WHILE YOU'RE ATTEMPTING SORTING OUT CONFUSION ISN'T "TRAUMA" DUMPING AND NOW I'M ONCE AGAIN BEING BURDENED BY ABLED-BODIED PEOPLE AT 4:20 IN THE AM SO BLAZE THAT AND WALK YOURSELF ALL THE WAY OFF A CLIFF, WHY DON'T YOU!? :D

ANYWAY, HERE'S A MEME STEREOTYPING ABLED-BODIED MENTALLY ILL PEOPLE WHO MAKE UP NARRATIVES ABOUT ME THAT DON'T EXIST LIKE I'M A MURDERER? AND TRY TO TWIST VERY BLATANT KINK/BDSM DISCOURSE WITH RACIAL DISCOURSE TO FIT THEIR NARRATIVE ABOUT ME EVEN WHEN THEY KNOW IT'S SO WRONG THAT EVEN THEIR FUCKASS ANONS WHO REPORT BACK MY EVERY MOVE TO THE BLOG I'VE BLOCKED THEM ON ,CALLED THEM ON IT, AND HERE'S ME BLAMING THIS FANDOM FOR WHATEVER ABLEIST BULLSHIT HAPPENS TO ME JUST BECAUSE I'M ENTITLED TO COMPLAIN WHEN ABLED MENTALLY ILL PEOPLE TEND TO CLAIM THEY CAN'T CLOCK I'M DISABLED UPON CLOCKING MY URL AND SOCIAL MEDIA EVEN THOUGH IT'S LITERALLY IN MY URL AND ALL OVER MY SOCIAL MEDIA SO THEY'VE LITERALLY JUST CHOSEN TO PRETEND TO BE THAT IGNORANT IN LIEU OF BEING A TRUE ALLY:

Oh but the second I make fun of abled-bodied people, for instance for block evading, or dare to call them "honey" when they apparently forgot I already did that and they neglected to communicate they had a problem with it? Or accidentally call them "he" instead of them "they" because I only spoke to them once in passing and they gave me the creeps and I blocked them to and they blamed me for blocking when they White Knighted and couldn't be fucked to believe my story first?

"ALRIGHTY THEN, DUUUUUUUUDE?????? HOW DARE YOU CALL ME 'HONEY' DUUUUUDDEE??? YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW ME, DUUUUUDE!!!!!!! DID YOU JUST 'ASSUME MY GENDER' AS I'M ASSUMING YOU'RE FINE WITH BEING CALLED A 'DUDE' ALL THE TIME BUT 'HONEY' IS OFF LIMITS???? YOUR ALMOST LIKE AN ANTI, DUUUUUUUUUDDEEE!!!! HOW DARE YOU CALL ME TRANSPHOBIC AND RACIST FOR USING AN ACE VENTURA GIF AND THEN HOW FITTING YOU FIND I'M TRYING TO DISPROVE THE IDENTITY OF TWO TRANS MEN, DUUUUUDE!!!!!! YOU MUST BE MENTALLY RETAR-I MEAN 'MENTALLY DISABLED' OR SOMETHING!!! x3"

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"YOU ARE NO DIFFERENT FROM AN ANTI!!!" There's actually A LOT to unpack in your needlessly colored coded, extremely pretentiously font size shifting statements but as I've just established they're all false. I think I can be at least a little bit different from an Anti, as a treat.

(And as far as just stopping at "FROM", I would've just but your hold scold in the red there. Lost any sense of impact you attempting to have. And there's a reason why in XkitRewritten people have the option to turn the feature off. But I know this fandom has established it doesn't really care about disability, accessibility or discussions about disability or it's representation or place in this fandom like barely at all, beyond what makes them feel good. So what the fuck?)

As a matter of fact I know a lot of RadioDust Shippers probably don't want to hear this and especially not from me now, but I think as far as the Hellaverse goes, the reason WHY we stir up so much shit with others is because from the get go we've been the closest thing to like, the kindest Hellaverse 'Critical'/'Anti' you could ask for here. But that makes us more akin to like your average media 'Critical' person in the whole Anti Twilight Movement way back in that Circa 2007/2008 Era more than anything and I know it's a hard pill to sallow but that's probably at least part of the reason WHY people claim Vivienne Medrano "Ignores" or "Avoids" RadioDust as a whole Because we're the one's who keep bringing up and filling all those problematic gaps and issues of accuracy and diversity and shit within this story she set up that she just doesn't seem to actually want to deal with or come to terms with within in her own work. But it's not my fault the majority of this fandom seems perpetually stuck in the dim part of 2007 and it's not my fault that all that working towards actual empathy and compassion and diversity seems to stop when it's concerning blatant displays of abled-bodied guilt and insecurities everywhere and a Wheelchair User who keeps being called "ANTI" and isolated and seemed for simply not putting up with any abled-bodied nonsense.

YOU however, are the one who keeps constantly referencing back to and blatantly participating Call Out Culture in fandom spaces as if it was ever a good thing. And unironically name dropping DeviantART while you do this to boot. And there are a lot of Pedos and Nazis on DeviantART. We know this because Gabe C. Brown was there. Are we sure you're not projecting because there's something somewhere that some poor woman is gonna one day sue you for doing to her back when she was a teenager? Like, especially with all this AI now? 💀 You nasty, DeviantART in 2026 using "Why Don't You Report Them? 🤪" ass Incel NARC! 💀 Everything I need to know about you, I know! 💀

It seems this whole fandom has a problem with poor communication. That's my whole point. And I still have more in common with both Alastor and Angel Dust than any of you ever will if I'm still "too much" or "too scary" for you or Mutuals or people that I follow think I'd EVER intentionally hurt them. Take these shows messages to heart for once, why don't you?

And uh, while we're talking about this fandom being Mask Off with their ableism @yukoyasuhara what the fuck does any of that mean? 💀 Instant Block! 💀

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Sorry, just dropping in... After this I'm probably gonna add a few more days to my vacation before my response to the whole fletchingbrilliant thing and then my announcement that aside from waiting for my O.C Design to be finished, I'm officially quitting ... Which means Antis still DNI of course but, just to like... Add to my list of glaringly obvious reasons as if I needed another reason to be more angry with y'all gaslighting and deflecting and blaming me for expressing my critique of these shows and this fandom than I already am:

(Not the first or last time he's "cripped up" for characters or exploited disabled people ...)

(Seriously what the fuck was this kid even doing there honestly? He should've been so much older... Fizz and Blitz's age at the beginning at least ...They were looking for Brownie Points and I'm not giving ...)

(Bitch the way I operate in this fandom while trying to create my own Disabled Wheelchair Using O.C, always has been me just talking about these shows and how objectively ableist they are and taking into account as result how objectively ableist Hell's environment would be to an actual wheelchair user and no amount of abled-bodied people proving my point by calling me ableist slurs while saying that I talk about ableism too much was ever gonna change that. My existence in this fandom had always been about discussing my disability while talking about Fandom Ableism in general. Who the fuck are you?)

(So yeah? You know what? I hope kalico-of-doom gets knocked up and gets into a a car accident that chops her leg clean the the fuck off so then she'll have to worry about abled-bodied people making jokes about how she's supposedly able to cosplay "Pregnant Pegged Legged Alastor" for the rest of her career and life then before she dares call me another ableist slur for rightfully complaining about what kind of Fandom Environment I've had to put up with and all patience and grace I've had to exert in dealing with all this objective ableism on top of completely boundary evading infantalizers or flakey, conflict avoidant little shits for the past six years, with no in between, while I get labeled as "Mentally Disabled" and "Psychotic" for discussing how sad it is how the biggest names in this fandom are pedos, nazis, and the two black people in The Sunken Place that would either pay 50K for a softcore with one of the characters, or lose all of their "dignity " insisting a character we know was always going to black ever "could have been white" while defending the white pedo who only "voiced" him for literally 51seconds while going back to defending the neo nazi who keeps drunks and pedos as server mods if ever a "Mentally Disabled" girl should ever say anything bad about the creepy cishet men here who ruined this fandom for if all that blatant ableism didn't already, but so it goes, I guess ...)

But yes, I make one joke poll implying Charlie would be ableist that most of you seem to agree with despite choosing the option that would spite me most, except for this still objectively ableist asshole who liked to use buzzwords they couldn't even spell:

And suddenly, at cursory glace, I'm making "my problems" (read: Disability ) "everyone else's (problem)" just because some of you people refuse to own up to/have fun with the fact these shows and this fandom environment is objectively ableist as shit because it makes y'all feel abled-bodied guilt is what is it is. But okay... Like kalico-of-doom did, ignoring my response to this person and the fact that I already pointed the obvious out, let's try "humoring" that person's "argument" by replacing the two WLW Heroine's people are far too precious about with the two objective Villain Characters and see if that tracks:

"Adam's trusted Lieutenant is literally Disabled Amputee TM so there's no way Adam could ever be ablest and we all know that internalized ableism isn't real so there's no way either of them would die and go hell and call Angel Dust a Retarded Crack Whore to his face and try to gauge out all of Angel's and Vaggie's combined eyes out and then start laughing manically while forcing them to perform blind conversation therapy on each other which Adam and Lute would both joke 'isn't homophobic' and made even funnier because their enemies are blinded now so that it 'doesn't count as homophobic if you two can't see each other but it sure is funny trying to force two invalids to fuck god we hope your retarded crack whore rape baby doesn't need a helmet 'cause no way we're giving it one of ours'. Nope, neither Adam or Lute would ever do that or say that. Sounds like you're just projecting whatever Ably-ist? stereotypes onto them you can think of and I think you should go make a compilation of Dave Capdevielle screaming 'REEEEEEE!' into a microphone for however many hours during the hunicast days and maybe you'll calm the fuck down!"

Like????

Uh yeah no it's not you it's us this fandom can't handle disabled ppl existing.

This place handles disability even worse than it handles race oh my god...

I cant believe you paid artists money & then got ghosted for REDACTED VENTS?

You did nothing wrong & abled bodied autistics need to grow a spine/grow up.

Voting ended onMar 9

Point being Kalico-of-Doom was projecting and didn't know my situation at so she can fuck herself too, but since this is going to serve as a final contemplation of all the ableism I've had to put up with here before I'm gone, I might as well leave this draft here to readable too, since soon you're never gonna be reading anything from me here ever again.

If y'all could handle discourse about it being staticmoth sexually assaulting Alastor, y'all could've handled discourse about it also being just another uncomfortable and objectively ableist trope that never should've fucking been there to begin with but then again y'all can't even handle a physically disabled person existing here to begin with so why have I been constantly wasting my time trying to make lemonade out of lemons if literally nobody appreciates it? Not being allowed access to ableist fandom environments just for telling the truth about my experiences fucking sucks!

But yeah Hellaverse really ain't beating those ableism allegations for both IN and OUTSIDE the house anytime soon, huh? Allegations including only using Disability as an Edgy/Pretty/"Heartwarming" Aesthetic Choice whenever it suits them... LOL! 💀

Also just gonna leave this here:

[aswang-s-tbi2x]

Are you aware you can be sued for threatening a person? Or even cyberlibel?

Why the hell are you blaming them for whatever you are doing just cause you were called out?

SERIOUSLY, THIS IS CYBER LIBEL.

Why are you out here blaming strangers on the net they are pedos and nazis? And if you think they are, why not report them? That's a big accusation JUST BECAUSE YOU. WERE. CALLED. OUT.

.......

You, out here, asking "Who the fuck are you?" when people can also ask "Who the fuck are you?" to you back as well.

There are SO MANY FANS out here in the ENTIRE HELLAVERSE COMMUNITY. There's NO WAY EVERYONE KNOWS WHO. YOU. ARE.

You are aware there are MORE THAN ONE SOCIAL MEDIA SITES, right? Not everyone uses Tumblr 24/7. Not everyone uses Twitter 24/7. Not everyone uses Instagram 24/7. Not everyone uses Bluesky 24/7. Not everyone uses TikTok 24/7. Not everyone uses Deviant Art 24/7

The fandom is SPREAD OUT.

To think EVERY SINGLE PERSON WOULD BE AWARE OF YOUR EXISTENCE is like finding a fucking needle in a haystack and FUCKING ENTITLEMENT

........

Additionally, how very convenient the posts on the left are NOW DELETED, huh?

It's as if you didn't want anyone knowing you literally tagged the artist you WISH HARM UPON to "be your ambassador", yet now, you make them out to be like they're the bad one here?

...........

Why should they know anything about you? They do not KNOW YOU. You are NOT THEIR FRIEND nor are they yours, even if you're a former customer.

And yes, leave.

It would be much more better for your mental health to do so instead of blaming randos for whatever your problem is.

NOT EVERY PERSON IS OUT TO GET YOU.

NOT EVERY PERSON KNOWS WHO YOU ARE.

NOT EVERY PERSON KNOWS WHAT YOUR PROBLEMS IN LIFE ARE.

It's so unfair of you to TRAUMA DUMP AND BLAME THEM for whatever is happening with your life.

Sorry with whatever happened to you but IT'S NOT THEIR FAULT FOR WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU.

I really wish you would get the help you desperately need because doing this isn't good for you nor them.

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

@aswang-s-tbi2x

And then I dragged kalico for labeling me being upset for being ghosted by people who I thought were my friends and whom ghosted me when they know they objectively owe me shit "psychotic behavior" when I was literally just trying to see if she could communicate with Fletch like an adult and see if she could just hook me up with a possible refund for all the shit that I brought from Fletcher if Fletcher didn't want to simply communicate or touch base with me like an adult about any distaste he or his peers had for a satire post he wasn't involved in, in which all the names were redacted, but then all these artists, except for, strangely enough, the one artist this apparently affected so directly and whom I was on the side of, decided to to GHOST and BLOCK me for like little cowards, one of whom still objectively owes me shit, even though one of whom still chose to very violently and falsely claim that they didn't, because no knows shit and everyone really just should've choose to keep their mouths shut, but now I'm apparently being harassed and stalked every time I go online which is how this became an issue in the first place? Yeah, that tracks.

I honestly have no idea in the beginning with those tags if you're talking about Kalico or Shan or everyone. Stop being vague and name some names what the fuck are you talking about? Just who the fuck are you???

And now I guess I'm going to drag YOU now for harassing me first because now apparently the abled-bodied neurospicy stalker/burner accounts are so insecure about living on the other side of the world or something and English apparently not being their first language even though I wasn't going to make fun of them for it because I am not a fucking Hellaverse character nor did I fucking ask. Now who the fuck are you to think it's that important to me? You're not an "archivist". What you're doing is something I KNOW isn't meant to helpful or funny either and isn't a got'cha. You're literally nothing but an annoying stalker and like I said in my apology to the one person any of this would've affected that 'all forced me to out, an apology that no one took seriously for the redacted shitpost that too many of you took too seriously, if someone keeps talking, it's not over, and the shit just keeps going.

EXCEPT I OBJECTIVELY DID NOT DELETE ANYTHING AS I OBJECTIVELY HAVEN'T BEEN ON TWITTER SINCE THIS OR ANY OF THE HARASSMENT I'VE RECEIVED WENT DOWN, BABES:

So yeah, that there's either Elon or Elon doing something funky in your country (since you apparently wanna make such a big deal out of that) since I'd like to make one thing perfectly clear... I never delete anything!

It's also as if you don't know, or care, that the whole twitter thread you falsely claim I deleted occurred before kalico-of doom called me an ableist slur in "psychotic" and blocked me, and the whole "harm wishing" (which is also still not a 'threat') came AFTER her whole ableist slur calling and blocking of me, which is maybe WHY I didn't give a fuck anymore? Seems your whole time zone difference you wanted to make so apparent to me also has your wires a bit crossed, babe.

As for who you apparently think I'm vague posting about when you assume I'm referring to Kalico-of-Doom when I'm talking about "Two Black People in The Sunken Place, Pedos, and Nazis" this is how I can tell people don't read my posts or try to take in damn near anything I say and I know that media literacy and reading comprehension are DEAD when you should be able to tell that I was referring to the character(s) of:

VerbalAse

Petitprincess1

And a little bit of ayylmao.tv and blackgryph0n when I talk about the drunks and pedo nazis who seem to run this fandom specifically...

All of these statements about those people are proven/often spoken about "Open Secrets" about those people that have nothing to do with Kalico-of Doom herself so stop trying to be a heroic wise arse.

I did NOT send death threats to ANYONE. EVER.

Also, Kalico-of-Doon isn't initially the one who I used this on, but If you seriously think that Nifty Meme counts as a "Death Threat" then:

Did you you know that your use of colored text and tiny letters can be considered Ableist to some Users? Like, fucko I've already dealt with and this has nothing to do with "Reverse Ableism" or whatever. I already know exactly what I did to hurt your particular feelings just from your very particular typing patterns. You're probably a homestuck blog on main all the same.

Again, and your pointing out the obvious still won't stop me from asking, however many times you make me, who the fuck are YOU? A chronically online weirdo who uses burner blogs to stalk and fear monger people. All of which can be proven by the fact you're still using DeviantART in 2026, and bring it of like it's a relevant talking point, apparently.

Simply wishing harm on someone who was ableist to me first doesn't account me for CYBER LIBEL otherwise every other Abled Spicy Brain whom wished both Bezos and Medrano in a Saw Trap would be arrested by now. But you know, fuck the law anyway otherwise y'all wouldn't exactly be boot licking only for your favorite Fan Merchants or having your Fun Little Fan Merch Drama TM to stalk and harass a Wheelchair User out of your shitty fandom over while acting like you're doing anything productive right now, would you? :D

You know I know my satire is still such and I'm still funnier than you and I'd still be able to go into retirement and get myself as far away from you freaks all the faster if you didn't keep giving me the material go through the size of Mount Everest. AND THEN SOME. It's true, I don't know who you are but with all this you simply MUST be related to Ornitha. Yeeesh. And people claim MY URL is "too difficult".

Oh and of course with you it's "You'll have to be On Tumblr" to see This Particular Blog" meaning your particular "accusations" against me are nothing but a fear mongering nothing burger that you want no one to see but let me tell you something...

VerbalAse ain't gonna sue me for "Cyber Liable" cause he broke and homeless from that 50K sorftcore hentai that ruined Charlie's first character design forever.

Petitprincess1 couldn't sue her way out of a wet paper bag and she's at least smart enough to any type of Legal Action could never enter into this Forsaken TurboVirgin Cyber Space even when she was "threatened" with it the first time (literally anyone ask either her or Ornitha, I don't even care anymore).

I know ayylmao.tv ain't about to sue me either cause that Stinky Shamerock Shake Foot Lettuce got no fucking spine about anything and completely ignored me when I inquired to him about why the fuck his " other Favorite YouTubers" were apparently PewDiePie and Logan Paul and why the fuck 'Ayy' thought Medrano should "be more like them" back when 'Ayy' still used underage Octavia for his "mascot", not even counting all the drunken pedos that guy allegedly keeps in his Discord Server. Not to mention his first ever "controversy" was apparently with two minors and no one knows his age still, ether ...

BlackGryph0n? My Monstersona's Prettier and with a much tougher less fragile ego I could definitely take that shit stain to the cleaners...

Now someone tell ME how to sue chaifootsteps for and his friends for Cyber Libel, LOL.

But just FYI, when YOU'RE the one causally referencing back to DeviantART of all things as a reliable platform in 2026, I think it's safe to say that YOU'RE the only goddamn fucking one who's desperately in need of some real help here but honestly I think we both know how much you're actually beyond any point of saving and a lost cause by now so I'd thank you to leave me alone from now on and cut it with all that smug unsolicited and unearned condescension. 💀 You AI Slop Pregnancy Porn Addicted Pig. 💀

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Sorry, just dropping in... After this I'm probably gonna add a few more days to my vacation before my response to the whole fletchingbrilliant thing and then my announcement that aside from waiting for my O.C Design to be finished, I'm officially quitting ... Which means Antis still DNI of course but, just to like... Add to my list of glaringly obvious reasons as if I needed another reason to be more angry with y'all gaslighting and deflecting and blaming me for expressing my critique of these shows and this fandom than I already am:

(Not the first or last time he's "cripped up" for characters or exploited disabled people ...)

(Seriously what the fuck was this kid even doing there honestly? He should've been so much older... Fizz and Blitz's age at the beginning at least ...They were looking for Brownie Points and I'm not giving ...)

(Bitch the way I operate in this fandom while trying to create my own Disabled Wheelchair Using O.C, always has been me just talking about these shows and how objectively ableist they are and taking into account as result how objectively ableist Hell's environment would be to an actual wheelchair user and no amount of abled-bodied people proving my point by calling me ableist slurs while saying that I talk about ableism too much was ever gonna change that. My existence in this fandom had always been about discussing my disability while talking about Fandom Ableism in general. Who the fuck are you?)

(So yeah? You know what? I hope kalico-of-doom gets knocked up and gets into a a car accident that chops her leg clean the the fuck off so then she'll have to worry about abled-bodied people making jokes about how she's supposedly able to cosplay "Pregnant Pegged Legged Alastor" for the rest of her career and life then before she dares call me another ableist slur for rightfully complaining about what kind of Fandom Environment I've had to put up with and all patience and grace I've had to exert in dealing with all this objective ableism on top of completely boundary evading infantalizers or flakey, conflict avoidant little shits for the past six years, with no in between, while I get labeled as "Mentally Disabled" and "Psychotic" for discussing how sad it is how the biggest names in this fandom are pedos, nazis, and the two black people in The Sunken Place that would either pay 50K for a softcore with one of the characters, or lose all of their "dignity " insisting a character we know was always going to black ever "could have been white" while defending the white pedo who only "voiced" him for literally 51seconds while going back to defending the neo nazi who keeps drunks and pedos as server mods if ever a "Mentally Disabled" girl should ever say anything bad about the creepy cishet men here who ruined this fandom for if all that blatant ableism didn't already, but so it goes, I guess ...)

But yes, I make one joke poll implying Charlie would be ableist that most of you seem to agree with despite choosing the option that would spite me most, except for this still objectively ableist asshole who liked to use buzzwords they couldn't even spell:

And suddenly, at cursory glace, I'm making "my problems" (read: Disability ) "everyone else's (problem)" just because some of you people refuse to own up to/have fun with the fact these shows and this fandom environment is objectively ableist as shit because it makes y'all feel abled-bodied guilt is what is it is. But okay... Like kalico-of-doom did, ignoring my response to this person and the fact that I already pointed the obvious out, let's try "humoring" that person's "argument" by replacing the two WLW Heroine's people are far too precious about with the two objective Villain Characters and see if that tracks:

"Adam's trusted Lieutenant is literally Disabled Amputee TM so there's no way Adam could ever be ablest and we all know that internalized ableism isn't real so there's no way either of them would die and go hell and call Angel Dust a Retarded Crack Whore to his face and try to gauge out all of Angel's and Vaggie's combined eyes out and then start laughing manically while forcing them to perform blind conversation therapy on each other which Adam and Lute would both joke 'isn't homophobic' and made even funnier because their enemies are blinded now so that it 'doesn't count as homophobic if you two can't see each other but it sure is funny trying to force two invalids to fuck god we hope your retarded crack whore rape baby doesn't need a helmet 'cause no way we're giving it one of ours'. Nope, neither Adam or Lute would ever do that or say that. Sounds like you're just projecting whatever Ably-ist? stereotypes onto them you can think of and I think you should go make a compilation of Dave Capdevielle screaming 'REEEEEEE!' into a microphone for however many hours during the hunicast days and maybe you'll calm the fuck down!"

Like????

Uh yeah no it's not you it's us this fandom can't handle disabled ppl existing.

This place handles disability even worse than it handles race oh my god...

I cant believe you paid artists money & then got ghosted for REDACTED VENTS?

You did nothing wrong & abled bodied autistics need to grow a spine/grow up.

Voting ended onMar 9

Point being Kalico-of-Doom was projecting and didn't know my situation at so she can fuck herself too, but since this is going to serve as a final contemplation of all the ableism I've had to put up with here before I'm gone, I might as well leave this draft here to readable too, since soon you're never gonna be reading anything from me here ever again.

If y'all could handle discourse about it being staticmoth sexually assaulting Alastor, y'all could've handled discourse about it also being just another uncomfortable and objectively ableist trope that never should've fucking been there to begin with but then again y'all can't even handle a physically disabled person existing here to begin with so why have I been constantly wasting my time trying to make lemonade out of lemons if literally nobody appreciates it? Not being allowed access to ableist fandom environments just for telling the truth about my experiences fucking sucks!

But yeah Hellaverse really ain't beating those ableism allegations for both IN and OUTSIDE the house anytime soon, huh? Allegations including only using Disability as an Edgy/Pretty/"Heartwarming" Aesthetic Choice whenever it suits them... LOL! 💀

Also just gonna leave this here:

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

My attempted apology to @/vadoodlevee (That she obviously didn't accept and that's okay. In these next coming days I'll also fully address the @/fletchingbrilliant situation and provide LITERAL PURCHASE RECEIPTS for those violently claiming "NOBODY OWES YOU SHIT!" and for all of the eighteen years olds claiming I'm a straight up liar. @/kalico-of-doom will owe me an apology then too and, for the record, this is RICH:

I'm not "making my problems everyone else's" if I was trying to provide everyone a queer girlypop alternative to ayylmao.tv while talking openly about what it's like to be in this fandom from a Wheelchair Users perspective and oops I clearly failed. And a Wheelchair User being ghosted, gaslit and shunned is still experiencing ableism. Bite Me.💀

I'm not "being wildly inappropriate to somebody on tumblr" if all those "somebodies" names were explicitly redacted and erased from the narrative in an effort to protect people's identities while making my own post that was clearly meant to be satire and two of these offending "somebodies" choose to keep going on their own so it wasn't really "over" to them and one of them was even somebody I apparently already had blocked on my own block list while I chose to make fun of them on my riff post on my blog and I chose to keep everyone involved 100% Anonymous while talking about my own fandom experiences and riffing and tying it all back to my own point, while keeping everyone pretty much the fuck out of it with black bars, which is more than ayylmao.tv would ever do for any of you and you guys wouldn't last 5minuntes on commentary YouTube with that attitude so bite me again. If those two chuckle fucks kept going on Vee's post, it was fair game for anyone to riff off of that madness while making their own post with their perspective about an issue that was in no way "resolved yet", at least not to the one's causing it. I've kept telling y'all I was a commentary and satire blog, if I cannot provide anything else. This is how riffing, redacting, and satire work. I'm sorry, I don't know what else to tell you.

(Excuse the blurriness of the screen shot I just wanted to showcase the Slur, LOL.)

And FYI, being essentially told "STOP TALKING ABOUT ABLEISM, YOU PSYCHOTIC! 'USING YOUR DISABILITY AS AN EXCUSE!'" is in no way constructive criticism of me or what I did. It just reinforces my every right to be complaining about all the blatant ableism within a fandom I've now been forced out of after giving everything I thought I could because it turned out be an abled artists circle jerk! And to think I Shan the same "Pay Me For Wasting My Time Schick!" It's Non/Disney Crossover Fandom Drama all over again. I'm too old for this! Abled-Bodied Theatre Adults stop putting all of your brain power and compassion you're supposed to have for real people towards crafting your little Disney Adult Nicotine Patches while making them as inaccessible to your disabled peers as possible while treating those disabled as inhumanly as possible and grow the fuck up! For once, it's not all about you!

3. A. "We're artists Not Amazon" is a statement both insulting to my patience and intelligence during all my years as a Hellaverse Fan since The Pilots.💀 B. It's technically also Schrodinger's lie considering some of y'all do work under Amazon, at least sometimes, if the rest of us want any Official Merch that's GOOD. Which is why y'all need to own your truth and stop insulting the patience and intelligence of your main costumer base and stop acting like you're better than anyone when we're all watching the same shows on the same platform only YOU'RE STILL the only one's being commissioned to make any kind of decent Official Merch Product for it whenever the time comes. Partially licensed under Amazon. Kalico had absolutely no right to treat me like this when that wasn't what I was getting at all and she could be commissioned as an Artist to help design Official Hellaverse Merch at literally any given moment and she knows it. Not the contracted Artists no, but Hellaverse itself quite literally IS Amazon. Girl shouldn't pretend to act in any way superior and she knows it. I also like how the only tweet that got deleted or was not visible to me was the one where she just violently screamed at me how apparently "nobody owes me" when I quite literally DO have those Receipts LOL! And speaking of ... 💀 C. "Keep your Parasoicial Relationship to yourself!"

Anyway, since Vee blocked me and I'm okay with that...I was going to finish up by asking her if there was any way I could delete the original offending post for her, we could all arrange to have a talk forgive each other, so that I could delete the followup I made, ending with my concerns about @/fletchingbrilliant possibly scamming me now, and so that we could clear up any and all possible misunderstandings between all of us but since she made it clear by her actions she doesn't want any of that to happen ... I'm just gonna leave y'all with this:

Tumblr isn't technically an "Algorithm" though and where do empty platitudes like this leave those who technically *CAN'T* "Take A Step Back" even when they understand your sentiment and have probably already been personally effected by "How Hard It Is To Enjoy Anything" more than most and who would rather not involve their family in anything they enjoy (*IF* they can help it, like if they have reasonable fear and concern they're about to be objectively scammed and then their family needs to step in and reassure them they're not crazy for having an understandable reaction to being ICED OUT by everyone 'cause now they're worried about not being given their due for instance) and all their friends are understandably online but they're either *BUSY* and haven't spoken to them in *LITERAL YEARS*, or the person is left constantly asking themselves "WHERE THE FUCK IS EVERYBODY?" like a protagonist in a Gregg Araki Movie until the people they thought were their friends finally ghost them and they get screamed at and have it inferred t them that they're basically I guess a Mindless Vapid Fast Fashion Consumer???? And get accused of "Psychotic Behavior"and "Using Disability As An Excuse" and laughed at and told "NO ONE OWES YOU SHIT!" by some rather unprofessionally behaving Artist who mark my words is *definitely going to be commissioned to design something under Amazon one day so she shouldn't be talking to you like that* but the person *knows* they're differently owed shit even though they're being violently gaslit and shut out by everyone when they're just trying to reach out for some clarification and help here? What about those people? What about them? 💀

We're so sorry Hon. You're right. Fandom is an Abled Artists Game. We're sorry.

It can be extremely difficult for Wheelchair Users to carve out their own niche

It's even more difficult existing as a Wheelchair User in Hellaverse Fandom.

We can't know how you feel but we hope you get your money and your closer.

You're owed your money and an explanation. Don't let anyone tell you different.

Ppl getting mad at you for riffing on something that happened on Ur Dash smh...

How this fandom has treated you hasn't been right since day one. We mean it.

We're so angry for you. You were existing in this fandom the only way you knew.

"People seem to lose their manners when they talk to you..." And they shouldn't.

We 100% understand the voting system we're just so upset for you using it ... :(

Your apologies are so much better constructed than any one Viv Medrano ever made

We liked reading your satire series and we're going to miss you ppl overreacted.

Voting ended onMar 9

Anyway I'm just gonna say it people getting mad at ME for riffing on two idiots under an artists post while not even showcasing her artwork, which I can only guess people are mad because "OH AN ARTIST HOW CAN YOU THIS 'WILDLY INAPPROPRIATE' TO AN ARTIST????" is seriously giving that one Korean artist lady absolutely losing her shit because she thought she owned the design and copyright to the viral Cursed Cat Alastor meme. Like, my posts may not have been, viral but commentating on stupid bullshit and people's actual entitlement you see on a timeline is as fair use and fair game on the internet as a meme is, like? I don't know why y'all chose to literally overreact to other people's almost entirely redacted shitposts and blow them so wildly out of proportion to the point of effectively outing everybody anyway which is only due to one of you possibly committing a crime now over an actively redacted shitpost made by one of your (apparently former) friends and costumers that effectively had nothing to do with you but y'all literally need to grow up and I WILL get every bit of compensation @/fletchingbrilliant specifically owes me now, LOL! 💀

But now never let it be said that I never tried to apologize, at least! 💀

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Alright ...I see that this is going to be A Thing and that I am at an impasse with some people (though I am noticing a pattern, and I will not be told I'm "too much" or blamed here for speaking my mind in a strictly satirical way ... Especially not by people who apparently choose to immediately retract on their "critique" of me in a way that means I don't even get to see it, take it in, and consider it the way they originally intended me to, which already means that all this will just have to cross posted to twitter, where we can hopefully engage properly.... Which is just to say, right now, like ... All my love, all tea and no shade 🫶☕💖❌🪭) But here here we go ...

For context... I get one (1) note that shows up to me. I assume it's on this post I made the other day... I click to check what it is.... Comes up blank, right? Whatever whatever ...But then, I get the inkling to check my email ... And I see the person who left me my one (1) other note one my post was none other than:

So naturally, I find my post and go down to the notes to try and hit reply to try and engage with Miss @shanimeartist properly...As I assume she intended me to... And as I'm sure you all can see, I cannot reply to her and explain how I respectfully have to disagree with her, because as you can see ... She's not there:

I go, "Hmmm, that's odd, because the only way she could've left me this quite frankly, non-critique on a censored, satirical post is because I'm following her, so why can't I engage civilly and seriously with what she said now, even when I'm about to respectfully tell her she's in the wrong, which I am fully within in my rights to do so, on my post, that she decided to come onto, and just leave me with that, but now I cannot engage with her, or anything that she's decided to come say on my post, with the original intention of having me seeing, of course... But now, for whatever reason, I simply cannot..."

I though "Nah, she could've have pulled that weak sauce move on me without thinking I wouldn't find her reply to me, that she went out of her way to put on my post, think that I would sit stay silent about it, like a good little Invalid, and then be quietly humbled and silently delete this particular satire entry without saying anything about it because this time it's the big name artist proclaiming I'm 'too much' right?"

I try to go her tumblr in an attempt in good faith to message her in good faith and explain that I could not see her initial reply and to go through my email to even know it initially insisted because obviously it was TUMBLR that was fucking up in the first place because I KNOW that A FAN MERCHANT wouldn't be treating one of her potential customers this freaking vaguely, disrespectfully, and passive aggressively, when I thought we were good and and I outright just told her a couple days ago that I would be happily supporting one of her zines:

Again. I try to go her tumblr to tell her that I unfortunately, in this instance, cannot enrage with her in the way she would've wanted. Hence leaving a reply on my post in the first place, because I thought that she was leaving her "critique" on my post as a friend. And of course that we would be engaging in a civil conversation as such.

But when I go to check her profile while logged in I get met with the "There's Nothing Here" static and redirected to the "Trending" page.

And oh it works when I'm logged out though, so apparently not?

And as you can probably tell I'm not able properly to "@" her anymore either, and yes I saddened by the implications of this, and that she would do that, as I originally that she was trying to talk to me, both in good faith and as a friend (much like I did when trying to regard petitprincess1 both in good faith and as friend all those years ago during that when calling out antis and fandom ableism and we all know how that turned out ... And I'm sorry but I swear now y'all keep trying to trigger my PTSD from that whole ordeal and exchange with petitprincess1 and ornitha for absolutely no reason other than I'm talking about all bigotry and ableism I've expericed within THE, BAR NONE, most and ableist fandom I've ever experienced trying to co-exist in as a wheelchair user and y'all trying to imply to me as quietly as possible that I should just shut about it? Uh, no? You wanna talk about "too much" talk to Vivienne Medrano about all her self flagellating ugly, official much and her allowance of Brandon Rogers to both say and allude to the R-Slur for "comedy", or leave my censored comedy alone please. Better yet if you want to talk about someone being "too much", let's talk about infamous fanti chaifootsteps trying to frame me, a 24/7 wheelchair using Gimp for cyber murder over a ship I don't even ship instead of insinuating I'm "too much" for talking about it? But it seems a little too late for that. But since I'm not a mind reader, I have no other way of addressing what you have now just chosen to speak at me, instead of with me about...) so just forgive me I'm admittedly feeling a little hurt by this and my initial frustration and saltiness about this admittedly coming through in my response to your reply to my post, that you're sort of now attempting to gaslight me you didn't leave instead of leaving it there with your full fluffy chest girl, but it's like...

I shouldn't have even had to check if your reply to me only existed now through email, because quite frankly, you shouldn't have left me, and I'll be blunt about it, your passive aggressive reply that I can't engage with because you've allegedly blocked me in the first place. I know you gotta know that's just bad fandom etiquette on your part. The fact that you apparently didn't want me to find this on my post after you put it there in the first place, though? That's why I'd call this almost gaslighting:

I just want you to know that I have (or had? It's sad that I won't know what to think of you anymore, when this had absolutely nothing to do with you and the fact that I can only assume you're scared of even engaging with me on anything now when I thought we good) the utmost respect for you both as an Artist and a potential friend when I tell you this Shan ... But there was absolutely no need for you to responded like this at all. And then attempt to delete it before I could even see it and attempt to have any sort of respectful public engagement with you back. And then allegedly block me. Over an entirely satirical and censored joke post. That had absolutely nothing to do with you. That YOU just now decided to insert yourself in a "drama", that I've entirely done nothing wrong in making fun of here, hence the censors, and then attempt to entirely retract your, I'm sorry for what I'm about to say, but it's true, frankly unneeded opinion instead of fully sticking by your opinion by doing me the common courtesy of leaving me unblocked and leaving it for me to read within a place that was more accessible instead of leaving me to find out through email that you would even do something like this. After I thought we could be friends and I said I would be supporting your next zine. I find this to be quite frankly disrespectful, immature behavior and treatment towards a potential friend and client/costumer who was just trying to blow off some fucking steam and making lite of a situation as best they could while also doing their best to keep every involved censored so no one NEEDED to be inserting themselves into something they didn't NEED to assert their opinions on to begin with. Especially if in the end they weren't able to assert their frankly unneeded opinion properly, if and when they choose to do that on someone else's post. I also find this be quite frankly immature, disrespectful and unprofessional behavior coming from a Fan Merchant to begin with. To insert your "opinion" of someone you know is a potential client and then try to ghost before they try to indulge in a respectful dialogue over something that originally had nothing to do with you and that you, as fan merchant, must know you really shouldn't have made yourself a part of if you weren't gonna respect your potential client enough to even engage them all the way through now because you're apparently too afraid of being told you're in the wrong here? Which, I'm sorry, but in this case you are. This is the most objectionably ableist, emotionally taxxing fandom I've ever been a part of and and I'm not sorry, but I'm tired of people either not listening to me, not wanting to engage with whatever I've had to say here at any given moment directly, and quite frankly, some of if not all of the comedy of the Hellaverse is way worse and yet entitled, abled-bodied austiscs still love to insert themselves and go out there ways to make me feel like I just don't belong here at every. freaking. turn while I go out of my to give them all the positive engagement that I can while they scold me for being the "Cringe" Invalid and yet erasing any unsolicited "engagement" they choose to give ... And it's always either that technically this with me, or block evading me so they can give more. Now I KNOW you wouldn't Block Evade girl... But please don't excuse ME of block evading once I try to actively @ you, only taking this to Twitter on a platform you still let me follow you on, on a platform where I know you'll be able to see it, so I can properly engage with this response to this engagement you just tried erase and are now apparently trying to pretend like it didn't even happen. Which I still believe to be lite gaslighting and strictly unprofessionalism in your case but you know what? At least I'm about to get a Pinned Post out of this in order to fully explain my intention with the satire people still aren't getting because like GIRL? ALL I AM DOING HERE IS MAKING FULLY CENSORED SATIRE THAT I GO OUT OF MY WAY TO CENSOR AS TO NOT BE HURTING HELL FORBID A GIMP GIRL DO ANYTHING!

And yes, you don't know the ordeals I've through so yes I'm a little peeved with people right now including you for doing now and so what? And so what? So hat? and what of it? What part of my post was "a little bit much for you" , and what of it? Because frankly you're doing a bit much for me right now because on top of sort of pulling a petitprincess1 and quite frankly contributing nothing but being a little bit of a creeper you've just sort of given me the jumpscare of my life albeit without knowing it SINCE your behavior is exhibiting a rather unprofessional artist Vs. small creator power dynamic here that I'm talking about. Wanna see? Wanna? I thought maybe you did this:

And uh, yeah like so I kinda was just about to pack it all up, made sure I took the screen shots and take this frankly one sided "conversation" that you made sure I couldn't engage back with, while scolding to twitter and I was about to be like "what the fuck is going on" because I got (understandably, with our Power/Influence imbalance) maybe a little freaking paranoid and delulu that either you or petitprincess1 might've finally gotten this blog nuked considering y'all's influences and then I may have gotten my entire blog nuked and lost all my friends I've made and business I do here. Over some censored freaking satire posts. So thanks for that, thanks for scaring me like like and lowering all the spoons I've and could've engage with you more Civilly, Honey. Now the next time you "critique" me but then decide to back out like some trying to ensure coward that I cannot respond, please be sure to do when tumblr isn't going through it's billionth wannabe twitter puberty. Thanks. And I'll ask again, once more, before my next point: What about my posts is a "little bit much" for you? Me pointing out that ayylmao.tv follows Donald Trump on Twitter and and hangs with Nazis? Because he does. Me speaking on all the harassment, ableism, gaslighting, and block evading I've experienced while being here? Because guess what, that's also all true and now you're being a contributor to it. I can't know what y'all otherwise consider "a bit much" if you don't tell me and look ... I've afraid I've already tried to make myself as small and unoffensive as possible by making it so that only people who I follow and who follow me back can interact, censoring all of my satire I do post here and and even freaking turning off my ask box, where I KNOW I'd most likely receive, stalkers, block evading harassment and death threats if I ever turned it on. And you were one of those people I was following, at one point, before you've apparently just tried to take it back and as though it never happened and as if I never existed, my case and point here:

Your opinion an of Invalid blowing off steam in Fandom is Automatically Invalided the Second you don't have the guns to stand by it anyway and I certainly didn't need to hear any of this from you nor did I expect you to behave in such a frankly cowardly manner. Fan Merchant or not. This has been such a heart breaking, draining experience for me that you certainly didn't need to put me through but moving onto my third and final point for you. 💔 🥀

3 You certainly didn't have to be so condescending in scolding me like this and trying to ghost me as if I don't KNOW who you or your friends are either girl. I KNOW who your friend is because I'm the one who censored her name. I KNOW who most of your because we all go in the same circles and see the same things and most of them are my friends too. Two of which are my ADOPTIVE FANDOM PARENTS. One of which that YOU WORK WITH, ON A ZINE. THAT I GUESS I WILL STILL SUPPORTING IF ONLY TO SUPPORT HIM BUT NOW I'M CONFLICTED TO DO SO BECAUSE OF YOUR BLATANT DISPLAY OF UN-PROFESSIONISM RIGHT NOW. YOU SEE HOW THAT WORKS? YOU DIDN'T NEED TO COMMENT AND NOW I'M TORN EVEN DOING THIS.

BUT STILL I'M NOT GONNA KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT BECAUSE YOU HAVE ME ALL OUT OF SPOONS BECAUSE YOUR PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE, ABLEIST GHOSTING DIDN"T NEED TO HAPPEN BECAUSE MY "HAZBIN HYPOCRITICAL" DRAMA TAG IS RIGHT THERE FOR ALL MY HYPERBOLIC, SATIRICAL DRAMA COMMENTARY AND IT'S RIGHT THERE FOR Y'ALL TO BLACKLIST IF A "BIT MUCH", BUT I'M NOT ABOUT TO BE TO TAKE THIS ASSAULT AND COWARDICE FROM A GHOSTER.

I DID NOTHING WRONG HERE BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? THAT'S IT. YOU AND PETITPRINCESS1 ARE GETTING THE "PIN OF SHAME" FOR THIS SHANIEMEARTIST, FOR PRACTICALLY PULLING THE SAME BEHAVIOR AND THEN MAYBE NOW EVERYONE WILL UNDERSTAND THAT EVERYTHING I DO HERE UNDER "HAZBIN HYPOCRITICAL" IS SATIRE. GOOD.

JUST REMEMBER, SINCE IT SEEMS YOU'RE ALL ANGRY AT ME FOR BEING A WHEELCHAIR USER, THAT I HAVE CEREBRAL PALSY AND TYPE EVERYTHING WITH ONE HAND SINCE ONE OF MY GIMP HANDS SHOULD TECHNICALLY IN A SPLIT AND EVERY TIME AN ABLED-BODIED AUTISTIC DECIDES TO WASTE MY TIME WITH PASSIVE AGGRESSION THEY THEN TRY TO HIDE FROM ME. IT LITERALLY WASTES MY TIME AS IT TAKES AN ENTIRE DAY JUST TO LET ME GET OUT HOW RIGHTFULLY FREAKING ANGRY I AM WITH YOU AND HOW ABLEIST YOU'RE BEING. WHICH YOU ARE. AND MUCH LIKE PETIT/LEEANNE KEEPING ME UP TIL 4:00AM IN ORDER TO RESPOND AS NICELY AS I COULD TO HER ABLEIST ASS, SHAN'S ABLEIST GOT 2:30AM ON ME RIGHT NOW AND I WANT YOU KNOW, SHAN, THAT YOU JUST RUINED MY ENTIRE DAY WITH THIS SO IF THE REST OF YOU DON'T WANT TO BE ON THE SAME LEVEL AS PETITPRINCESS1 IN MY EYES. DON'T DO THIS.

AND THIS WAS AFTER I BLOCKED HER AND SHE EXPECTED ME NOT TO COMPLAIN ABOUT HER BEING AN ABSOLUTE CREEP TO ME. SO YEAH. LOOK AT SHAN GETTING ON ALMOST THE EXACT SAME LEVEL TO ME NOW. IF Y'ALL THINK I'M TOO MUCH OR A LITTLE BIT TOO MUCH THEN STOP GIVING ME A BIT TOO MUCH TOO ME JUSTIFIABLE TICKED ABOUT WHEN I'M LITERALLY BEGGING TO BE LEFT ALONE.

And you know Shan, I originally had you blocked first just for drawing radiodust a little infantile in my personal opinion, but eased up and unblocked once I saw how much my Parentz liked you. I guess you proving yourself to be so passive aggressive and infantile right now is just my karma for making the right call. Will be willing to engage in an actual conversation on twitter soon. Despite the hurt and disillusion. And, as with Leeanne once, I will make the disclaimer here and now that I'm not trying to hurt ya and I loved ya. But I am doing nothing wrong with my only contribution to this Adult, 18+ "Edgy" fanspace and I belong here and won't be apologizing for a thing.

Edit: FletchingBrilliant and ZaeBaeCee unfollowd me too? Okay guys I don't know what's going on but someone either owes me a of lot of commissions or a or a lot of refunds and apologies because this is ableist as hell now. I'm pissed. This is Shady. This is shit. I did NOTHING wrong.💀

[tortured-poets11]

I love you DVDs, I love you VHS Tapes, I love you Cassettes, I love you Records, I love you CDs, I love you Books, I love you Journals

[screamingshark]

[screamingshark]

KEYCHAIN INTEREST CHECK! These will be 4in double sided keychains with a red heart hook clasp If there's enough interest I'll open up pre-orders this coming weekend!

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Kay ... So as your local Token Fandom Mean Gimp who's just petty enough not to give a fuck about hurting *ANY* Abled-Bodied "Neurospicy"'s who put the "dumb" in Fandom's Feefees and who's gotten in trouble for this before... Me & my 400 pound electric power wheelchair that some of y'all ables with the worst taste in ships ever (trust me on this) have openly admitted to wanting to tip over like a cow (as if you wouldn't die trying) feel the need to weigh in on a little Fandom 'Drama' that unfolded on my dashboard recently between an Actual Artist and some Entitled Bloggers (in *MY* Hellaverse Fandom!? It's more likely than ya' think!) who quite frankly don't know when and how to keep their fucking hands off a keyboard. And since I'm primarily the kind of artist who deals in words rather than ink and I'm afraid my Wit is the only thing I can offer without assistance, I thought: "Well what kind of Much Needed Girlypop Satire/Parody Fandom Commentary News Account Would I *BE* if I *didn't* commentate on this one and provide some sharp comedic levity and clarity fucking immediately?" And as I've clarified before, I've got no problem being That Mean Bitch here in lieu of people who admittedly have WAAAAAY more patience for bullshit and would understandably want to be The Bigger Person... And maybe this will help some of y'all finally come to terms with this whole Satire/Parody Account Shtick that I've kept going for years and y'all seemed to eat up when it was about Antis but then like any good Late Night Comedian, y'all try to cancel My Show and take me off the air when I turn to satirizing *YOUR* bad Etiquette. Funny how our Evil Fandumb Overlord Ayylmao.tv got caught following Donald J. Trump on Twitter and in YouTube comment sections praising Kanye with one of his editors, huh? Art imitates life imitates art. Anyway about these Tumblrina dipshits thinking they can Jump Scare actual Comedians and Artists with their bullshit here we go. Hold my hand, I'm going to take you on a little Social Experiment with me and I'm going to show my work and cite my sources:

These are Petitprincess1's Tumblrina Badges. We all know her Fandom Reputation (Block Evader, tacky eye sore neon purple color scheme, let's minors follow her, moving gif headers with or without company watermarks still attached, has to add an obnoxious moving gif to absolutely everything in general to prove she's "Sassy" because she's a Try Hard, constantly making smear campaigns against people and trying to run them out of the fandom space with varying degrees of success, may or may not be lying about her age to be here just from the way that she acts, at this point we just don't know, but she "steals" and traces off AI "art" anyway when she does attempt the occasional off brand mediocre "drawing" that just looks a 15y/o did it when she's effectively contributing to stealing and ultimately disrespecting someone else's artwork by already tracing off of bits and pieces of someone else's stolen artwork in the form of a "yoinked" AI template that was already generated of bits and pieces of someone else's stolen artwork that she traces from and tries to pass off as her own OCs, which for an allegedly 28y/o she has to know is very tacky and BAD FORM, so I don't consider her to be much of an "artist" either, on top of barely supporting Fan Merchants to boot, if any at all, for that matter) I don't feel bad about outing her here because she's only but one example that I'm using to both set up and prove my initial case and point, but if you want any of my initial claims and research I've put into documenting HER Vivziepaparazzi/Big Name Fan Bullshit to be sourced and cited directly, you can go ahead and just to your own research by simply searching up her tag on my blog. Same with ayylmao.tv. Leeanne's url is only censored in this instance for the sake of being consistent with the rest of the Examples in this post. But for those counting, we can see that Leeanne clocks in at exactly four (4) Tumblrina Badges. Speaking of which:

This Ableist Shithead Clown, clocking in at a whopping Six (6) Tumblrina Badge. Who attempted to ruin my joke post about what kind of an ableist Charlie would be to a wheelchair user (thank you for actually voting by the way I'm not surprised by how many of you chose to be a LIAR probably just to spite me but I'm also surprised by how many of you actively chose the "Baby Talk" and "Cure" options so y'all still can't deny that she's objectably ableist even though you hate me and I hate y'all too so there's that! <3 And oh my god tho I just realized this little bitch ass who did all that ableist shit to me on my Joke Post and so confidently left such a grave spelling mistake to boot just fucking deactivated their account oh my fucking God Happy Valentines Day to ME oh my god oh my god oh my god!!! <3) by trying to gaslight me and everyone else they burdened into reading their useless edition, into ignoring the fact that internalized ableism exists and all of Adam's soldiers who sustained debilitating injuries would suffer from it including, Vaggie. Don't even get me started on the absolutely useless, unwashed, self loathing, disgusting edition of a complete FEMCEL character that is Lute. 💀 Do not attempt to lecture an actual Wheelchair User about what is and isn't ableist and who would and wouldn't be ableist in a fandom where Brandon Rogers is on the pay roll. 💀 Especially when you have audacity to spell your misapplied Buzzwords wrong.💀 Don't pretend like the Hellaverse doesn't completely fumble the bag on disability representation just as much if not even more so than racial representation. 💀 Or act as if any of the Creative Team behind these shows give an actual fuck about and are thinking about proper disability representation beyond a cool aesthetic or what makes their majority abled-bodied audiences feel good. 💀 ESPECIALLY FUCKING NOT AFTER THEY THOUGHT THE WHOLE "WHEELIE CHAIR ALASTOR" BIT WAS EVER A GOOD IDEA TO BEGIN WITH. 💀 🎶 Don't touch the pretty things, I'm a gallery to you. 🎶💀💅💖

And now, without further ado, and clocking in at Three (3) Tumblrina Badges and at least one (1) Moving Header because of course... Presenting The Clowns of The Hour, assaulting the innocent, unsuspecting OP on my dashboard, which really needs no further commentary beyond my initial notes (though I will have more to say later because somehow both of these socially inept dumbass losers I'm about to show you had even more shit to talk at OP after she said her piece and ended which meant it should've been over and in case you couldn't tell I AM PISSED. 💀):

*A Reminder, in case you couldn't tell, that everything in this post is an abridged version of the situation if only for comedic effect. Really can't believe I need to clarify this but I also mean absolutely no disrespect to OP by cutting their response to this absolute idiot down to it's basics as a mere time saver.* 🖤🌹🙏

I will NOT be showcasing OPs second response to this particular arsehole that OP shouldn't have been forced to make, as I feel the poor dear stated her peace loudly and clearly enough already to be understood. 💀 All you need to know is that they didn't fucking listen to her and kept going, and on top of that particular troll being a probably Sex Repulsed homestuck, I can see why people hate Scorpios now, too... ☕💅🪭💀

Since it seems much like the Citizens of Rock Bottom, this absolute Dick Cheese will only comprehend being spoken to in a particular accent, and in this case a Geeky one, I'm just going to go ahead and and insert this one Azula Meme here:

Grey DeLisle praise my timing and I know this absolute WAD simply must have a degradation or humiliation kink because it's like ... Honey call me when petitprincess1 freaks the fuck out and assaults you with a tacky gif from a transphobic Jim Carry "movie" for simply trying to set a boundary and calling her "honey" while doing it and she thought assaulting with Ace Ventura would apparently put you in your place enough to apologize to HER and suck her "little to by function, but apparently not bi enough to enjoy being called 'honey' by another bisexual peereven tho I've had no problem when you've done this before , but please by all means address me as 'M'Lord' instead, Wench! x3 I PROMISE I'm not a creeper 50 year old Fedora tipping STRAIGHT, WHITE, INCEL MALE for whatever reason pretending to be a black 15y/o girl masquerading as a 23 then, now 27 y/o bisexual black woman in this queer/femme fandom space because I'm TOTALLY TRUST WORTHY AND NORMAL! x3" hairy little toes or something, but instead it just makes you block her and then you have to pull out SCREEN SHOTS to PROVE you were in the right to block her, to some Aimless, Emotionless Automaton called Ornitha, who, much like you, butted in on a post that their ceaseless droning was neither wanted or needed on, and then much like I already did with the two of you above I had to block both those fuckos and one of them just whines about it and cries "STALKER!" every time I have a right to bring up how annoying they were up to other people on my blog that they are blocked on, while the other one blocks evade you to try and ask you if you think Lady Gaga is a white person because they're trying to deflect from the issue of Angel Dust needing more diverse and accurate skin tones in his fanart, and then chaifootsteps, the infamous fanti who leaked the entirety of season two, and doxxed Viv Medrano and her family, targets you and tries to frame you for the attempted Cyber Murder of some rando because you made fun them for being one of the only two people to 'like' a "Callout Post" for you that was made by some random ass proshipper who was harassing you for no reason and then you found out that they shipped Lucifer X Charlie and Stolas x Octavia specifically, all while calling you "Cracker" as they shipped "Royal Incest" and shared a name with Marshall Mathers and saying you were a racist freak who didn't belong in the fandom basically and expressing how they wished they could tip your wheelchair over and leave you there, not to mention all this other horrible nonsense about your body. So yes, I made fun of them and anyone who would 'like' the posts of someone like that and then chaifootsteps took it upon themselves to try to frame me as being directly responsible for the attempted suicide of one of them, because this fandom is objectively ableist as shit, just as the contents of these shows sometimes... But I digress.

Moving on, and highlighting the parts that particularly piss me off, too:

Again, I keep saying, as a White Gimp Irish American Bitch, how we desperately need more Black People with Actual Drip in this whiny little bitch ass fandom, because it's like, I'm sorry, but why does every single Black Person here that isn't a Queer/Femme Cosplayer or Fan Merchant/Artist both look and sound like Steve Urkel whenever they do something wrong?

Like, yes you did and now you take accountability instead of claiming the Plastic Paddy Bitch with a Wheelchair for a Shillelagh who's the only one brave enough to run over The Evil Leprechaun Overlord while taking all of you to task on your bullshit ruining this fandom is fucking racist Jesus Fucking Christ.

Mmmhmm. Uh huh. There it is. This response really is so @/ornithia coded and all these annoying WHINY little fuck ass Piss Birds who make "Nerd! 🤓" TM their entire personality trait and then scream at you when that "personality" makes them just an Empty Bus Seat enough for you to momentarily forget their Gender if not such an Obnoxious pattern that they call an identity and yet everyone else on the internet is just as much of an Empty Bus Seat to them, huh? Because nothing on the internet is real and nothing matters to these people because to them, the internet really is nothing more than a black hole. A black void that they can throw up all their obnoxious insufferable word vomit or bile into because they've ensured themselves that no one on the other end will be able to catch it or hear them because the internet is just an endless black void where no one and nothing matters. Except for their opinions and two cents of course, because they're the only person existing on the meaningless void of the internet, at any given moment, who's Real. And they know that they're the only "User 🤓" in existence on the internet who is Real, because they know, that all Fandom Culture is Fake and and not to be ever at all Emotionally Invested in or Taken Seriously, Silly Goose! 🤓 Am I behaving like an Aimless, Emotionless Automaton on somebody else's post right now? 🤓 No! 🤓 Tis within my rights to overexert my own Social Ineptitude and make A Display of myself within the pitch black void that is the Internet! 🤓 After all, everything and everyone here is Fake and surely no one here should Perceive Me TM anyway! 🤓 Because nothing here is Real even this Artists Post that I'm about to ruin right now is Fake and it's just the Fake Reputation of Fandom Culture As A Whole that enables us all to be jackasses! 🤓 Therefore even if I'm the one who's approaching you with some bullshit it's YOUR responsibility to be The Bigger Person and calm yourself because I am merely adhering to Fandom Culture and all your anger/annoyance with me right now is clearly Fake as a result of the inherently fake and toxic reputation of Fandom Culture, which means it's cleanly your fault for becoming so invested, in this black whole as whole and that I've done absolutely nothing wrong! 🤓

(Anyway, with these specif types of Geek! 🤓 Personalities it's like they're stuck in quicksand you can throw something heavy at them to help them sink faster but don't touch them! They'll refuse to use any of your shorter nicknames while yelling that you're url is to long and to much of a "burden" for them to type fully while still insisting on trying to type out the whole thing as they continue to literally talk @ and dehumanize you like you can still see it, all while knowing that you blocked them ages ago anyway. Which they also whined and complained about.💀 ☕💅💖 X.O)

DIE. 💀

Like, I honestly would prefer it if this geek just died and I'm sure everyone else would too, because there's no way in Hell that this loser nerd's self proclaimed "yapping" should ever be consider a proper apology in any context. And like, I could tell Mr. Yappy Wannabe A Bad Boy over here something that would make Nifty very proud of me and initially shock everyone really good for daring to apply that exact Nifty Meme to this person right now, but then chaifootsteps would use it as evidence that I'm a cold blooded Murderer again, so I'm going to hold back on him. Now, would expressing some murderess urge that I feel like I want to just force this geek into a bathroom stall like I'm about to give them a swirly but then just dangle them over the toilet like they're a Michael Jackson baby and cut their throat open and watch them bleed out into said toilet and die and then I'd leave their body there to rot make me any better of a person than showing them that Nifty meme to begin with? Because Nifty would be saying it, not me...🫢 And wouldn't that be just such the nature of a Hellaverse Fan, perhaps? 🤭 If we're pissed enough? 🤭 Like a Cunty Trans Grown Ass Gamer Woman, rightfully screaming at some unwashed, obnoxious jackass in chat at the top of her longs and then going "OOP! 🤭 SOWWY!🧸🥺🤭🫶♥️🙏" I mean... 🫢 Just so long as we're putting things on "The Nature of Fandom Culture" TM? Much like Medrano who put this in there to begin with, I think it would okay to give these Pricks a taste of their own Medicine, just this once.💀💉🫀 Valentines Day Originally WAS A Massacre after all, so...

Because honestly I feel like we're getting too old to take it and seriously with some of you I'm at my fucking limit. Especially if some y'all continue to be like:

Even when you know you're in the wrong.💀 And this shit is exactly what I'm talking about when I say some you here deserve to be bullied and that I'm happy to do it, LOL. 🫶💀

Now again from that White Knight who should've jizzed into the primordial ooze instead of all over poor OPs post:

... Okay. Fuck it, I'm putting it to A Poll:

Do we think Petitprincess1 would've ever been More Normal about being called a common/colloquial/queerfemme/pet/name, as someone who claims to be "A Little Too Bi Too Funiction! 🤪" TM... if *only* I'd EVER called her "hun" that faithful night instead of "Honey"? 🧐

Yes.

No.

Wow. You two REALLY ARE like some Reverse Snobbery Toxic Yuri RadioSilence shit.

"Wench...HOW DARE YOU CALL ME 'VINNY'! YOU DON'T KNOW ME! NO FRIENDS IN HELL!!!"

"HELP!! SOMEONE COME WHITE KNIGHT ME AGAINST THIS BAMBI-LEGGED LITTLE SHIT!!!"

"The name's 'Vox Populi'/'M'Lord' TO YOU! YOU 'MENTALLY DISABLED' WASTE OF SPA-"

"Oh, so you're not 'Mentally Disabled' you say? Well allllriiiiiighty then! x3"

"It's not like I *KNEW THAT* or anything BAKA! x3" I don't CARE either!! x3"

"H-HEY WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING? HEY I'M SPAMMING YOU WITH ACE VENTURA!"

"GET BACK HERE! x3 DON'T YOU GO ROLLING AWAY FROM ME, I'LL JUST BLOCK EVADE! x3"

"Why would I *EVER* block evade you to ask if Lady Gaga was WHITE when-"

"EVERYONE KNOWS that she's A G*PSY G*PSY G*PSY HEY!? Bc UR MY PRETTY RET*RD 💕s"

Voting ended onFeb 21

*I'm technically sorry not sorry for the last one it's my slur to make fun of too and I know it's what what most of the abled-bodied people here think of me so I fucking had to. 😁♥️🙏🥀 X.O

ANYWAY! Also remember, kids:

You definitely should NEVER let your Homie Stucky Wucky be the one trying to 'splain you how you definitely didn't do a fucky wucky thing wrong and you DEFINITELY NEVER let a Home Stucky Wucky try to tell you about what kind of behavior is and is not considered "Normal" TM for fandom spaces.💀 Any Fandom Spaces.💀 At all. 💀It's like the Fandumb Version of the Jameela Jamil Meme. 💀 Just don't let it happen.💀

Which is just one step below getting defended by A Transformer, by the way. 💀

But this particular White Knight can get a Swirly and choke and die in a toilet full of Sharpie Ink the next stall over after I'm done with their friend too. 💀

I'm really tired and tumblr did a fucky wucky and went dark mode in the middle of me composing this, so to show the results of my experiment, this was all to safely say, that if you happen to have more than one (1) Tumblr Badge and/or a Moving Gif Header Combination on this website and I make fun of you for it? Then maybe it's for a good goddamn fucking reason! 💀

So now that I'm done I'll leave with gif(s) of what I think should be done to Socially Inept Idiots with absolutely Zero Fandom Etiquette now and forever... Just because everyone knows that I'm The Mean One here.💀 And I will ALWAYS be 100% okay with that. 💀

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