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it happened to me - mattdrai fic I open got deleted before I get to read it

#mattdrai #thank god it was a one shot pwp

so it’s edm vs fla at sunrise, matthew got hit. he woke up and now he’s an oiler and younger (way younger). and dating leon, because why is he calling him baby off ice - he’s not even the youngest oilers, with kailer around

matthew doesn’t know if it’s a dream or a nightmare. he also doesn’t know who to talk it about without him ending up in psych hold.

he misses ellie and millie. he feels guilty because it’s feel like cheating, but most of all because he kind of wish this was his reality - this life this matthew has with leon.

and leon just left wondering why matthew seems so different and distant.

#so many idea but no motivation to write

wish willmack was my cup of tea because gosh does their fans do the grind like 2955 fic ? Third most written hrpf ship on ao3?

Drygras needs to step up

kairos44

People squealing about their ship over a foto showing Connor Bedard and Fraser Minten visiting a dying four year old little boy is really vile. There is a time and place for RPF and it's not now.

breaking my silence, i could not see wsh as attractive because he looks like my step cousin

jeaniefranklins

Sex scene as character study is so good. What is your relationship to your body? What is your relationship to your partner? What lessons have you absorbed from the culture about yourself as a sexual being? How much do you have to trust someone before being comfortable with intimacy? What fears and insecurities come to the fore for you when you take your clothes off? It's so good.

#word vomit

runafi

ryan leonard having 413 tattooed on his thigh so he never loses sight of where he came from (amherst, ma) and he can always look down and remember that he made it out. he made it big. he came from middle-of-nowhere massachusetts and fucking made it

#rl9 #little leno

the closest thing i had to polyamory is when i dated my ex’s best friend. and that we used to go on double date, my ex and i even fucked in the back of the car while his bsf drive.

and then we lived together for a week, and my ex’s made dress up his new gf. and keep referring his bsf / my new bf as “vi favorite bf”

the best part was i almost got assaulted one night (a recurring theme), and the two of them had a prophetic dream or was it bad gut feeling (?) and immediately thinks of me, checking up on me the next morning.

i missed my exes. both were shitty at the end but had made me happy when it matter the most. like they really help me get through my bpd episodes

#trauma dumping

oldmanpusspuss

my hottest take is we need more overt cheating in our rpf. too much 'what if they were both single' or 'what if they were in a polycule/open relationship and their significant others were okay with it.' no we need more homewrecking. i want these people to feel so guilty they feel like they're gonna hurl but sleeping with somebody else anyway because they can't resist and their desire outweighs the guilt. i want to walk away from a fic with my opinion of somebody slightly lowered even though i know its not real like when you have a dream about someone doing something bad. i want that man coming home from [redacted]ing his best friend's [redacted], kissing his partner on the lips knowing they would hate them for what they just did if they knew. have some fun with it.

herawrath

love myself some cheating behavior

also in my head mtkachuk is not normal about polyamory/open relationship. he is too anxious and jealous of other leon partner. i’m giving him internalized polyamphobia because why not.

and leon would be ?? because when they start hooking up, leon is already someone partner. matthew would be like “yeah but that’s different, roadie hookup doesn’t count”. matthew just can’t wrapped his mind on polyamory, he barely stomach threesome.

or matthew jealous of connor, as they swapped position of being leon primary/secondary partner after matthew moved to florida. so now he’s cheating with sasha, because if leon could be with his boy best friend captain so does he.

why does everyone made polyamory as the simple magic solution, especially as new couple it would be hard to navigate all these emotions. what more with the imbalances, how mcdrai could interact openly - be on vacation even honeymoon together. felt like that would fuck matthew mind

cheating is what he’s used to growing up. that’s normalcy for him so while there’s guilt (what their partner doesn’t know wouldn’t kill them) , matthew isn’t feeling sick to his stomach or giving himself headache by overthinking.

why is no one doing bout pressured into an open relationship like you accept my new bf/gf or i’m going to leave you, especially for this wags who don’t really have a sustainable income and career. to tolerate this “open relationship” when it’s actually cheating

#mattdrai #how did this goes from cheating to why i can’t see matthew in a polyamory relationship #maybe this is my own projection with polyamory

i enjoy irl mcdrai and edmonton polycule, but in rpf ? especially with mtkachuk got entangled in it and left heartbroken? no thanks.

#ugh found this well written mcdrai fic #but matty got his heartbroken #when you want to date but your situationship don’t #been there done that it’s triggering af

am I the only one think toews looks like cuter handsomer less awkward brunette version of cmd?