I made this blog for a whole bunch of different things but it has been overtaken by the deadly virus i contracted when i was thirteen called ilovesamwinchesterdisease. I have tried to get rid of it. i've been in and out of hospital looking for a cure. doctors say no one can help me, i just have to live like this forever. Therefor - this, deep down, at it's core - is a Sam Winchester blog. occasionally i post stuff about my dreams because they're whackass and i have a lot of nightmares. sometimes i post other things i like (big fan of outlander, labyrinth 1986, reading :3)
currently reading: The Secret History, Donna Tartt
I feel like no one takes DFV seriously. Like it's such a common issue even today. And people act like society has changed, and In ways it has, but I feel like DFV has just become more hidden because of it? In my country, 3/4 of female homicides are the results of DFV. 3/4!!!! I live in a first world country!!! Where women have the same rights as men!!! Who can work, and vote, & be independent!!! And yet more than one woman a week is murdered by a current or former partner. DFV is the leading contributor to disability and illness to women aged 15-44!! Statistically you're more likely, as a woman to become ill or disabled from a PARTNER than cigarettes. Of course women would rather choose the bear? Like WE KNOW THIS. And I'm blessed to know so many beautiful and kind men in my life, but it's so scary having your own experiences of intimate partner violence, & learning more and more how disgustingly common it is. I don't want to hate men. Nor do I want to group them. I don't think that's fair. But I also don't think it's fair to act like women don't live their day to day lives in fear, knowing they will face the inevitable eventually. I don't think it's fair that more action isn't put into place to prevent these kinds of things. I don't think it's fair that people aren't more outraged about it.
Long time lurker, long time send all your FICS to my friends-er (making up new words). I loveeeee love love your work. You scratch so many itches in my brain, so thank you <3
Just saw your posts about your older dean FICS, & then your new idea of an older dean fic with a young greenhorn hunter ... Love the "kids these days" line. ANYWHO. I wanted to poke your brain about older Sam & someone younger... Like a significant gap? Ten years or something. Because... Well ... I love bunker Sam (just Sam in general). But he's so serious & I love all the ethical dilemmas & moral questions that he has about hunting, good & evil n such, they're so beautiful to me. But I just ... Feel like, maybe perhaps, he would have similar ethical concerns if he was crushing on someone younger? Or someone younger was crushing on him... Thinking stuff like he's waayyyyy to old for them, & they're just cute & a little flirty & stares at him all the time lmao. & He's doing side eyes like 👀👀👀 uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Then blushing about it lol. HAHA. Idk. I just need to know what you would think he would be like? & If he'd come around to it, or the guilt would be all consuming. (Because who is Sam Winchester if not guilty about EVERYTHING) :)
Okie... That is all. I hope you have a wonderful day or evening !
I CANNOT START ANOTHER WIP I CANNOT START ANOTHER WIP I CANNOT START ANOTHER WIP I CANNOT - WHY IS MY IDEAS DOC OPEN NOOOOOOOOOO!!1!
Hello my dear 😄 first of all I really appreciate you taking the time and making the effort of sending your beautiful thoughts and ideas my way. I cannot tell you what it means that have people have lovely ideas, and then think of me. It's such a gorgeous feeling.
Okay, I never really thought about Sam in an age gap situation (except maybe the other way around, but that's a story for another day, ehehe). Maybe it's cause I genuinely think he would suffer in silence and nothing would ever happen. 😄 Cause that's so very Sam.
I know in this fandom we often talk about Dean being the self-sacrificing one, and he is, in a way, but let's not forget Sam "I guess I really understand this is my life now and I love it" LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE Winchester. So you did make me see the appeal of this now, I think.
He'd hold out for so long and then something emotionally taxing or intense happens, and they have one night of passion and he's just like "nope gotta go self-flagellate for a couple of years". Yeah. Yeah. I like that. And fully agree on the guilt, too. Yeah. That would destroy the poor guy (grinning like a maniac while I type this).
Anyhooo, maybe I'll write something about this. Who's to say (but probably). 😄 Thank you so much for your thoughts, my dear! ❤️
Hey so ummmmmmmmm rebloggging this because I need it on my blog because like ummmm... This was ME
Ur mention of an age gap rufus fic rlly did make me go Primal and bang my fists against my chest and hang from the ceiling screaming like a baboon and then I remembered... IVE DONE THIS ABOUT AN (potential) AGE GAP FIC BEFORE. ON UR ACCOUNT!!!
Had three nightmares last night & my boyfriend was having sleep paralysis every time he woke up in the night. Think theres something in the walls poisoning us low-key
I made this blog to ramble about my dreams and occasionally reblog Sam Winchester content & all i do is reblog shit and ramble about Sam Winchester & occasionally post about my dreams. I can never escape him. My little parasite <3
I love hearing people's whack ass conspiracies on reality and what not. In the essence of like, I experienced this weird thing that happened to me and I can't think up any logical, rational, earth bound and/or modern science explanation to it. And I think I love it so much because, duh!!! It's fun!!! But also because I've had my own experience that happened with my partner four years ago (& that man is a big skeptic & can find a reason for almost anything) who saw the exact same thing as me & we both, STILL, don't know what the fuck that was. I mean it had the shape of a human but it wasn't a human. It shouldn't have been, a human considering what it did and where it came from? And we were DEEEEPPP in the forest & booked it straight after (obviously). And we've since been back to the spot multiple times (during the day) & looked at where this place we saw it, and it just doesn't make ANNNNYYYY fucking sense. None at all. I'll never forget it
do you think dean ever sees sam sleeping but he’s so out of it that it just looks like he did when he was dead on the bed when sam first died. there’s the trauma of that always lurking if sam’s too quiet sleeping too. sometimes he has to check sam’s pulse, a hand to his nose or mouth to feel his breaths to be sure. when it’s really bad sam wakes up and has to calm him down because he’s panicking all over again. never really recovers.
Had a dream last night that I was in trouble and I was trying to call Sam Winchester for help (it never ends I'm sorry) and his phone number was 0000 702 1077 - I literally woke up in the middle of the night from this dream, repeating this sequence of numbers in my head over and over and over, convincing myself I would remember it in the morning (I wouldn't have) but then ultimately decided to go pee (not in the bed) & wrote the number down after. So. Incase anyone needed his number... Y'know 🫡
Less important things that happened. I was an hour late for work and my boss didn't call me in (in the dream) ... Um.. and my bf woke me up in the middle of the night (in the dream) but he also ... Wasn't my bf? But he was? Telling me we had to leave right now & when I asked why he just patted my head and said I just have to trust him on this and to stop asking questions. Da room was DARK. I tried to call Sam Winchester shortly after this!!!
