mae's place

have you been having strange dreams?

[himaybeme]

heyyyyyy how y'aaall doinn

welcome all - you can call me mae.

she/her, infj, 20's, samgirl, humpback whale fan.

I made this blog for a whole bunch of different things but it has been overtaken by the deadly virus i contracted when i was thirteen called ilovesamwinchesterdisease. I have tried to get rid of it. i've been in and out of hospital looking for a cure. doctors say no one can help me, i just have to live like this forever. Therefor - this, deep down, at it's core - is a Sam Winchester blog. occasionally i post stuff about my dreams because they're whackass and i have a lot of nightmares. sometimes i post other things i like (big fan of outlander, labyrinth 1986, reading :3)

currently reading: 'The Everlasting - Alix E. Harrow'

i am a proshipper <3

anywho.

i love friends. be my friend. msg me :0

[novakstogive]

SUPERNATURAL (2005—2020) 1.11 "Scarecrow"

[himaybeme]

S2 Sam - that's what they always say

(The first AE edit i made last yr - took me hoursss. Waiting to get my grubby little hands on the old application i used in HS ;p)

[wiz4rdkiss3r]

Dating Sam Winchester headcannons (x fem!reader)

You fucking die

[oversaturatedsunrise]

How could I not reblog this

[himaybeme]

S1 Dean in Da club :p

(posting this edit I made last yr and posted on tiktok before deleting tiktok because tiktok makes my skin crawl. Had to cut out my old watermark for privacy reasons. Going to post my future edits on here me thinks :0)

[evvergreen]

i am having a hard time marrying the different versions of the world in my head that stem from my anxiety and indelible optimistim and idealism. the world is horrible and dangerous and mean and pointless but also so good and beautiful it's untouchable. and i am sitting in beautiful beautiful transcendent nature in perfect weather nearing sunset reading a book about murder and pervasive violent crime in 19th century america thinking it so foreign while i myself am a victim of violent crime but it doesn't feel like it

my mind exists in extremes

[sorryitsmyfirstdayonearth]

Lately I've been noticing that I'm writing Sam and Dean's dirty talk very differently. Dean's always asking questions, "this good?", "you love it, don't you?", looking for affirmation. He's also got a colorful vocabulary, but for sentence structure, I make him go with the classics. Meanwhile I've been doing this thing with Sam where he won't say things outright ("fuck" only as an exclamation, not a verb, not outright naming genitalia), but he's asking for actions (or begging, in some cases), so I've had a lot of: "can I put it inside you?", "can you... with your mouth?"

I don't know, no one asked for this information, but here we are. 🚬

[himaybeme]

Both of these are hot asf but this just reminded me of this picture I saved months ago because it was very Sam Winchester to me and I had to put myself in time out because I was thinking about it too much :p

[himaybeme]

Going to disappear again. Too da loo.

[milquetoastmilksop]

Zoe Kazan as Ruby Sparks in Ruby Sparks (2012)

[himaybeme]

Zoe Kazan looks sm like the first girl I had a 'thing' with. And by thing I mean we had huge crushes on each other and talked all the time & tried to hang out but neither of us were out at the time so we got too scared. She's in a queer relationship now. Happy for her. But oh what could have been if we were not sixteen and cowards. Only crush I've had in my life besides my current partner that didn't make me confused & want to rip my hair out. So much love.

[ziggystardust127]

As The World Falls down is such a great song and the scene is beautiful when there’s not someone in your ear saying “So your favorite part is when he drugs her?!” No. I like the song and outfits.

[witchtickles]

There's such a fooled heart Beating so fast In search of new dreams A love that will last Within your heart I'll place the moon Within your heart

[wetheurban]

At the end of the day, you can’t delay joy until life looks a certain way. You deserve to enjoy your life now.

[sobcat]

[psalms-and-spells]

Art with Jesus having the kindest eyes and the scruffiest beard gets me every time. Like he purposefully didn’t look ‘holy’ or ‘regal’ he was your neighbor. He was your carpenter.

[clovers-practice]

Forever thinking about how Mary conceived via the holy spirit, which is a historically feminine entity. Lots of untapped potential for Something here. Not sure what yet

[himaybeme]

[himaybeme]

Why are my dreams so disgusting recently. Bleh. So many bodily fluids.

[forthesakeofthespirit]

I go crazy for the Incarnation.

can you imagine seeing Jesus smile? can you imagine the puff of air that would escape His nose when someone said something a little bit funny?? can you imagine watching Him tie His sandals??? Him brushing your shoulder by accident as you walk by???? falling to your knees cause you just touched God????? Him crouching down to face you and giving you the most loving look you've ever seen in your life?????? the way His voice would have sounded calling you by name???????! hearing God use His vocal cords and the air from His lungs and knowledge of the language He learned growing up to produce a sentence calling you by name?????!?!??!?!

His clothes feel just like anyone else's as they're made wet and cold with tears. He smells of skin and body odour and dust. His arms have hair. He's warm. you feel the calluses on His hands as they rub your back. your hands slowing come up and place themselves on His spine-

God has bones..

[god-has-always-been-love]

Jesus cupping your face. That's it. That's the addition.