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₊·͟͟͞͞➳❥ i made an uquiz where i sent you on a blind date with a haikyuu character and if you're reading this you're obliged to take it and share your result!! also rate my matchmaking service 5/5 ✭ and tell your grandma about it please thank you
you have never quite learnt how to unlove sakusa kiyoomi.
once—a long time ago—you learnt the ins and outs of kiyoomi from a promise you made to each other. if you had to live this life as partners, you might as well make the most out of it.
it was the final year of high school, in the midst of studying for entrance exams, when you completed the last piece of the puzzle that is sakusa kiyoomi—that hidden behind the mask of indifference and distance is a boy who cared too much, felt too much.
sometime between then and the end, you had picked up his habits—the cleanliness tendencies, the distaste for touch, the distance you keep. they had become ingrained in you, served you well through your studies and your career after graduating from medical school.
in some way, sakusa kiyoomi found a way to stay in your life even when he wasn't.
you forget it most days, that loving him is written in the fiber of your being. you have not stopped long enough to let yourself remember. it was easier to keep going, to keep yourself busy from the time you get out of bed until you get back into it.
much, much easier to let the exhaustion take your mind under at night than to linger on the reason you left.
but here you are—standing in front of the man who haunted your dreams, hearing him speak but not understanding why your heart still hurts the same way it did six years ago.
"i'll sleep in the guest bedroom."
he is walking away again, leaving you alone on your wedding night in the expanse of the main bedroom in the penthouse, a joint marriage gift from both of your parents.
a door clicks shut softly in the echoes of the undecorated suite.
you wonder if he intends to sleep separately permanently.
hello bug <3 stopping by for a cute matchup hehehe maybe today is the day i find my soulmate XD
i look for devotion and patience in a partner, someone who can take control and take care of me, who makes sure i know i don’t need to fend for myself by myself anymore
i like to think that i’m attentive to details, somehow a feeler and a thinker at the same time (im an infj at heart, trained in life as an intj) so im oddly logical ? however, i am a perfectionist (sweating)
my dream date is a food date! just trying yummy food and going for a walk somewhere scenic afterwards
open to hq, wbk and kn8 (i leave it up to you!) and prefer he/him matches
thank you for considering bug 😘
hi my sweet ave !!! sorry it took me so long to get to this </3 i completely forgot i even asked for these lol! alright, time to get match making !! pulling out the wikis now <3
haikyuu!!
iwaizumi hajime !
why: he's got a lot of practice dealing with perfectionists in his life (cough cough oikawa cough cough) but he also cares so deeply for everyone in his life even if it can be a little off putting to others sometimes. I think he would help you feel like it's okay to be vulnerable again and you would help him feel seen.
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
athletic trainer iwa and pro badminton player ave brain go brr
i can see a few first meetings for you: a meet cute and a meet ugly
meet ugly: you meet because your favorite snacks keep selling out and it's a battle between the two of you to see who will get the last bag
meet cute: the volleyball team and the badminton team are training in the same gym and you end up getting a minor strain in your ankle and he's the first to help you, he makes sure that everything is still okay. because i know you like pining, it's a very slow progression because you two only see each other at the olympics!
i think he's the type to find scenic and short hiking trails if you even hint at wanting to see pretty scenery
he's very show don't tell and i think that would pair well with you, it's easy to see that he listens to what you say and makes conscious efforts to show you that.
i think he's very big into gift giving and quality time. he enjoys just being near you
will come to you with random things that remind him of you and there must be a section of your home that is for figures
he's quick when he hears a hiss from behind him, even when you initially wave him off. "you know it will only get worse if you don't let me look at it." With a roll of your eyes, you finally allow him to look at your ankle. after asking a few questions and gently twisting and turning your foot, he stands up. "you're lucky, it's just a minor strain, just rest it for a few days and remember to stretch before and after practice and games and you should be fine."
you think that's the end of it, that you'll never see this stranger again. all things considered you usually wouldn't. instead, he sees you out of the corner of his eye and comes over before you can make a daring escape to avoid any awkward interactions. "your ankle feeling any better?"
"yeah, still a little sore but manageable."
"let me know if that changes."
"okay." you won't.
it seems like this man (you have yet to learn his name) is everywhere even when you admittedly aren't looking for him. you run into each other watching other events, early morning runs, late night coffee breaks, everywhere. you learn his name is iwaizumi, he's the athletic trainer for the volleyball team and has been for two years, and he has a fascination with insects.
when the events end and you have to part ways it isn't sad, there isn't a big moment. a simple nod and wave as you get on your respective busses and you think it's the end. you don't see him again unless it's passing interviews on tv or in magazines- not until the next olympic games at least.
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
honorable mention: kita shinsuke
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
wbk
gonna hold your hand when i say this.
umemiya hajime !
why: you want a patient man? he's about as patient a man as you can get. he's very good at letting people feel the things they need to feel while also making them feel better. he tries his best to take care of everyone so best believe he'll be taking care of you before you even realize what's going on. i think he would help you feel more confident in your actions and not worry about being perfect all the time. i think you would help him not feel guilty if he isn't able to help someone.
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
shop keeper ave? umemiya's favorite shopkeep ave? anyone? just me? okay. yeah- flower shop even if you will, him going to buy seeds at your store even though it's out of the way because he accidentally went one time and now he won't allow himself to go anywhere else
would win you over not with his usual happy demeanor but i think it's the moments where he gets more serious when you allow a small vulnerability to slip past your lips
he doesn't bring attention to your moments of realness. he doesn't interrupt, he listens and in the softest voice will tell you things you need to hear. no pomp and circumstance about it, just simple sentences that will shake up your world
he's a very touchy person but is always respectful of your space and quietly asks before he touches you
big fan of linking your pinkies together whenever he's close enough to
the most likely candidate of a food date let's be honest with ourselves. he would plan a whole picnic and surprise you with food that has his cooked vegetables. it would be cheesy but it would be yours
umemiya has never been good at being subtle. that's easy to notice upon first meeting, his bright eyes and even brighter smile as though the world itself is enough of a reason to smile. his presence in the shop was to be expected biweekly, always needing something else for his garden or even just to show you the progress on his plants. he had grown on you, his voice a companion while you cleaned around the shop or made arrangements.
when you accidentally knocked a pot off the table, he was there to help you clean it even if you told him not to. "i'm too clumsy to be working here, like a bull in a china shop."
"i think the world wouldn't be as beautiful as it is if we didn't make a few messes here and there." he swept the shards into the dustpan, and you showed him where to dump the broken pieces. "the things we end up breaking only remind us that everything is precious even something as small as a pot in a flower shop that must have dozens."
his words weren't loud for once, they were as gentle as a night breeze. something within you bent as they blew past, something you're not sure you would want to fix. part of you wonders if his eyes always looked that bright or if the lights were playing tricks on you
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
honorable mention: kiryuu mitsuki
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
kn8
kafka hibino !
why: he goes out of his way to help anyone even if it may not be the best idea. he would never let you feel alone; he cares so fiercely about those he's close with that he wouldn't even realize himself that he's taking care of you unless you point it out because it's such a normal action for him to take that role. I think you would both help each other get over your need to be perfect and feeling of letting yourself and others down when your ideal plan doesn't work.
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
platoon leader ave with rookie kafka? just me sitting alone in the crowd by myself again? okay-
you giving him advice that is hidden behind precise words that could appear cold and him still asking anyway
you not wanting to make attachments because that's basically a death sentence but his drive to always be better and to protect those he loves make you warm up a little to him
i am giggling to myself at him asking you out and you rejecting him and then giving it a few years and he asks again once the two of you have gotten closer
words of affirmation and acts of service kind of guy! no this is not something he even realizes he's doing and if you call him out he will get flustered. he just figures that if he loves someone it's only natural to want to take care of them
late night talks when you two cross paths in the library as you try to finish paperwork and he's learning more about different kaiju. textbooks and paperwork forgotten in the quiet it almost becomes a safe haven for the two of you
a pen scribbles across paper as book pages are flipped in an otherwise quiet library. somehow it always ends like this- you and him together in the late hours of the night, two lights filling up tables across from the other. you're not sure when two tables became one, when a cup of coffee would already be set down in your usual seat instead of having to get up again to fetch yourself a cup.
a sereneness fits the moments, the silent understanding that turns into quiet laughter hidden behind hands and icy words melting away to something warmer. "i hadn't realized i was coming off that harsh."
"don't worry about it, honestly, it was probably what i needed to hear to motivate me more anyway."
"you need motivation from others to reach your goals? there is no gain in that, only disappointment."
"that's not what i meant." his hand scratches lightly at the back of his neck before he sighs. "i'm bad at words if you haven't already figured it out. i just mean, it was a push in the right direction."
"ah, so you went the roundabout way of saying you're stubborn." a teasing tone escapes the words as you lift one eyebrow and sip at your coffee. you can't pinpoint when it became like this, when he became so easy to talk with. you like it. it terrifies you all the same, you hope his stubbornness rings true and he won't let the quiet nights fade away even if you try to distance yourself.
a narumi gen birthday drabble
happy birthday, gen! our beloved stray orange that slinked his way into our house and now sleeps in our bed and only eats the most expensive kibble. i love you so much
"what is this?" you blink at narumi's question, his voice that sounds too close for comfort.
you turn around abruptly towards the sound of his voice, taken by surprise.
the first division captain is in his lazy loungewear that also suspiciously looks like worn pajamas, his natural hair flat and hiding most of his pink bangs. a single wireless earbud rests between his fingers, plucked out from your right ear while you were in the midst of a mental visualisation training.
you blink again.
the sticky note you haphazardly threw on the gift bag still remains firmly stuck on there, your scribbled handwriting clear as day on it—happy birthday, captain narumi—nothing more, nothing less.
you must not be in your best state of mind when you did so because this man pisses you off like nobody's business. he makes your competitiveness rear its head so strongly, you taste the sting of iron in your mouth when he puts you to shame sometimes.
but because your relationship with him is neutral at best and rocky at worst, you default to your usual behavior with him.
"mm, i didn't know you couldn't read, captain narumi." a roll of your eyes, and a piss poor attempt to snatch your earbud back.
your cheeks burn as he lifts it just out of reach. damn him and the inch he has on you.
"i could read it if your handwriting isn't so bad. they look like chicken scratches." he scoffs, leaning into your space as he peers at you.
"if you don't want it, just give it back." you lunge forward, pushing on his shoulder as leverage as you jump for your poor earbud. god knows what grime those fingers have on them from his greasy controllers.
almost—you yelp as your balance tilts too far into him.
"careful there, don't want someone squishing my cakes." he grins at you as he catches you around the waist, pushing you back on your feet, but his hand continues to rest there, like it is natural.
god, you wish your heart didn't leap into your throat the way it fucking did. he really, really pisses you off.
"you are insufferable." you breathe, aware of his closeness, but for a few seconds, you allow yourself to soak it in, the pleasantness of his presence, the surprising scent of sea breeze mixed with sterileness, and a light smell that is uniquely his. "did hasegawa send the cleaners into your room as a gift?"
he blinks rapidly, mouth opening and closing like a caught fish.
it makes you laugh. a loud, cackling one that has you wheezing over your knees trying to catch your breath.
"oh, c'mon, have some sympathy, will you? i am still your captain." narumi sits cross-legged in front of you, pouting as he waits for you to be done with laughing at his misfortune.
"yes, captain." you salute mockingly, only to burst into another fit of giggles.
"at least sit your ass down and help me eat these when you are done." he pulls the containers of different flavors of cake out—the ones that you bought in a panic, not knowing which one he likes or dislikes—strawberry shortcake, chocolate gateau, baked cheesecake, even a small fruit tart in case none of them strikes his liking.
the sight makes you pause. the domesticity of it when you are more familiar with being at each other's throats or fighting at each other's backs punches you in the gut.
because you want it.
you sober up, flicking a tear at the corner of your eye away.
"what? i cannot finish them all by myself." he complains, but the smile on his face gives it away as he eagerly opens up the boxes, setting them all out in front of him. "sit."
he shoves a fork in your hand, and tells you to wait as he snaps a lot of photos from every possible angle and lighting.
"hasegawa will kick our asses for eating in here." you mutter as you accept your fate resignedly, shuffling into the same position across from narumi.
"i am the captain. the rules are what i say they are." he wrinkles his nose with annoyance at your comment.
narumi claps his hands together like an excited child, "itadakimasu."
for a few moments, you just sit there and watch him dig into the different cakes you got him as a small present—one you can easily brush off if he asked about—but he hums and savors each bite of the different flavors.
there is something rare about how light and peaceful he looks, how happy he seems at your small gift—how unburdened he looks right now, free of his usual ghosts. you find yourself unable to look away from narumi.
"go on, eat." he urges, suddenly self-conscious of eating all by himself.
the corner of your lips twitch at the thought.
it is terrifying and exciting all the same—the sudden urge that springs to life within you—one that demands you to fend the ghosts away from him.
"happy birthday, narumi." you give him a smile, a rare one.
a feel like the new generation of fanfic readers NEED to understand that clicking on a fic (interaction) does nothing. ao3 has no algorithm. your private discord discussions of fic do not reach the authors. if you do not actively engage with writers they will stop posting. this isn’t social media this is community.
comments / tags / asks on fics really do mean the world to writers because it’s almost guaranteed that we will go back to read them more than once. for me, whether it’s for motivation purposes or when im feeling particularly down on myself and need a little pick me up, to see someone in few or many words telling you that they enjoyed taking time out of their day to read my silly story…. it will get me right in the heart every time! 💞
dilf atsumu doesn't mind sharing you with the rest of msby. he knows you're in good hands; with kiyoomi who knows how to take you apart almost methodically from watching you with atsumu countless times before, with hinata who has enough stamina (and girth) to keep up with your insatiable desires, with meian who always sends you back to atsumu with his cum still dripping down your thighs like a parting gift.
he also doesn't mind passing you around during the inarizaki reunion either; with kita's discipline crumbling once you suck his calloused fingers in his mouth, with suna who is the meanest of them all when he has you grinding on his thighs for hours (all caught on video too, of course), with osamu who is greed incarnate when it comes to you, knowing what belongs to atsumu equally belongs to him, swallowing everything you are willing to offer with his hands wrapped around your ankles and your panties in his pocket.
atsumu doesn't mind sharing you because he has no doubt you will always crawl back to him, perched in his lap with your hands tangled in his hair, swallowing your own name from his tongue like a spell cast on you–mututal infatuation bleeding into obsession, a constant push and pull, both of you about to be ruined for everyone else.
hi everyone! it is with much bittersweetness and excitement that i’m sharing my migration to a new blog. i have finally outgrown this blog but i treasure it too much to completely wipe it clean so i’m moving!
my dear moots, see you on the other blog if you’ll still have me <33
for tblitbk and osd, i am planning to post the final chapters on this blog whenever they are completed. for writing updates, you can find all my writing on @dreamspeonies (haven’t reblogged everything yet but i will in due time as well as any new works)
thank you all for the support and fun we had here!! let’s make more memories together!
hi everyone! it is with much bittersweetness and excitement that i’m sharing my migration to a new blog. i have finally outgrown this blog but i treasure it too much to completely wipe it clean so i’m moving!
my dear moots, see you on the other blog if you’ll still have me <33
for tblitbk and osd, i am planning to post the final chapters on this blog whenever they are completed. for writing updates, you can find all my writing on @dreamspeonies (haven’t reblogged everything yet but i will in due time as well as any new works)
thank you all for the support and fun we had here!! let’s make more memories together!
anyway hoping that the generative AI bubble pops so disastrously that the tech industry becomes allergic to anything involving it for the next 1,000 years
If you read ecology books printed in the 70s and 80s, they were absolutely convinced that whales and tigers would not survive the century. There's a whole plot in Star Trek about how whales are extinct actually. Here in Argentina, we were sure that yaguaretés would have gone extinct. It was thought that rainforests would be forever lost, because there was no way that such complex ecosystems would be restored.
Now, you can go to Península Valdés and find that the whale population there is growing year after year, people can see them from their windows. In Iberá, where yaguaretés were extinct for over 70 years, there's now a population of 35 and growing, after being reintroduced just five years ago. As for rainforests?
We've becoming very, very good on restoring them. Natural environments, when given space and time to heal, can return to that they were. And after all, all natural enviroments are managed by human societies. It is up to us to implement a good management, un buen gobierno.
I firmly believe our children and grandchildren will see a restoration of Earth like never before.
Millions of people are working on this. You can learn about it, perhaps even become one of them. Or be a pointless doomer in my ask box. Your choice.
if there are people who care, it's never a lost cause. at one point, kākāpō, a nocturnal flightless parrot species from aotearoa, were thought to be entirely extinct for decades. until 1977, where booming calls from males were heard on the small island of whenua hou. now, thanks to people who care so much they dedicated their lives to caring, kākāpō numbers are close to 300. despite the setbacks. despite the small gene pool causing infertility and health problems. people cared so fucking much that they survived. this is one of COUNTLESS, countless similar stories. I'm studying ecology so that I can go into conservation and all around me, every day, I see people who care enough to put years of their lives into learning about and solving environmental problems. I don't know man. hope isn't just some nebulous thing. it's tangible if you do something with it.
Tim Wong saw the decline of the pipeline swallowtail butterfly, and dedicated himself to providing habitat and raising babies, and it worked.
Spix's Macaws were extinct in the wild for 70 years, and now captive breeding and conservation groups have reintroduced a small population (with more on the way) and there are babies being successfully raised in the wild again.
And what else is there, but hope? We exist for the grace of hope. Those who have lost all hope don't stay here. If you are here to send an ask like this, it is not because you have given up, it's that you are hoping someone will show you that that hope is worth having.
It is!! It always is!!
There will be good things and if you cannot find them, make them! The time will pass anyway, you can choose what to do with it, and so many, many people are choosing to try to help.
The Lord Howe Island rodent eradication project never fails to make me cry, it’s so beautiful.
The population of an entire island working together to eradicate every last rat and mouse to save the native bird populations. They had to trap a bunch of the birds and keep them in captivity so they wouldn’t be hurt by the rodenticides, and released them after the rodents were gone. Normal residents helped by phoning in tips whenever they saw rodents. And they did it. Lord Howe Island, last I read, remains rodent free, and the native bird populations are rebounding!
Acid rain and the hole in the ozone layer, both of which were terrifying specters of my childhood, have been largely dealt with. Ecosystems devastated by acid rain are also recovering.
In 1979, an audacious, expensive conservation project was begun to try and breed california condors in captivity toward being released into the wild again. This was considered useless and hopeless by many people, but many more people said we had to at least TRY.
In 1991, the first captive-raised condors were re-introduced to Big Sur, Pinnacles, and Bitter Creek.
In 2006, three months before I turned eighteen, the first wild pair of condors was seen nesting in Big Sur in over a hundred years. A hundred years.
We did that. We fixed it.
How about another example.
When my mom was small, in the 1960s, there were many, many days of the year she was not allowed outside. Days and days they had recess indoors, because the air was so poisonous to breathe. Here's an article about it, with some good pictures.
My mom was 13 in the picture on the left. She was 50 in the picture on the right.
In 1987, there were 27 California Condors in the world, all captive.
In 2024, there were 566.
369 of them fly free.
That happened within my lifetime, and I'm not even 40 yet.
When you lose hope, think of our stories we're telling you. Recount them to yourself like a prayer. That's what I do.
There are 369 California Condors flying free in the sky right now.
Black footed ferrets were considered completely extinct in 1979. Then we found a single den in Wyoming in 1981. In 1996 it was classified as extinct in the wild.
By 2013, there were approximately 1,200 living wild, across 18 dens. Their numbers increase regularly, and while the face challenges due to habitat loss, climate change, and their limited genetic diversity, they're in a much better place than they were.
Because people cared, and they worked, and they fought to make things better.
I very much recommend going into the notes, they are absolutely chock full of good things.
I think it's easy to get lost in the bad things going on in the world, and close to home. But the bad things are often acute. They flash in the pan, which is bright and can be scary, it's easy to be distracted by it. But ultimately, there are always people working to clean up, and prevent it from happening again. There's always people working to improve things overall, and people researching how to do that. It just takes time, and it's not flashy, it's just work.
But it's worth noticing. It's worth talking about. It's worth sharing and doing and trying and hoping. It's worth it.
