[aemelia]

brat summer 🍏☀️ @shanesummerfest

[gaygoatshane]

gay silence

[sasha820]

[shanepervert]

[arthurfoxy]

Prev how dare you leave this in the tags

[mutinsfromthemoon]

ilya after the outing just liking all the videos of shane, the edits, the highlights, the compilations. every video of shane the TheRealIlyaRozanov can finally leave his likes there. at first the fans loses their minds “omg ilya liking all shane’s videos” but after a while is just so common that every caption in the post just have a shout out to ilya cus he’s probably seeing and liking it

[boitterfly]

[wingsseni]

PLEASE POST THE BEAUTIFUL HOLLANOVLING DOODLES YOU SHARED ON TIKTOK 🥹🫶

here they are !! ☺️<3

[manhasetardis]

Queering the Map is a community generated counter-mapping platform for digitally archiving LGBTQ2IA+ experience in relation to physical space.

The platform provides an interface to collaboratively record the cartography of queer life—from park benches to the middle of the ocean—in order to preserve our histories and unfolding realities, which continue to be invalidated, contested, and erased. From collective action to stories of coming out, encounters with violence to moments of rapturous love, Queering the Map functions as a living archive of queer life.

Through mapping LGBTQ2IA+ experience in its intersectional permutations, the project works to generate affinities across difference and beyond borders — revealing the ways in which we are intimately connected.

[mrsbartlesby]

The thing is, Shane never knew a version of Ilya without depression. Ilya wasn’t able yet to see that in himself, but Shane did even if he couldn’t name it. He constantly checked in, are you okay, how’s your father, how are you. He could tell Ilya needed to be checked in on. But then Ilya spends The Long Game reckoning with his own acceptance of his depression, worried that Shane couldn’t possibly love him once he knows. And that’s the thing with our brains, they love to hide things from us. Because Shane never loved an Ilya who didn’t have depression. But Ilya thought he’d carefully tucked this secret deep inside, hiding so even he couldn’t fully see it. But Shane has always seen Ilya, always seen past the bluster and bravado. Ilya thought he could hide it from himself and from others, but he couldn’t hide it anymore once he found a safe place to land with Shane. Shane gave him the soft, albeit imperfect, perch from which to see himself and what he needed more clearly. His relationship with Shane reflected back to him that his ways of coping were no longer enough, and he needed real help. And sure, Shane didn’t quite know what to do or what was going on, but he only left or backed off or gave space when Ilya requested it. And when it came time for Ilya to admit things, I’m sad sometimes, sometimes I’m not sure how to keep going, my own mind scares me, Shane does not falter. He says I’m never leaving, I’ll be right by your side, we will figure this out together. Shane has always loved Ilya, all of him.

[daily-like-a-prayer]

[deletiaclementine]

Ilya, in a Hawaiian shirt that makes him feel stupid, terrified Shane is secretly engaged to a literal movie star, on the knife edge of elation and despair: so how’s your girlfriend

Shane, on a mission, already forgot he was informed he was gay five minutes ago, half bricked up and ready to rub it on his man: who?

[bakerharrystyles]

@merthurmicrofic prompt: whisper Word count: 66

“But I love you,” Arthur whispered, but it was more of a plea: don’t let me do this, but if I have to, forgive me.

“I know,” Merlin said, and pressed his wet nose to Arthur’s. “But you have to.”

“Maybe we could—go somewhere, I don’t—”

“Arthur, stop,” Merlin said, whispering too, since that was the custom in a church. “She’s waiting for you.”

[wtf-is-hockey]

I’ve said this before but I really need people to understand it 🤦‍♀️ characters can look into the camera without breaking the fourth wall. That’s not what breaking the fourth wall means. Shane and Ilya did not break the fourth wall in ep. 4.

[wtf-is-hockey]

Okay so actually I want to talk about this more apparently.

Having Shane and Ilya face the camera as they orgasm in ep. 4 is one of my favorite decisions made for that ep. and that scene.

The choice to have a character face the camera is always significant and purposeful, and in this scene, I believe the choice to have Shane look at us while he is forcing himself to have sex with a woman is doing a number of things:

1 It is meant to be deeply personal. That's part of why the camera is so up-close. First, we are shown what it is like for him, and then when he faces us, we are put in the same position we would be in if we were having a conversation with him and he was telling us how he feels about what's happening. It is as though he is confiding in us, and we are then put in position to ask, What should he do? What can he do? What would we do, if we were him? Can we honestly say we would have done it differently?

2 It is meant to make us uncomfortable. We are voyeurs in his suffering, and when he looks at us, we are caught. How dare we watch this for our own entertainment? So much of heated rivalry's audience is now made up of people watching for spectacle - people who are gawking during the other sex scenes, are now confronted and called out.

3 We are the jury, he is the defendant. When we watch that scene, and we know he doesn't want to sleep with her but he does anyway, all while fantasizing about Ilya, we are being put in a position to judge him, and when he looks at us, he gets to judge us instead. It is saying, it is easy for you to judge because you're not me, Shane Hollander. It is easy for you to think whatever you're thinking right now because you are not the one in this position.

4 The fantasy Ilya's eye contact then is used to emphasize what is becoming undeniable to Shane in that moment. We are forced to confront what Shane really wants at the same time Shane is forced to confront it. We are being forced to face the truth just as he is. This is what he really wants. This is all he wants. And he can't ignore it anymore.

It is, in my opinion, an excellent choice made by Tierney and acted out by Connor and Hudson because it conveys so much and it is so visceral, exactly as visceral to us as it is for Shane in that moment. And the gravity of what's happening is so palpable for us. There isn't any other scene in the show that is as evocative to me, that makes me feel what any character is feeling as well as that scene makes me feel what Shane is feeling.

Which is probably why it is a leeeetle frustrating to me when people call it a fourth-wall break, because at no point is Shane, in-universe, actually aware of us as an audience. He is not seeing us. He is seeing Ilya. That's kind of the whole point.

[wtf-is-hockey]

No but even think of the choreography of Shane's fantasy of Ilya jerking off in the shower.

It begins with Ilya facing away from the camera, and the camera is so far back it's in a different room. We are literally peeking through a door to see Ilya jerking off.

Then Ilya turns around at the same time the camera slowly enters the room, the same way a person would walk through the door. It continues zooming closer. Ilya's body - the part we would assume is the point of the fantasy - is no longer in frame. It's just Ilya's upper body, arm and face now.

Then Ilya lifts his head as the camera zooms in uncomfortably close, until Ilya's face takes up the entire screen. Only then does he make eye contact, once we are right up against the glass - a barrier. A transparent barrier, but a barrier preventing us from touching. We can't even see him jerking off, just his face, his eyes looking right into us and forcing us to confront him and preventing us from denying the significance of this fantasy.

This is how Shane experiences the slow build to no longer being able to deny what he really wants. Once able to peer at it from a distance, through a half-open door. Once able to make it about something else, a body, sex. Now right up against the glass, looking it right in the eyes, and it's not about how attractive he is or how good the sex is. It's about him, as a person.

AHHHHH! It makes me so fucking INSANE!!!! EP. 4 is fucking IT I'm telling you! Nothing fucking compares!!!!!!!

[ilyapasta]

One side of the argument says hollanov fucked rough and nasty in the tampa hotel, the other side says it was slow and tender but we don’t have to fight. We can have both. They can fuck twice. I’m so serious. I don’t think they talk much, the first time. Let alone first names. It’s a physical reunion made potent by the unsaid things, fast with just hands and mouths searching for the other. Then they talk, sprawled in bed. Just small talk, catching up. They’ve missed each other so fucking much, and something is different now, a wall torn down. The second time is slower, Ilya putting Shane on his hands and knees like Shane likes but going slow, taking their time. And then they do it a forbidden third time after they’ve showered, both shaking and oversensitive when Shane pulls Ilya back inside him, face to face, and Ilya says something in Shane’s ear so soft and whispery enough that Shane pretends he doesn’t hear it, to spare himself and also to spare Ilya, because it’s enough that Ilya says it at all: Fine, you’re right, Hollander, you win Shane, you fucking win, Shane…

[pookiehuddy]

Excuse me, sir??

[weirdistance]

The scene with Scott and Shane right after Shane won Rookie of the year is so fucking funny. Their interaction gets more awkward by the second. Obviously, they are both really straight, and Scott (obviously straight) would never imply that Shane (obviously straight too) has any kind of thing with Ilya. They need to clarify this because there definitely is nothing gay going on here, ever. Since they are both straight.

[gaysie]

days without heated rivalry Who Knows. i love shane and ilya so much it feels like religion