holy shadow

music from maine. free recordings: holyshadow.bandcamp.com/ facebook.com/holyshadow207 soundcloud.com/iliketheforest CDs available here: allwevegot.bandcamp.com Tapes available here: https://toofargonerecords.bandcamp.com

[holyshadow]

I know there's a path you follow in the darkness of the room and I will call you back tomorrow 'cause someone's missing from the tomb Despite our indifference we build lives with fragile gifts and not everyone makes it down the hall but please don't ever ask me where I go no, I've lived there for half my life before. You know there's a place I go to when I feel like I can't speak and it is ugly when I leave you it's ugly when I live my body. Despite my intelligence I've built a life I cannot live to be honest, I'm scared I won't make it very far. but please don't ever ask me what I are no I died there a long, long time before.

[fostercarrots]

really proud of this 

[holyshadow]

 who will sleep on the floor for us?

[holyshadow]

[holyshadow]

i drank the water from the mountain hello mom, i shaved my head pissed in sinks across the country just to pass out in my bed and if yr card runs out of money please do not treat me like a bank did you learn that from your parents or is it our friends we have to thank? you are plato with a shotgun hello god, please let me live i was quiet in the classroom now my hunger knows no end it knows no end it knows no end i rode my bike up on the nightly hello dog, don't break the skin turned ghostly white almost every night from the headlights i got caught up in and i bought drugs out in the courtyard of St. Michael's Catholic Church you gave your body as an offering to the temple of human hurt and hey hey Jesus, Mary, Joseph you're ignoring all my calls i know that you are home now because the sky's about to fall about to fall about to fall and oh holy spirit, i am invoking yr name it's all come to this, my dear theophilus and nothing will ever be the same so i gave you these nicknames in my journal high priestess, daughter of god thought i'd covered all my bases once but somehow i still got caught up in this sunday morning bender i got drunk and crashed a car and i painted Pollack-style splatter portraits w/ the colors of your heart but still you put flowers in my notebooks and cut the pages from my hair so i took this cup to the mountain top and i drank that shit down right there. 

[holyshadow]

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tonight i discovered that my song has been on a comp for like two months:

I know I left you for myself and western medicine  my god, where are you now?  i thought you left me when you started doing drugs again  but oh, look where we are now

i left the wedding ‘cause i was nervous about the party tricks  you know, the water to wine and in the garden fell asleep when you went off and left  and woke up later that night and you were gone 

do what you want but would you please excuse my reticence  i think we’ve been here once before  all by myself up in your house with walls of venison  and i woke up on the shore

we got the news in hotel rooms across the continent  the message falls in the night wake me up, would you wake me before the bury him i need to say my goodbyes

and now that you’re gone, given yourself out the ages what should we do you said “hold on to the memory, bring it to the future, it is in you.”

[fostercarrots]

your music makes me so happy. i love the lyrics & it feels so good to see other trans, queer folk out there

hi - i am so glad that this is useful to you! i hope you are well. this message means a lot a lot a lot. here is an unrequested list of some more queer/trans artists who have affected me in similar ways;

april mei (queens, ny)https://aprilmei.bandcamp.com/

told slant (brooklyn, ny)https://toldslant.bandcamp.com/

alyssa kai (great falls, ma)http://www.lyskoi.net/

garrett walters (bloomington, in)https://garrettsucks.bandcamp.com/

s cilantro (bloomington, in)https://saracilantro.bandcamp.com/

mal blum (ny, ny)https://malblum.bandcamp.com/ruune (amherst, ma)http://gregorymckillop.bandcamp.com/your heart breaks (seattle, wa)https://yourheartbreaks.bandcamp.com/mal devisa (northampton, ma)https://maldevisa.bandcamp.com/

[holyshadow]

tw drugs, alcohol, drinking n driving

i painted pollack style splatter portraits with the colors of your heart  but still you put flowers in my notebooks and cut the pages from my hair so i took this cup to the mountain top and i, i drank that shit down right there

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This song is a cop out  because nothing is real 

[discobrat666-deactivated2016110]

playing a sweet gig this friday with some cool bands! be there!

[discobrat666-deactivated2016110]

TOMORROW BINCHES!!!

[cactus-romantic-blog]

get to the gig!!!!!!

[discobrat666-deactivated2016110]

meaux jeaux debut show

[holyshadow]

reblogging this again ‘cause it was so fun

[rustbeltjessie]

1/5/16 - coffee in a Clash mug, mini-zine by @crapandemic.

The zine is really good, as one would expect from anything by Julia Eff. It made me angry, in the sense that it got me, once again, thinking about how, if things to help writers further their careers or improve their writing are only accessible to the privileged, then you’ll only get the voices of the privileged. When conferences cost money to attend, when there are entry/application fees for residencies, contests, and grants - only the people who have that money to spare will be able to apply or attend. And that’s bullshit.

[holyshadow]

i have a few copies of the portable holy shadow on cassette left if anyone is interested! you can just inbox me and we can figure stuff out. shippin em out from my house. also since there are so few i’m probably gonna include some goodies as well.

inbox me if yr interested 

xoxo 

[holyshadow]

still drunk in flo-ri-da

[fostercarrots]

hi i released this split with @holyshadow a lil over two weeks ago ! have a listen.

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This is a great compilation for charity: 60 artists contributed tracks to it, its over three hours long, and its pay what you can. if 100 people download it for 10 bucks, thats a grand that can be used to help refugees from Syria find new homes and stuff. The work on this comp is like really really good and everything is actually worth the listen. I know a lot of compilations say that. They are lieing. This one is actually spectacular.

Also if you guess which seven of the tracks I played on, I will give you a prize.

SHARE WIDELY! GET THE WORD OUT!!!!! (Expecially if you are on the comp!)

(special thanks to Kevin Boardman for putting this all together!)

[toofargonerecords]

What would you like to see from this label in 2016? Merch ideas? Represses? Anything?

Whatever you say will be seriously considered, send me a message or reblog this or something!!!

[holyshadow]

more holy shadow

[holyshadow]

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Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain. Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain. There’s a hefty possibility my irresponsibility got me to this place where I remain.

You know I would never bother you I took a bus down here ‘cause I thought I had nothing to lose. You’re in Catalonia now, I’m in Sarasota and I just don’t know what to do.

and you write me back from East Madrid when I’m three sheets out to the wind Hold me close now because Anna, it’s gonna rain. and you say, “Hey, John, just hold your own, you’re much stronger than you could ever know. Every little thing’s a-gonna be okay.” and I write you back from some lonesome beach while I count the lizards out in the street.

Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain. Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain. If I don’t get to Tuscalooga, I’m grateful that I knew you. Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain.

So I sit on a lawn chair every day Collect my mail at someone’s condo up the way You moved on to Cordoba but I’m still down in Florida.

So Anna I got one more thing to say: I do hope we meet again someday. I don’t care about your boyfriends, I just want to be a good friend. Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain.

So if Barcelona kinda bums you out or Salamanca just brings you down I know one more seaside town where we could go to stay. But if you prefer it in Grenada or just want to stay in Almería

it’s all good, yeah it’s all cool, it’s all okay. I’m just grateful for your correspondence and all the ways you keep me honest.

Anna Francesca, you’re in Spain.