Mother, martyr, masochist— Magdalene.

Encourage virtue into whatever heart it may have been driven into secrecy and sorrow by the shame and terror of the world - William Saroyan

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they should invent a way to die where you’ll come back after a few minutes to see if suicide is really worth it

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there’s such a hopeless feeling in seeing everyone around you—especially people who went through your exact struggles and were as bad if not worse than you—heal and recover while you’re just stuck in the same place

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sometimes when I eat my favorite foods; foods I only eat for special occasions or very rarely, I just… can’t bring myself to eat anything for the rest of the day. I know it’s dumb but in my mind it’s like I’m spoiling the food. like I can’t go out and get this really nice meal and then when I get hungry at home later make myself a basic sandwich or something. that’ll just ruin it.

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it’s kinda funny how one of the methods to stop self pitying is to tell urself it’s pathetic. like yeah ur right. *self pities twice as hard*

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if something ever did happen to me i can’t stop thinking about all the ways i’d still manage to inconvenience them post-mortem. like forcing people to take time out of their day to show up to the funeral and sit through all the boring processes of it. god forbid the weather is bad too and makes it uncomfortable

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asexual struggle of not knowing if you’re actually like that or if it’s cope because no one will have you

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when i was 13 struggling with depression & executive dysfunction i tried to motivate myself into doing my school assignments by deadnaming myself in my head and refusing to address myself as me until i got them done. wtf was my problem

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i can’t lie it was kind of fun not having any appetite when i got my wisdom teeth removed. like no hunger pangs at all? not even a little bit? how long could i do this for until something happened?

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having ocd over germs and hygiene while also growing up not being taught the full scope of how to be hygienic was so weird it felt like I was faking. like why was i picking and choosing what to be icked out over

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have you ever gotten the urge to be vulnerable to your friends but stopped yourself because you didn’t wanna have to assure all of them the reason why wasn’t because you were planning on killing yourself?

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worst part of trying to eat 3 meals a day is developing hunger for 3 meals daily instead of just 1 big one. like fuckkkkkkk im hungry again

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it's just you and that one family member ostracized from everyone else for having the same mental disorder you do but went and still is undiagnosed against the world

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being passively suicidal is annoying because if I were actively suicidal then I’d know that these emotional lows could, at some point, lead to at least something. But knowing nothing will come of it just makes it feel extra cruel and pointless. You’re saying I’m just going to endure? Forever?

[horses-make-me-cry]

bipolar will introduce you to rock bottoms you didn’t think existed like an infinitely going Russian nesting doll

[florallychaotic]

Im gonna be so real can yall actually talk about ways we can support trans women in the UK instead of giving all the attention to fucking JKR. I already know that Harry Poter sucks, I wanna know how to actually HELP people. Something something you have to love the oppressed more than you hate the oppressor

[snowonthebeachmp3]

trans actual uk - trans led and run advocacy, education and empowerment organisation

fiveforfive - collective fund for trans women and girls and transfem causes

gendered intelligence - trans led advocacy org

mermaids - supports trans youth

akt - lgbtq youth homelessness charity

loving me - domestic abuse service for trans people in england

not a phase - for trans adults

[mysticalcats]

it's really gross how you can be self aware enough to know what's going on in your head but you can't actually stop it from happening. i need to grab it like a pigeon that got stuck in a house and throw it out the window. be free

[shitilyposting]

"I don't wanna bother you"

Have you considered that this is how your presence feels?