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Im huge TAZ Balance fan, 9-1-1 Buddie, Mollymauk Tealeaf, Bolaire Lathalia, and believer that I can make Aphmau MCD BETTER !! This is also where I post theories abt other fandoms, opinions, and fic updates !

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Happy pride month here are my headcanons(HEADCANONS REMINDER NOT CANONICAL) for the two separate fandoms im obsessed with here we go

Aphmau fandom

Aphmau: Aroace or heterosexual polyamorous

Garroth: Gay/Homosexual

Laurance: Bisexual with a female lean/preference

Cadenza: Transwoman - Bisexual

Lucinda: Unlabeled and she will date anyone(BUT WAS SHE CANONICALLY A LESBIAN?? I THOUGHT SHE WAS BI)

Zane: He/they/it - Omniromantic(male preference)

Travis: Trans man - Bisexual

Vlyad: They/he - Heterosexual

Katelyn: Lesbian

Ivy: Lesbian

Zoey: Transwoman - Bisexual with a female preference

Dante is a straight man

Critical role Campaign 4

Thimble: she’s giving she/they but also aromantic

Azune: (EDIT: MY GAYDAR IS FUCKED APPARENTLY HES CANONICALLY GAY MY BAD)

Thaisha: Pansexual or unlabeled. She’s not into relationships or labels canonically I believe. Shes fine with being Hal’s baby mama and flirting with Valeus on the side

Kattigan: He’s giving straight but I think all of these men flirting with him are confusing him(trans man)

Bolaire: Aroace except he’s gay and in love with Hal and even into Kattigan atp (any pronouns except she/her)

Valeus: she’s also giving aroace

Julien: Bisexual

Tyranny: unlabeled and would date anyone(threat)

Hal: Bisexual with a female preference, who also isn’t committed to relationships (but he’s got homosexual tension with a mask.)

Murray: Straight woman

Wicander: He’s bi-curious (and genderfluid)

Occtis: Straight or pansexual (they/he/it vibes)

Teor: his last name is Pridesire he is a gay lion

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CR 4 SPOILERS

SERIOUSLY EP 27 SPOILERS RN

Just some thoughts/things I've noticed;

The duality of man when Marissa/Murray asked how Azune was going to keep track of all of his lies Vs now Azune begging, crying, to Murray that he can't keep doing this anymore and he's so scared he can't face Einfasen alone.

I'm sorry this is just another reason why I can't ship Azune and Murray; he's talking to her like a son to his mom. He is crying saying it's too much work for him and he can't keep up - he wants help and she is there to assure him that it's going to be okay but he needs to toughen up. It's tough love. It's him reaching out for help, wanting to stop playing solider, tired of war after war after war and now he has to keep up the child soldier routine and he has reached trust in Murray enough to cry to her like a child again. I just see it purely as platonic. Personally. "I want you to remember who I was before I became a liar." The way he asks this to Thimble, because of her undying loyalty to Thiazi. She doesn't remember Thiazi as a bad man, or a liar, or a traitor - even in his death when everything is pointing against him. Thimble believes in Thiazi. So Azune is praying he has that relationship with Thimble.

ALSO THE WAY HE SAYS "Occtis can come with me" and Marissa leaks into Murray here with her suspicion that Azune may be a sociopath. Cause like yeah he calmed tf down instantly when he address Occtis. Idk but I do fucking love Azune oh my god he's so cool... immakingaplaylistforhim

HIS FUCKING "all of them..." when asked what his favorite ice cream was. Holy fucking shit, I love Azune so much...

HOLY FUCK KATTIGAN IS SO POWERFUL Not physically, magically, etc. BUT HIS CHARM MIGHT BE UNINTENTIONALLY HIGHER THAN THE BARDS???

MURRAY IS INTO HIM

TYRANNY IS INTO HIM

TEOR IS INTO HIM

BOLAIRE IS INTO HIM

WICANDORS GRANDMA IS INTO HIM!!!!!!

Whatever Bolaire and Valeus have going on needs to be studied. I think there is some bad blood because what if Valeus knows that Bolaire is a weapon that was used to kill a god and that is why she's so distrustful and hesitant around them... But Bolaire invited her into the city to possibly kill Thiazi for the Stone, so he could be free of his debt one way or another. But then Bolaire is pissed when she shows up to the funeral. They hate being around each other and yet here they are???

Also. Don't kill me. I ship Bolaire and Tyranny lowkey. Except at the same time it feels like Bolaire is that gay man who is mean to women and only can be/thinks he can be because he's gay - but STILL I think their relationship is very charming. They casually cross boundaries and then act like they didn't with each other it's weird.

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hot take

One hill I will die on is that I do not believe MCD (Specifically and exclusively MCD) Garroth and Laurance saw Aphmau as a prize.

AT FIRST

I do think later on their competition with each other and yearning etc defo distract them from how their feelings originated. Garroth is a weird case because he proposes to her in season 1 without actually saying anything - but Aphmau wasn't a prize to him. In the beginning Aphmau was something similar to a monk who traveled, found Phoenix Drop and then brought it back to life. I theorize he fell in love with Aphmau when she showed true unwavering unself-centered kindness and put in effort into reviving a place he would soon call his home.

Garroth fell in love with her kind heart and soon her ability to resolve conflict without physical conflict, taking charge, helping the villagers, etc. Garroth ran away from O'Khasis because of a loveless marriage so when he gets to know Aphmau, he confidentally proposes to her(she ignores the ring in the chest and walks off - which I interpret as rejection. Garroth never brings this up again) Laurance does flirt with Aphmau, mostly with her looks at first but Laurance also experience the same draw that Garroth does as Aphmau offers to help find his sister, help in any way she can with lazy ass Lords, etc. She earns his trust so much that he feels justified in sacrificing his life for her. Even after he becomes a Shadow Knight, he's not too concerned with killing her and totally willing to wander around blindly(literally) if it means she can live in peace. Where the line blurs between genuine love and seeing Aphmau as a prize to claim is not when Garroth and Laurance butt heads(unless you count that weird ooc moment at the end of season 1) but when Aaron shows up. Garroth and Laurance become great great friends with one another as Laurance becomes a Guard in Phoenix Drop and arguably its them butting heads abt the O'Khasis thing that brings them closer. Even as Laurance lets Garroth try to woo Aphmau(even tho he does show up when Garroth is abt to make his moves, but I see that as like a taunting thing than deliberate). Point is, neither of them have a problem if Garroth or Laurance ended up with Aphmau. Even when Laurance gets so jealous of Aphmau marrying someone he transforms, does he admit that he wouldn't dare touch her without permission not only from Aphmau, but from Garroth too.

When Aaron shows up out of the blue and Aphmau starts taking an interesting in her do their objectives change. Especially with the Shadow Knight problems causing Laurance's bad qualities to become toxic and overbearing, mostly taking them out on Aaron(for example when Laurance admits hes not sure why Aphamu cares about Aaron or anyone else for that matter) its a whole thing. Only when Aphmau seems to be romantically involved with Aaron does Laurance disappear and his vision of his original attraction to Aphmau becomes askew. Only when Garroth finds out Aphmau has had a kid with Aaron does he begin to view Aphmau... I wouldn't say as a prize. I think, he views what Aphmau has done as a betrayal. He doesn't seem bothered when he hears Laurance has been close with Aphmau - only when Aaron has. Because the biggest thing that changest their perspective is their history as Guards - they trust one another. Aaron is not only the Lord of Falconclaw, rumored to have gone mad and killed a bunch of people - so Laurance was already worried there And then Garroth hasn't seen fuckall about this man, just trusting he's got Aphmau's best interest then the man kills himself to bring back Garroth and leaves Aphmau knocked up. So his emotions are conflicted - but I don't believe he had seen Aphmau as a lost prize.

I do agree that Laurance is a bit of a fucked up guy, I do mostly blame the Shadow Knight stuff for that - enhancing his flaws to make him a really unlikeable weirdo Garroth is just... he views what Aphmau did as a betrayal but at the same time Aphmau said it was an OOC reaction so the fans felt seen. Point is, I don't like the statement that MCD Garroth and MCD Laurance view Aphmau as a prize when it wasn't like that at all

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I am motivated to finish my current Garrence fic because when it’s done I’m going to rewrite MCD again but with Garrencemau

I know I said I’d do it with Laurmau but I can make it work with all of them I’m sure

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Recalling from a video(Don't ask me which one I can't remember) where Sam *supposedly* said that it is inevitable that Wicander will die And then in Ep. 1 where Brennan was 100% going to kill Thimble if she fucked up her rolls(which would've sucked because she's insanely important to the plot rn) I don't think anyone in this campaign is going to die However If any of them were Here's my list of most defo/most likely going to die and all the characters I do not name im very confident are going to survive.

So again this is the list of who will die from obviously to probably? 1. Azune Nayar (If he fumbles this einfasen deal he will die and no one will be there to heal him. he will die never seeing his sister again. it's tragic but it's fitting) 2. Tyranny (She is going to die instead of Wicander, or she will be plucked back into the abyss where she came if Wic's family ever finds her) 3. Thashia (unlike all the other options, this is the death I genuinely do not think the player will have wanted or planned out. I believe Aabria will fight tooth and nail to keep Thashia alive however I think mechanically, she will inevitably die in battle) 4. Teor or Kattigan (they will be fighting side by side and one will die wanting to protect the other. Both saying shit like "You have someone/something to live for, I don't") 5. Vaelus (I think she will die before she ever gets home, again its sad but thats the vibe of the campaign I'm getting. I do believe something will happen with the stone of nightsong that will influence this - like in C2 when Tailisen tried a game mechanic to his character that backfired and resulted in reaching 0 HP) 6. Bolaire (This is difficult because Bolaire can't really die but he can be locked up. I actually don't think Bolaire is at risk of this at all but I do believe there will be a moment in the campaign tailisen might have to use a backup character because Bolaire will be kidnapped and locked away until the mask can be used in a sundered houses favor. So Bolaire will be taken and attempted to be spelled or outwitted so he can be controlled. I think if Bolaire "dies" it's temporary.) And everyone not on this list is 100% going to survive.

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Whatever happens next; I want Hal, Bolaire, Wic, and Tyranny all at the same table from now on please

EDIT: I genuinely forgot Bolaire found Kattigan attractive aka "Hot" - now I'm a big Halaire fan but Kattigan x Bolaire is about to start growing on me if we keep this going

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Is this one of those Mandela effects cause istg I always thought Laurance was older than Cadenza???

Ik in season 2 of MCD Cadenza becomes older than Laurance — but originally I always thought he was the oldest sibling??

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Ppl who read my fanfics;

Currently working on the newest chapter of these three fics:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/77695171/chapters/203508771

https://archiveofourown.org/works/72455331/chapters/188672446

https://archiveofourown.org/works/73402446/chapters/191344021

Rereading this fic and rewatching the series that inspired it so I can finish it:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60334534/chapters/153981358

And if you’re new here and are like what are these

The first three are Aphmau MCD/PDH rewrites - mostly Garrence and Divine Warrior centric please go read

The game grumps one is a post game of DRV3 that I had powered through of summer of last year that I’m hoping to power through this year.

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Still haven’t watched the last two episodes but am I the only one who didn’t want Buck to be a dad

Not because I don’t like the concept — I think it’s adorable

But it doesn’t make sense

Buck is a full time firefighter, that is who he is, what he adores doing, and no matter what he will always fight to go back to work

But now he has a kid and he’s a single father and he can’t leave Theo to Eddie, because Eddie is also a firefighter and Christopher has Carla and he’s old enough to take care of himself

Theo isn’t

Unless Carla takes care of them both which okay I guess

But why give a character a child… and then not have them raise that child. Instead you give the job of caretaking to a nanny or someone else but that child still belongs to the parent

It’s weird

Also

Buck has recently gotten over an addiction to painkillers/dr*gs.

Why did they let him adopt a child so fast???? It already takes forever to adopt but especially if you have a record/history of addiction then that makes it even harder

I just don’t get it

I always loved Buck being a boy dad more than a girl dad and I think it’ll be cute if Eddie helps take care of Theo like Buck took care of Christopher but this is weird

It’s just weird

Also

Buck was always a dad to me

He was Christopher’s second dad

Whether you ship Buddie or not, you have to admit that to Christopher he always had two dads; Buck and Eddie

Even when Buck was going out with Tommy, that didn’t change this relationship with Eddie and Christopher

But idk

I don’t really like this development

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I know there’s not much to go off with content but I need more “Logan is the orange side” or “Logan and the Orange side are the same person” media in my life

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I always thought it was weird that people get weirded out by Aaron and Aphmau in mystreet/Phoenix drop high for dating because Aphmau is a freshman and Aaron is senior(DONT SCROLL IM AGAINST IT TOO ITS WEIRD AND GROSS IM MAKING A POINT HOLDON)

But the same people won’t get weirded out by Laurance X Gene

Because when Laurance was a freshman Gene was a junior - which yeah isn’t that big of a gap but it’s still weird isn’t it

In the context of a romantic ship, it’s still an older teen taking advantage of a younger boy

Like age wise it’s still a 15 year old weird an 18 or even 19 year old which is still weird

I think Laurance X Gene is more tolerated because it’s a queer ship and people are suckers for “toxic yaoi” but then when it’s aphmau and Aaron with a similar age gap people don’t really care

I personally despise both - Gene is lowkey a predator and Aaron kind of is too for dating Aphmau

Even if you don’t agree with the Laurance X Gene thing; Gene is still a predator to Aphmau

Like why tf are you calling her “kitten” you weirdo

But it’s also weird when we do see some history between Gene and Laurance that Gene tries to make Laurance feel bad for not being a Shadow Knight anymore while Laurance is like “yeah Gene is a creep and a bad dude so stay away from him”

In the context of Laurance being a victim of Gene for gr**ming him, then sure

But I just don’t see those two romantically involved it’s just weird to me

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Im hesitant abt the Murray x Azune ship because by Murray’s standard the “kid” they rescued back in ep 23? (I’m calling him a “kid” because I don’t remember his name or how to spell it. But it’s the student-teacher living with Bolaire rn)

Anyway, her standard for what a “kid” or “child” is - is in the same age range that Azune is in

When Murray says “he’s just a kid” Azune replies “He’s not that much younger than me”

So

Massive age gap problem - which I personally always had issues with. If it’s over a 5 year age gap, that’s weird.

4 is pushing it, 3 is acceptable.

It’s why my ship with Occtis and Valeus got shot down because I thought they were adorable together and Occtis is revealed to be 20 years old and Valeus refers to him as a child, meaning she is way over 20 and at least in elf years that’s too young for her.

You could argue this as well for Bolaire - that he’s too old for ships as well. It’s just confusing when he’s picking hosts that seem to be in the same age range as I assume Hal is

Also

People aren’t sure how to age Bolaire. Is he over hundreds of years old because he’s been around for several wars and since the gods were around?? Or is he aged based off of his long he’s had consciousness/developed a real identity? So he was “born” during the shapers war? Which also makes him MUCH younger than Hal and about Occtis as well

BUT ALSO

When Murray asked how old Bolaire was/was flaunting her age

Bolaire stated with certainty; “I’m much older than you.”

So - to Bolaire and his standards; he’s the oldest one there and his age is determined by when he was physically made, not when he decided to be an Individual.

It sounds like the youngest as they go is Occtis, Azune, and Wicander.

Old beyond comprehension seems to be Tyranny, Valeus and Bolaire

Old but not crazy old? Is Hal, Thaisha Murray

And I have no fucking idea they’re middle aged in fantasy terms; Thimble, Teor, Julien, and Kattigan

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I haven’t watched eps 17 or 18 because this show is pissing me off

Spoilers for the newest episode as far as the spoilers I’ve seen go

Glad Eddie didn’t die

What do you mean we have to wait and see if season 10 finally acknowledges Buck and Eddie are gay as fuck and in love with each other

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Reunions I need desperately;

Thimble and Occtis

Occtis and Murray

Azune and Julien

Vaelus and Bolaire

Bolaire and Thimble

Hal and Wicander

Hal and Thaisha

Azune and Teor

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Had to rewatch ep 24 and here’s all the ways this gala can go tits up

So spoilers ahead,

Ignore that the ep ended with the schemers possibly having to stop an assassination on King Gus…

Here’s what I initially thought/believed they were gonna deal with:

King Gus is looking for the Photarch(if that’s how you spell it) so drama is stirring up there

Halandi has to play footsies to avoid Wicander’s Grandma the entire night - I imagine she’s going to find some way to hold person on his ass, kidnap him like they had done with Teor and try to have him killed - whether or not he answered her questions

Bolaire has to avoid anyone trying to venture where they shouldn’t, especially if someone makes a realization or discovery about Lady Comoray the blades or even somehow the box

If anyone dares to ask where Bolaire is? Oh boy

Murray has to pretend like nothing is wrong from last night and even play fancy pants should her superiors and their superiors show

Azune is probably going to hover around the king whether he wants to or not because it’s obvious someone is going to happen to Gus

The Comoray are going to kill the Tachonis should they show up because of the whole ring that Azune planted

Speaking of Azune - he also must avoid the candescant creed as well because they think he is a follower of the light

I PRAY AZUNE WILL GO WITH HALANDI TO THAT VISIT BTW WITH WIC’S GRANDMA BECAUSE THEY MIGHT DO TO HAL WHAT THEY DID TO TEOR

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I’m positive someone else already said this

But

Aaron represents more of (Kul’Zak) The Wanderer

And Laurance represents more of (Shad) the Destroyer

I wasn’t sure in MCD if Laurance was supposed to be like Kul’Zak’s reincarnation or descendant — it was hard to tell who Kul’Zak was going to end up being

But if it was anyone - it feels more like Aaron

Who was in the woods by himself

Fighting werewolves

And sneaking around and traveling aimlessly all over Ru’aun

Where Laurance exhibited self destructive behavior even before becoming a Shadow Knight

Where he confesses he doesn’t know how to talk to women so he flirts with them often and then distances himself from those people and ruins his relationship with them

It’s really just post Shadow Knight transformation where that destructive behavior turns angry and violent

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Spoilers for the promo of the season finale of 911

If they kill off Eddie so people stop asking about Buddie canon I’m straight up not watching this shit anymore.

Bobby dying sucked, but I always liked Eddie and Buck’s chemistry more — romantically or not.

And if Eddie dies for like Buck to have more trauma? So people stop asking about them dating?

Fuck that

Straight up, Eddie dies and leaves Buck by himself to take care of Christopher and POSSIBLY Theo?

NOPE I’m out