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24 | it/ae/he | queer trans autistic disaster | aspiring university finisher | insane potential digital footprint haver | generally there are many things wrong with me but that is okay :3

[humansonairl]

HAI :3 welcom to my blog

about mee :3

Thomas or Anya (idc), it/he/ae pronouns, triple earth sun moon and rising signs, queer + trans, autistic, in general there are many things wrong with me lol and i will likely be yapping A Lot about them on here.

other than what im actually diagnosed with, most of my shit is only suspected. However ive been doing extensive autistic-level research for 5 years regarding what is wrong with me and a lot of them have been present or in milder/masked forms for at least a decade. these include but are not limited to a few trauma-based disorders (dissociative shit and a phobia), some physical conditions, and ofc some genetic shit. yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /j

I'm also Doukhobor :3 I would lov so much to talk to other Doukhobors that aren't my family 😫🙏 there are so few of us lmao (at least where i live)

stuff on this blog:

i am pretty much just yapping about things that are going on in my life or other shit or whatever idek. general tw for this blog. but also im just a 24yr old queer autistic cunt trying to adjust in this fuckass shit. i like weed, crochet, metro/light rail transit systems (i am mapping All Of Them), music, genuinely cursed and very specific shit (for example my in-progress cyoa called Goofy's Bar Crawl Adventure: Fuck, Marry, Kill), diy slavic-engineering-type shit bc i am queer therefore i have the audacity, being angry about things, general arts/creative shit i love when ppl make things, tattoos n body mods, recreating my hyperrealistic interconnected dream world in minecraft, youchewb, dragons n dinosaurs ofc, and loving my friends. welcome to my blog.

PLEASE DNI: minors, those old enough to be my parent, conservatives/republicans/fascists/anyone w or supporting those political ideals/opinions/people/etc and -isms associated w these groups, or ur vibe is just personally uncomfortable. Accounts with no (at minimum general) age indication, blank accounts, those with only bot-like nsfw content, etc., general reasons, and anything from the previous list will be blocked <3

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[humansonairl]

finally looked at my required courses and turns out i have more left than i thought (literally by 3 tho) so i wont be able to graduate in 2027 BUT i can probably finish for Jan 2028 :33 n then i can start my medical coding program :33333333

almost there!!!!!!!!! im almost there and it's almost done and im almost free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[humansonairl]

Athabasca has such a good collection of remote online courses holy shit bro. i can even take a 6 credit hr class so it counts for 2 courses

[humansonairl]

k so my dad lost his job about a month ago now (bullshit reasons - bc he'd been employed there for so long he was getting +50% more $ than his coworkers, so they expected him to also do +50% more work than he was already doing), but bc he's one of the ONLY people who actually knows what he's doing he IMMEDIATELY got scooped up by more than one company and now he's just. employed again. bc he is literally one of the only ppl in the entire PROVINCE who knows how to properly do this job.

anyways that's all just proud of my dad :)))))

[humansonairl]

currently remembering this one time in gr 7 or 8 when one of my teachers had one of their old students come in and talk to us about university, and they brought in one of their essays to show us that profs are a lot more brutal w grading. and ofc it freaked me out a little bit bc they got a C+ on like. a 10pg paper. and in gr 7ish that's basically a novella.

but then when I started uni, bc essays are the same repeated formula and im autistic, i got REALLY good at writing. and now i almost always get between 95-100 on nearly every single written assignment. and most of that is just me talking about some bullshit written in like six hours (got an A+ on a project in gr 3 that id forgotten about until the night before, and it has been downhill ever since). like, in my language/society anthropology class, i would genuinely just write something about my family history and EVERY SINGLE TIME i would get 100% and feedback about how "open" and "thorough" i am.

[humansonairl]

finally looked at my required courses and turns out i have more left than i thought (literally by 3 tho) so i wont be able to graduate in 2027 BUT i can probably finish for Jan 2028 :33 n then i can start my medical coding program :33333333

almost there!!!!!!!!! im almost there and it's almost done and im almost free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[humansonairl]

Finally got a set of weights for strength training (you do not need to do that, i just wanted to) and Just finished doing that bc my brain was craving the muscle burn (i am going to be dead tomorrow) and man i am so glad exercise helps w pain a little, my neuropathy in my back has been SO fucking annoying the last few days and now i have another thing i can do to minimize it :33 (apart from tiger balm my beloved) (i know it works bc it cancels out My pain/nerve bullshit and i end up not feeling anything LMAO)

[humansonairl]

got dq and they gave me someone else's blizzard and shake instead of what i got 😭😭 but im not mad about it bc this guy 1) is also named Thomas and 2) ordered these particular items EXACTLY how i would have. both large and strawberry flavoured, removed the whipped cream from the shake, and removed that + the angel food cake from the blizzard so it is just dq strawberry ice cream

lowkey kind of a win. Other Thomas knows what's up.

[pukicho]

Some tumblr users are evil woke. They use the power of good for evil.

[juunipupu]

Knights in Love

[humansonairl]

my bf and i are still exclusively communicating through images on pinterest and i saved this one picture a few weeks ago of two dandelions twisted together and i think it resonated with him bc every so often he'll save a pic of some intertwined dandelions :)))))))))))))))))

[bugthingsdaily]

Today's bug thing is this dragonfly light switch cover!

[humansonairl]

i can't wait to see him so i can wrap him up in my arms and hold him for 18000hrs

[humansonairl]

i would walk the trans Canada trail from where i am in the Maritimes to where he is in Ontario just to see him

[humansonairl]

easiest ever phone call with a medical place???? literally less than 5 minutes??????? just called to get put on the cancellation list for my sleep thing bc jfc it has been Brutal this week and i didnt know that was like it's own entire thing but i got so lucky n the person who takes care of the referrals was there and picked up immediately and now im just???? on a cancellation list???????? YAYYYYYY

[humansonairl]

i think i figured out what the deal is w me and my "alters" or whatever. i don't experience amnesia and it can be tricky discerning if there's someone else there or not.

but i think "i," or whatever lol, am kind of like. "Base Thomas." and the others are kind of like "plug-ins" almost?????? some are stronger (like a dominant gene) and their addition can be quite noticeable (to me anyways), but for others it just seems/feels/appears like my mood or energy has shifted and it can be hard to determine if it is someone else or literally just my mood or energy shifting bc im still a person that exists (for me and them). for the latter, i usually have to concentrate on whatever changed and try to remember why, and sometimes we will just find someone (or the traces of). sometimes Little Ears (this was a nickname given to me as a kid to try to deter me from overhearing conversations about me) informs us about them bc they're not ready to "come out" or whatever, but LE can have the physical appearance of 5yo me, so it isn't threatening and who/whatever is found usually trusts it pretty quick.

anyways yeah considering "myself" as "base Thomas" and the others as different "plug-ins" or "modifiers" feels the most correct so far. not sure if that's going to stick but we shall see.

[humansonairl]

hey so what does it mean if i remember switching handwriting styles (/rh). there's a handful of different handwriting i regularly rotate depending on a) the subject, b) what part of the page im on, c) my emotional/mental state, d) how interested i am in the subject, e) how much ive completed/how much work remains, etc but like. i can remember casually mixing different handwriting while writing notes and stuff in my sketchbook. it was a lot more noticeable in high school tho lol

[humansonairl]

please give me the motivation to actually lock in a build a train network in minecraft i can't keep starting new worlds