OK so I thought maybe this was a good idea and I love some feedback before I do it. I recently relapsed on hard drugs and alcohol after being sober for 6 months... I stuffer from BPD so these binges where I completely throw away my life and all the hard iv done are more common then I'd like them to be. I don't want to do it again. I hurt people I love and completely abandon my life and all of my responsibilities... Saying that I have a few photos that I think perfectly characterise the absolute chaos that occurs during these weeks where I live by the motto "we're all going to die anyway"
I'm not romanticising relapse or drug and alcohol abuse by any means. At the moment I'm a few days sober and doing everything I can to put my energy into something distracting so much so iv spent the past 2 days 10 inches away from the TV watching real housewives of New Jersey just so I can't even look around my front room to save ANY space for guilt, regret and shame..
I'm tired of trying to distract myself, I'm tired of staying awake thinking about the things that iv done and the horrific things iv said to people I want to get it off my chest.
So before I delete the many images from my camera roll.. Would you like to see them I'll display in a past to present format. From me getting a new amazing job to me now sat on my bed at 2:43am just a day shy of withdrawals.
Let me know :) please also I'm new here and I'm unaware of guidelines so if someone can let me know what I can and can't show/what trigger warnings I can post that would be really helpful.
... Super dyslexic so don't get pissed at my grammar :( for reference I'm a 24 year old girl from the South West of the UK.
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