HyperactiveHedgehog

Jami (all pronouns), aroace. adhd. loves queer podcasts, doctor who, marvel, star trek and space. usually confused. You're really welcome to talk to me but I'll probably panic and take two weeks to answer you

[supermariomamafucker]

they need to come up with more words like necrosis and miasma and mausoleum and cadaver and morose and decrepit and stuff like that just so metal bands can expand their vocabulary

[rumalas]

Drawing request from a friend. They also wanted me to include their (objectively phenominal) xanax nasa Tshirt. Its not as visible as I wanted it to be, but I'll live.

And tbf thats 100% something that Grace would wear.

Commission me! Said friend has a job and I dont, Im starting to feel the shame.

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[eatingmarkerz]

hello my beautiful flowers!!!!!!!

(honorary flower pink is here too 🩷)

[mikesmeat]

Cute fox iz cute <3

[werewolf-transgenderism]

anytime somebody handles a rare book or manuscript without gloves in a piece of media, an archivist/historian/librarian gets their wings. and approximately one william people who have never interacted with a rare book or manuscript ever in their lives emerge from the woodwork to yell about gloves

[spellinwaiting]

not many people know this but when talking about your multiple pronoun-using friend you build up a combo meter for every subsequent unique pronoun you use

[mistycatt]

Alright I’ll be honest I didn’t want to draw the feet

[wild-giggle]

I saw this post talking about Marissa, and how she only appears in one scene at the start of the book, but from the details given, she and Grace were actually pretty close. It's hard to tell, but she's in the movie, as well.

It's a blink and you'll miss it moment. It's not even technically relevant to the exposition scenes, despite her existence being created to serve that purpose. But when Grace is watching the news break, he's watching it with someone.

They're sharing earbuds. They're watching it on his phone, together. The memory is blurry- we don't catch what she looks like.

I think it's almost more devastating that she was included in such a small way than not at all; she doesn't get named, doesn't even get a full face. But sharing earbuds with someone is such an intimate thing. And there's only one character from the book it could possibly be here. Marissa manages to get even less screen time, even less consideration, in the movie than she did in the book (where it was almost non-existent to begin with). And with them sharing earbuds, it's a clear nod to the same level of friendship from the books.

It was a choice, to remove her without removing her. It fascinates me, the way the women in Grace's life take such passing roles, discarded or dismissed or left undescribed. There are almost no men in his life before his time working under PHM, and certainly barely any mention of them (the closest we get is an allusion to a college roommate, who facilitated his friendship with Marissa). All his close relationships in his life before seem to have been women (we get very little of his life before PHM, but the two people we know are Marissa and Linda, his ex), and yet by both the story and most viewers, he is seen as having no close friendships before Rocky.

Part of the tragedy in Stratt's betrayal is because he thought they were getting close. In the movie, because they almost did. In the book, because he was the backup plan all along. Rocky and Stratt play foils to each other in this way- they are so important because emotional closeness, for Grace, is a rarity. It's implied to be non-existent, in fact. Hm.

His ex-girlfriend doesn't even get a name in the film; her new boyfriend does, though.

[lily-wholockian]

ive changed my mind, mark is the funniest character in phm to me.

So hes together with linda. Its all fine. Except shes still a little hung up on her ex. Shes open about it and mark knows where hes at. and where hes at is with this amazing cool girl who has chosen him and they are so happy together. He just also knows that there was essentially nothing wrong with her ex. he was like the nicest guy imaginable. smart. good with kids. the whole damn deal. and she just broke up with him bc the relationship didnt click. on his part that is. she was ready to go all in. if it hadnt been for his emotional absence. if hed come around to that whole relationship deal that wouldve been it. (mind you, nobody in this situation is aware of ryland grace's obvious aromanticism, least of all himself). and mark knows linda isn't waiting for that anymore. thats why she broke up. thats why she went no contact, even though they got along great - but as friends, that is, while she always wanted something else. its fine with mark.

mark knows all that. and its not like he feels threatened. hes a grown man, he knows how life works and things would have been different if he had already known linda at the time. but things are as they are and even though he knows it's stupid he cant stop himself from comparing and competing, in his head, just a little bit. with this guy whose literal only flaw was commitment issues. mark has a whole bunch of flaws, tho. he's not cool. he could be a bit tidier. he's a little jealous. he's certainly not as smart as ryland. he should quit smoking. he should have a better paying job. is he even really good enough for linda? You know, normal human flaws. normal human doubts and fears. and even though things are fine and linda tells him hes just as, if not more charming, funny, smart and kind and lovely with kids that shes so looking forward to having together, mark cant help but feeling like a second choice.

time passes. maybe linda even gets over the breakup with ryland, and wants to see if they can reconnect as friends. shes sure him and mark would get along. especially once mark gets to know him and what linda means by "commitment issues" (aka off the charts aro vibes). but ryland never responds to her text. its fine. he also has a right not to want to hang out with his ex again.

except a few months later the news go public. three people sent to space to save the world, never to return home. undoubtedly heroes. one of them dr ryland grace. arguably hes the main guy, even. the one whos gonna figure it all out. and of course linda would grieve. after all she just heard that someone she cared about essentially died. died for her, in part. because hes such a great and selfless guy. and mark has to sit there, comfort her, because of course he would. he has to watch her and even help her unpack all these complicated and contradictory feeling about this guy she never quite stopped loving suddenly dying. and dying a hero, at that. and he has to not develop an inferiority complex over it. piece of fucking cake, anything else?

and linda tells mark that if anything it means shes even more certain that she wants to be with him. because hes here. mark cant help but feeling like thats a low bar. not really anything to do with him. not really a choice he made. or even a failure of rylands he gets to exploit. and linda also says shes glad shes with mark now bc at least its her ex whos gone off to die in space and not her partner. and of course what she means by that is "im glad the person by my side right now is someone i can rely on" but its not how it comes out. its not what mark hears. its not what the jealousy hes trying to suppress wants him to hear.

and no matter where he goes, he sees this fucking guy's face everywhere. hes a celebrity. hes a hero. hes humanity's last hope. and mark hates him. and he cant even say that out loud because its ridiculous. "oh i hate him bc hes my wife's ex" you cant just say that without looking like a prick. it's an insane statement. thats dr ryland grace you're talking about! and he cant even call him his wife's shitty ex bc he just wasnt. he never in his life was the "shitty" ex boyfriend. linda wouldnt want him to say that. he wouldnt want to lie like that. and thats what he hates about him most. that hes not allowed to hate him. ryland grace literally never did anything wrong in his entire life and it pisses him off so much. just a perfect little guy that everyone loves. and he can never be like him.

[elrondsscribe]

Considering what I know of Canon Grace so far, I’m totally not shocked that his relationship with his girlfriend didn’t work out.

(Sidebar: babes we need to have an honest reckoning with the state of the representation convo, especially wrt fandom Tumblr and similar spaces. I’ve heard people on this webbed site claim this man as aroace rep, and I love that for Film Grace. But the thing I must stress about Canon Grace is that he’s an insufferable ass written by an author who does not realize he’s an insufferable ass. I promise I promise I promise — there’s no canon information so far about why Canon Grace and Linda didn’t work out, but I promise it wasn’t because Linda was an Evil Neurotypical Hetero-Allosexual Normie who failed to love and accept and affirm a neurodivergent aroace icon for the gem that he was. Canon Grace is an asshole, and sure you can argue that aroace rep needs assholes too, but peep what I said about him being an asshole whose assholery is framed as righteous suffering.)

But on this next one I broke. I cackled out loud in my bedroom. What do you MEAN, we got an unironic Women Be Shopping (or at least own too many shelves full of stuff they bought while shopping)??

[mimblizzy]

Your ex has been shot into space to save the sun. Your new boyfriend Mark has just been left on Mars as his mission to find resources to prevent earth from cooling took a horrbile turn.

Your name is Linda and some woman named Eva Stratt has just handed you two nickles.

[teaseawrites]

can you guys tell that i love marissa. we love you marissa!!! but also i'm now thinking about marissa thinking the silence from grace after he's put on the hail mary is normal until she realises it's not. and then she blames herself for not noticing sooner for years. haha this is fine

okay but mark getting with linda to spite grace feels very YESSSSS. no wonder grace avoids dating because it ended in a trainwreck in MULTIPLE ways the first time he tried it!!! anyway i love taking crumbs of what was provided in phm canon and fleshing them out, especially when it comes to the women

[rooji-r]

[sunflowerbutch]

nothing will remind you that eating is good and okay like fantasy books will. “and that night in the valley they brought out the best plum cake and sweet cream, trout and turnips roasted over the fire, mead and goatsmilk and fresh cold water from the spring-“ and it’s like yeah dude you’re absolutely right. then sometimes it’s like “as he slept that night in the woods, he sorely missed the valley, where they brought out the best plum cake-“ and it’s like man that sucks i’ll have some seconds in his honor

[adonischildsupportcase]

[raphalorem]

giving simon wormhole-opening powers so grace can send an instant probe once they're on erid and inflict more psychic damage on the og petrova task force

[brightmouth-deactivated20230417]

My spouse and I just had one of those “wait your brain works HOW?” exchanges, and now I am BURNING TO KNOW HOW IT WORKS FOR OTHER PEOPLE:

Fellow speakers of this feral bastard language (English), rb and tell me in the tags: what is the delineation for you, if any, between evening and night?