Not all those who wander are lost.

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"There is no doubt that I have lots of words inside me; but at moments, like rush-hour traffic at the mouth of a tunnel, they jam."

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#HelloDubai: Good walk + Coffee

Going out alone isn’t so bad after-all. A good walk and a cup of coffee is more than enough to release stress, it’s enough to turn a bad day into a good one.

I should probably do this more often. Winter season, come quick!

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Day In The Life | 082514: All I Know Is That I Don't Know

It’s one of those mornings where I ask myself hard questions about life. I worry about the future. I question the present.

I am having random anxiety attacks and it has been going for months now. I am not sure about my stand in this world. I am not sure if I am in the right place. I don’t know whether the decisions I’ve made in the past is right. I don’t know if this is what I really want. I don’t know if this is what’s going to make me happy. All I know is that I don’t know.

As I sip my Chai Tea Latte, I am hoping that each sip is equivalent to my anxiety. I take each of it and digest it in my system. I feel the heat running down my throat and savor the taste. I wish that a happy life is as simple as having your hot cup of coffee or tea in the morning.

As days passed by, I can’t help but overanalyze things. All these changes, how life moves so fast, I am still in my adjustment period. I am still trying to grasp reality. I am still trying to make my way. I am still trying to fit in. Cause there were days that I feel like I don’t belong. I crave for fulfillment. It feels like I am not productive enough and the more I stay in this place, the more my life stays stagnant.

I wish someone could tell me what to do. I wish there is some kind of driving lesson I could enroll to, only that I don’t need to learn how to drive a car, but I need to learn how to drive this life.

It’s crazy. I just hope for the best. I worry like a granny worry about everything. For Pete’s sake, I’m 24. I am supposed to be enjoying life. Not worry about life.

*sigh*

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Day In The Life | 082414: (OVER)THINK.

There were times that you’ll get stuck in the middle of nowhere. Confused as to whether take a step or back out. Life can sometimes appear as a maze , but believe that you’ll find your way.

In times like this, it’s nice to have someone who will pull you back to reality and will make you feel that you are not alone in this journey. Someone who will assure you that everything will be okay. Oftentimes, all we want is an assurance.

After-work free time was spent working on something that I love. Our project is to reach another milestone and it feels awesome and overwhelming at the same time. Too overwhelming that I feel scared that it might fail. But screw fear, we’ll never know unless we try. What’s important is that we believe in this.

We ended the night nicely. We had a home-cooked dinner. Mom and John did the preparation while I wait like a Queen. Lol. I like seeing them bonding in the kitchen that’s why I didn’t bother getting in between. Specially John, who doesn’t really do such things.  Nothing beat dinners at home with people you love.

Good night, indeed.

xx

[iamjeantherese]

Tell me..

Sometimes I get caught up with the uncertainty of today and the future. What am I doing with my life? What am I going to do with my life? What do I want? Is this what I really want? Am I on the right path? What’s my future going to be? Am I going to be successful? Or I am doomed to failure? Questions that I need answers or else I’ll be suffering from daily panic attacks.

  It was just one of those days wherein I worry about everything in life and it’s slowly killing me. I’m scared that I am taking the wrong road. That I’ll be reaching the end of the road and there’s no way out. After-all the hard work, the next question is, what now?

  Just like everyone else, I am scared of the future.

  All I wanna do now is go home, bury myself under the sheets, and dream about the future – a beautiful future.

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All A Girl Needs In Life

All a girl needs in life on a lonely Saturday night. The only thing that is missing are a bottle of Vodka and Zac Efron (okay fine. i’d rather share all of these with you than Zac).

Oh. Funny stuff. I was alone at the kitchen, eating Ben & Jerry’s, when my housemate saw me. I was like, “Yeah. Depressed lang ang peg ko tonight.” lol

Lalala.. Good night! xx

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Day In The Life | 082314: It's All About Sharing

Today, I met with fellow start-up friends who has the desire to give back by helping other people. It’s really different when you’re talking to people who has the same drive and passion. It motivates me more to do better and to continue the good stuff that I am brewing. It’s all about doing something great.

We met to finalize some stuff about the project we are working on. We have something great cooking and I am really excited about this. If ever, this is going to be my debut in Dubai; the first event that I am going to be a part of. It feels so good to actually be part of something great. I am lucky and blessed to have met these people who would love to share their talents and time for a cause.

We ended our day the Mexican way. We had a 4pm lunch (super late!) at some restaurant in JLT and I had Enchiladas which I was able to finish and that is an achievement. lol. It was delicious, anyways.

It was a great day! I love productive weekends like this!

xx

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Pagbigyan Mo Na Ako. Kahit Ngayon Lang.

Tanginang feelings yan. Kayang sirain ang magandang araw. Kayang palungkutin ang masayang mundo. Kayang sirain ang magandang relasyon. Kayang wasakin ang mundo.

Tanginang feelings yan. Kailangan bang uminom ng 100 tableta ng pain reliever, mawala lang ang sakit? May injection ba para mawala ang bakterya ng emosyon? May magic spell ba para makalimot?

Tanginang feelings yan. Minsan hindi ka makakain kahit masarap ang ulam. Hindi ka makatulog kahit antok na antok ka na at malambot ang kama. Hindi ka makangiti kahit lahat ng komedyante ay nagbitaw ng joke ng sabay sabay.

Tanginang feelings yan. Kaya mong lokohin ang sarili mo. Kaya mong magtanga tangahan.

Tanginang feelings yan. Nakakapikon. Nakakaasar. Nakakabwiset. Para bang isang club sa unibersidad na wala kang choice kundi mag-member. Bawal mag-quit. Required maramdaman.

Tanginang feelings yan!

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Day In The Life | 082214: Rainbow Loom Bands

There will always be a kid in me. Loom Bands mania is almost gone, but it’s just now that I started going gaga over it. I’ve been wanting to buy a set for quite some time now, but all I see were expensive ones sold online. Until my officemate told me that she saw one in some thrifty shop and so I asked her to buy it for me.

The box has been sitting on my Raskog for almost 3 weeks now and it’s just today that I decided to open it and try making one. I searched for some tutorial on YouTube. I stumbled upon this Starburst Rainbow Loom Band tutorial. It’s a little intermediate for a beginner like me, but I still gave it a try.

The tutorial video is like 17 minutes long and that alone makes me feel lazy. And it’s not easy, ha. It’s so complicated. And you have to be careful or else your band might break.

Not bad for a first timer. :)

Taaa-daaah! I’m not gonna wear this though. Might keep it or give it to someone. Or I can keep it and just put it on one of my pencil holder bottles.

I enjoyed it so I made another one. This time it’s a Bubblegum Ice Cream charm which I used as a keychain.

Then a popsicle.

I wanted to make another one, a heart charm. But the process is way too complicated. I actually feel like I’m over this whole loom band thing. I’d rather paint. So.. I might give this to my sister instead though I don’t think she has the patience and will to do it. Lol.

Anyways, at least I was able to try. Nevertheless, it was fun.

xx

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Flashback Friday: You'll Always Be My Little Girl

December 2013 | Batangas, PH

One of our last moments and last photos together before I left for Dubai. These are a few of my favorite photos of us. It captured our sisterly love and how vain we are together. You will always be my little girl and I miss you a lot - I should've snuck you on my suitcase.

Love you, steelbitchy ! ♥

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Throwback Thursday: Circa 2006

Throwback entry featuring ze college friends. Back to the days where we still do studio shots (Tronix days!). Nene days, indeed. No shame in posting. Actually, I don't get where'd we get our inspiration for this pose - we look cute and happy though. Anyways, spot me. I look like a malnourished kid who hasn't have sleep for like 3 days straight. Also, I have to point out my invisible brows which made me look like an alien. lol

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This photo was stolen from makateggy (who, apparently has a lot of throwback bullets ready for posting) and vintage-y film edit by moi. Thanks, tegs! Miss you all! xx

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Day In The Life | 082114: Lola on a weekend night

It was a normal day at work, nothing special. Social Media from 9 to 6 and a little laughter shared with colleagues about this and that.

I ate a lot of Digestive biscuits today (Thanks, Lara!) and had 2 cups of coffee and yet I still feel sleepy. I’m still on my diet. Not that kind of diet that you’re thinking. I don’t starve myself. I eat what I want, though I am trying not to eat rice. Also, not the kind of trying to be in shape by working out till I feel dead tired. I do running and pilates sometimes, but that’s it. I might do yoga soon, too.

Told you. Normal day.

As of writing, I just got home and changed to my PJs right away. It’s Thursday and others are prepping up for their night out. And being the lola that I am, who is already home at 6PM on a weekend, is planning to spend her night watching random movies online, or catching up on TV series, then will most probably continue reading Attachments and might do a DIY Facial Mask and manicure before hitting the sack.

Sounds like a great night, right?

xx

[iamjeantherese]

Ayumi had a great emptiness inside her, like a desert at the edge of the earth. You could try watering it all you wanted, but everything would be sucked down to the bottom of the world, leaving no trace of moisture. No life could take root there. Not even birds would fly over it. What had created such a wasteland inside Ayumi, only she herself knew. No, maybe not even Ayumi knew the true cause. As if to build a fence around the fatal emptiness inside her, she had to create the sunny person that she became. But if you peeled away the ornamental egos that she had built, there was only an abyss of nothingness and the intense thirst that came with it. Though she tried to forget it, the nothingness would visit her periodically - on a lonely rainy afternoon, or at dawn when she woke from a nightmare. What she needed at such times was to be held by someone, anyone.

- Haruki Murakami, 1Q84 

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When I met you in summer.

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Day In The Life | 082014: "Where's the good in goodbye?"

It’s indeed true that if you want to talk things over, better do it with a cup of coffee. Or in our case, a cup of chai tea latte for me and fruit shake for my friend.

We need something chill because we both know that it’s going to be a looongggtalk.

Being in a complicated situation sucks. I don’t know why we often choose to be in that circle. Like how did I end up in that circle? Because I abhor complications and yet it clings on to me like a crying baby. Also, I hope that settling an issue is as easy one, two, three, but it isn’t. It’s not like you can sleep on it and then when you wake up, the solution to your dilemma is served like breakfast in bed.

Relationship (in general) can be difficult. I just hope that things will get better and whatever issues we have will be done.

Also..

Sometimes all you need to do is find the good in goodbye.

After-all, life goes on.

Let go. Move on.

xx

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081814

Feelings is something you can’t control. When love chooses you, you have no option but to take it; you can’t run away from it. It is not forced nor taught, it is felt. Like a magical feeling. Love is the most amazing feeling in the world, yet the most painful at the same time. And you will not agree unless you’ve felt what true love is like.

Love is all about finding the right person at the right time; and it’s not that easy to find. Timing can be a total bitch. You either meet the right person at the wrong time or the wrong person at the right time. If only Cupid really exist. If only Cupid can hit your hearts perfectly bulls-eye. Then I guess divorce or broken heart would never exist.

But there’s no Cupid. Or a store where you can buy love and return if there’s a damage or whatnot. Love doesn’t work that way. Lucky are you if you find your true love at first try, but often times you fall in love with a number of people and yes, you’ll get your heart broken over and over again that you sometimes find yourself on the verge of giving up on love.

Love and pain always come together. When you love, emotions will be invested. Pain demands to be felt. It is like death; it’s inevitable. But one thing is for sure, it’s all worth it.

Never give up on love. If finding true love means getting your heart broken a thousand times, then so be it. Because when you finally found the one, all the pains you’ve known will be gone. Cliche as it may seem, but you’ll realize why everything didn’t work out in the past. They say that hope is addictive, so what? Know that there’s someone meant for you. You ask, what are the odds of meeting the one? Only God knows. Your fairy tale has already been written.You just have to believe.

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