Updates
It’s been a while my dear readers. I hate to admit that I haven’t had a lot of time to write. In my life lately things have been full speed ahead. There were a few things that prompted me to write this post, not just because I am behind in posts, but because I really think my life has changed so much since I started this journey in January. Wow, can you believe that? It’s been 11 months. This morning I ran my 9th 5k. It was a doozy. I have race reviews coming for my last four races soon. However last night was a real eye opener on things have have changed in my life. On the night before my 2nd 5k, my ex was a huge jerk to me. I don’t remember what happened, and honestly I don’t care to remember. However, I know that I was up late crying and the next day I ran one of my worst races to date. I don’t mean time wise the worst race ever, because my worst race time ever was actually one of my favorite race experiences. However, my head was not in the game. My Gazelle Girl 5k was awful. Last night, I was in bed talking on the phone with my new boyfriend, and I was thinking about how much my life has changed. Yes, for all you Nosy Nancy’s I do have a new boyfriend, we have been dating for just over two months and he is amazing. He is funny and smart and most important, kind. I think about the first time I ran in 2018. I had gone to Planet Fitness and decided that I was going to run. I got on a treadmill with absolutely no knowledge of what I was doing. I ran about 20 minutes of interval training and it was sloppy.
I was telling my awesome coworker A about how every new years, I theme the upcoming year. In 2017 was supposed to be the year of fiscal responsibility. It was supposed to be the year I got my shit together. My ex and I had a wedding to pay for. I’m serious, we were planning on getting married. When we went and visited my parents in February of 2017, he suggested that we get married while we were there. I thought that we were going to be together forever and that all the problems we had in the past, all the lying and fighting would end once were closed the distance and lived together. When he decided not to move in, 12 hour before we supposed to sign a lease together, 2017 went from the year of fiscal responsibility to “2017- Get me out of this dumpster fire.” The rest of 2017 was a mess, emotionally, physically after I broke my ankle, and financially. 2018 was the year of forward progress and I wasn’t going to let that shit from the year before hold me back. I didn’t want to keep gaining weight. I didn’t want to keep losing the battle with depression. I didn’t know what progress was going to look like. It turned out to be running.
I haven’t been running as much in the second half the year as the first. My training time really got cut down. The crazy thing about having a partner who actually wants to see you, is that suddenly you both before very busy. I’ve also been teaching a class this semester at my university which I have loved and I have been very lucky to do. I went to a conference in October. I have a group of women in my life that I play DnD with. Sometimes we just hang out and knit or talk. It’s November, which is National Novel Writing Month, and this month I will be writing 50 thousand words in a mystery novel I’ve been dreaming up for months. My non-biological sister has been kicking butt since buying a house and its been cool to be on the sidelines helping and cheering her on when needed. At the start of the year running was filling a gap in my life that has since been filled by races, new friends, experiences and an amazing partner. If you would have asked me a year ago what I thought today would look like, this isn’t what I would have told you. However, this is so much better than anything I could have imagined.
<3 more to come soon!










