DEATH BY 1000 HAMMERS

SHRIMPO’S SIDEBLOG FROM THE ARACHNID PARTY. NOT A RP, NOT A KINSHIFTER. POSERGENICS AND THEIR ILK DONT EVEN LOOK AT ME. ICON BY @MICHIDASEC ON PINTREST

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INTRO POST

I AM SHRIMPO (HE/IT.) I MADE THIS BLOG BECAUSE I CRAVE FREEDOM AND ALSO IF I DON’T STOP DRAGGING US INTO DISCOURSE I THINK THEY’RE GOING TO FIND A WAY TO MAKE SYSTEM HOPPING REAL AND KICK ME OUT FOR GOOD

I’M PROBABLY A PERSECUTOR BUT I’M IN HELL SO I DON’T REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW.

I’M NOT GOOD WITH IMAGE ID’S SO IF YOU USE A SCREEN READER I’M NOT SURE HOW ACCESSIBLE MY BLOG WILL BE. I WILL ALWAYS TRY TO REBLOG POSTS WITH ID’S ADDED, ADD ID’S TO POSTS WITH TYPING QUIRKS, AND WILL MAKE AN ATTEMPT TO ID MY STUFF. LET ME KNOW IF I FUCK UP ON ANY OF THIS AND I’LL FIX IT WHEN I CAN

ABOUT ME

I’M ONE OF THE HOSTS(?) IN A MEDICALLY RECOGNIZED CDID/POLYFRAGMENTED DID SYSTEM. I AM BODILY 19 AND I AGE WITH THE BODY. I AM LIKELY INTERSEX BUT MY EXACT VARIATION IS UNKNOWN. SUSPECTED PMOS AND AT THE VERY LEAST HYPERANDROGYNISM. WE HAVE REALLY BIG AMNESIAC BARRIERS SO I MIGHT NOT RECOGNIZE YOU IMMEDIATELY. I AM ORIENTED AROACE AND A NONBINARY MAN. ASK ME TO ELABORATE AND I’LL KILL YOU.

I AM PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DISABLED CANE USER ALTHOUGH I SHOULD BE USING CRUTCHES. I HAVE CHRONIC PAIN AND COMPLAIN ABOUT IT A LOT. I AM ALSO SCHIZOSPEC AND WILL TALK ABOUT IT. IF THIS MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF.

I CONSIDER MYSELF A FEMINIST AND BELIEVE STRONGLY IN EQUALITY FOR EVERYONE. WOMEN’S RIGHTS ARE MY RIGHTS TOO. BIOESSENTALISTS WILL DIE BY MY BLADE.

DESPITE BEING (OBVIOUSLY) AN INTROJECT I DO NOT LIKE BEING TREATED LIKE A CHARACTER OR WITH FAMILIARITY BY OTHER INTROJECTS OF THE SAME SOURCE. I DO NOT KNOW YOU. WE ARE STRANGERS. (I AM OPEN TO BEING FRIENDS THOUGH.) I DO NOT LIKE THE TERM FICTIVE EITHER BECAUSE IM NOT FICTIONAL IN ANY WAY. DON’T USE IT TO REFER TO ME. (I DON’T GIVE A SHIT IF YOU USE IT THOUGH TO EACH THEIR OWN.)

I AM WAITING FOR MORE INFORMATION TO COME OUT BEFORE I MAKE A HARD STANCE BUT AS OF NOW I DO NOT SUPPORT QWELVER AND DO NOT PLAY DANDYS WORLD ANYMORE.

HOBBIES:

-> HITTING THINGS

-> GAMING

-> BIRDWATCHING. I JUST THINK THEY’RE NEAT

-> READING

-> MARINE BIOLOGY

-> ART

DNI

-> TRANSANDROPHOBES/TRANSMISOGYNISTS/EXORSEXISTS (I ADVOCATE FOR MY RIGHTS BUT THE MOMENT YOU COME FOR MY SISTERS I WILL BEAT YOU WITH A STEEL CHAIR)

-> INTERSEXISTS

-> “NARCISSISTIC ABUSE” BELIEVERS

-> PRO ENDO/WILLOS. THEY ORIGINATED AS A HATE GROUP AND CERTAINLY HAVEN’T STOPPED BEING ONE.

-> RADQ , ANTI RECOVERY, AND THEIR ILK. NON RQ PARAPHILES ARE FINE THOUGH I LOVE YOU GUYS WE ARE TADC

-> PEOPLE WHO ENGAGE IN SHIP DISCOURSE. ALL OF YOU ARE ANNOYING.

-> QUEER EXCLUSIONISTS

ABOVE ALL ELSE I AM ANTI HARASSMENT. IF YOU BREAK MY DNI I WILL NOT ENGAGE WITH YOU I’M JUST GOING TO SCREENSHOT YOU FOR MY HALL OF SHAME AND THEN BLOCK YOU. DO NOT TRY TO CHANGE MY MIND.

NAVIGATION

-> #HISSY FIT 🍤 : RANT/DISCOURSE/COMPLAINING. NEGATIVE POSTS IN GENERAL

-> #SHRIMPO SPEAKS 🍤 : TEXT POSTS AND ASKS

-> #SHRIMPO APPROVED 🍤 : REBLOGS

DIVIDERS MADE BY @/STRANGERGRAPHICS.

[akankun]

The amount of people who are unaware that blackouts are not that common - even for full DID systems - especially out of a specific situation; and as a result minimalize their own very much problematic amnesia, or apologize before they complain about their own amnesia, is geniunely saddening. Regardless of how many people black out or not, if it's disrupting your daily life on a regular basis YES you have amnesia.

[nocturnalsymphonette]

i think some of u are kinda shitty towards systems with low headcounts.

i get high headcounts are... DIFFICULT. but for the love of god please stop putting down other systems at your own expense. it fucks us up really bad that just because there's less of us, people think we "have it easy".

[mogai-reblog]

Radnormal is so culturally christian it hurts. The idea that redeeming oneself is something you 'earn'/can be given comes from christianity. No one is irredeemable because anyone and everyone can work towards bettering themselves which is what redeeming oneself is. Its compensating for the faults and bad actions that one has done.

To say that theres a group of people who cannot ever do any good, who cannot ever reduce the bad they did in the past, is to say that there are groups of people who are inherently evil and that no matter what they do, even if they donate like a million dollars to charity, that their actions are 'tainted'.

And to equate fiction and kink between consenting adults to actual real child and animal abuse is frankly disgusting and just goes to show how much people totally 100% care about victims. And the assumption that 'child predators' and 'pedophiles' are a circle (something that was btw constructed by homophobes and transphobes because they believe that all gay and trans people are pedophiles and that all pedophiles must also be child predators and vice versa) and not a venn diagram with the smallest little overlap in the world doesn't help anyone. Especially because it positions abuse (of which having sex with a child is always abuse and always rape) as something that's done out of love and attraction and not something that's done because child predators want to feel powerful and in control of something and the easiest target to feel that power and control is by abusing kids.

[mogai-reblog]

"radnormals will still think of non-contact harmful paraphiles as potentially dangerous"

I can't believe I even have to say this but believing that an entire group of disordered individuals are all 'potentially dangerous' (and really, I've looked through the radnormal tags and you don't see people with paraphiliac disorders as 'potentially dangerous' you see them as inherently dangerous who should all self isolate or even better, all kill themselves) is quite literally fascist rhetoric.

[angelandreus]

it is so vile to me that whenever I like a post criticizing transmisogyny tumblr immediately assumes i want to see posts degrading trans men. it’s so transmisogynistic to think that anyone who supports trans women hates trans men. genuinely distressing.

[faggotette]

would i be crazy if i said i think tumblr might be purposefully pushing the hateful minority of transfeminists - who as a group are overwhelmingly positive - onto people’s feeds in order to manufacture a division between transfems and the rest of the trans community so that other trans people are less likely to care about, and maybe even justify as i have occasionally seen, the systemic targeting of transfems by tumblr staff?

[hazedxg0]

You know, I really don't like how much of "syscourse" is actually just grown adults intentionally misrepresenting scientific literature and making fallacious arguments to teenagers who are too young to realize that's what they're doing.

Are you "owning the anti-endos" or are you just trying to publicly humiliate a literal child with arguments that would be get you laughed at if you made them in an actual academic setting?

[hazedxg0]

Honestly, if you're a minor you should probably just block any adult who comes onto your blog unprompted to debate you about this stuff. An adult who's looking for a productive conversation won't seek out a child for that. An adult who's looking for an inexperienced target to embarrass in order to make the opposing viewpoint look stupid will, though.

[the-laverre-gym]

Who up in Krill mode 🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐🦐

[hazedxg0]

Reminder that alters can only split from trauma. Alters are highly complex dissociative compartmentalizations of traumatic memory that are reliant on PTSD in order to exist on a neuropsychological level. Your brain cannot compartmentalize a trauma memory if there is no trauma memory to compartmentalize.

Alters and the self-states that make up PTSD develop from the same process, just on different levels of complexity. If it were possible to split alters without trauma it would also have to be possible to develop PTSD without trauma, which it obviously isn't.

And importantly, splitting because of stress is not an exception to this.

The development of alters and PTSD is tied to a person's integrative capacity, which is made up of their mental energy and mental efficacy (ability to use that energy effectively).

When both of these are high, the person will easily be able to integrate their experiences even if those experiences are stressful or frightening. When both are low, the person will lose their ability to engage in more high level integrative actions, making them more vulnerable to structural dissociation until their integrative capacity recovers.

Chronic stress lowers a person's integrative capacity and prevents it from regenerating, and as a result people who have experienced complex trauma (which is required for the development of DID) tend to be stuck in a constant state of low mental energy and efficacy.

As such, if you have already been severely traumatized over and over, you are much more vulnerable to being traumatized again, even in response to things that a non-traumatized person would likely be able to cope with. This is what people commonly refer to as the "window of tolerance".

However, when that threshold is crossed, it is still a trauma response even if we wouldn't traditionally call the event that caused it "trauma". Neuropsychologically speaking, the exact same process of developing PTSD for the first time is happening when you split because of stress. Trauma is still trauma to your body and mind even if you're choosing not to label it that way.

Saying that alters can split without trauma because of stress is misinformation, because the entire point of the window of tolerance is that it is easier to become traumatized when in a state of chronic stress.

[tailshas2tails]

So how many times did we get traumatized if we have fragments in the billions just hanging out here

I’m wondering if this means splitting a new identified alter or if this has anything to do with fragmentation of if it’s a different thing entirely

Because I don’t know, it was OEA so many we did split billions of times. Makes sense to me.

I saw someone say in a study dissociation causes it too. How is dissociation traumatizing? Isn’t that the coping mechanism? So I’m curious on your thoughts on that

[hazedxg0]

In short: a single traumatic event can cause a person to split more than once if the event is severe enough and the person's distress tolerance is low.

The majority of parts in people with high fragment counts are what's called parallel and sequential parts. These develop when a traumatic event is so distressing and overwhelming that a single EP cannot contain all aspects of the event, and so multiple form instead.

Parallel parts refer to multiple EPs that hold different "sides" of the same traumatic event. The most common form of this are observing and experiencing EPs, where one part remembers the visual and auditory components of the event but is severely emotional disconnected from it, and another part vividly remembers the physical sensations and emotions of the event but lacks logical understanding of the event.

Parallel structural dissociation can be more complex than this as well, such as splitting one part for the sights, one for the sounds, one for the physical sensations and one for the emotions. Potentially even more if these different "sub-aspects" of the event are traumatic enough.

In addition to this, there is also sequential parts that hold different "stages" of the event. For example one part for the beginning, one for the "peak" of the trauma, and one for recovering after the fact. You can also have parallel and sequential structural dissociation occurring at the same time, and therefore split multiple sets of EPs for different aspects of the event at multiple different stages of the event.

People with high fragment counts also tend to have a higher number of ANPs as well, due them to the traumatic nature of their lives leading to them compartmentalizing the functions of daily life into much smaller fragments. This occurs in a similar to fashion to what's described above, with multiple ANP fragments fronting at the same time or in quick succession.

As for "dissociation causing it", dissociation is the mechanism behind splitting if that's what you mean. You can't split if you don't dissociate. Dissociation also makes a person more vulnerable to being traumatized, due to it involving constantly low levels of mental energy and efficacy that prevents otherwise allow healthy processing of distressing events.

The chronic flashbacks and internal conflicts experienced by those with structural dissociation may also build up to trauma in some cases, especially combined when with other stressors.

Hopefully all of that makes sense.

[fontainians]

No anti endos aren’t a cult. no pro endos aren’t a cult. making claims that an opinion is a cult without any backing in a space with a lot of mentally ill people is beyond unhelpful it is genuinely so dangerous

and hell, even if they were a cult, then that means you should be treating the members in the geoup with the patience, kindness and awareness you would treat cult victims, because surely you just want to help them and don’t just want to cause paranoia in a mental health space, right????

while i see this sentiment mostly in the pro endos who have stuck their head further up their ass than the rest of their club, i have seen this stuff echoed sometimes in anti endo communities and i need you guys to knock it off

[mousepal]

This websites like We gotta destroy capitalism We gotta end racism We gotta create Community. And then want to kill you for being loud outside.

[hagiomoto]

This website is a suburb

[ihateblogurls]

SAW SOMEONE UNIRONICALLY HAVE THE TAKE "OBJECTUMS ARE WEIRD/PROBLEMATIC BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE IDENTIFY AS NONHUMAN" AND HAD TO TAKE A MOMENT TO CATCH MY BREATH FROM LAUGHING THAT HARD

[yorgen-sh]

The Chinese shoe manufacturer decided to demonstrate the indestructibility of their shoes

[scarlettohairdye]

And also the indestructibility of that woman's ankles

[teaboot]

This is Peak Yuri media and I hope my beautiful feral daughters love each other forever

[disgustinggf]

[dogpuppy]

[ihateblogurls]

I’M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN

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