letters from the kingdom of the sick @iluvgargoyles - Tumblr Blog

My side blog:

cataloguing the limits of the map 🗺️

#pinned #where the street view ends

ozempicofficial

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gnossienne

Mahmoud Darwish, Journal of an Ordinary Grief (يـومـيـات الـحـزن الـعـادي), 1973

geopsych

Take a deep breath and watch the mist roll over the lake with crickets and an oriole, a frog and one or two other things doing commentary

August 2022

In July and August 2020 after I drove back down to St. Louis from Montana I moved into an apartment in my college's co-op that was one floor above the one I'd be living in that coming school year. I guess I disliked the vibes in the bedrooms (one medium, one tiny) so much for no specific reason that I unfolded the shitty navy blue daybed in the living room (it really did just kind of unfold, don't know how to describe it--it was more like an upholstered gym mat than a piece of furniture with joints and parts) and slept on that in front of a huge white box fan with all the windows and the door to the deck open (A/C off, bug screens closed) for the rest of the summer. I couldn't explain why I didn't like the bedrooms, had never had that reaction to any part of a home before. People were genuinely worried about me because of this set up with the heat, but it was supremely peaceful and worked very well. Later, in the middle of a severe pain episode that forced me into one of the beds, I looked up at the ceiling in the tiny bedroom and saw a massive amount of black mold that had not been visible when I moved in. So I did end up getting diagnosed with endometriosis but I DIDN't end up with mold poisoning. The end.

#the journal factory exploded #I miss my old life all the good all the bad #summer #endo #endometriosis