it's merely an outlet . . .

...of expression.bay area.your ethiopian deity. HOLLA / XOXO

[ilybethany]

It’s always when my heart aches from the secret pains it burdens that I find hope in a shooting star, tonight was a little green one.

[sunmystic]

[ilybethany]

I saw a bright green shooting star at work last night :)

[red-lamb]

[pickypicnic]

[sowecoulddance]

its christmas eve and look whos on tumblr

all of us

[sharper-and-bigger]

Jesus also spent Christmas in a barn full of animals

[ilybethany]

Sometimes I feel the hardship of not have a normal living space the most when I want to flesh out a business idea. It’s too much for my whole life to fit in my bedroom for rent. It’s not even a real bedroom. Just a first floor office room with a bed in it. It’s got everything crammed into it. My work kit, my bed, a desk, a fridge, a dresser, a clothing rack and a little tv table I put my laptop on top of to watch crunchyroll and eat. I feel pressed sometimes bc I feel like I sleep in a storage unit, but at least I’m not homeless. I know what couch surfing feels like. And after all this time, it’s still me, the moon, and my space heater. I’m getting older and the truth is that I feel like I’m sinking. I know my days are numbered because of this disease but I feel like I can’t get ahead. My biggest regret is that I didn’t run away the moment I turned 18. I just didn’t have the heart to leave my sisters behind. In this world I did not have any other family. The isolation I faced as an adolescent left me alone and with no way to find any help to escape. I live to make the young me feel like the things I when through meant something. It wasn’t a complete loss but a valuable price to get me where I am today. I don’t know how I’m going to make it. I’m not sure if I’m ever gonna have any of my dreams come to pass, but it won’t matter. In the end I am going to have built a beautiful life for myself, even if nobody ever cared.

One day I’ll be home for Christmas.

[wmlz]

[itsexclusive]

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

I do not want the ai overview. I want to read six wikipedia pages as god intended.

[theconcealedweapon]

[ruinedchildhood]

BLACK FRIDAY BEFORE 2020

BLACK FRIDAY AFTER 2020

[kosmogrl]

[uncleromeo]

the internet becomes a wild place when its almost time to pay rent and buy christmas presents all in the same week.

[ilybethany]

A year ago I received a diagnosis of a rare disease that has changed my life.

So much has changed, both for the better and for the worse. The truth is I am so proud of myself for the way I advocate for me and my determination to push forward. The bad news is that this disease has muscular, skin, and skeletal complications so it’s taken me so long to build my strength up to even walk around without pain or being so winded. I still struggle with the grief of my life ending as I knew it, but at least I’m still alive.

I have never been so grateful in my life to be alive. Nothing like really being reminded of your mortality and the looming idea that I might not live to see 40 to really get myself out there and live life to the fullest. I wake up everyday grateful, knowing there are no redos of life. This is the one life I have and I have to make it count.

Thank you God for watching over me. I see your favor over me in spite of everything trying to tear me down.

You always guide my steps.

[chuuzus]

RIP D’Angelo 🕊️

[beatbizzle]

I overheard a woman at my job say "Your whole personality revolves around what you hate instead of what you love and thats an awful way to live." to the resident vocal Maga in the breakroom.

He was stunned into silence for at least 60 seconds so that was nice.

[ilybethany]

Lemme jot that down…