my random life

| 21 years old || she/her |

[im-sleepingbeauty]

just read a fic that could have been written by rachel reid herself with how “ilya is perceptive/observant and shane is dumb” it was … worst part is that it didn’t really come out until the last two chapters…

will be more careful when reading future fics 😔

[im-sleepingbeauty]

i lowkey hate when fics take (honestly) ANYTHING away from shane hollander. like im sorry. HIS ROOKIE OF THE YEAR TROPHY???? ANY OF HIS STANLEY CUPS 😭😭😭😭 im so shane biased it scared me. obvi let ilya keep his things too but like DONT take anything away from MY shanebug or you will be punished. ESPECIALLY if you give it to ILYA WHO DIDNT WIN IT IN THE FORST PLACE.

i do, however, know and understand don’t like, don’t read. and i don’t read if i don’t like but i don’t like that it happens. anyway…

[im-sleepingbeauty]

and when is someone going to make the “we go way back” by noah kahan edit to hollanov??????? (below i do write out the first half of the song so…)

saw the world from up close, it ain’t much to look at compared to you in your work clothes (😭) wavin’ hello from the driveway (😭😭😭😭) i can’t make myself whole, most days you’d be lucky just go get half (😭🔫😭🔫😭🔫) you’ve seen me in places so low. you could recognize when it’s real bad. when it’s real bad. 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫

used to hate the silence. used to make me think about the old days and all the miles in my legs, the late flights and missed birthdays. out here i could hear your heartbeat, i can hear the start of a long sigh i can hear the song of the robin, i haven’t wrote my own in the long time. and it’s just fine.

cause i don’t need my name back, throw my notebook in the basement. oh i love you and i cant fake that for a moment. we go way back. tell me i don’t need options, that i have substance, that im important. if its only for letting dogs out, sweeping porches, to make me nothing take me way back. we go way back. 😢😭😩😫😖🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

😐 thats hollanov right there. im gonna cry my hollanov babies 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[lexicanons]

You know that meme that’s like “A job will have you, a 21 year old, with a 55 year old bestie” Well, AU where Ilya gets hired at the Treasury Board and quickly becomes besties with David Hollander. They’re really good at their jobs so they finish most of their work by 10:30 am and spend the rest of the day fucking around and pretending to be busy together. They get lunch together and talk shit about their boss. David tells Ilya that he’s throwing a birthday party and asks Ilya to come. “You can meet my son and talk hockey! I think you’ll like him!” Ilya decides to go and the party is in full swing when he arrives. David takes him around, introducing him to people until they make it to David’s son. David introduces him to Shane and Ilya is taken by how beautiful Shane is. He’s admiring Shane’s freckles when it dawns on him that he’s staring at THE Shane Hollander, best hockey player in the league. David told him that his son plays hockey but he never put it together that David’s Shane was THE Shane. Ilya and Shane end up in the far corner of the living room, talking all night as the party goes on around them. Years later at their wedding, during his speech, David admits to throwing the birthday party to hook Ilya and Shane up.

[ilyrozanov]

happy "slip your rival some tongue" tuesday!

[sheheatedonmyrivalry]

There is a kid out there who did every single one of his school essays and projects and short stories and friendly introductions at the beginning of the year about Shane Hollander. He did his book reports on the books Shane recommended in interviews. He saved his money to buy that stupid cologne Shane advertised. He got a puck from Shane once at warm ups and he slept with it in his bed for three weeks. He writes his moms name on his stick tape because Shane did it first. He watches the Olympics in awe. He gets into fights with kids at school about whose a better hockey player and its Shane all the way, no matter what the other kids told him or what their moms and dads said. Shane is the best.

And this kid did not have a lot of friends. His teachers thought he wasn't very smart because he made everything about hockey. And they dismissed him when he struggled with math and reading. "if you could just put some of your hockey energy into school, then maybe you would get better." His classmates laughed at the hockey themed valentines day cards him and his mom had to hand make because nowhere was selling hockey themed valentines day cards. And they laugh at him when he repeats the same thing over and over about "getting pucks deep, pucks deep, pucks deep." When he would play all by himself on the yard pretending he was skating, picking up any big stick he could find on the ground, they'd push him around. "Can we play? We'll be defenders" and ram him and take his stick. And he'd just go through all the penalties they would have just gotten over and over again until he can calm down. He celebrated every birthday at the ice rink in his full hockey gear even though he didn't really have classmates showing up. Not for lack of invite.

And his parents try to steer him away from it. They try and watch new sports, they try and get him to watch kids shows, get into things kids his age like, but all he wants to do is watch reruns of the metros cup wins. Wants to wear his hat backwards with his black shirt because that's how Shane looks in the interviews. Memorizes the answers he gives in french even though this kid never learned french in school. And its useless. This kid is hooked and they just kinda have to ride this wave.

So when the announcement comes for the Game Changers camp, these parents do absolutely everything to get him there. They don't care what it takes, this is like a light for all of them really in the midst of all the bullying at school and the meltdowns at home and the obsessive routines that fall apart if even one thing is out of place.

And they explain to the camp that their boy might have a hard time. Might need some time to adjust. That he struggles with math, and reading, and can get caught up in all the rules sometimes. Preemptively trying to say "he's not a bad kid. he's trying his best."

So at the end of the first day, his parents are prepared for a meltdown. Its new, its a lot of kids, the rink can get loud and cold, and he doesn't always do well with transitioning out of hockey. He's hard to pull off the ice at home.

And they can see some upset under the surface when they arrive. He clearly doesn't want to go home. Thats no surprise.

What is a surprise is the way Shane gets down on one knee next to where the boy is sitting upset on the ground. He doesn't move to touch him. He just gets down and the two of them softly have a chat. The boy is tugging on his hair and nodding at what Shane says. And eventually he stands and the parents walk over to them.

"You must be the parents. Its good to meet you," Shane says softly. "I was just going over some things about tomorrow. So that way he would know the schedule."

And they can see their son isn't quite happy, still clearly exhausted. He'll nap in the car and be grumpy at dinner. But he is much more regulated than they expected him to be.

"And, I was telling him about my schedule when I go home. About getting some quite time, making sure I can decompress. I think that's what all good hockey players need, right buddy?"

"Right buddy," he repeats.

And for all the understanding that seems to be there, his parents are just grateful that of all the things their kid could have a special interest in, its Shane Hollander.

[hokeypuck]

Dear Mr. Shane Hollander,

Thank you for the card you sent for my birthday. It was very nice. I have never had a hockey birthday card before, even though I have looked. I hope your birthday in August is very “n-Ice” too. My parents say that you might be too busy to have the hockey camp this year. I thought they must be wrong, because you said to me routine is very important to being a good hockey player, and you are the best hockey player, and also you promised there would be a slot for me at camp next year and you have always kept your promises to me, like that you would remember my birthday and that it gets better when you have teammates and it has.

My parents explained that you have had a very hard year, and that you might need extra time to rest from that, and you have said that it's very important that hockey players rest after doing hard things.

Please do not worry about your promise if you have to close the hockey camp. I hope you get lots of rest after your hard year. My parents have also said that we have to be careful about what TV we watch about you because some people are saying things that are not nice and we shouldn't listen to them.

People have said a lot of things about me that are not nice. When this happens, what helps most is to get on the ice and skate with people who are nice like my parents and my teammates. You should make sure you take time to skate with your parents and with Ilya Rosanov.

It also helps to hear people say nice things about you, so I want to say some nice things about you. You are my favorite hockey player and your shot is really good and so is your backchecking. You are also Tanner and Marty's favorite hockey player, even though Marty isn't supposed to like Centaurs players because his family's team is Toronto.

I don't know if Ilya Rosanov is a good hockey player, but Evan is a Raiders fans and he says he's really good and a playmaker and also really funny and also could you please tell Ilya Rosanov that from him.

Thank you again for the birthday card. Do not worry about writing me back. I hope you feel better soon.

Best wishes, Sincerely, Your biggest fan, Jack

[stabthroughme]

I need an AU where Shane and Ilya end up training together one summer, before Irina's dead, and Ilya comes over with a Russian group of players.

It would be normal for Ilya to stick with the Russian players, to keep speaking Russian and only train against the other players.

Except Ilya loves playing against Shane, and Shane's obviously been cast out to the fringes by the English and French speaking players. So Ilya pulls Shane to the Russian group.

Right to the centre of it, bc Ilya's got the same charming pull to him even as a child.

And when the other Russian players say that Shane's too weird to keep hanging out with them Ilya says "fine" and leaves with Shane.

And Yuna who's heard so often from her son's teachers that he's always been on the fringes, who's heard from Shane that he "doesn't really have any friends at school", who knows his hockey teammates still think he's weird but at least he's good and funny, gets to witness her son get chosen by someone who was pushed to choose. Even if Ilya's struggling to communicate with her and with Shane, he doesn't go back to his Russian friends.

He doesn't go the "easy" route.

I just think Ilya choosing Shane when all the other kids around them can sense the different-ness of Shane's autistic ways would be so good.

Especially when paired with them being penpals but the letters stop for a couple months and Yuna has to prepare herself to talk to Shane about how Ilya's left him too.

Shane who finds a hockey training thing in Russia for the summer, applies and is ofc accepted, and when he shows up with Yuna in tow ofc Ilya is there and he looks so so so sad.

And then Shane calls his name and Ilya looks at him with disbelief. And Shane asks if he's okay and Ilya, who's never actually lied to Shane before, tells him that Irina's dead.

Yuna watching her son hold his best friend together and telling Ilya that she's gonna look out for him now.

[im-sleepingbeauty]

and when season 2 comes out who is going to make an edit of troy barrett to dashboard by noah kahan

[hollanov-in-lov]

*Shane going completely boneless in Ilya’s hands

[omens-of-what-is-to-cum]

I'm honestly really a sucker for fics that have a much bumpier relationship between Yuna, David and Hollanov.

While I don't think either of them are bad parents (the opposite actually, I love them both), I really love reading more critical perspectives on them, and the farrr less positives ways them finding out about Ilya could have gone.

Just anything around Yuna being too manager > mom, or even insisting on matchmaking Shane, even after he tells her he's not interested. Maybe they don't approve of Ilya because of his reputation, and end up disrespecting Shane's autonomy the fact that he's an adult and can make his own decisions.

I just think that there are so many really really interesting and compelling and nuanced ways their relationship and characters could be written, and I honestly get pretty bored with the milquetoast pure positivity of fanon sometimes.

Does anyone have some good fics along these lines?

and for anyone looking for a GREAT fic that fits this (Yuna really disliking Ilya and refusing to give him a chance until Stuff happens and they bond, ending with an incredible redemption arc for Yuna) here's one:

at the end of suffering, there’s a home (16132 words) by aioio Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, Yuna Hollander & Ilya Rozanov Characters: Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Yuna Hollander, David Hollander Additional Tags: Sickfic, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Grief/Mourning, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Suicide, COVID-19, Vomiting, Fever Dreams, implied child neglect, Found Family Summary: Sets during the COVID-19 pandemic. Yuna Hollander is tired, cautious, and quietly prejudiced. Ilya Rozanov is sick, far from home, and far more fragile than she’s prepared for.

[orufreyhaunting]

I need someone to write a fic where

1) Shane is moving to the Cens and it actually IS very awkward and the Cens are not lovely and wholesome right off the bat because

2) there is a widespread misunderstanding when Shane and Ilya get outed where the Cens, missing ALL of the context, are assuming that Shane must’ve been a shit partner with how rough Ilya was doing this past season and assume that Shane was *forcing* Ilya to stay closeted because he’s *ashamed* of Ilya and their relationship

3) Shane is actually pretty hurt by the Cens being cold and distant with him but doesn’t complain about it because literally everyone else ever has behaved like that towards him in his life except for Ilya, Rose, and the Pikes. He’s very much like “well well look who’s inside again” about it.

4) Ilya doesn’t realize the Cens are thinking Shane is BadTM because he’s wrapped up in how happy he is to have Shane around now. He actually does not realize any of this is happening until their first week of practice as a new team and he sees his team icing his husband out

5) Ilya tries to talk to Shane about it but Shane is very much like “don’t worry Ilya this is normal and I’m fine cause I have you” and it makes Ilya want to kill the Metros three times over

6) Shane also agrees with the Cens about himself being a shitty husband when he hears the reasoning behind their behavior. So he just decides to work hard at being a husband and a teammate and keep his head down.

7) Ilya doesn’t know what to do. Shane is adamant that he doesn’t want Ilya to confront the team and that he can’t control what others think about him and he doesn’t want it to be a big deal. But Ilya is also seeing Shane be as sad and withdrawn as he was last season and is actively getting worse- being more strict than ever about his diet, constantly working out and straining himself, being first on the ice and last to leave

8) some of the Cens slowly start realizing that they have Shane wrong over more time with him- mainly Luca, Troy, Harris, Wyatt, and Bood. But they have put walls up that they don’t know how to tear down without spooking Shane.

9) The rest of the team don’t realize how shitty this must be for Shane until the Cens go up against the Metros and they realize that they’ve been treating Shane the same way his old and terrible teams did- they watch as Shane takes scathing insults with a blank face, gets back up without a word after being smashed against the boards, gives a polite smile (the same smile he’s given them when they’re being passive aggressive) when receiving glares and threats from his ex teammates.

10) idk it can go many ways from here- Shane gets hurt and has to leave the ice and the teams finds him genuinely upset and they all have a confrontation- or the Metros target Ilya and the Cens see Shane lose his shit and how in love and protective he is- or the Cens stop icing him out after this and slowly start to actually get to know him and maybe apologize. Idk. The world is your oyster or whatever. I just want Protective Cens but it Backfires Pretty Badly.

11) Bonus points if Ilya eventually confronts them and then, when he hears their reasoning, is very much like “you??? Hurt my husband??? For me??? He wasn’t a bad partner??? I have depression??? Is chemical imbalance not abuse???????” And is absolutely pissed lmao

[galecstatic]

it's starting to get blurry here

[handsywoman]

fuck, Hollander

[shanehollandered]

heated rivalry gif meme: 1/7 kisses [+ some yearning aching longing stares]

[themoonandmyman]

Shane comes home from a brand related trip stiff, overworked and bitchy.

Which is coincidentally one of Ilya’s favourite Shanes. He loves soft Shane, horny Shane, angry Shane, but bitchy Shane was a different breed. Ilya wondered why he didn’t save some of it for the ice, his usual chirps were about 10% of the scathing shit he would pull out when it was just him, or Rose or Sveta.

Ilya has been primed with texts, he knows he’s about to get an earful about the incredibly grating second AD on the set that Shane has had the displeasure of working with before.

He knows the drill. Gets out a bottle of red (his husband is less finicky about drinking these days), turns off all the main lights and gets Shane’s comfy sweats ready and slippers ready. He paces a little, full of excited energy after not seeing the love of his life for a whole three days. (criminal. should be against the Geneva convention. whatever that means. where even is Geneva.)

They make out for a minute at the door, and then Shane drops to his knees for a quick Decompression Blowjob (he needs cock in his mouth to reset his brain, ok.) and then after showering they’re just drinking wine on the couch and Shane’s being a total cunt about this poor AD and Ilya is just grinning ear to ear and fake gasping Hollander! like he’s scandalised about what he’s hearing come out of his adorable husband’s mouth.

(He’s not- he knows better than anyone that Shane is not his Golden Boy image.)

and because Shane being a bitch is a massive turn on, Ilya takes advantage of the fact that he’s more than a little fired up groaning about Linda (Linda is a total fuck-up and her giant head must have broken her mother’s pussy on the way out, apparently.) and drops to his knees.

It only takes moments for Shane to get hard, what with the wine and the adrenaline and Ilya looking up at him hungry and waiting- but he knows what he wants, and he wants Shane to unleash that energy, grab him by the roots and fuck his mouth. Gag reflex? Pfft. Ilya’s in the big leagues, baby.

Afterwards when Shane’s brain has reformed back from a liquid and Ilya is lying in his arms, he goes ‘and another thing…’ and all Ilya can do is nestle into Shane’s stomach and smile and try to somewhat cover up the butterflies he’s feeling.

(Guys they literally like each other can you believe that)

[shamelessfanturkeycreator]

I too struggle with non hockey player Shane because it’s just such a big part of who he is, but I think I have a couple of ones I enjoyed that are non hockey aus (don’t mind some descriptions are a little less detailed, some I read quite a while ago)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/78074356 (both “rival” professors, outsider pov, 7k words)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/77036641 (crime boss Ilya/college student Shane, Shane does play some hockey but it’s very background, genuinely cannot recommend this fic enough, it also had some great background ocs which I loved and I usually hate ocs, and it gave me some good laughs too, BAMF Shane is amazing, 191k words)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/79288846 (bodyguard Shane/actor Ilya, Ilya has a stalker and needs some better security so Svetlana hires Shane, 109k words)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/78453931/chapters/205676406 (another bodyguard Shane but this time it’s pop star Ilya, very cute, 24k words)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/77586351/chapters/203196611 (WAG Shane, relationship reveal, 4K words)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/77479966 (popstar rivals Shane and Ilya, secretly dating + relationship reveal my beloved, 7k words)

Hopefully you enjoy some of these ;D

Context: I made this post about how non-hockey player Shane Hollander feels a little strange in fics, but recs are always welcome

Anon I want to give you a kiss on the forehead (muah)!!!(or an appreciative high five if that is not your vibe) (*^▽^*)

Thank you for the fic recs!!!

I absolutely adore the word count jump from 7k to 191k, GLORIOUS!!!

Also relationship reveal my absolute beloved!!! I love reading all the different way people write the relationship reveals and the reactions!!! I have been spawn camping the Hollanov relationship reveal and coming out fics. I haven’t seen these before, YESSSS!!!

P.s. I have only been able to read the WAG Shane one so far (“Where is My Husband!” By shaneviews) and oh misunderstanding how I love thee when you don’t cause any actual consequences (just a bunch of classmates coming to the wrong conclusions). I love the drama of a very public and silly reveal!! Also there is more fics in the verse which I will be enjoying :)

Thank you again anon!!! ♥️

[im-sleepingbeauty]

my #truth about the future hollanov babies (however they have children idk this will happen) is that they will first have an ilya-look alike daughter (50-50 in irina #sorry to all haters) THEN they have a shane-look alike son. #TRUST their daughter is a hockey legend and their son is into like artsy stuff.