addicted to being comfortable

sadposting, wholsome posting, and music (sometimes OC). Here for anyone who needs a random stranger from the internet to listen to their problems. I wish the absolute best for you. https://soundcloud.com/imageoflife

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poem 4

a lonely forest, which was once quiet, now’s home to a few crows

they grow with each passing year.

the old trees of the forest–memories and desires. oh do they creak, oh do they fall

they fall with each passing year.

i’ve been planting some cool seeds, new memories, new hopes and dreams

the crows like to eat the seeds. Oh well, guess I’ll try and plant some more…

The forest is my home. The crows are my friends.

One day the forest will end, and all that will be left will be the soil of the earth…

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my favorite poem i wrote

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hi

it's crazy to look back on your digital footprint and reflect. I hated being alone. I was severely depressed and anxious, and I thought I would get better overtime, somehow, someway. 6-7 years later, I've definitely changed, but I'm not sure if better is the best word for that change, at least mentally. Health wise and character wise I love the person I've become, but I feel like my mental issues just adapted with me. I've realized that I've been alone for so long in my life that a big part of me likes to be alone. People I don't personally love give me bad anxiety, and I get nervous with a lot of people. But I mean I don't want to be that way! like I want to start a band and frequently hang out with a really cool group of friends. I crave connection outside of my relationship (gotta new gf oh ya oh ya), but I fxcking love playing video games and melting on furniture. I'm still addicted to being comfortable. I hope I can cut that shit out one day.

idk its been awhile, anyone who sees this, I wish you nothing but love, hope you have a great year and I hope you have a day soon where you feel lucky to be alive. IOL out

(p.s I'm still making music, I'm lazy so not super often but I will always have it with me.)

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Idk if anyone else is on here anymore but I’m gonna delete this app for some time, haven’t had the urge to post or vent anything in awhile. I’m still making music here and there, https://on.soundcloud.com/S88G5KeqzRGQgjhB8

If anyone likes synthwave or lofi. Hope everyone enjoys life this week there are a lot of cool things to learn and pretty places to explore.

IOL

my names brian and I like decorating time. let go and let it flow, do what you want and grow.

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Life update-New Horizons

Hello my friends, IOL out here with another public diary for anyone who’s still on here lol. I experienced my first breakup last month, which really was a slow burn for me. Me and my ex live together so it’s been kinda hard for me to move on, ya know seeing as we still see each other every day and whatnot. I’ve been looking for a place to rent out for almost two months now and I’ve finally found a crusty ass room (really good deal tho) here in my home town. I move in on the first, and I’m feeling pretty jittery about it. I’ve never completely lived by myself, so it’s gonna be a new challenge. I suck with new things, but life doesn’t care. It throws dogshit at you at every turn, but hey, it also throws miracles and triumphs at you as well. I think it’s gonna take some getting used to but I’m 100% up for the challenge. Well anyways, peace, happy halloween

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A spooky lofi piano thing I made, DONT LISTEN ALONE

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I know there's been a lot of talk lately about anti-intellectualism and the lack of movies that have souls etc but please don't forget that we also live in the first time in history where just about anyone can create and publish art online. Watch movies posted to directly to YouTube with a thousand views. Read self-published books. Listen to SoundCloud artists. There's a whole world of low budget content out there made solely for the love of art and even if every industry is a capitalist hellscape there will still be people creating art and how lucky are we that we have access to it

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Bedroom - Trees

http://www.alltomorrowmusic.com/ https://www.facebook.com/AllTomorrowMusic https://twitter.com/#!/alltomorrowmusi Free download: http:/

Nice track. Makes me feel some kind of way, idk

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Poem 8

open the door

The person stares

… lungs inhale the COLD THIN AIR

Snow punches the eyes in the face, so they shoot them toward the bright grey sky.

they shake. - “let the cold bite you and make you strong”

The person thinks—Finally smokes the burning cig—

About the snow. About the wonderful smiles it gave them as a kid. About the hard obstacles that kid had yet to overcome. About the real dumb worries they had yet to embrace.

they miss this person. But they dont realize that the kid’s still around, playing with decades old toys and watching cartoons in the attic.

The person smokes

they exhale yucky tobacco smoke

inhales the outside once more, before retreating into the temple of glowing screens.

close the door

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HELLO IT IS I

I know I haven’t been on here as much, been busy. Here’s a bunch of words lol:

I look back on my early posts on this thread, I know they’re sad but I see progress. I’ve changed a lot since my first post on this blog. I started this profile because I was hopeless and painfully lonely. Too lonely. It was killing me from inside and I knew I needed to reach out. So I did. I messaged many people who, like me, posted sad shit. I tried my best to help and listen to them, make them feel a little less lonely, give them a speck of hope. (I still msg ppl sometimes). Point is, I felt better doing what I was doing. It made me happy. Afterwards I met some great friends and got a job. My life started changing for the better, and has been doing so ever since. I am now in a great relationship, something I would literally dream about three years ago. I moved out of my old house and am living on my own, and I have a great job. Life is good.

I’m still going post every now and then, and maybe there’ll be a time where I need an escape, but until then, hope everyone that follows me and literally every living organism that isn’t a dick has a excellent rest of the year🤎

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Anti depressants are def a two edged sword

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It can feel impossible and ridiculous, but it’s not always going to feel that way, a change in perspective goes a long way I promise

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Can’t sleep, too many chemical reactions in my brain, too many thoughts as well

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Audiomack | Free Music Sharing and Discovery

Audiomack is a youth-driven, artist-first music streaming platform that allows creators to share unlimited music and podcast content for fre

just uploaded a bunch of music I've made these past years, theres some good demos on there, if you want to check it out its here.

I've made a lot of progress in my music career so far, and I'm hoping to come out with my edm EP by the end of this year. Y'all have a great day👍