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my mental health in a nutshell <3 18!

[imprettiernowiswear]

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TW talks/ posts about my ed/sh/ everyday life <3

do not report please just block. this is my safe space and when it is taken away from me I start crumbling apart.

I do not promote or support what I do so if you are struggling please seek help/recovery.

you are loved.

[imprettiernowiswear]

my uncle just deadasss triggered me without trying, I know he meant no evil intent in no way at all! it’s just one of the things that kills me inside though

“go eat”

me “oh I’m not hungry”

“Either way you’re fat like me , go eat”

that just triggered me so easily :/ I know he doesn’t know about my ed and he was just being loving but him saying that cut so deeply. Like I don’t wanna be compared.. I wanna be so light.

free meanspo in a way 💪🏽😭

[imprettiernowiswear]

a little dear old letter to my future self.

you really didn’t need to send her that stupid message. A message asking for a favor and the favor even being sadder in itself. You want her to remind you that she won’t ever feel the same for you and well what? what do you expect? stop fucking fooling yourself. geez you truly are pathetic, more pathetic then I could ever interpret you in the mind. You are setting up an expectation that will never be guaranteed for you. The expectation that she will hesitate and not be able to send you that damn message? give into your little favor because what? you need it so badly? for fucking what? you only have me and you will only ever have me. You. You only have yourself and guess what? we are stuck inside of you for as long as you fucking live and I find that incredibly depressing. You tried recovering right? but guess what. You are back here... a place that can only ever understand your true screaming inside. oh how i bet they would sound so nicely. just pleading to be okay. be happy. shut up. so freaking pathetic. let me eat those whiney little screams right up and devour them whole until you push them far down your stomach. Maybe it would be enough to keep you from eating. eating and eating. I truly hope nobody comes into your life trying to convince themselves they could ever put up with such a disgusting burden. I wish you could just rot away in your fucking bed. not touch a single thing and stay still. maybe then you could ever actually be useful and do something we have ever told you to do. you just make a fool out of yourself all the goddamn time and I can’t put up with it anymore. Stop trying to grip onto the girl you once saw yourself as. stop holding on. let her drown please. let her fucking drown and be at peace because ... everyone knows you’ll never be at peace with yourself now so let the ones that need that, rest. Nobody is ever going to love you and you only make that harder for yourself because you are a goddamn burden. a burden nobody could ever handle to “love” and “care” for.  Let me get a hold of your damn life. I’ll have control, complete control. We will be perfect. There’s no need for recovery when this is all you will ever know now. Let’s start by getting rid of all the possible fat in your body.. all i need are bones. bones to satisfy the angry validation you have deprived me of with that horrendous whale like body type. 

[skintyfairy32]

Reminder to myself:

Don’t eat tomorrow. Don’t eat tomorrow. Don’t eat tomorrow. Don’t eat tomorrow. Don’t eat tomorrow.

[cuntykcals-deactivated20250608]

having an ed feels so lonely

[marissacooperwannabe]

there's nothing like seeing irl thinspr0 while at school 😀🔫

[okokwhatisthis]

ed: go over exercise

depression: no stay in bed you’re worthless

anxiety: get all your work done

depression: no stay in bed whore you’re worthless

sh: cut yourself

anxiety: no other people will see it and i’ll have a panic attack

intrusive thoughts: throw yourself of a cliff bitch

ed: no you haven’t reached you ugw yet

me: WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

[defensivescarecrows]

Implementing Some Rules.

• Brush teeth no later than 9PM every night.

• Nothing but water after brushing teeth.

• Absolutely do NOT pack meals for work. Small snacks (capped at 3) ONLY.

• NO FOOD FROM THE WORK VENDING MACHINES. ONLY DRINKS.

• Under no circumstances will I speak about ED’s with friends, family, or strangers.

• Only ONE calorie rich drink a day. Any others must be 0cal.

• NO SECONDS. You get what you get.

• Drink a full glass of room temp water before eating anything.

• ALWAYS have an emergency snack on hand.

• Never eat before 9AM

• TAKE THE FUCKING VITAMINS

• Remember dinner is the ONLY meal of the day.

• Weight check once a week.

• Focus on work, not food.

[caffeinatedopossum]

Me: *eats anything*

My brain: >:( DISQUALIFIED

[imprettiernowiswear]

me: I wanna have such a tiny stomach that people poke it because of how small it is.

my ed: I can help you eat more and more until you can’t anymore and find pictures of the skinniest girls so you’ll feel like shit afterwards!! #materialedboss 😻😻

[chapstick-eater]

sorry mom, i'm too busy blogging about how skinny i wish i was

[imprettiernowiswear]

santa is real and he has given me the best collar bone, rib, hip showing body I have ever had <3 :))

( MANIFESTING BRUH )

[lovelygreentea]

living with a family that makes comments when you eat but also makes comments when you don’t eat is a very challenging situation to be in