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Life’s been a little hard lately, but here are some wins.

I finally broke into the next 10-lb range after being at a steady plateau for like a month. I’m so close to 50 lbs down.

I fit a pair of pants and a top that I’ve been trying on and failing to fit comfortably for about 2 months. They fit perfectly now.

A new guy started at work. Our projects do not overlap and we don’t share a reporting structure. But guess who they sat him directly next to. 👀 He’s so fine and exactly my type, I fear. This could be dangerous, but right now it’s exciting. Because I’m about 95% sure this man is crushing on me too. Lightning struck and it’s something electrochemical. Tangible, and even another coworker teasingly said “you two might be a problem for each other.”

… and it feels really nice. Even though I am distrustful of all men as a rule anymore, and annoyed about having these feelings.

I’m starting to get excited about joining circus again. The acroyoga troupe still seems active with familiar faces. I’m so inspired by some lyra and silks clips the algorithm is sending me. I used to not be able to look at them because I was afraid I might never be able to return. Now I know it’s imminent. I’m working really hard and I think I’ll probably return to a few classes and open gym in September or October, which is so so so so sooon after about 2.5 years gone.

#fitblr #weight loss #cats #me #scale victory #non scale victory

absoluteconceptofbeauty

How about Other people start worrying about how I perceive them

concupiscience

#I want one but do I have to feed it bugs #can it just find bugs

tiramisuminttea

#00s nostalgia

#me #just a girl and her cat #weed #homebody

meanbuddhist

i have started saying “may they be well” in my head any time i catch myself having not nice thoughts about others which has given me some gems so far such as “he is going to have to go bald soon…. may he be well”

polkadotmotmot

Dmitry Oleyn - Path to the Sun, 2026 - Oil on canvas

rebelculture

Today I went to my bestie’s house for dinner. She’s going through a divorce, so she and her 3 year old are living with her parents, who just adore her son.

My friend is trying to get me to come over more often, I think, in light of… the eternal all-encompassing loneliness that has hit me like multiple freight trains from multiple angles. I know she probably told her parents, because they both separately told me they love having me, that they want this home to be for their daughter and grandson, and as an extension her friends like me too. And I’m definitely Auntie.

Tonight was really special. He was thrilled to see me, which isn’t unusual but is always special. What was fresh was, I laid down for bedtime with them, and he insisted that I read a book, and while I was reading, he was insistent that I had to hold and cuddle and “nest” with him the way Mommy does when she’s reading the books.

It was soooo special to get to do that. I love being Auntie [industrual-kintsugi], really really.

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