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[inkheartpoems]

It's so embarrassing to live

[remanence-of-love]

[inkheartpoems]

I can't shut my feelings ,

It's racing for emotions drowned in pain .

Daylight makes me sick , I am insecure worned as a suit.

Iam the culprit spoiling my imagination, I can't picture a kiss in my head any more ,

It's not a question of how long anymore rather it's the diminishing arch of my strength to be .

Still i can't free myself from the truth that's choking me ,

[inkheartpoems]

I keep forgetting the lyrics i never wrote

But they were imprinted in my blood once ,

But you just showed me a glance of my future with you , now I'm beelding all-over again .

Or is it me that's sucking it out ? cause I keep huming the sight of flirt you should have kept to yourself.

[inkheartpoems]

Ima go curse everyone that's hurting me

[inkheartpoems]

I don't feel guilty, but scared of those eyes looking at me like iam a sinner.

[maryoliveoil]

TAYLOR SWIFT Performing "Love Story" at TEU

[thememedaddy]

[inkheartpoems]

Please someone make me feel something, anything at all .

I want to get out of my bed , bare feet in the land long gone . Give me a reason ,

not to hope darling, but just to exist ,just to get over my bed ridden phase .

Rather It's just never ending , it's not pivotal to find any reason ,it's all the human need for the connection that's more of a crayon box I almost had in my hand but didn't,

Maybe I did for days ,then lost before i could draw the house by the pond and paint the sky pink , the books the blank and white waiting for me to draw,

The new colours they just sink under the blank page ,

Am I waiting to sink under the bed ? But it won't consume me like you consumed my colours , now someone please drag me out before i scratch myself to paint the sky pink

[inkheartpoems]

Life has just been like Cliff by the ocean, waves have just been washing my cliffs, I don't feel the moist no more.

[inkheartpoems]

The volume of my life is decreasing ,Like I'm sinking under the water grasping for air, But that's not what I want

My vision is not blurred the noise of joy is louder through my screen , yet I'm not capable of picture any doings of my wish to be real .

I'm deep inside blue and I bleed vilot, detoxing all the fear unknown, the water let's me float while all my questions of emotion weighing me drown's in her , but the magic works only in her home of water , will i die ?

She knows what's killing me , in waves she whispers to me the reasons I might drown with emotions she's dragging in, cause even the supreme pressure of her can't unravel it ,

She cried , asked me to move out , now her waves move smooth , I dread the waves turning violet, but it's not just in me , she knows it too.

[inkheartpoems]

I want to run away

Run away from everything I have ever seen , felt , touched by , dreamt of ,

Not to reincarnate but just to forget .

[inkheartpoems]

I'm getting back all the urges of falling back into the same horror of losing myself into the hand of a destroyer me

How do I not distinguish myself It's just me but I hate to carry the scars of mistakes , it's just adding up like a Stairs but i keep falling .

I don't want to carve the memories of my dream but i have them as inscriptions of my life never should have written or shouldn't have found in my dreams but I suffer and suffer, it's all within me , is that why I can't erase it ?

All i know is, it's making me feel hideous with the shame and horror of pain that i have to feel to write or even an attempt to erase it causes Its the trap i can't trase .

[inkheartpoems]

[inkheartpoems]

Is it possible to miss the feeling of how i felt once .

I'm forgetting how to feel,

Life has just been like Cliff by the ocean, waves have just been washing my cliffs, I don't feel the moist no more.

Waiting for happiness when I'm the sad fluid intoxicating and wilting all the flowers I pass by ,

Chronical Sadness made me feel like a mythical villain , all I'm desperate for love but every particle of living beings will hate me without wanting to know the story.

The smell of blood and sadness in my face is the same , it makes you feel gross .

Honey I'm stinking at my sadness and lyrics that disappear,

I don't know the meaning but will always remember the steps no wanna join hands to

[inkheartpoems]

How do I know what's not killing me ,

When everything is just another scratch on my daddy wound .

It's bigger now for my inner dimensions of pain u want to see .

But why are we blind ,

I can't be alone with moon to embrace the wound and love ,

Naked to the reflection of the dead, will always be

[inkheartpoems]

You make me feel sorry

Is that what you are supposed to be ,

All my crying were signs you never understood how? hieroglyphs tattooed in your blood.

You make it up by showing the glimpse of light I hang on to for years hoping you will stitch the torn connection.

You don't hold my bridge to cross the river nor do you fully drop it ,

I don't wanna be part of these , either cut me loose or hold me tight .

I don't know what u see cause i can't , to be sorry .

But the days you showed up is new hope , even if it's all lie you made me believe, or i just fell ?

Is it true that you have a ego ?