" because you left and you didn't want to even try to keep this together while you were gone. just expected me to fucking wait ! " the words leave nicco's mouth like it's easy - like it made any sense. in truth , he was hurt that he didn't feel like a priority to travis. he wanted to understand that work came first , that being in a space to live his turth came first , but his brain just didn't process it like that. at the time of travis leaving , nicco seemed like he understood , but it took mere weeks for his brain to turn on him to make this situation much worse than it actually was. nicco was never good with emotions , not good in stable relationships. travis was different and in a mix of emotional rage , nicco knew this would ruin things. " you did ditch me. you chose work and whatever fucking else over me when you could've had both. i know we talked about it but i . . . i was fucking hurt , trav. i thought it wouldn't really bother me , just sitting around here fucking waiting for you , but it did. " he wasn't good at having time to this and process things. " i was never forcing you to come out but you just expected me to , what , be some miltary wife while you took some sweet time and fucked around ? no. absolutely not. " he knows this isn't his place , he has no right to be so mad , but he couldn't help it. " doesn't matter who. " except he does , considering he cares none for them and fully for travis , even still. he was still so , helplessly , painfully in love.