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How in the hell did Adam Scott manage to play a bitter, angry character who literally stuck a spoon over an open flame and then stuck it into a man's hand because he found the guy annoying but also told some children to go find their parents and never talk to strangers when a creepy old man was telling them a ghost story? How did he manage to tap dance on the line of unlikable asshole and enduring Final Boy??? Thats the true Hokum I say!!!
I just finished Shelby Oaks and while I have literally no background at all about the people who made it, I can say I actually really enjoyed it- sure its a typical horror movie, it's not changing lives, but I genuinely thought it was good. The real shame is the online reviews are not really addressing the themes- what I got from it is the extreme pressure women are under to have children.
Riley is barely 18 when she is abducted and for 12 years she is forced to keep having babies, all leading to miscarriages and still births. Mia and her husband tried for several years but could never have children of their own, and so she poured her insecurities into finding her sister. She calls Riley "my baby!" When she finds her again. To Mia, Riley isn't a person with her own autonomy, shes someone she has to mother and parent. The woman in the woods forced her son to keep having children over and over again to produce the baby that she wants. He even says "she finally let me go" and at first I thought the "she" might have been the demon until I realized it was the mom. The only one who benefits from the entire ordeal is Tarion, He got what he wanted, a new child to raise and feed off of, Riley and the ex-prisoner were just vessels to get the baby and the person he actually wanted to watch over the baby the entire time was Mia, who has everything a baby needs to thrive.
Him standing constantly outside of the window, making the cracks over time- to him Riley was just a surrogate that was easily discarded and who he really wanted was Mia- she even knows this kid is the child of a demon and she still protected him. She is the "perfect mother" for the baby he basically is forcing on her. I liked the movie, thought that the cinematography was well done and I love a horror movie that starts like a documentary.
Frank Langdon being the character of this season- my greatest fear going into this season wasn't him relapsing, my greatest fear was him thinking he was not good enough to be a doctor anymore. He needed to get help, theres no doubt about that, he needed to get caught, he needed to get clean and hes better for it. What he also needs is his work. He has boundless empathy, an ability to self examine, care for his patients and the staff, and after season one, watching him fall but pull himself back together to be stronger than before? While Robby was downspirling, Langdon was the strongest and the one who was stepping up. He made his Step 9 apologies, he even had his fight with Santos because he hates that he owes her everything but csnt bring himself to say that because hes so human it hurts so much. To think that he did have to go through his fight alone is so sad: he had to admit his problem, he probably experienced a relapse (he said 186 days, thats 6 months) he went to rehab, he had to face the shame and the loneliness for 10 months by himself and what did it all come to: he is still a great doctor, a good person, and just a human who makes mistakes and hes better for all of it. I think of all people who walked away from the season broken, lost and confused, the irony that he can walk away stronger than before is so great. I will always root for you, Langdon, you will always be my beloved ER Ken.
I think that people are harder on Ogilvie than they should be because yes is he an asshole, yes he is full of himself and yes, he does not get the right to judge people but he is a product of the system that made him- he was rewarded for being smart and good with tests and books, but he never got any push back for his lack of empathy.
He was not taught empathy in med school, he was taught how to excel at tests. I would actually have been more worried about him if he had made this patients death about him- he showed me promise that he felt lost and confused, that he took responsibility because it would have been so easy for him not to do that. His mistakes are due to carelessness, and he got it thrown right back at him. Like Joy, maybe emergency medicine isn't for him, and thats okay, but he needed a real lesson in empathy and I genuinely felt like he had been able to learn something by the end of his shift.
Everyone is upset that he just gets to go home but thats the reality of these doctors, they get to go home- and that sucks because their patients sometimes dont. I think he feels immense anguish and shame and I would rather he feel that than pretend like everything is fine- that in the long run will make him a better doctor.
Robby struggling with leaving is just the most human hes gotten this season. We talk about burn out and broken systems- but we dont really talk about the entire world is run on institutions- hospitals, schools, government, religion- Robby's inability to see himself as a piece of an endless machine makes him the most human I've seen him since his breakdown last season because we've all had those moments- the world doesn't exist in a vacuum, we aren't alone in our struggling.
We all experience our lives through personal lenses that make us forget that we're just a piece, and thats okay. This is one emergency room in one hospital in one city among thousands of others and the world doesn't run on one person's efforts- it runs on all of our effort. Does the world suck? Yes! Are institutions unfair and can be cprrupt- of course!!! But that doesn't mean they get to take our souls and our humanity, our free will- we can decide what we can put up with, we can decide what we're willing to take and if you need to just stop and sit down- thats okay too. Ive been there, hitting my head against that brick wall for months and months until clarity came with a single moment where I realized that I get to decide that I am tired of crying, of hurting, of being told what to do. Leaving what you feel like is your life (job, religion, institution) can be so, so hard, and thats okay because maybe there is something better on the other side and the world will keep going on and on- and you can know that its okay.
The Pitt is not about being fantastic doctors and nurses, its about being human and being forced to decide what you can and cant handle and sometimes the burden is too heavy and you have to take it off, but no one has the right to tell you that you cant, wven yourself. Being human means that we're not perfect, and the world is not perfect, and everyone deserves to give themselves grace to figure things out.
I know things have been hard for Langdon (my boy do be suffering) but can we all stop and appreciate that he isn't really ER Ken? This guy is a nerd and I know that he is handsome and wins people over with his charm but he really is just a total loser. He got excited about guys in costumes, he was impressed by the hot dog eating contest winner, he asked McKay if she wanted a hug, told her that crying is a good thing, and feels confused and awkward when people are openly flirting with him. We all thought he was super cool in season 1 but it turns out it was mostly the drugs talking hes actually a fucking loser and I love that for him. He gets to finally be himself when everything has been stripped away and I think that ironically enough getting sober and fighting his way back has allowed him to be himself for the first time in a long, loving time
I knew that Santos and Langdon having their Step 9 moment was never going to go well, but its interesting how he was more honest with her than anyone else- the only three people who know he stole drugs were Santos, Dana and Robby- he let Robby beat on him all day because he feels like he deserves it, he wasnt actually honest with Dana about his home situation and his marriage status, but he was 100% truthful with Santos because while he doubts that Santos would actually tell anyone his secret after all this time- he is deep down extremely grateful to her for what she did and I dont think he can admit that. Santos and Langdon are so alike its crazy, they are both full of themselves, excellent doctors who think they know everything. They both have been humbled and each reached a breaking point (shes so close to hers is can feel it) and there are no secrets between them. But I truly think that Santos hadn't gone to Robby, Langdon would have killed a patient and that would have destroyed his life- I think he hates that he owes his entire life, career and recovery to her. Hes right, she doesn't have to accept his apology, doesn't have to forgive him, but i think he needs to admit that she genuinely saved his life, even though hed rather get kicked out before doing that.
Finding out the terrorists are just a bunch of angry fans is probably the funniest plot twist of all of Spy x Family because honestly sometimes I do imagine breaking into Netflix HQ and beating the shit out of the producers for what they've done.
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Sophie's story being a realistic Cinderella story because of the intense emotional abuse she suffered under Amarita is heartbreaking because her trauma trickles into every aspect of her life:
1. Can't let herself believe that Benedict could truly love her because she thinks she's unlovable
2. Can't even be honest with her own friends about her personal feelings and thoughts
3. Doesn't understand why Violet is so kind to her even after getting tossed in prison
4. Never thought to question Amarita lying because she had been so beaten down and "didnt think that she would lie"
5. Understood Benedict's intense loneliness spurned by his status and position, seeing right through him because she sees herself in hiding behind massive walls to protect herself
6. Continues to apologize for literally just existing
7. When she was thrown out of Penwood, she begged to not be and even was willing to suffer even more just because she was forced to be so scared of the world that she'd rather be beaten down by Amarita than the world
8. Described her time at My Cottage as the greatest week of her life because for the first time in her entire life she was free, happy and safe.
I was even worried that Sophie was being treated like a silent Asian character but then as I was rewatxhing I realized it was because she is constantly on edge, watching her surroundings, scared of making a mistake and the only times she even gets the chance to lose control is when she sees Benedict. And to have her realize that there was literally nothing she could say or do to make him not love her unconditionally??? Despite all their trials??? That's what she always deserved but felt like she didn't- and she still got to have agency to take control and power back. Finding the will, confronting her stepmother, cheering on Posy and even bold face lying to the QUEEN!!! And she gets a hot Brigerton husband who adores her???? Grt is Sophie Baek the traumatized queen you are!!!!!
The reason I cant stop watching The Night Agent isnt all the intrigue and politics, its Peter Sutherlands boundless kindess and generosity towards his enemies. Season 1, he still had it in his heart to feel for Diane Farr and her misguided attempts to protect the president, season 2 he never blamed the chemist for having to protect his family, and now is season 3 he offers that same kindness towards The Father. The show goes out of its way to handle their villians and it only works if Peter sees them as humans too.
Step 9: make direct amends whenever possible- unless doing so would cause harm to that person
Making Amends is about acknowledging the harm that the person with the addition might have caused. Step 9 is NOT about forgiveness- it is about being honest and taking accountability- Langdon has not allowed himself to make excuses, or take what he did lightly, he has not avoided confrontation at all.
Robby does NOT owe him forgivness, that is fair to say, but what Robby does NOT need to do is hurt him. Step 9 is Robby's chance to get his grievances out, to tell Frank how he felt about everything that happened, how it is hard for him to trust Frank and that he feels uncomfortable having him back- ALL VALID!! What he cannot do is tell Frank he doesn't belong!!
Robby does not have the right to judge Frank, he does not have the right to decide that he can be a doctor and he does not get to tell Frank that he does not want him there. The medical board and the hospital are the ones holding Frank accountable for what he did. He followed the process, he went through rehab, he has taken full responsibility for what he did.
Robby is being reckless with his words and is going to cause more harm than anything else. Is this going to get Langdon to leave- doubtful, he didnt fight so hard to come back to just get kicked out by some words- but that doesn't mean he doesn't feel good and risking patient care for petty jabs is terrible.
Langdon (my son whom I love, with which I am well pleased) working through Step 9, watching a fellow addict lose his long struggle and realized he didnt really even get the chance to know him, brought into his first shift as a surprise call out on Fourth of July, spent 10 months completely alone in rehab and meetings to get better in a marriage he clearly doesn't feel comfortable in, has exactly 1 (one) person estatic to see him, who has never thought less of him, even after he admits what happened and literally one conversation turned her entire day around???? And we're NOT supposed to want him to jump Mel King the moment they are alone in a room together???????
The Pitt 2x05:
Usually I just have been focusing on Langdon but this episode got me with my thoughts:
1. How have i never seen Robby's tattoo on the inside of his right wrist? Its an F from the periodic table for Flurione, which is capable of mixing with almost any element there is and is primarily used in medicine????
2. Langdon defending himself about the sepsis patient and Dana defending him, he has made mistakes in the past but he has shown that he is a good doctor and is trying to make up for the past.
3. I think that Joy is wanting to go into PT or pathology, and her dislike for watching patients die explains her lack of involvement in her er rotation and also explains her getting upset about the motorcycle patient earlier
4. I like the frank conversation about the costs of going to the hospital, that yes, Healthcare costs can be ridiculous and the system is broken, but there are hundreds of programs, sacrificing your health because you are worried about cost isnt feasible either.
5. Last season a man was brought in and his kids had to let him go- this really broke me because I was in this exact situation with my own father when he was in the hospital and it was my job to make that final decision. And now this season we have a mother dying from cancer who is in hospice being taken care of by her husband- literally the exact same situation my own mother was in when she was given a terminal diagnosis- so the Pitt is going to make me cry over that again this year woohooooo
6. I liked the real problem with AI is not we're going to lose our jobs or be replaced its the uppers will use it as a justification to put even more work with no pay increase on doctors and nurses because the expectation is that their charting is easier so they can see more patients, making their workload even more burdensome
I once commented on a YouTube video about the Brigerton family sharing a single brain cell between them and anyone who marries into the family instantly falls into the clutches of their antics and glad to see Benedict living up to his family legacy by being a fucking moron
The Pitt 2x04 finally explaining that Langdon isnt even supposed to be at work today makes so much sense!!!! It explains why he didnt have an updated badge, didnt know his new locker combo, doesn't know what to do with his hands, is overly nervous- someone called out and he got the chance to come in sooner than he expected!! He was thrown back into work without the chance to prepare himself. That's why hes fighting so hard to get out of triage, he doesn't want to waste this gift of a chance- it also explains why Robby is so irritable and the rest of the ER was blindsided by his sudden return.
The Pitt Season 2x02:
As a rabid Dr Langdon fanatic, I am HEAVILY invested in everything my man's does and something I clocked the first episode is his arm crossing. All last season Langson was confident and happy tp be working but he was riding high and on drugs. This season he is more reserved and scared and that has really come across in his body language- crossing his arms every time he talks to someone in the ER that is not a patient. He feels comfortable and in his groove with patients but still doesn't know what dp with the other staff- EXCEPT with Mel. When he was speaking to Wittaker and Javadi, they treat his awkwardly because its his first day back and he instantly picks up on their inability to know how to talk to him and quickly crossed his arms and stepped away from them.
But then he sees Mel, she grabs his arm, smiles at him, he uncrosses his arms and smiles back, later in episode 2 he touches her, exams her, is open and honest with her, doesn't shy away at all and doesn't accept her out when she says "you never let me down" and stands firm because she is the ONLY person besides Robby he is terrified that he disappointed so much she wouldn't want to talk to him either and yet here we are, as if nothing changed, he can Crack jokes, he can smile, he feels safe and at ease and she can feel seen, her worries and emotions validated and someone finally takes care pf her!!! God i cant with these two