It's been so long since I last wrote something. So today I'm gonna write about a longterm problem of mine: " Comparing myself to others". I asked a boy out today and he said yes, I was happy and started jumping from excitment. Then I started to think I should tell my friend, who is so pretty... what if I let them meet someday and he falls for her. I can't complain she is fucking gorgeous. What if she likes him too? There is no questions asked, I step aside and let my friend have him, after all she is the pretty one. I started to ask myself if I should just introduce them before I get my heart broken... Tears are slowly coming from my eyes as I put myself down and think of canceling with him right away. Why do I do this to myself? Why am I not enough for me? He said yes to me, but he hasn't met my friend yet... What if I'm not enough...
This has always been a fear of mine and I just can't get over it.













