Something I need to talk about.
For a long time now I've had some things on my mind, and since I've been dealing with writing burnout I've had time to think over a lot of shit for why it even started in the first place. One thing was definitely trying to push myself to write as much as possible in a day and push out stories for prompts one after another. I used to write multiple upwards of 1k word smut stories that I enjoyed so much to be able to do. Just too much, too much AU stuff, too much and too fast.
Another is pushing constantly time and time again for people to send me asks for my OCs and coming off as a whiny bitch which fucked with me mentally and I know probably drove people away too. I don't even want people to say I wasn't because I know I was. It was constant, weekend after weekend when I got less and less asks for them and I got upset about it and brought that energy through to Tumblr. I tried to not let it get to me but it did.
Not to mention the three-four failed RP attempts that killed that for me also and I think went toward the burnout too.
Now onto the main points this post is about that contributed to it:
First point: While it was fun to do - and I'm glad friends trusted me to do it - I grew frustrated that I constantly got asks for guest OCs over my own. Especially when it came to the harem thing I did with one where asks constantly came for it. It was rough when on weekends I'd get nothing, and then only get one and it would be maybe one ask having to do with a harem.
Second point: And that leads me into my second point. It was just the sheer amount of fucking harem shit in general that I got asks for whether it was for Jaune or that friend's OC I did stuff for, people started mainly sending asks for that stuff no matter how many times I asked for different, no matter how much a couple friends counteracted it.
I just got more and more tired of it and I tried writing stuff through it, and that's where a good bit of the burnout happened along with not getting stuff on the OC weekends I did for a long time which really shot my motivation to continue that stuff and burned me out hard on writing in general where I used to write short stories for multiple prompts a day.
So if I'm ever to come back to writing for this blog again, I'm going to say here and in a future post again stating that I will not be doing any more harem or guest OC content.
It's seriously done a lot to my mental health and will to write, drained so much of my energy, and it took a lot to realize the two main points of this post. And all this burnout has led me to the point of not feeling like reading fanfics I loved anymore, or reading anything anyone has posted here anymore, and led me to just try to focus on my own things. It's not a guarantee I'll ever start trying to write stuff for this account anymore because I may just want to focus on doing stuff for my fantasy setting.
I just wanted to get all this out there finally after realizing it all.
