🩵Jamie🩷English🩵Birthday: 19th Oct🩷Bi + Grey-ace + Genderfluid🩵They, xey, she, he🩷Autistic + HSP🩵Age dre+re sometimes🩷Self-shipper (non-sharing sorry)🩵Many fandoms🩷This a safe space for all🩵Basic DNI including if you're a NSFW + pr0sh1pp1ng blog or a double🩷
I see you've found your way to my page ..well, somehow, ello💫
Here you will mostly see dumb things i make with my miscellaneous interests and liked fandoms✌✨
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Important note:
if any of my posts are labelled as "mature", 99% of the time they really aren't💀, idk why this happening but just keep this in mind
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And yep, this page has swearing .....very... ✨British✨... swearing...
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Some posts also may inculde themes and stuff like blood, horror, etc etc
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Besides the basic DNI, I do have one main rule here, that is: Do NOT be rude to anyone here whilst interacting with this blog, even if it's "just a joke", you never know how someone might take rudeness/spiteful jokes and how badly it may affect them, so lets be nice to eachother while we're here, if you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all.
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Maybe consider checking out my side blogs:
Queen blog - @rendezvous-with-queen
Mizzle (oc)/IHNMAIMS blog - @mizzyrainclouds
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💫✨Tysm for reading and enjoy your stay✨💫
✨More under -read more-✨
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And now here's some extra stuff you may find interesting:
Aaaalr, guess its time for another status update since I ain't posted in a while-
As of while I'm typing this, I don't know specifically what the problem I have is, but I've been ill, again, for over a week, yaaaay (flashbacks to what I had back in november) ✨ I've been having pains in my left side, lower back and sometimes stomach for like over a week and its gotten worse, along with some cold symptoms
I rly dk whAT tf is going on right now buuuut it's pretty draining 😭 hence why I haven't posted properly since the 27th- ofc I've been to the doctors and I'm on antibiotics rn in case its another STOOPID kidney infection since the pains are similar to what I had in november, and if not then hopefully they'll be contacting me again soon to see what the actual issue is 😭
Sooo yh, I've just been rly unwell lately and had no energy post anything right now, I've had some tiny ideas, say, headcanons for the 5 survivors (ihnmaims), but idk when exactly I'll post anything proper bc ofc idk when tf I'll be nORMAL AGAIN
I'M NOT DECEASED, I'M NOT ON THE CUSP OF PERISHING 😭✋ I'm just t i r e d, but I'm doing what I can rn and hopefully I'll be better at least soon or something-
Alr uhh- I'll be pinning this for now until I make a proper pinned post-
But while I'm here, I need to make and expand on a boundaryyy hhhhh... granted its ironic asf considering the fandom this blog is of, but I think I have a somewhat valid reason,
PLEASE don't ask or tell me to draw or do anything of AM
In very rare cases, I may do something of him myself if I can handle it, but just don't randomly tell me to do it, and I mean this because I know how popular this machine thing is in the fandom
Explaining why ↓ (TW: mentions of (my) gr**mer/ab*ser and details of what they did)
...There's no other or easier way to explain why, so I'll just say it: AM reminds me of my groomer/abuser because of similar personality traits they have and actions they do
Including:
Frequently lashing out over trivial things and expecting others to simultaneously make him feel better and take responsibility for whatever pissed him off
Taking out anger on others by being abusive to them
Having some kind of obsession with s*x including (and especially) when it's nonconsensual
Exploiting what causes people distress and using that info to further hurt them whenever they do something "wrong" in his eyes
And much much more, I can't even list all of them because this guy did so much shit throughout the 3-4 years we were in contact
(I'm sorry the details are quite graphic, its just that I feel like if I don't go into detail, people won't believe or take this seriously)
I know it might sound stupid, and I know I haven't mentioned this person on this blog before and generally in a while, but I mean when I say a lot of things AM does, say, think, etc, are scarily similar to this one person who I thought was a friend, who mentally and s*xually abused me and caused a lot of hurt to my school friends and I during my early teenage years.
And while I've already established how I don't want my oc Mizzle to be shipped with AM in ANY way, I'm now having to expand on that by making this post
Ofc I'm not stopping you from liking AM, posting about him, selfshipping with him, etc, I'm just asking for you to continuously mention him on my blog, and ESPECIALLY not in a romantic/s*xual way because it will be triggering for me. Sometimes I can handle seeing posts like that from others (say, they appear on my homepage) but other times it's more difficult and I just won't interact with said posts
And I know that me saying that I hate being reminded of AM sounds blasphemous for some people in this fandom but just, please hear me out on this bc I'm not joking or exaggerating about anything here.. thxxxx
Drew my current state knowing the UK is having it’s second ever red weather warning for an extreme heatwave and i just so happen to be in one of the affected areas
Explanations 👇👇
For those who dk: a red warning is basically the highest warning we get when it comes to extreme weather, like in this case, by tomorrow temperatures are expected to reach around 40° Celsius (≈104°F), and this is literally considered life threatening to us
The last time we had a red weather warning was in 2022, that was our first ever red warning, and that heatwave killed around 2000-4000 people in the UK
So I'm lowk getting worried for my family bc a lot of them are considered vulnerable to extreme heat because of age and health conditions some have (one of them has COPD asw so I'm rly hoping she'll be ok)
We already had an amber alert a few days ago, so the fact that it's gone up to red is even more worrying 😭😭
If I have not mentioned your oc, it's either because I do not know you or was not aware you had an oc for IHNMAIMS. If so, that's on me and my own ignorance
I have no one else to tell all this to so I have to dump it here. Venting again bc I think I've emotionally relapsed again and my emotions are everywhere rn
*Mentions/implications of: emotional intensity, jealousy, self esteem issues, fear of abandonment, etc
Emotional intensity is the fucking worst. For the past few days my emotions have felt so intense I genuinely feel nauseous when I try to process them in my head.
This probably isn't the only reason for my feelings rn, and I feel like such a horrible person for admitting this, but even long before today, I feel like I've been getting more and more jealous of others. Not 'jealous' as in 'envy', I'm not longing for anything someone else has right now, I mean jealous. As in I'm scared of losing mutuals/nice bonds with people on here
It's kinda hard to describe, but there's always been this little voice in the back of my head reminding me that all the people I interact with nicely are, and will always be, closer with others and eachother, and better without me, and it scared me shitless that all these people will eventually completely stop caring about/talking to me, and it actually makes me want to v0m1t.
I don't remember feeling this sort of jealousy before but I have always had intense emotions because of my autism so that doesn't worry me that much. But this jealousy I've been feeling makes me feel so terrible about myself, like; maybe it's my own fault I always feel pushed aside? And what if I actually do something wrong and it makes everyone hate and leave me??
Idk if there's a different term for this, idk if this is a sign of something. I might even be wrong about all of this, I might just be overthinking or being delusional, but that just makes all of this even more overwhelming and scary...
Again, I don't have anyone to tell of this to, and my family's completely useless in this stuff, but I need to get this off of my chest here since it already makes me physically sick and completely hate myself. Sorry if all of this is TMI, I have 0 grasp of what is and isn't anyway...
Basically the outfit Mizz wears under the coat and rag, this is what she put on the day AM suddenly took over and so now she’s also stuck in this under the coat and rag asw (ofc she had other outfits before AM)
Also for the top, I’ve been leaning towards this colour (apparently it’s called “sandy buff”?? Lmao-) but I have some alternative colour options -
