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I reached the 1,000 follower milestone on BlueSky a little while ago, so why the fuck aren't y'all over there?? Hello

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Tumbler app is fuckign brokened

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Karma, in its original definition, is NOT cosmic revenge.

It is simply cause-and-effect.

I feel VERY strongly about that distinction.

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Crooked people don't get punished by the universe for being evil. They get punishment if cause-and-effect, AKA the original definition of karma, allows it.

And sometimes, we can only watch in frustration as the karmic conditions they have around them, that they have played a part in building around them, inoculate them from ANY misfortune we may think levels out the dukkha they have doled out.

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Karma, in its original definition, is NOT cosmic revenge.

It is simply cause-and-effect.

I feel VERY strongly about that distinction.

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I honestly probably would've handled the incident differently where I found out the untruths being told about me behind my back and was overcome with rage, if I hadn't stopped studying Buddhism. But instead, I was afraid that it had only started to appeal to me because I was losing my mind. I talked about it when I was inpatient in the psych ward and I wanted to throw that whole thing out. Baby with the bathwater.

But oh well. Of course I did. It couldn't have NOT done that.

HOW I would've handled it differently, though, is difficult to imagine, and a waste of energy to try.

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Nothinggg in my life ever gets better man. It's always different flavors of the same shit and I end up right back where I started

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I'm voting for Charles Booker in the primary today. He's great.

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The root of suffering is desire. Capitalists have appropriated this in order to deprive you and make you the one to blame for desiring in the first place.

But sometimes suffering is noble. Sometimes it's just logical. You don't always want to gaslight yourself out of suffering. Sometimes you just. Need. Things. To be. Better.

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Making the people who derailed my life suffer as long as I continue to suffer wouldn't do anything to actually stop my suffering. It would feel less unfair, maybe, if I even could do that, but "less unfair" wouldn't make it worth it, it would still be putting more dukkha out into the world aimlessly, it would be taken out on people who have nothing to do with me.

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It's been two years since I decided I want to go to law school or work in law and no, I'm not any closer. I got a driver's license, and I have friends who swear they found a car for me to buy even though they won't tell me what it is, and are waiting for a title transfer, and that's it. Things go at an agonizingly slow pace when your jobs don't pay you enough. Money speeds things up. Getting money is like pulling teeth because it's not profitable for your bosses to pay you what you're worth.

I wanted to be a success so that nobody had to feel bad, because I know that the full scale of my suffering was an accident. I wanted these consequences to be a thing of the past by now. I wanted something good to come of it, such as being on a better path than I would have been otherwise.

But no. It can't be that simple. Not in that way. Not a simple good ending.

But I do have the simple consequences: still struggling, still forgotten, still suffering from it by myself, still going nowhere. What's simpler than staying still?

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Where the fuck is the notes count

This site is fucking broken now

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Christianity I grew up with: Spread the Good News to everyone so they can let Jesus into their hearts and save them from Hell (originally just "death," but that didn't cut the mustard). The Bible is the most important book in the world, and it has language barriers, so you'd better work hard at your missions to teach through it, to save those souls before it's too late.

Me at 13: Hmm I wonder if there's some other religion I'd be convinced of instead if I wasn't simply raised in this one and only religion I know.

Mahayana Buddhism: The Dhamma shines openly like the sun. Everyone has the Buddha nature inside them waiting to awaken, whether in this life or the next. There are some Zen masters who have awakened without the venerated texts, but with direct insight. That is the nature of the Dhamma.

Me at 23: Well I'll be damned

Everyone: You've lost your mind with this

Me at 24: You're right I've lost my mind with this

Me at 29: ...No I fucking didn't lol

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I used to be peeved by English speakers smushing words together when they type, but now I understand and relent that English is a Germanic language without a committee to keep it pure like a Romance one, which would have its own downsides, and there is no escaping the clusterfuckification.

I promise I'm really trying to be less of a nitpicking fuckface.

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I still think you're a brute if you use the adjective "everyday" to mean "every day" because the smushing of words is supposed to be for nouns, not a noun and a modifier, I still hate that such brutes have influential roles in the decisions of the Dollar Tree. I swear that's not me being a prick that is me bemoaning the elusiveness of meritocracy. But it's just that thing. That one thing. I swear.

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I deserve to own Dollar Tree, is what I'm saying.

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I used to be peeved by English speakers smushing words together when they type, but now I understand and relent that English is a Germanic language without a committee to keep it pure like a Romance one, which would have its own downsides, and there is no escaping the clusterfuckification.

I promise I'm really trying to be less of a nitpicking fuckface.

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I still think you're a brute if you use the adjective "everyday" to mean "every day" because the smushing of words is supposed to be for nouns, not a noun and a modifier, I still hate that such brutes have influential roles in the decisions of the Dollar Tree. I swear that's not me being a prick that is me bemoaning the elusiveness of meritocracy. But it's just that thing. That one thing. I swear.

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I used to be peeved by English speakers smushing words together when they type, but now I understand and relent that English is a Germanic language without a committee to keep it pure like a Romance one, which would have its own downsides, and there is no escaping the clusterfuckification.

I promise I'm really trying to be less of a nitpicking fuckface.

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Some silly little shit post

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I've seen credible accusations of antiblack racism in Tumblr moderation and it makes me glad I've pretty much moved